Accountability what's it mean to you? What dies it mean to me. While I have none. I try to have it but it doesn't matter I will find every excuse in the book not to do what I'm supposed to do. I want to change that so badly. I want to be successful at everything in my life. Or r least try and try harder than I am. I'm good at my job and honestly I think that about sums it up. I'm not good at much else. I'm an all or nothing kind of person. Being like that is a bad thing because you get tired of the all then I give nothing. So that's not a good way. I'm spiraling out of control and I need to do something and fast. It's like I know what to do so why is it so hard to do. I would say take it one day at a time but maybe I should take it one hour at a time just make it through an hour an then worry about the next hour. I don't know the answer I guess if I did I wouldn't be where I'm at right now.
Camping and a liquid diet do not go well together. Rheumatoid arthritis and sleeping on the ground do not go well together. But all in all the camping trip was fun. Besides the cheetos and the marshmallows. I'm over it I will exercise tonight. Already started drinking my water. We shall see what that evil scale says tomorrow.