Tax Day everyone! I'm about to run out and send my taxes off at lunch....yuck.
Menu - Bfast
Protein shake - made with skim milk, 1 scoop of vanilla protein powder (low carb), 2 strawberries, 1/4 banana, 1/4 cup of raw oatmeal - YUM YUM
Lunch
Low carb tortia, filled with roasted chicken, lettuce, tomatoe, yum.
dinner -
Roasted chicken, spinach
Exercise - 15 min treadmill/15 min elliptical
Notes - man, my stomach hurts today from all the ab exercises last night, I was killing it!
Okay, I am sure the fill is working and I don't think I will be going back.
I noticed last night when I was eating my dinner, it sure didn't take much to fill me up. Then, this morning was our office breakfast and it was my turn to pick it up. So, we all decided Steak & Shake, so I ordered me the cheese scrambler with wheat toast.
Okay, I take one bite of the eggs, and decided I would eat 1/2 slice of the wheat toast. Well, I've always been able to eat breat in the past, and plus this was toated, so no biggie right? Well..........wrong - it was long and I was running to the bathroom PBing. Wow, I actually PB'D! I'm excited that I have enough restriction now that I actually PB'd! After 15 1/2 months, I've got real restriction! Thank you thank you thank you!
I'm on cloud 9! No more bread for me! I finally have found a food that I cannot eat! Yay!
Menu today
Bfast - eggs/part of bread (whatever I didn't PB up)
Lunch
Protein shake (my stomach hurts a bit from yacking so much, I think I will keep it simple)
Dinner - we're going out tonight, so not sure, but it will be healthy
Exercise - LBWO - I didn't make it to the gym last night to do the lower Body workout, so I will do it today.
Wt - still have not weighed, but will on Monday! TOM is around the corner, so the scales might not be nice to me on Monday, but I will still weigh on Monday.
I had a busy weekend, Saturday was the special olympics that I worked. I worked the softball throw and I was running all over the place keeping up with the special needs kids. I tell you, they may have limited mental abilities, or physical abilities, but they are stars in my eyes. They had so much energy! I was exhausted by the time the day was over!
Well, my fill is now again, loose! I just don't understand it. I'm very frustrated, but I will not give up. I just don't know why I'm so different.
DH & I went out for steak Friday night,I could have eaten more, but I stopped at about 2 to 3 oz of the steak. I also had turkey last night, and decided to "test" a roll, it was small yeast roll and it went down as smooth as ever, I didn't eat any more, but I know now the PB incident was just a fluke on the toast.
I am going to call the doctor and discuss it with him. I'm not going to let this be an excuse to "eat" and I'm still hoping at about 2 or 3 weeks the fill will really kick in. It has done that in the past, so I'm going to discuss it with the doc and see what he thinks.
Menu today:
Bfast
eggs/ 1 sausage link
Lunch - salad
Dinner - roasted chicken and salad
Exercise - 15 min on treadmill - 107 calories .75 distance
Exercise PM - Lower body workout - really worked the abs & legs, then jumped on the elliptical for 10 more minutes of pure sweat!
Wt - 180.7 - grrrrrr - But TOM is here, has been since last Friday, so he will be leaving soon and I should start dropping again - at least I hope!
My new life begins with a lap band placed within
I am nervous and anxious and not sure when
When will I be at goal, when will I be thin?
I tried and tried all my life to please the scales
Yes tried to please them, ate nothing at all but to no avail
My family thinks I’m crazy, some might think I’m lazy
Just diet they say, and you’ll look amazing.
No one understands the pain and anguish of being this way
No one understands the strain it takes to breathe every day
I am thankful for my family and friends you see,
But this choice I’ve chosen is mine and for me.
So be there for me and cheer me on to the finish line
I promise you all I will get there this time!
I had a GREAT workout last night, my DH & I went to the gym and I worked my upper body out. I worked it so hard, I felt like mush when I left. But it sure felt good to be back in the gym workout out like i used to do! I'm excited to be back in the program! I can't wait for 1 month from now, because I know if I am consistant, the results will start showing.
Menu today
Bfast
1/2 cup skim milk, grapenuts cereal (about 1/2 cup)
Snack
yogurt
Lunch
tomatoe soup (this is the last of my container, thank gawd, getting tired of it, but it is good)
snack - handful of nuts
Dinner
1/2 cup of beans & ham - yum
Exercise
10:00 am - 15 min on elliptical
2:30 pm - 22 min of HIIT - burned 181 calories, and 1.71 distance
Gym - my plan is go tonight and work my lower body - the abs are screaming for crunches!
Okay - I just came from fill #10. The doc did something different, he usually takes all my fill out and then refills it. But since I've had so many fills, he just added to it. I was at 3.5 cc, he filled me .4cc, which gives me 3.9 cc's. I remember the last time I had pretty good restriction was at 3.8 cc, then he filled me to 4.0 cc's and all my troubles began.
All along, I've always thought 3.9 cc's would be the perfect spot. Well, finally after 15 months I'm at my sweet spot - or at least I think I am. Its still too early to tell. I will be on liquids all day today and possibly tomorrow, then I go on mushies for 2 days, then to regular food.
He had me eat some jello while I was there, I can still feel it in my pouch, I ate about 1/2 of the container, and I was stuffed. Now, the problem is, I'm always tighter in the am and loose in the evening, so tonight will be the real test.
Menu today
bfast - jello
Lunch - tomatoe soup - puree
Dinner - protein shake
Exercise - 3:00 pm - 15 min on elliptical machine
Bfast
1/2 cup skim milk mixed with 1/4 cup of raw oatmeal and 1/4 banana and 1 scoop of protein powder, all mixed up in the magic bullet. YUM YUM, it was delish and very filling.
Lunch
Tomatoe Soup, string cheese
Dinner
1/2 cup of beans with a little ham.
Exercise
10:00 am - 15 min on elliptical - 137 calories, 127 distance
2:30 pm - None
9:00 pm - Gym - worked upper body
Triceps
Biceps
shoulders
Back
Chest
10 min on recumbant bike
Bfast
1 cup of coffee with cream
1/2 packet of banana nut weight wise instant oatmeal
Lunch
1 cup of tomatoe soup with 1 string cheese
Dinner
Protein Drink - EAS low carb
mixed with skim milk
Exercise - 15 min elliptical - 1.22 distance, 131 calories
Okay - I just knew this was going to be the right fill. I do seem to get full quicker. However, I just don't feel it? I know, I should just be happy that I eat less.
In the past it has taken a few weeks for my fill to really kick in, so I'm hoping that will happen.
I'm very hopeful it will work, but I'm also scared this fill doesn't work. I'm running out of room for any further fills.
So, I'm not going to give up.
I had weight wise oatmeal this morning, only ate about 1/2 of it.
Lunch
Tomatoe soup
Dinner
Protein shake, maybe some smashed up beans I made too.
Exercise - 10:00 am 15 min on elliptical machine
3:00 pm - 15 min on elliptical machine
Fill #1 - 3/6/07 - 2.2cc's
Fill #2 - 4/17/07 - 3.0cc's
Fill #3 - 7/6/07 - 3.5 cc's (I think it was only 2.5cc's because when I went back for fill #4, he could only w/draw 1.8 cc's)
Fill #4 - 7/20/07 - filled me back to 3.0 ccs - He should have filled me more!
Fill #5 - 8/17/07 - 3.4cc's
Fill #6 - 10/08/07 - filled me to 3.8cc's - the restriction I've ever had,but still could eat big bites of food, so I figured I needed to be tighter.
Fill #7 - 11/21/07 filled to 4.0 cc's. By the evening could not hold anything down, not even my saliva. PBing all night - horrilble experieince
11/23/07 - Unfill - Got unfill and because of the swelling and all the PBing, doc took my fill down to 3.0cc's. NO RESTRICTION AGAIN
Fill #8 - 1/18/08 Went in and the doc filled me back up to just right under 4.0, according to Flouro, it was perfect. Well, by next morning, could not hold down saliva again, ended up back in hospital and the Doc had to take me back down to 3.0. grrrr. Now I'm back where I was in November, barely restriction again.
Fill #9 - 3.5 cc's - was tight for about a week, now feel lose again. grrrr, still have "some" restriction, just not quite enough! Next fill scheduled for 4/7/08 - I hate that it takes sooooooo long to get in to see the fill doc.
FILL #10 - 4/7/08 The doc just added .4cc's, making me at 3.9cc's. I think this might be the one!:thumbs_up:
Today I'm doing something I know I shouldn't - I'm just flying by on my menu. When you don't plan you plan to fail, as the old saying goes. I need to be careful with what I choose to eat today.
Here is my plan:
Bfast
QT coffee, iced
Snack
string cheese
Lunch
roasted chicken salad (going out to run errands and I will run by a local deli and pick this up)
Dinner - ground hamburger, small orange - weird combo I know, but I'm thinking this is what I will have
10:00 am - 15 min on elliptcial machine
3:00 pm - 15 min on elliptical machine
9:30 - LBWO at the gym
11:00 pm - be in bed and asleep - I know this probably WON'T happen, but thats my plan
My fill is next week, I'm SOOOOO ready for it!
Wt - Another day I didn't weigh! Yay!
You know, I know I can't change the past, I know I've come a long way since last year, but sometimes I am just a little disappointed - not in the band, but in myself.
It all began with my cruise last year, after I fell, and had to have surgery, along with my house flooding when we returned home, and my grandmother dying, everything went to H-E - _ _.
I ate whatever I wanted, I couldn't exercise, I was so depressed and just ate. The habits came rushing back in full swing. I'm disappointed in myself because I thought I had changed. Now I look at me 14 months post op and I haven't lost weight since - well, November I think I weighed my lowest, 167. I did so good the first 6 months, but the 2nd 6 months were pure aweful!
I know, there is nothing I can do about it now, I'm just venting. I am now determined to get 'er done! I want to reach or be pretty close to my goal by my 18 month post op anniversary.
I just had to write down my frustration and my disappointment in myself.
Now, I'm ready to kick some butt and ready to lose this weight. I think my mind is finally right!
Another important thing is to be diligent. Insurance companies often have tactics to discourage you from seeking approval for procedures. Usually, the insurance company would prefer that you pay for reconstructive procedures yourself. So if you are initially denied: appeal, appeal, appeal. By law, the steps detailing how to appeal are listed on any letter that informs you of a denial. Take advantage of the information, and be prepared to submit an appeal in writing as necessary.
Although with insurance companies, written documentation is king. But don’t be afraid to also call the insurance company to try to find out what factors led to their decision. (That’s what I did after I was initially denied, once I found out who made the decision, I called more than once and asked if my entire file was sent. After some research, I had the file sent again to the doctor who acted as the clinical director and I was later approved. )
Once documentation is received by the insurance company you'd be surprised how often file documents are separated, lost or mislaid. So if the insurance company or a specific department of the company (like the Pre-Determination department, which often makes the decision for reconstructive surgeries) says they didn’t receive the photos along with your file - then ask your surgeon’s office send them again. If they don’t have copies of letters from your other doctors, be prepared to send those again as well. Make sure you are fully prepared with any documentation they would need to make their decision, and you are better assured of approval.
NOTES - I don't really know who to give credit for, but I found it while googling on someones blog, I couldn't find a name. But It is not mine - although this person was very informative and I appreciate her cander.
April 1st, a new month, and new challenges and new goals! This month I really want to focus on my exercise. I'm making baby changes and it is starting to work.
Menu today
bfast - well, bad, bad bad - Java chiller from sonic - liquid calories.
Lunch -
2 grilled chicken tenders (came with 4, but only ate 2), green beans & turnip greens - I only ate 1/2 of each of them (We ate at Cracker Barrel)
Dinner - chicken breast and multi-grain tortilla
Snack
String cheese
Exercise - 10:00 am - 15 min on elliptical - burned 137 calories, 1.22 miles
3:00 pm - 15 min on elliptical - 138 calories, 1.23 miles
9:00 - 20 min HIIT
Wt - another day I didn't weigh - yay!
Yes, I want it now! Its so weird, some days I have good restriction, other days or weeks - I feel like I can eat an entire cow.
Friday night we go out to dinner, I did pretty good, I had humus, and steak and a little cabbage. The steak I could only eat about 2 oz , it was really good, but I got full.
Saturday - did pretty good - no exercise, but besides that, did okay
Sunday - blew it big time - ate and ate and ate, it seemed I couldn't get enougth food. grrrrrr.
One week from today is my fill appointment. I'm really tired of fills, this will be my 10TH! I'm sick of them, I'm ready to hit the sweet spot and lose this freaken weight. I'm tired of yo-yoing - I've yo-yod all my life, I'm ready to be at goal!
Today my menu:
Bfast
yogurt, granola, coffee w/cream
snack
string cheese
lunch
string cheese, shaved turkey
dinner
salad
chicken with multi-grain wrap
Exercise today:
10:00 am - 15 min elliptical
3:00 pm - 15 min elliptical
8:30 - upper body workout
after workout - 4 oz protein shake
wt - didn't weigh today -
Menu:
Bfast
4 strawberries, 4 mini chicken pieces
Lunch
Multi Grain Tortilla filled with southwestern spicey mustard, grilled chicken and spincach leaves
Snack -
string cheese, shaved turkey breast
Dinner - not sure, but I promise it will be healthy - DH & I have a date nite tonight :sleep:
Exercise - 10:00 am - 15 min on Elliptical
3:00 pm - 15 min on Elliptical
planning on 9:00 pm - 20 min HIIT
WT - 181 (a little shocked that it didn't go down more - but hey, I'll take it and I'm just focussing on eating right and making exercise a part of my new life again, I'm sure the scales will continue to move down!)
Notes - I was so tired last night, almost blew off going to the gym, but I will not let myself down again. So, I got my tired butt off the couch, and DH even went with me. I decided to do some circuit training to burn as much calories and build a little muscle as well. I actually had a good time at the gym, yes, I really did. I cant wait to go again tonight. :biggrin:
Menu
Bfast - 2 slices of bacon, 1 boiled egg
Lunch - 1/2 of multi grain tortia wrap, filled it with baked chicken, mustard and fresh spinach leaves. very filling.
Snack - Fresh strawberries
Dinner - Spinach salad with strawberries, grilled chicken, sunflower seeds, and balsmic dressing (just a little)
Exercise - am Elliptical 20 min HIIT
3:00 pm - elliptical machine 15 min
9:00 pm - Gym, did 45 min of circuit training, worked entire body out
Wt - This morning 181.4 - it is moving down, but soooo slow.
Bfast - Dannon Light & Fit carb control yogurt mixed with Live Active lowfat cottage cheese - yum
Coffee with cream - no sugar
Lunch - shaved turkey breast, string part skim cheese
Dinner - tuna, light mayo, and spinach salad (very small)
Exercise - Elliptical Machine 20 min HIIT
Arms with weights, sit ups
Wt - Didn't weight this morning. Good for me! I love it when I do not get on the scales!
I feel pretty good, I feel like I am getting my life back and that I am recommitted to my program. I know that I need a fill, and I can't wait to get it in less than 2 weeks now. This will be fill #10 for me. I sure hope its the one that takes me to my goal weight!
Bfast - lc yogurt with a handful of granola
Lunch - string cheese with 6 slices of shaved turkey breast (45 calories total for all six slices)
Snack - Fresh strawberries, sliced up, about 1/2 cup or so. Maybe 4 or 5 huge strawberries - yum. love strawberries!
Dinner - chicken breast - spinach salad
1 piece of cheesecake - yes I still have some left at my house! I will be glad when it is out of the house
Exercise - No exercise today - but I WILL do at least 5 times this week no matter what!
Wt am in bday suit - 182.7 - grrrrrr. I hate those scales!:biggrin:
My menu:
4 oz of yogurt with 2 tbls granola
lunch
4 oz of yogurt with granola
snack
1/2 green apple with 1 tbls penut butter
dinner
3 oz chicken breast
rice - about 1/2 cup
Then 1 slice of plain cheesecake - no, it wasn't sugar free
Exercise - 20 min of HIIT on the elliptical machine, burned 200 calories, 1.7 miles
All in all, I did pretty good besides the cheesecake. What happened here, let me explain myself, I had a single friend of ours over for dinner because I made too much food. (I always think about the single men since they don't have a wife at home cooking for them), anyhow, he felt obligated to bring a dessert - even though I told him not to, he still brought a cheesecake factory cheesecake. So, I felt obligated to have a slice. I should have just eaten 1/2 slice - but no, I ate the whole darned slice.
Anyhow, after eating the cheesecake, I headed to the gym and worked off 200 calories.
Scale in the am stated I weighed 183 - arggg, sucks~
I will see the number go down, I will, I will. I'm determined! I'm not giving up, I must see the 160 again, soon! I have 100 days or so left until my cruise, I refuse to go weighing what I do now. I want to look halfway decent in my bathing suit you know.
Well, I will start checking in more on my journal and updating my menu. This seems to keep me on track better.
EAting has been okay, not too bad, but not 100% perfect either. My exercise has been BAD. I am planning on making it to the gym tonight, so we'll see.
I didn't weigh, I was supposed to weigh this morning, but completly forgot. I was running late this morning to work, so just didn't think about it.
Will update later on whether I made it to the gym or not.
staying on my plan today, I have done pretty good with my eating this week, however, my exercise SUCKS.
I've had so much going on, my remodel of my house is ongoing, almost finished but not quite. My mother went into the hospital last night for pneumonia and she is being kept because her EKG showed she had a mild heart attack at some point. Then, my mother in law was also taken to the hospital for chest pains and she is having a heart cath done right now. Needless to say, with all the hospital visits, my eating has not been planned, but I've eaten very little. I feel a little more restriction now, must be stress.
Didn't weigh this morning, so not sure what the scales are going to say. I was just in a big hurry so didn't even think about the scales.
Menu today
bfast
coffee/cream
Lunch
chicken breast
Snack
sf pudding
Dinner
chicen breast/salad
Wt 180.3 - its going down!!!!! I'm drinking my water!!!!
I was in a lot of pain yesterday, and turns out a I have a bladder infection, so I need to keep drinking my water. I hate getting old, I swear, I feel like my body is falling apart. My back hurts so bad, my kneck, my knee, grrrrrr. I want to have the energy I used to have. It wears me out just to clean my house anymore. I know the more weight I lose, the better I will feel. That should motivate me to continue my journey.
Menu today
Bfast
2 boiled eggs, 2 thin bacons with mustard & mayo mixed in together. Made a bacon/egg salad. good
Mid-morning
coffee w/cream
Lunch
tuna - mustard
celery stick
Dinner
grilled
Things are smoothing out for me and I am now realizing it is going to be a real struggle to get the last 25 lbs off. So, I've got to focus on what I'm eating....I've been eating whatever the heck I want,but just in small amounts, I've been maintaining, but not losing. My knee is preventing me from serious exercise.
I see the doc today and I'm hoping he releases me to start doing some elliptical training, I need something to make me sweat, I need to burn calories.
My weight this morning was 174.4 - Keep bouncing from 170 to 174! I need to see 169 on the scales, soon! I've got to get below the 170's! I've got to push myself, I've got to stay away from the chocolates, I've got to use some will power, I'm weak, I tell you I'm weak these days. I cave in for anything! Head hunger is getting the best of me, I'm doing the mindless eating thing! I want to see a size 10! My size 12's fit just right, my 14's are way too big. I need to see a size 10!
Now, for a little motivation, we booked our 2008 vacation last week. We're headed to the Eastern Carribean on a 7 day cruise out of Florida. We go to St. Thomas, St. Marteen, Nassau Bahamas. So now I have something to look forward to. I would love to wear a bikini!
