i survived 3 parties/BBQs this weekend, my intrepid band and I. I was SO good..but I'm kind of frustrated because since I went to mushies from liquids the scale has come to a screeching halt. I'm thinking about doing more liquids tomorrow...not complete liquids..but just to see if I can budge myself a bit.
This is weird..because it's so much easier than I thought..and yet it's hard at times. I've watched a lot of cheesecake, chocolate chip cookies, burgers, dogs, go in people's mouths over the last 3 days and I tried to focus on the fact that most of that stuff really looks better than it is. I'm a bit of a food snob and when I have a dessert that looks Mad-good and I taste it and it's only okay...well waht a fucking waste of calories. So I sized up the offerings and they didn't look like top shelf goodies. Im sure I didn't miss much.
My belly is flatter...this is soooo huge to me. I've felt like I looked pregnant for so long now...to lose some specifically in my belly is awesome. I'm thrilled.
I am starting to see how people can screw up on this...i was baffled at first because I had no hunger. Now it's 18 days later and i guess the swelling has completely gone down because the hunger is kicking in a little. I had to be strong tonight when i got home. I ate a cup of veggies and a couple sugar free popsicles. My fill isn't for about 3 weeks. I think the next 3 weeks are gonna be a bit tough. Then my fill..and hopefully it will get easier all over again.
I am trying to be SO freaking careful.
I'm just glad the scale is heading in the right direction for the first time in a looooong time.
thats all, folks.
BandedKitten
(Banded 5/12. highest 205, Surgery weight--197..current weight 181.
So I started eating mushies. and it kind of scares me. The full liquids were a bitch but I felt like I completely had control. the mushies feel dangerously close to real food. I am actually nervous about taking back some of the reins and being able to eat closer and closer to "normal"
I've been to a couple of parties and haven't eaten...just brought some iced tea with me--because they only had beer, soda and fully-caffeinated coffee. It was weird sitting there watching every one eat. But I dealt with it---it wasn't even as bad as I would imagine it would be. Even though I'm not filled yet..i feel like I can eat less. I dont get how that works...maybe it's the pouch...but I think my swelling is pretty much gone. Who knows. I swear the doctors don't even fully know how this works.
I've lost 15 lbs in 12 days---absolutely unheard of--and yet i feel greedy to go faster. Silly. This isn't a race, it's a new lifetime lifestyle. I'm just anxious to feel comfortable walking around without a coat.
It may seem I don't have much to lose but when you're 4'11.5 (don't forget that .5!) every pound shows up big time.
I'm feeling good....a little alone on the journey...but not completely. My mother in law had this done too and she's been calling me every day which is nice.
So it's Day 8 on my Merry Journey. I'm still on what my doctor calls "full liquids"
I'm really really tired on thin, pureed soups and protein shakes and crystal light. But I'm SO happy to be losing.
You know I really feel hopeful for the first time in a very very long time about losing weight...and really about life in general. I've suffered from depression over this and a couple of other things going on. For once, I feel the darkness lifting..I feel light in my life. I felt spiritual today. Grateful for this opportunity---grateful my husband has insurance that covered this. Grateful I live in a country where I can access this. Just plain grateful.
I know 6 people pretty well who have done this---4/6 have done very well. 2, not so much. But I am one determined woman and when I put my mind to something...i am like a dog with a bone.
My husband and son were out of town for the last 3 days---my husband chaperoned our son's 8th grade class trip to D.C.--in the past this would have been the green light for me to eat all kinds of crap. I didn't cheat at all. I'm so determined I tell you!
Even though I've only lost 13 lbs so far (not bad for 8 days)--I already feel lighter in my body. I can FEEL the weight coming off.
I have one more loooooong week on full liquids before I go to soft food. I will be counting the days. But I really can't complain because even though I'm fantasizing a lot about food--I know that I'm going to keep this freakign weight off this time. Sure the last 15=20lbs may be up and down. But this first 50 are going for good. Mark my words!
I can't figure out how to put my signature on my posts. I have my signature all set up with the ticker, etc. in my profile but i can't seem to attach it---even If I click on the blue circle and "enable signature" it doesn't show up. Any clues?
Thanks for "listening"! :0
BandedKitten
I thought about writing a blog for my weight loss and who knows how long it will last, but I feel the need to write about this interesting, somewhat bizarre journey. I mean I have a piece of plastic in my stomach. Now that's weird.
I am up too late as usual and I'm going to write my "real" first entry in a few hours. It's 2 am and I can't sleep. Today is one week post-op and I find that I'm all about the band. Don't want to drive my friends and family crazy--this is a place that I can talk about it till I'm blue in the face.
More later.......
