Okay, this last fill I've had is really playing some tricks on me. First I was perfect, then I was too lose, and now I'm extremely tight.
grrrrr.............
I am staying on liquids for a few days and see if that can calm my irritation down. I couldn't eat anything last night and went to bed and was up all night with acid reflux. My throat is so sore from caughing.
I am going to give it a few days because I've had this happen before, it sometimes takes a few weeks for my band fill to really settle in. But if it doesn't loosen up a bit, I might have to go in for an unfill. I can't live on liquids alone. Sucks because the fill was great - perfect, then got a little too lose. I'm so frustrated with trying to get to the sweet spot.
Another thing I might have to do is finally start taking small bites. You know, I've never had to do that, I've always eaten regular. Maybe I need to actually learn how to eat "The Bandster" way. I'm going to pull out my little rules and make sure I'm following them before I get an unfill. I think I might be taking too big of bites.
I bought two new books that I can't wait to read, one is from Khaliah Ali - she talks about her wonderful experience with the band.
I also bought Dr. Duc C Vuong book, he's on this forum alot and I thing his book is more for people who have already had the band vs the people who are trying to get it. Which I like that, seems like most of the books on the market focus on explaining what the band is and how it works. I want to read a book that talks about the long term success with the band etc.
One thing I have really never thought about is the PROTEIN FIRST rule. Well, I always try and eat it first, but if we go to a restraunt and my salad comes, I eat it first, Dr. Vuong says you have to for go that, I need to work on that.
Anyhow, life is a struggle right now, my alergies are causing all kinds of drainage, which could be the reason my band is so tight, who knows. I will just play it out for a few days and see what happens.
Menu:
Bfast
4 strawberries, 4 mini chicken pieces
Lunch
Multi Grain Tortilla filled with southwestern spicey mustard, grilled chicken and spincach leaves
Snack -
string cheese, shaved turkey breast
Dinner - not sure, but I promise it will be healthy - DH & I have a date nite tonight :sleep:
Exercise - 10:00 am - 15 min on Elliptical
3:00 pm - 15 min on Elliptical
planning on 9:00 pm - 20 min HIIT
WT - 181 (a little shocked that it didn't go down more - but hey, I'll take it and I'm just focussing on eating right and making exercise a part of my new life again, I'm sure the scales will continue to move down!)
Notes - I was so tired last night, almost blew off going to the gym, but I will not let myself down again. So, I got my tired butt off the couch, and DH even went with me. I decided to do some circuit training to burn as much calories and build a little muscle as well. I actually had a good time at the gym, yes, I really did. I cant wait to go again tonight. :biggrin:
Scales are movimg down again! Yay!
I have eaten clean all week, now if I could just make it to the gym, I would be a lot better!
We're going out to eat tonight, and I've already decided what I'm going to eat, so I can be good and eat clean. Its hard too when your going to go eat Mexican. I have decided I will eat 5 chips and salsa, and order the chicken fahitas - which I will split with my hubby or daughter. And I'll get double beans. No flour tortias.
wt - 169.1
I Keep telling myself, okay, today I'm going to be back on track! Then, I do good, then fall off the wagon.
I weighed this morning and I am up to 185 lbs! I weighed at one time 167! I am so disgusted with myself. I feel like the biggest PIG! I keep waiting on that "restriction" and it isn't happening. I get some, then lose it, or I get too tight. I'm so mad at myself that I screwed up, I used to have pretty good restriction at 3.8, but then tried to get tighter, and well, now I'm still trying to get that restriciton back! Sucks.
I am using it as an excuse to eat what I want, when I want etc. Well, it was a major wake up call. I feel bad to keep typing in my journal how - I'm going to start and how good I'm going to do, then I don't. I keep breaking promises to myself. I have to be true to myself so I've got to take control - for good.
It seems I do good for a week, then blow it for 2 weeks. Its a vicious cycle. The weight is creaping back on and I must stop it now! I must! I must!
I was in tears this morning, but I am not going to "feel sorry" for myself, or beat myself up anymore. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. No more sweets, no more sugar! No more!
Its time to pull my head out of the sand and quit doing the self destruction like I've done with every diet in the past. I am hoping to get my restriction back at my next fill - 4/7/08, but until then, I need to focus, really focus. I need to THINK before I eat, I need to plan my meals! I must exercise! I don't want to be a Band Failure, I want to be a success!
Okay - my life will change. I will report my weight everyday on here. Good or bad, I'm also going to report my menu - good or bad!
Wt 184.7
Exercise -
Menu
Protein shake - chocolate Whey protein, with added coffee
Coffee with cream - no sugar
Lunch - Roasted chicken, few bites of green beans and some corn
Snack - 1/2 container of strawberry no sugar yogurt with a little grape nuts added in it.
Dinner - Roast, few carrots
29 more days until my banding!!!!
I did not make it the gym last night. My daughter had a concert at school, so by the time that got over with, I just didn't have the energy. So, I must get there tonight.
Eating was off yesterday, didn't do that bad, but didn't do that great either. However, I knew I was going to eat what I want, and try and make wise choices, so I am not feeling guilty.
Anyhow, I'm back on track today!!!!
Today I tried and focussed on making good choices in my eating. I made a pan of baked chicken to eat on today and tomorrow.
I also made a big green salad. yum.
I can tell my hunger is back, but I am NOT going to gain any weight. I'm going to focus on eating right and try and lose or maintain until I get my fill back to some restriction.
I did weigh this morning and the scales showed I was up to 172, however, I am not worried about it because I just got out of the hospital. I know they put bags and bags of fluid in me, so I'm sure I'm retaining water.
Anyhow, I'm thankful that I am back to feeling normal again, no more throwing up. I am still a tad bit nauseous after I eat for some reason, but not too bad.
Menu today
Bfast - just some iced coffee
Lunch - cottage cheese, smashed up chicken tender
Dinner - smashed chicken tender and boiled egg
Supplements - Quickslim 30, flinstone viatimin
I went to my WW meeting last night and didn't lose anything. The good news, I didn't gain anything either. I went over my points for the week and I did bad for three days in a row. So I was pleasantly surprised that I didn't gain anything, and so happy about it too.
This week is going to be better! I'm already down a bit according to my scales.
This week, I'm focussing on exercise! Oh - its on this week! I'm going to kick some butt in the exercise department! Oh yes, next week, I can't wait to step on the scales because I'm going to see a 2 lb loss. Thats right, 2 lbs! Me and the scale, we are going head to head and I'm going to win! Its on baby!
Wt - my scales, naked in the am 164.9
WW scales - fully clothed in the afternoon - 167.6
OMG - we are down to 1 week! I'm so excited!
I have to be really strict from today going forward! No cheating what so ever. Sunday, I have to begin my clear liquids, not fun.
Yay, I'm going to be skinny!
The Woman in the Mirror
Walking past the mirrored glass, I take a timid peak.
I see a woman staring back, I am to choked up to speak.
The puffiness, at last is gone, the skin pink and glowing.
The many pounds that melted off, Finally, now is showing.
Hard to believe until recently, the same woman was dying.
Stuffing the food to ease the pain, Heartbroken and crying.
Life revolved around each snack,She lived for every meal.
Anything to numb the hurt, She did not want to feel.
When did she get so pretty? When did God remove this grief?
How did this miricle happen? Who provided this relief?
What a gift!! A second chance!! I thank god everyday.
For his grace in showing me, there is a better way.
I walk, I dance, I make love too, my heart is filled with gladness.
I am out of bondage, I am out of pain, there is no more room for sadness.
This woman in the mirror, Smiles softly back at me.
She has good cause to be pleased, She has finally been set free!!!
Well, didn't make it to the gym over the weekend, but I did get plenty of exercise working the special olympics.....I was so tired - but I had a great time.
Back on the plan today
Menu
Bfast - the inside of a sausage roll - no break
Lunch
1 bag of cashews - 1/2 container of yogurt (yes I know, eating on the run)
Dinner
2 oz of roast
salad - 1 cup
Exercise - 10 am - 15 min on Elliptical
Evening exercise - upper body workout - 30 min on elliptical
Wt - didn't weigh today
I just found out my sleep testing came back that I do have sleep apnea. :pray2: I have to go back tonight for another test with the oxygen so they can determine what machine to give me/or how much oxygen I need. She told me that they monitor the occurances of someone sleeping and if there is more than 5, that person needs to be treated. Anything over 30 is considered severe. My average occurances was 11, so I was considered to be mild/moderate.
Anyhow, they will hook me up on a machine and I won't know the test results of this test until Monday. I was concerned that this would delay my surgery, but she said it would not. :clap2:
Today makes my official 5 months since having surgery.
I'm down 70 lbs (I will take my measurements tonight and post them)
It's also the end of 8 weeks of the BFL challenge and starting the 9th week (only 4 more weeks to finsih the challenge).
I'm at a stand still right now. I didn't lose this week - but didn't eat right either.
My results below
Beginning Weight = 248
1 mo post op - 206.8
2 mo post op - 198
3 mo post op - 193
4 mo post op - 184.2
5 mo post op - 178.0
Total pounds lost to date 70:whoo:
I had a great workout last night on the elliptical machine, burned 340 calories! I'm building my strength back up and was able to do over 30 min on it last night. I'm trying to get back to 45 min. Slowly but surely!
I have 61 days until my cruise. Here is a challenge to myself -
1) For the next 60 days I will do a minimum of 45 min of cardio 5 days a week. This means I can go down during break and do 15 min on each break = 30 min, and in the evening I will do some at the gym!
2) For the next 60 days I will do strength training a minimum of 3 days a week.
3) For the next 60 days, I will work out 6 days per week!
4) For the next 60 days I will NOT have any chocolate. None!
5) For the next 60 days I will work my abs out 3x per week. I plan on attending the abs abs abs class at the gym. Oh yeah.
6) For the next 60 days I will lose a minimum of 15 lbs, my goal is 20, but will shoot for 15 for sure.
7) For the next 60 days I will focus on my diet - making healthy choices - no cheating.
8) For the next 60 days, I will tan - (already started this)
9) For the next 60 days its all about me!
10) For the next 60 days, I will get out of bed and do some sort of exercise before I get ready for work - even if its just stretching.
Yes, just 61 days and I will be sailing out in the ocean! Heading for St. Thomas, St. Marten and Bahamas - I'm so ready for this. I just hope I do better than my cruise last year (when I fell and had to have surgery :w00t:)
Okay - I owe, I owe, I owe, so off to work I go..............
Menu
Bfast - Just ate a few almonds
Lunch - 1/2 container of Taco Bueno refried beans
Dinner - 4 oz baked chicken breast with about 2 TBLP of peas
Exercise - 1.63 miles, 3.0 mph, 3.0 incline, 33 min
Notes - I was sick on Thursday and Friday, finally recovered, I had some horrible stomach bug and was in the bathroom pretty much the entire day on Thursday.
Life is a little hectic these days, work is so busy and lots going on. Trying to eat healthy, but I can tell my appetite is coming back and I'm ready for my first fill. I go to the doctor on 3/1 and I'm hoping he will okay a fill!
Wt today 184.6 - down .1 of a freaken pound.
Tom came yesterday which explains my headache, bloat, fatigue, and cranky attitude.
Did pretty good until last night, ate the rest of the choco chip cookies (3 of them) and now no more is allowed into the house. I threatened my family once, but slowly the junk food has crept back into our house.
Focussin on me and only me for the next 3 months.
I had my doctor consultation and he answered all my questions. I told him that I wanted a low-profile port and he said he would have to order it but could do it. Once the insurance approves my surgery, then they will order the port.
My case worker told me I should hear something by the end of December. I'm so excited. I should have my surgery sometime in January.
I called the doc today to schedule another fill, I'm waiting on the hospital to call me back so we can get it scheduled. I'm hoping I can get in sometime in December since I've met all my deductibles, and I would have no out of pocket expense. But, that is wishful thinking I think. But we'll see.
Today's menu:
Bfast
coffee/cream
had 1/2 sausage roll - shouldn't have eaten this!
Lunch
2 baked chicken tenders
brocolli
Late afternoon snack
1/2 small apple with 1 TBLS peanut butter
Dinner
crockpot chicken - low cal, low fat!
salad - 1/2 cup
Supplements - Quickslim30, flinstone viatimin
Well, I am doing pretty good now on the WW plan. I think the band and the ww plan go hand in hand. I am eating bandster size portions pretty much and eating healthy food. Going to the WW meetings is keeping me accountable. Its something that I need right now, and Its working for me.
I did lose 3.6 lbs according to the ww scales. Now, I do weigh with clothes on at the WW meeting, but at home, I weigh naked and first thing in the morning, so I'm always lower at home than at the meetings.
But according to the WW scales on Monday night, I weighed 172. I'm still up .4 lbs since joining WW. However, this week is the turning point! I can tell I'm starting to shrink and by my scales this morning, I've lost another 2 lbs! Yay.
I did go exercise last night, and I go to the doc tomorrow and hopefully I will get released to get back to exercising. I just got on the elliptical machine last night and took it easy for about 35 min. I'm ready to strength train and really work out hard, but I have been holding off until my 6 week post op check up. I don't want to cause any problems, and I've talked to too many woman who have had the hysterectomy who tell me to LISTEN to the doc, so I'm following their advice.
Anyhow, I'm doing good with the WW plan and so far enjoying it and hopeing it helps me lose the last 20 freaken pounds!
Wt this morning 167.5
Exercise - plan on hitting the gym for another 30 to 40 minutes tonight:thumbup:
My band has settled down quite a bit now. I stayed on liquids/mushy foods all day yesterday, didn't eat past 6pm and exercised last night, I had NO ACID REFLUX. I got to sleep a full 7 hours!!!! I woke up feeling great!
I still am a bit tight, but not too tight at all, this might be perfect.....we'll see if it continues to get looser.
Now, I just need to keep my exercising up - not to get side tracked - and continue watching my portion sizes.
Menu today - Doing Master Cleanse before I start the BFL diet/exercise challenge next week.
Exercise - 5 am - 34 min on treadmill, 3% incline, 3.3 mph, 238 calories, 1.76 distance.
Notes - i have my 2nd fill tomorrow, a little nervous about it. I have no problems right now, no PBing, no sliming, I can eat pretty much anything and everything, but don't eat more than 1 cup of food.
Wt this morning read 196.6:phanvan TOM is here, so I'm sure that is why. Not really too worried about it. Wednesday is my 3 mos banding anniversary, I will take my measurements, take a progression photo. I will also take a photo for my "before" pic for the 12 week BFL challenge that I am going to begin on Monday 4/23/07.
I have been sick since Saturday and so I haven't worked out since Friday. I am feeling better today so I will go to the gym tonight!
My menu
Bfast - coffee w/cream, handful of nuts
Lunch
low carb tortilla, 3 oz of chicken, no skin, 2 tbs salsa, 1 oz cheese. 1/2 cup cilantro - (chicken taco - yum) (320 cal)
snack - sugar free low cal chocolate pudding (60 cal)
Dinner
1/2 pork chop, salsa, low carb tortilla (330 cal)
Workout
Upper body - biceps, triceps, shoulders, back, chest
45 min on elliptical machine
Watched the Biggest Loser last night, I love that show! Anyhow, it always motivates me to get my butt to the gym. I've been sick, so I didn't make it this morning. I will try and go down at lunch and do a little something.
My lasik is tomorrow and I'm excited!
Oh, I started a flkr account for my pictures, I still have a lot to upload but I did get it started. My link is http://www.flickr.com/photos/tonyaslife/
I might share the link with my family, and they don't know I had the lapband so I am just calling my experience "a Diet".
Eating was good yesterday, I think my sweet tooth is leaving me, or I'm just sick of eating sweets because I didn't crave them at all!
2 more days until my fill! I cannot wait, I'm just hoping it works!
Bfast - Cottage Cheese & strawberries
Lunch - 2.7 oz container of pink salmon with (dry) with 4 whole wheat crackers
Dinner - 4 or 5 oz of baked chicken breast with shredded cheese on top
Snack - 1 part skim string cheese and a handful of popcorn
Water - 48 oz
Supplements - Viactiv multi vitamin
Exercise - 20 min HIIT on elliptical (pm exercise)
Notes - Scale is up, but that is okay, I feel smaller, my DH commented last night how much skinnier I am looking. A lady from work also commented yesterday at how much weight I am still losing. I know the scale is not a measure of my success. I am happy with my progress and I know the scale will start moving again. I'm trying to focus on doing cardio morning & night and I am going to ask my doctor tomorrow if I can start weight training. I'm ready to kick some major butt and get into shape! I want to have some maximum results by this summer! I want to be down another 30 lbs or more by vacation time (cruise in August).
Wt 183.2
At least it is going down! Back hurts today, still bloated and cranky and just feel like poo poo.
Did good last night, made baked fish and it was really good. Having it again for lunch today, I served it over wilted spinach leaves. yum.
Need to up my water intake!
