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:thumbup:My journey with the band - On my way to the 2nd part of my life!

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5/1/08 - 59 more days!

59 more days until my cruise - yippeee.   Last month, I made a goal to really focus on my exercises, and I did. I feel like I've accomplished that. I'm making it to the gym at least 5 days per week. And I'm also doing something while at work, taking breaks and jumping on the elliptical machine in our gym at work.   I planned on doing a lot of strength training last night, but was not able to - but did do 35 min on the elliptical. Managed to burn about 450 calories yesterday between the exercise I did at work, and the elliptical I did last night.   Since its the beginning of the month - here are some things I want to focuss on -   1) my late night eating! I barely eat anything for dinner, if I even eat, but at about 11:00 pm - I'm starving! So, we will need to work on that!   2) Continue to focuss on exercise - need to really up my strength training.   3) Work on my cruise challenge (60 day challenge goals)   Wt - 178.9 - I know I said I wasn't going to weigh, but by golly, I just can't help it. Its like the scale has a magnet on it drawing me to it every morning. I was pleased to see it went down a little. I'm hoping it continues!:crying:   Menu -   Bfast 1 egg scrambler with meat & veggies topped with salsa   snack handful of asion nuts   Lunch leftover from lunch yesterday - smoked turkey and green beans   snack freshstrawberries (3 small, and about 10 grapes)   Dinner talapia - 2 oz, grilled, topped with homemade salsa and cilantro (new recipe I'm trying) and fresh steamed spinach, plan on making brown rice as well, might have a spoonful of that!   Exercise   10:00 am - just got back from 16 min on elliptical (burned 145 calories)   3:00 pm - plan on doing another 15 min of elliptical   Evening at the gym - 6:15-6:25 attending the abs, abs, abs class at the gym   6:30 - 7:00 - elliptical   9:30 - upper/lower body workout.   Are we having fun yet?
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4/18/07

Breakfast - coffee with cream   Lunch - 2 bites of cottage cheese, 1 boiled egg smashed with a little mayo   Dinner - 1/4 cup refried beans - very low on energy and drank a light Frapp from starbuchs (I need to get away from these, very addictive but so good)   Exercise - 3:30 pm - 30 min on treadmill, 4% incline, 3.2 & 3.3 mph, 249 calories, 1.61 distance   Notes - I am going to get out of the 190's, staying focussed on that. I think I have to learn to eat all over again. Up until now, I've been able to take regular bites of no problems, been able to drink big gulps of water, no problem. This has all changed! No more steak for me, at least for now.
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5/8/08

Todays plans   Menu Bfast - I had 2 slices of bacon 1/2 sausage patte - full - couldn't eat my egg   Lunch hmmm - lunch time right now, not even hungry, but will try and drink a protein shake   Dinner fish, talapia - yum   Workout Circuit training - upper body and cardio mixed. Planned on doing it last night, but didn't make it.   wt - 178.1   Tommorow is another big weight in day for me, I weighed last Friday 178.7, so hoping to at least be in the 177 area. I've been averaging 1 freaken pound a week. But hey, I will take it I guess....what choice do I have anyhow. lol.
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I DID IT!

I did it, I got up this morning at 4:45, was at the gym by 5:05 and exercised for 40 min! I'm so glad I finally got out of bed in the AM. My plans today is to exercise at 3:00 on break (do 20 min on elliptical machine) and do another 45 minutes tonight.   Exercise - AM EXERCISE - 30 min treadmill, 3.2 mph, 3.0 incline, 240 calories and 11 min Elliptical machine, 110 calories - TOTAL AM CALORIES 350   3:00 EXERCISE - Notta   9:00 PM EXERCISE - Notta
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3/12/07

My weekly weigh in (even though I step on the scales a few times during the week) 201.8. Yay, I'm getting closer and closer to 199!   Breakfast - Cleansing tea   Lunch - salad (dressing on side), grilled chicken breast   Dinner - German chocolate cake - bad I know, but my son's best friend made it for me to thank me for calling AAA (He locked his keys in his car). I felt I had to eat it, but only ate a very small piece.   Exercise - I decided I'm taking the day off - having a few pains and the time change has done a wonder on me - so tired today!   Notes - I was so tired today. The time change has really affected my mood/energy level. Will try and get into bed before midnight tonight.
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I can't walk!

I can't walk today! My ass hurts, my thighs hurt, my entire body is aching! Wednesday I decided it was time to pump up my lower body workout, so I did the dreaded squats and lunges.   Today is 48 hours later and I had to roll out of bed this morning, I was hurting so bad, then I went to sit down on the toilet, and my ass was in pain. I must have really worked it - this is the first time I have been this sore in forever. Hopefully by tomorrow, it won't be as sore. I'm due to do my LBWO again on Monday. Today is my ubwo.   I had to do cardio yesterday and I was sore, but I still did them.   I go for fill #3 today at 1:30. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, excited to get more restriction, nervous about being too tight and pbing, so I will need to learn to slow down on eating and take smaller bites, something I have not accomplished yet.
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12 days post op

Today is my 12th day post op. I am feeling really good now. There was one point I was thinking "what have I done to myself". I was not prepared for so much pain because everyone says how easy it was. Well, I guess everyone is different.   I made it to the gym last night, I didn't do much, but I did do a little exercise. I got on the treadmill for 20 min at 2.4 MPH and did .78 mile. I am starting it slow per my doctors instructions. I plan on doing 20 min all this week and hopefully next week I can move up to 30 min. I won't be able to do any weights for awhile, however, I plan on kicking some butt with cardio during the next 6 weeks.   I'm still eating very little, if any. I am having a hard time getting protein in and I am hoping once I get to regular foods it will be better. I ordered a cup of french onion soup from Paneras yesterday and that lasted me 3 meals. I just sipped on the broth and not the onions. It was a nice change from BROTH. yuck.   1 more day until I can have refried beans!!!!!!:clap2:   Well, I'm off to the gym..........
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2/26/07

Menu   Bfast - Just ate a few almonds   Lunch - 1/2 container of Taco Bueno refried beans   Dinner - 4 oz baked chicken breast with about 2 TBLP of peas   Exercise - 1.63 miles, 3.0 mph, 3.0 incline, 33 min   Notes - I was sick on Thursday and Friday, finally recovered, I had some horrible stomach bug and was in the bathroom pretty much the entire day on Thursday.   Life is a little hectic these days, work is so busy and lots going on. Trying to eat healthy, but I can tell my appetite is coming back and I'm ready for my first fill. I go to the doctor on 3/1 and I'm hoping he will okay a fill!
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My last meal

My last meal was Saturday night at La Mansion restaurant. I was extremely hungry and looking forward to a good Mexican meal. My dinner started off with a basket full of warm chips with extra salt sprinkled on them, and a bowel of salsa. I order a cup of smoked white queso to go with my basket of chips.   I studied the menu really long and hard, decided exactly what I wanted. I decided to go with the Enchilada supreme dinner. It came with 4 enchiladas, a beef, chicken, bean and cheese. I asked for a shrimp instead of the bean and paid the difference. I also got a quacomole salad with my dinner. Normally, when I eat a large mexican dinner like this, I have leftovers - but not Saturday night. I ate every bit of it and was practically licking the plate for any drippings left behind.   I came home stuffed clear up to my neck, and ended up eating an oreo cookie. I was so full but totally satisfied. I felt like I truly enjoyed my "last supper".:hungry:
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1/23/08

still waiting on the hospital to call so I can schedule my fill! Yes, this will be fill #9 I think. - UPDATE - THEY CALLED (YAY :redface:) MY FILL APPT IS 2/12 AT 8 AM!   However, I am eating oatmeal this morning and have had to slow down a bit, so I do have some restriction! I just need something for my head, something to help with my sweet tooth.   Anyhow, I'm struggling, and I have got to get control so working very very hard at it.   Menu today   Bfast low sugar oatmeal coffee/cream   Lunch chicken breast 1/2 cup of greens   I had planned to eat the above for lunch, however, went out to lunch with my sil who was in town, she wanted mexican, I only ate 3 chips & salsa, and had 1 enchilada, no rice and a bite of two of beans. Not that great, but I feel I didn't do as bad as I could have done. I tried to eat slow and stop when I was full. I left another enchilada on the plate when we left and I didn't get a to go box. I didn't want it lingering around for me to eat!   Dinner fish green beans   Snack SF jello   PS - I DID GO EXERCISE YESTERDAY!! AND WILL DO IT AGAIN TODAY!   UPDATE - 10:26AM - just got back from the gym downstairs, took a 15 min break and went and jumped on the Elliptical. Did 15 min, 1.11 miles and burned 140 calories (according to the machine, not sure how accurate they are). I am so excited, I feel like the "old" me is BACK!   UPDATE - 3:34 PM - Just got back from the gym downstaris and did another 15 min on the elliptical. 1.12 miles, burned 141 calories. Yay me!
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2 days until banding!

I can't believe I only have 2 more days until banding! 48 hours to go!   This liquid stuff is about to kill me. I'm always hungry and I want to eat damn it! I am ready for surgery so I won't be hungry any more. My DH made fried catfish last night (he makes the best in the whole world!). Gosh, I went into the kitchn and there set a huge plate of it, so I ended up taking a piece. Yes, I cheated - AGAIN.   I've got to stick to liquids today, no cheating!:help:
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12/12/07

Well lets see where do I begin. I guess I can start off with I NEED A FILL!   We had a huge ice storm, the entire state is in a state of emergency, over 900 thousand homes & business are without power, including mine.   I was off work Monday and Tuesday due to no power, and finally today they are running our office off generators, so I was forced to come in. yuk.   My home is still without power, hoping it will be back on today.   Eating has been so off. I've been staying with my mother in law and eating her cooking - and desserts. I've eaten so much and I have avoided the scales so I'm not sure how much damage I have done. I have no excuses and I think I've used the excuse (I need a fill) too many times. I do need a fill, but I also need some will power and self control, and lately, I've had neither. I cannot wait until January 18th until I can get a fill. I cannot go on like this!   I need to focus and stay on plan, I need to practice some self control and NO MORE EXCUSES!
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Next year is going to be different

No longer am I going to stress over the scales, I will take it one day at a time and learn to accept the things I cannot change.   The year 2008, Its going to be great No longer are we going to mess with our head We are going to change the person inside instead We will be happy and strong We will live healthy and long We will enjoy our new lives and silicone buddy Living any other way will only drive us nutty. So again I scream, the year 2008 Its going to be wonderful and great! I'm tired of living my life around the scales, I'm tired of obsessing with my weight. I will focus on making better choices, exercise and the rest will come. If it doesn't, I've come a long way and I can live with my weight at 167. I can deal with it, and 167 is not too far overweight. So, we'll see what next year brings.
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10/31/07 - long month, but finally going good

Its been a long Month, things in my life have been hectic, my knee surgery really put a damper on things. My house flooding was a total nightmare, and my grandmothers passing was a heartache.   As they say, Old habits are hard to break. I realized just how much I was an emotional eater. I did it before I even realized I was eating for comfort. I am trying to "think" before I eat now and it seems to be working. I'm trying to get back to the basics and follow the rules. They are easy to sway away from the longer you have the band. But let me tell you, they are rules that you need to follow for the rest of your life. At least, I need to follow them.   My knee is improving everyday. I'M OFF MY CRUTCHES officially today!!!! I'm so excited!!!! I still have my brace on, but soon, that will be leaving too! I'm still tight, and I still have to ice it down throughout the day, but I can deal with that. I am going to probably get to start out SLOWLY next week on the elliptical machine. YAY.   My house, it looks so pretty now. Still have a lot of tiny things to do, but it looks like a home again!!!! I love my new wood floors, I love my new tile in the bathroom, I love my new paint in the bedrooms and new carpet. It looks like a totally new home (its about 40 years old).   My restriction has really kicked in, I have to slow down on drinking and eating. I get full quickly, so I'm making sure I eat good healthy protein that my body needs.   I'm taking the quickslim 30 (on my 2nd day of it), so I'm anxious to see if this will help me as well. I don't feel any different taking it, I don't feel like I have a lot of energy, or don't feel like I don't. I really feel the same. I do think it could be helping me with my appetite.   I was going to "try" and stay off scales, but I couldn't do it, I ended up weighing this morning and it said 170.4. So, I'm losing!!!!!   I am hoping by Monday, I will see the 160's! OMG, I can't believe I'm going to weigh in the 160's. Thats so hard for me to comprehend. when I say it out loud, or type it out loud, it just seems so unreal to me. It makes me want to cry. My eyes are tearing up now. I just can't believe I'm no longer morbidly obese. I am no longer Severe overweight, but the charts show Overweight and getting close to the "healthy weight" range. I'm out of the Red Zone on the charts.   I never want to go back to my old self, never ever ever! I feel so much better now. I love my new me. I'm trying to look past my imprefections (stretch marks, scars, sagging skin etc) and see what my DH tells me all the time - That I'm beautiful. Thats so hard for me, I still see myself as a fat ugly person. I know others don't see me that way, I get told I'm beautiful all the time, however it is hard to have a good self image of myself when I let myself go for so long.....but this is something I am working on. I want to be happy with my body and my looks and accept the things that I cannot change.   Okay - back to work I go............
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1/08/08

I did not get up this am, however, I do have plans to exercise. I just had a rough night last night and woke up with a headache. So, I've decided to exercise today during my lunch hour. I brought my stuff to work, so there will be no excuses. Tomorrow, I will resume my 5 am routine!   Todays menu   Bfast coffee with cream/ iced coffee   snack - M2 yogurt with a handful of granola   lunch salad with salmon   dinner chicken breast, green beans   water, water and more water.   Exercise - 20 min of HIIT on recumbant bike   Wt - 179.9- grrrrrr - but, I have no one to blame but myself! Cannot wait until my fill in 10 more days!
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Exercise Update

This week has just sucked! I've not gotten my arse out of bed, I've been exercising super late at night, then not getting in bed until 12 or 1 am! I don't feel like I'm putting all my effort into my exercise this week.   I am off work Thursday and Friday, so this should get me back on track - I will get up and go exercise!   I will be taking my 8 week picture, my measurements, and my 5 month Band anniversary pics on Sunday. I'm anxious to see my results.   I am not seeing as big as results as some people I know who have done the BFL challenge, I think because I'm not eating right.   I'm eating healthy and good low fat clean food, however, I haven't been eating the 5 times a day as the BFL recommends.   After I complete this challenge, I will start another BFL challenge and my next challenge I might just focus on eating, and gaining muscle, this challange I'm focussing on losing FAT and watching the scales go down and making exercise a part of my life.   I know I won't be where I want to be in 4 weeks (the end of the challenge) - and probably won't be there in another 12 weeks. But I do think in the next year, I will be where I want to be and that is so exciting to me. I have never been this close to goal and know that I will make it this time.
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Keeping my promise

Wt today 184.6 - down .1 of a freaken pound.   Tom came yesterday which explains my headache, bloat, fatigue, and cranky attitude.   Did pretty good until last night, ate the rest of the choco chip cookies (3 of them) and now no more is allowed into the house. I threatened my family once, but slowly the junk food has crept back into our house.   Focussin on me and only me for the next 3 months.
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9/22/08

Went to Nashville this weekend, I had a great time. Ate too much and drank a little too much, but we had fun.   This morning woke up at 5am and hit the gym. I'm trying to get my groove back. I am also going to go tonight to work with weights.   Here us new plan:   Mon - 5:00 am - cardio 30 min 8:00 pm - weights and 15 min on elliptical   Tuesday - 5:00 am - cardio 35 min 9:00 pm - cardio 30 min   Wednesday - 5:00 am - cardio 40 min   Thursday - 5:00 am - cardio 30 min 8:00 pm - weights   Friday - 5:00 am - cardio - 45 min   Saturday - 3:00 pm - weights and 30 min on cardio machine   Sunday - OFF   wt - 171.9
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9/30/09

Well, i'm back at work today and recovering from my sickness. Busy busy busy.....   Still, did not make it to they gym! Nor did I get up this morning, will try and make it tonight! I have to do some grocery shopping and a big purchase at Sams tonight for a wedding I'm catering on Saturday, so working out is on my list, but not sure I will get to it. I know, I know, I need to make it a priority.   On a good note, this fill sure is feeling good! Eating a lot less, and getting full a lot quicker. I am having to slow down while eating, which is a good thing for me. So far, I think this might be the sweet spot I've been trying for over 2 years to get to. I think I might have finally found it! I sure hope it doesn't leave me. I think this could get me to goal if it stays this tight.   Menu today:   Bfast protein shake made with soy milk   lunch WW meal - ate about 1/2 of it, and threw the rest out. Couldn't finish it all   snack string cheese   dinner: grilled chicken tender spinach salad
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12/19/07

Updating my journal - I seem to be in a total fog these days and just not caring. I do care on one hand, the other I don't, because I keep eating chocolate - sugar!   Last night, I went home, I did good all day, I wasn't even hungry, and ended up eating 2 smores. grrrrrr. Then I set down and watched the Biggest Loser - I have got to get control of this sugar addiction of mine.   Okay - tomorrow - I'm starting the Atkins induction plan - this will help me with my cravings. Yes, I am going to do it. I've got to get my zeal and determination back! I'm so close to goal, but yet so far!
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13 days until banding

Yes, 13 more days and I will have a band! Yee Haw!   Thats okie talk for Yay. lol.   I went to the Psych last night, she didn't think I was crazy. I was glad to know that. I fooled her I guess. lol.   I have to go back to see her to go over my questions I answered on Monday. I have a full day on Monday with doc appts. I told her about this group here on the board I joined. She thought that was great and most people succeed with a support group.   I also paid my $600 to the doc, my deposit for my surgery. I also had my upper GI yesterday. I also submitted my paper work thru HR for short-term disability leave. (I'm trying to take off 3 weeks for the surgery)
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Something very weird is happening...........

Okay, so I get a fill on 8/6 or 5th, can't remember the exact date....My doc fills me up to 4 cc's in a 4cc band, I have to go back that same day and he takes he said a little over .2cc's out, he said I'm somewhere between 3.6 to 3.8 cc's.   Everything was going great, matter of fact, I felt like I needed a tad more. Well, not anymore! I cannot hardly eat or drink anything. It seems I get tighter at night, so weired! If its cold, I have to barely sip on my drink, for the first time EVER, I actually have to take small bits and put my fork down between bites, is this what they call RESTRICTION? I thought I had restriction before, but never like this.   The weird thing is it came on all of a sudden, Saturday night, 4 weeks after my fill, I start feeling tight and I actually PB'd on some chineese food. I NEVER EVER EVER pb. Seriously, I've only PB'd once in my entire Banded life. I'm a bit worried, and I'm a bit happy. I hope this restriciton last, and I hope its not a sign of band slippage.   I will keep documenting how it goes, man, I love this feeling of NEVER HUNGRY, and actually having to slow down to eat.:thumbup:
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3/6/07 update

I haven't posted my menu lately, just too busy to even get online. My husband is doing a cleanse, so I decided I would do it with him. So I started it yesterday, is completely liquids, no food.   I have my first fill today, I'm so excited. My doctor requires liquids for 5 days after a fill, so I thought it would be a good time to do my cleanse. I'm hoping to lose a little weight with the cleanse too!   I will post later about my fill experience.   I did make it to the gym 5 times last week! I am happy with that. Still working on getting up in the AM and so far, just can't do it.
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Fill History - Fill #13

Fill #1 - 3/6/07 - 2.2cc's   Fill #2 - 4/17/07 - 3.0cc's   Fill #3 - 7/6/07 - 3.5 cc's (I think it was only 2.5cc's because when I went back for fill #4, he could only w/draw 1.8 cc's)   Fill #4 - 7/20/07 - filled me back to 3.0 ccs - He should have filled me more!   Fill #5 - 8/17/07 - 3.4cc's   Fill #6 - 10/08/07 - filled me to 3.8cc's - the best restriction I've ever had,but still could eat big bites of food, so I figured I needed to be tighter.   Fill #7 - 11/21/07 filled to 4.0 cc's. By the evening could not hold anything down, not even my saliva. PBing all night - horrilble experieince   UNFILL #1 - 11/23/07 - unfilled to somewhere between 2.5 to 3.0 cc's - NO RESTRICTIONS AGAIN :cry_smile:   Fill #8 - 1/18/08 Went in and the doc filled me back up to just right under 4.0, according to Flouro, it was perfect. Well, by next morning, could not hold down saliva again, ended up back in hospital   UNFILL #2 - 1/19/08 - Doctor had to unfill me to 3.0 again because of the swelling from all the PBing for being too tight. Again, NO RESTRICTION - :thumbup:   Fill #9 - 2/12/08 - 3.5 cc's - was tight for about a week, now feel lose again. grrrr, still have "some" restriction, just not quite enough! Next fill scheduled for 4/7/08 - I hate that it takes sooooooo long to get in to see the fill doc.   FILL #10 - 4/7/08 The doc just added .4cc's, making me at 3.9cc's. I think this might be the one!   FILL #11 - Was scheduled on 6/25/08 - but the doc did not fill me up, I was leaving for a cruise on 6/27 so he didn't want to risk me being too tight, so did not get a fill.   FILL #11 - 8/5/08 Went for a fill, this time the doc took all my fill out and all he could get out was 2.4 cc's. Filled me up to 4.0 cc's, I left, had to go right back because I could not drink, he took out a little over .2 cc's, he said I'm somewhere between 3.5 to 3.7 cc's. - I had great restriction for 2 weeks, but It has now loosened some. I feel I might need a tad more. I'm worried I have a very slow leak.   UNFILL #3 - 8/5/08 - Took a little over .2 cc's out, had pretty good restriction, but still a tad too lose.   FILL #12 - 9/17/08 - Added just 1/10th of a cc - I think I'm somewhere between 3.8 to 3.9 cc in a 4cc band. I am hoping and praying this is the fill that I stop with! I do not have another appointment for another fill, will wait this one out and see. Fill #13 - 10/06/08 - Doc added about 2/10's of a cc. He took everything out and put it all back in and said I was about 3.7 to 3.8cc's. - which is where he said I was last time.
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