I had a great workout last night on the elliptical machine, burned 340 calories! I'm building my strength back up and was able to do over 30 min on it last night. I'm trying to get back to 45 min. Slowly but surely!
I have 61 days until my cruise. Here is a challenge to myself -
1) For the next 60 days I will do a minimum of 45 min of cardio 5 days a week. This means I can go down during break and do 15 min on each break = 30 min, and in the evening I will do some at the gym!
2) For the next 60 days I will do strength training a minimum of 3 days a week.
3) For the next 60 days, I will work out 6 days per week!
4) For the next 60 days I will NOT have any chocolate. None!
5) For the next 60 days I will work my abs out 3x per week. I plan on attending the abs abs abs class at the gym. Oh yeah.
6) For the next 60 days I will lose a minimum of 15 lbs, my goal is 20, but will shoot for 15 for sure.
7) For the next 60 days I will focus on my diet - making healthy choices - no cheating.
8) For the next 60 days, I will tan - (already started this)
9) For the next 60 days its all about me!
10) For the next 60 days, I will get out of bed and do some sort of exercise before I get ready for work - even if its just stretching.
Yes, just 61 days and I will be sailing out in the ocean! Heading for St. Thomas, St. Marten and Bahamas - I'm so ready for this. I just hope I do better than my cruise last year (when I fell and had to have surgery :w00t:)
Okay - I owe, I owe, I owe, so off to work I go..............
Wow, just 28 more looooong days before I am banded.
My eating has been okay, last night we went out to eat, and it was kinda weired. Usually I can eat the entire plate and am licking the the juices off the plate, but I only ate about 1/2 of it. My DH said, "your not eating much", and I said, "I'm full". I think he about fell out of his chair. lol. I don't know if I have ever stopped eating when I was full.
Ever since that I found out I was approved for the band. I've tried to eat the banster way, not always succeeding, but it is on my mind, take small bites, eat slow, and chew chew chew. Proteins first then veggies. So, even without the band, I'm making some changes.
I have taken this surgery very serious and not looking at it as a quick fix, but as a tool. I am going to have to do my part in order to lose this weight.
The last few days, exercise has been zippo. I didn't go last night because my mother came over and she lives out of town, so I couldn't just leave her and run to work out. So my DH & I took my mother out for a nice dinner. My mother & I were a bit depressed so DH thought dinner out would be good (what a sweet guy I have :kiss2: ).
My Grandmother (who I love like no other) is slowly dying and it is really depressing for my mother & I. My Gma had a very bad stroke April 9, 2004 so because she was crippled, my mother could not take care of her anylonger. She needed 24/7 care and my mom could not lift my grandmother due to my mothers own health problems. So, since I am power of attorney over my Gma, I placed her in a nursing home. My mother & I visit her almost daily and have since she was placed there. But lately, her eating has gone down to about 25% of her food. Hospice informed us yesterday this is the first stages of death. I know my grandmother is in pain and I hate seeing her suffer daily, its just hard knowing that this woman I loved more than anythig in the entire world is about to leave me. And my mom is a big moma's baby too, and she always cared for my gma thru the years, so its hard on my mom too. Anyhow, its just a tough time for my mother & I to endure but I know it has to happen and I know in the long run, death will be so much better for my Grandmother than living like she is. I know she WOULD NOT want to live like this and she has told me that many of times that she never wants to dwindle away in a nursing home, which is exactly what she is doing. I wish I could change it, but I can't.
Anyhow, just expressing my emotions today.
Exercise - 35 min on treadmill (244 calories, 1.77 miles, 3.2 mph, 3.0 incline) - evening exercise.
Eating -
Pretty much still doing the Master Cleanse, I did have about 7 bites of a salad (dressing on the side) and I was full. I'm drinking my cleanse mix up as I type.
I'm probably going to go off of the cleanse next week, I have a wedding to attend on Saturday, so I'm hoping to look extra sexy. I'll also see an ex boyfriend at the wedding (its his nephew that is getting married), and this ex dumped me, so I wanna look as good as possible!
No gym for the past few days, my knee is swollen and hot, so I'm back to icing it down. grrrrrr. I'm sick of my knee problems!
Eating was great last week, this week not so good. Eating too much salt! Had Mexican yesterday and couldn't finish it all, but still, not good and high fat.
So, trying to stay focussed today and back to the grind!
I go next Tueday for another fill, hoping to get it right this time.
Weight - 201 :clap2:
Breakfast - early early cleansing tea/then had some yogurt & cottage cheese mixed
Lunch - 2 chicken strips (grilled)
Dinner - 1 cup of salad with 1 grilled chicken strip
Exercise - Well, no gym, but worked my butt off around the house and yard! I call that exercise - back is killing me
Notes - I ate more than usual today, but noticed hungrier today. I think the band is tighter some days, today, not as tight. I got several compliments at work today, telling me how good I'm looking (no one knows I had WLS).
Crazy weekend, busy weekend and did not that great at eating. I had a tea party on Saturday, and ate all the bad stuff.
No exercise at the gym, but was quite active all weekend.
Today's menu
bfast - weight wise oatmeal with 1/3 of a banana chopped up in it
Lunch
1 cup of tossed salad
snack
4 pretzles
dinner -
Exercise - 10:00 am - 15 min on elliptical
3:00pm - 15 min on elliptical
Wt - 182.8 - grrrrrr
Breakfast - SF yogurt with granola mixed in
Lunch - 1/2 of hamburger patty, 5 or 6 french fries
Snack - string cheese about 6 almonds
Dinner - Cleansing tea
Exercise - 25 min on treadmill (178 calories, 1.28 miles, 4.0 incline, varried from 3.1 to 3.2 mph. Then, did a 30 min salsa aerobic class (FUN!) Not sure how many calories, but I was sweaten'!
Breakfast - Tea, a handfull of almonds - about 7
Lunch - Went out to eat with an old friend - thai b-b-que, had 2 tiny spring rolls, 2 pieces of grilled shrimp, bite or 2 of rice, and 1 roasted chicken thigh (ate way too much, a little nauscious - Oh, by the way, my friend said I looked wonderful!)
Dinner - Went out with friends about 7 hours after my lunch, was not hungry, but ate one of my daughters chicken strip (they were breaded - but only ate one) I was full.
Exercise - treadmill 50 min - 381 calories, 2.60 distance, 3.5% incline, speed varried from 3.1 to 3.3.
Notes - Feeling really bloated today, feet a bit swollen, I think its getting close to TOM. Due around the 18th I think, but I'm so irregular, you never know when it will come and visit.
Went to Seminar on 11/11/06
Attended support meeting 11/13/06
Met wtih Doctor on 11/22/06 (weighed in at 247.7)
Was approved from insurance on 12/11/06 (2 1/2 weeks)
Scheduled surgery on 12/12/06 to be on 1/18/07 (my choice to wait unitl January)
1/4/07 - Deposit needs to be paid to doctors office for surgery
1/4/07 - Upper GI at 9:30 am - Must fast before
1/4/07 - Begin liquid diet - Protein shakes, broth, jello (sf).
1/4/07 - Psych Eval 5:30 pm
1/8/07 - 8:30 am pre-op with Hospital (3 hr appt)
1/8/07 - 2:00 pm Surgery Education class Docs office
1/8/07 - 3:00 Dietician meeting (hospital)
1/8/07 - 4:30 pm pre-surgery consultation with doc
1/9/07 - 11:30 am Sleep study appointment with doctor.
1/9/07 - 9:30 pm, Sleep study test (91st & Yale, Sleep Centers)
1/12/07 - Docs office to call me and let me know what time surgery will be on the 18th.
1/18/07 - SURGERY (no time yet)
Okay - time to get focussed and get this challenge finished. I've been over at the BFL tracker website, looking all the before and after pics of the 12 week progress photos, WOW is all I can say.
Its got me pumped to finish the 12 week challenge and start another one! I finish in July, and I leave for vacation August 4th, so I probably won't start the next challenge until I get back. I will just continue to exercise in between the challenges.
I called the doc today to schedule another fill, I'm waiting on the hospital to call me back so we can get it scheduled. I'm hoping I can get in sometime in December since I've met all my deductibles, and I would have no out of pocket expense. But, that is wishful thinking I think. But we'll see.
Today's menu:
Bfast
coffee/cream
had 1/2 sausage roll - shouldn't have eaten this!
Lunch
2 baked chicken tenders
brocolli
Late afternoon snack
1/2 small apple with 1 TBLS peanut butter
Dinner
crockpot chicken - low cal, low fat!
salad - 1/2 cup
Supplements - Quickslim30, flinstone viatimin
OMG, I'm freaking out....I feel like my entire life is about to change. OMG OMG OMG.
Okay, Tonya, take a deep breath, breathe in, breathe out....okay, better now.
I just got a call from the docs office to officially schedule the surgery. I chose 1/18, so I'm scheduled for surgery on 1/18.
I have to have a Psych Eval on 1/2, I get an upper GI on 1/4, I have to pay my deposit on 1/4 for the surgery, I meet with the diatician on 1/8 at 2:00, I also have to have my pre-op consultation on 1/8 at 4:30. Everything is moving fast, I'm so nervous and excited at the same time. Its a weird feeling. I can't believe I am actually going to do this. I'm actually going to have surgery. I hope I am not making a huge mistake. I hope I can do this, I've been so pro-band for so long, now that it is actually here, I'm freaking out!
Okay, calm down, It will be okay, I can do this, yes I can.
Well, I went to Nashville, had a great time! The trip down there was HELL - first our rental car was screwed up so we ended up taking our car.
We are cruisng along and finally after we hit Little Rock, Arkansas, we come to a 15 mile backed up trafic at a complete stop! We are there for about an hour and haven't moved, we turn around and get off at another exit and "try" and get on another highway, again, 10 miles backed up and a complete stop, after an hour of waiting, we turn around again and trying to find a way past the trafic. We stop at a little store and there was two EMSA drivers there, evidently there was horrible wreck involving two Semi's and a mini van, the wreck left all three in the van dead, so sad. They told us the roads were now closed and would be for about another 6 to 8 hours because the trucks spilled stuff all over the road and they had to haul sand in. But they were nice enough to take us through some back roads and get us past the mess. It took about 3 hours, but we finally made it thru little Rock. Our 9 hour trip took 13 hours!
Once we got to Nashville, we had a great time! We attended the benefit concert on Friday and they raised lots of money for Perry Braggs who is in need of a kydney transplant. Then we had another on Saturday night which was so great. As we are coming back to the motel Saturday night, my DH notices the car is hot, turns out, our water pump went out. So now, we are in Nashville on a Saturday night and no way to get home. On Sunday we call every mechanic and none were available (we both are supposed to be back at work on Monday). Well, my DH gets ride (from a very nice employee of the hotel) to the local parts store, he buys the water pump, and lots of tools. He and a good friend worked on the car with a limited amount of tools and finally completed it around 6:30 on Saturday night.
We went and had dinner and saw our friend off on his 9:30 flight back to Georgia.
We headed back to Tulsa, a 9 hour drive around 10 pm. We made it until 3:40 am and then got a motel in Little Rock. I had to call my boss and let her know there was no way we would make it back to Tulsa by monday morning (it was already 3:40 am). So, we finally made it home around 5 pm on Monday.
I started a local support group in Tulsa, and Monday was to be the first meeting, I was worried I wasn't going to make it. But I had just enough time to freshen up and get to the meeting by 6:00 pm.
There were 4 people who turned up, but I think it will grow over time. I told them all about this forum and how much it has helped me.
Now, as far as exercise goes, I ended up missing 2 workout sessions, so I will have to make them up in the next two weeks by working out on Sundays as well, so the next two weeks - I will be 7 days a week. I refuse to miss a workout! I refuse to do it! I will finish this challenge, I will!
I'm excited, I'm now 1/2 way to the finish line! The scale is move so darn slow, It showed 183.6 this morning, I'm sure the wine I drank in Nashville, plus all the eating out didn't help. So I'm not too worried about it. I hope tomorrow the scale will start going downward.
Well, thats whats been going on with me....................
Well, today marks the beginning of my 8th week of the BFL challenge. I can't believe that I am starting my 8th week! I have never made it this far in the challenge, I always quit around the 3rd week, one time I made it close to the 6th week (but missed workouts here and there).
I have made up the workouts that I missed while we went out of town, I only have 1 more cardio to make up - I am starting to see some improvements in my cellulite area on the back of my thighs - I still have plenty of it, but I can see a difference.
I weighed this morning 178.2 - I am down 70 lbs now! I'm sure the weight loss will slow down. Whats weird is, it goes so slow for a few weeks, then all of a sudden, I drop 5 lbs. So, it lifts my spirits. I cannot believe it when I step on the scales and see 170's. I have to step on the scales 5 or 6 times, I leave come back to the scales and step on them again. It's just amazing how good I feel.
Okay - eating has not been that great, so that could be the reason I'm losing fast the last week too. I have been a little stressed over my 16 year old son, he has gotten himself in a little trouble, he is a good kid, makes straight A's, wins all kinds of awards at school. However, he went out and got drunk with some of his friends for the first time, we found out about it so we have taken all his priveledges away from him. No cell phone, no car, no movies, no nothing. Its scary to think he was driving! It stresses me out to think "what if", he could have killed himself or someone else. I am totally against drinking and driving and it is not worth it. Plus, he is only 16! I told him no matter how drunk he is, he needs to call me, we will pick him up and discuss it the next day. He swears he just wanted to try it, and won't do it again, but my DH & I are worried because alchoholism runs in my DH family. June 6th was 27 years that my DH has been sober - his dad was sober for 25 years before he died, his grandmother died of alchoholism, so its nothing we take lightly. So, my eating has been minimal lately. I am going to focus this week on eating better, getting more protein in.
Okay, off to work I go..........busy week!
Today I tried and focussed on making good choices in my eating. I made a pan of baked chicken to eat on today and tomorrow.
I also made a big green salad. yum.
I can tell my hunger is back, but I am NOT going to gain any weight. I'm going to focus on eating right and try and lose or maintain until I get my fill back to some restriction.
I did weigh this morning and the scales showed I was up to 172, however, I am not worried about it because I just got out of the hospital. I know they put bags and bags of fluid in me, so I'm sure I'm retaining water.
Anyhow, I'm thankful that I am back to feeling normal again, no more throwing up. I am still a tad bit nauseous after I eat for some reason, but not too bad.
Menu today
Bfast - just some iced coffee
Lunch - cottage cheese, smashed up chicken tender
Dinner - smashed chicken tender and boiled egg
Supplements - Quickslim 30, flinstone viatimin
Well, I decided to step on the scales this morning since its been a week since I weighed and it showed me up 1 lb. I was a little upset, but I figure I was on liquids for so long and finally started mushy foods, maybe my body is just getting used to food now. Not sure why I'm up, but I won't let it get me down.
I feel really good & energetic today. The Ccap machine is doing wonders for my energy. Last night was the first night I was able to sleep with it all night. Usually I wake up because I open my mouth and then it dries my mouth out and I wake up choking. I finally went back to the sleep center and they gave me a chin strap. Well, that still wasn't working, but last night I figured out how to put the chin strap on where it would keep my mouth closed during the evening and I slept so good. I finally woke up around 4:30 am because my nose piece came off and the air was blowing on my cheek. But I get up at 5 am anyhow, so I pretty much slept with it all night.
My menu today looks like the following:
Bfast - 8 oz protein shake
lunch - 1/2 cup cottage cheese
dinner - 1/2 cup of cream of broccoli soup
And my goal is to get 64 oz of water in, do 30 min on treadmill.
I'm going strong with my 5:00 am exercise routine.
Oh how I wanted to NOT get up this morning, matter of fact, I told myself when the alarm went off that I would go ahead and take today "off". I was trying to talk myself out of getting up. As I lay there, trying to go back to sleep, I realized, I was awake and could not go back to sleep.
I drug myself out of bed, jumped into my exercise clothes and headed to the gym. I did 35 min on the elliptical machine. The only bad thing is my knee is burning burning burning. I can feel it grind with each downstroke on the elliptical, not good. I may be over doing it a bit. I've been hitting the gym both 5 am and 8 pm.
I did not weight this morning, I'm trying to hold of until either Friday or Monday. I am hoping the next time I weigh I am in the 160's.
I was soooo hungry this morning too, so I call IHOP and ordered an egg white omlet, I picked it up on my way to work, it was good, but I could only eat about 1/3 of it. Saving the rest for bfast tomorrow.
I'm off to work...........
I'm sitting here in tears, I can't believe it, the Lap Band really works! I weighed this morning and I weighed 189.6 - I tried for 6 years to get below the 190's doing Low Carb, and I couldn't do it. I have the Lap Band for 3 1/2 months and I've done it! I've broken out of the 190's! I'm so happy and so excited, and I have no more fears of failing!
I have not been in the 180's since 1997 or longer.
I am down 60 lbs now, I weighed in the morning at (drum roll please.........) 188.6!
I was having so much problems trying to lose weight in the 190's, and now that I broke the plateau, its falling off. I've lost 4 lbs since Monday! I'm eating and exercising just like before. I'm not complaining, I'll take it, I just find it strange! Heck, I might be out of the 180's sooner than I think.
Wt today 171.4, moved a little down from the other day, but still up from last Monday I think.
I do think I have lost inches, I feel skinier.
Menu today:
Bfast -
Liquid calories again - I really need to work on this
(small white vanilla bean mocha expresso with whipping cream)
Lunch
salsbury steak - 1/2 of one (140 calories)
Brocolli with low fat cheese (50 calories)
Dinner
salsbury steak again - 280 calories
salad - 100 calories
Exercise
Recumbant bike (am) - 10 min
Recumbant bike (3:00) - 15 min
Elliptical (3:00) - 5 min
I'm in Miami, Florida on business and just eating all the wrong stuff, I'm so mad at myself! I need to gain control! I do not want to step on the scales when I get home because I know that I've gained.
I MUST get back to the gym when I get home - I don't want to see the 170's again, but I have a feeling I'm back into the 170's. grrrrr. Its my own fault! I need to slap myself and gain control.
I made it 1/2 day thru the fast yesterday - I did good until last night. We had our book study, it was "goody night", and I caved. I ended up eating cookies, meatballs, chips, dip. You name it, I ate it.
Okay, so today is back to the fast!
Wt - 170.7
50 more days to reach my "mini goal" of 155. That means I need to lose 2.2 lbs per week in order to get to that goal by 1/18/07.
Just to type 150's is almost unbelievable to me. I haven't weighed in the 150's in 20+ years. I would be soooo happy to get to 159! I'm ready NEVER to see the 170's again. I'm ready to be done with the 160's, I'm ready to move to the wonderful 150's! I was at 167 last month, but I bounced back up to the 170's for some reason, I think a lot has to do with the amount of water I'm holding because of my hospital stay, I'm hoping my fast will "flush" it out!
Thats what I keep telling myself. I call myself a skinny bitch because, all these beautiful women that walk by, I always whisper to my friends, "skinny bitch". lol. Its a way of vent out my jealousy. I really want to trip them when they walk by eating an ice cream bar and wearing a size 3 jean.
Anyhow, last night I kept telling myself yes, I'm going to be a skinny bitch too! and I can't wait.
I know a lot of people have surgery for health reasons, and thats what I'm telling my husband. But deep down, I want to be skinny, I want to be that skinny bitch that walks by in the mall and the fat girls say "look at that skinny bitch". I know that sounds weird, but thats how I feel. I want someone to call my skinny, just once.
I know that its a little vain, but I just can't help it. I want my skinny body back damn it! I know that the other health issues I have will go away with me losing weight, but really, I don't even care. The only thing I care about is getting my 20 yr old body back at 40! It sucks being 40 and looking 40, I want to be 40 and look 20. Maybe its a mid-life crises, hell, maybe I'm just crazy and a freak, but I don't care, I want my skinny body back. Some say it can't be done, I'm 40 and face it, but I will prove them wrong!
I took my before pic in a bikini, it is SCARY. You can see all the cottage cheese on my thighs, its really gross. But...........I plan on taking my after picture in a bikini too!
Woke up this moring full of energy, and loving life. Stepped on the scale and holy moly, down 2 more pounds, YES, I love life! Weighed in at 172!!!! Only 3 more pounds until I reach the 160's! I haven't been there in freaken YEARS!
Menu yesterday was pretty low, but doing a cleanse to help jump start the weightloss again before the cruise.
Todays menu a little more to eat than yesterday:
Bfast
Bfast burrito from Taco Bueno, except hold the flour tortia, they just put the insides in a bowl for me of the borrito. So good. Only ate 1/2.
Lunch
Cleanse drink
Dinner
Not sure, its our night to go out to eat, will share something with my DH I'm sure.
Exercise
Circuit training and working my Lower Body.
I am getting called skinny minny today. I'm in my size 12 shorts, that are a little baggy, and I have my shirt tucked in and no belly fat hanging over. lol. I can't believe I have my shirt tucked in!
Have you ever wore an outfit that just made you feel good? Something that you wear and you know you just look good in it, you feel good in it? Well, I was cleaning my closet out and ran accross a skirt I wore in college. Its just a simple blue jean skirt, very Pencil like skirt, its long, past my knees with a very tiny waist.
Anyhow, I pulled it out and looked at the size, it was a size 12 - well, I'm wearing a size 10/12 now so I decided to try it on. OMG, way too tight, could not even zip it. I decided this skirt is my goal, once I can fit into this skirt, I know I will have made it. I thought back to wearing this skirt and how good I felt, I want that back!
Its amazing how the sizes has changed. This skirt is about 23 years old, its in great shape, looks new. But, my point is 23 years ago, a size 12 is now a size 8. I was looking at how tiny the waist was, how slim it was made compared to my size 12 now - big difference!
So, I took the skirt out, hung it on my bedroom door so I can look at it every morning before I leave. Its a reminder to me to be good, exercise and make good choices. Doing this will help me fit into that skirt!
I have a long way to go before I can fit into it, I couldn't even zip it, barely got it over my thighs, but I know I will get there.
I went down to the gym at work and tried the elliptical machine - lots of pain in my knees, only was able to do it for 5 min. I think this afternoon I will get on the bike and do it for 15 to 20 min. Every bit of exercise will help! I just wish this knee would heal - I hate it!
52 days until my 1 year band Anniversary and I have 16.1 lbs to lose in order to reach my docs goal weight of 155. I really wanted to reach this by my 1 year, not sure if I will, but I'm going to aim for it! So, according to fitday, I have to lose 2.17 lbs per week in order to reach this.
