UGGGGG< I'm so Pissed off at my self, I feel Pathetic, I should be happy, right I'm 10 pounds away from having lost 100 but you know what i feel, fat, ugly, and any other hurtful words we tell are self's.
I have stopped losing weight,
I go to the Gym 5 days a week. I have gone down to 1200 calories a day (or try too,) and nothing is working now, I'm fed up with this.
I need to lose another 90 pounds to blow my family away when i see them in July, I feel like I'm failing them.
everyone says i look so good but there just saying it to make me feel good, it doesn't it make me feel Awkward, like I'm obliging to tell them something and and and I'm not strong to say no to some candy,
why why do I feel like shite when I should be so proud that Ive dune so good.
Hello Ya'll
Well I'm new to this site and I found it cuz I was looking for a support group in my locale area, I have been with out one since i got the Lap Band last March, 6 . I went down to Mexico to get it and I have to say I love my Dr. Dr Kuri is one of the best Dr I have ever meet and thats saying a lot from me who works with dr a lot.
I got this dune Because I have been heavy all my life and I didnt want to keep sitting in the shadows of my friends who where smaller then me. Both my Grandmother (who had her tummy stapled as one of the first Stomach surgery) and my Mother (who had the gastric sleave) supported me and helped me , even when others didnt.
I love having them both there when I freak out over something or just get fed up with not loosing as fast as I want too.
But I wanted to talk to someone my own age, and thats why I'm here to read whats going on with everyone els and see how we are the same and not.
So now you have the Basic Info on me I have some good news
Last night I went out with My Grandparents to one of there friends Christmas partys, I was nice but my Band is supper small right now , so I didnt know if I cud have anything as somedays I can eat a lot and others I cant keep anything down. But I went fine. I even had chocolate for the first time in a month (a very painful month if you get the hint) all was great! But it gets better I wanted to go hang out at the bar and see if anyone would hit on me (they didnt the bar sucked and I left after only one drink) but I when into freadmyers ( up scaled walmart here in WA) and was looking at some really cute clothing, All of it fit! I was so shacked cuz hafe of it was a 1x and I have never in all my memories eve been in a 1x, so a got some clothing even though I know in a few months it will not fit anymore I didnt care, I looked and felt soo good. I was even jumping up and down in the changing room =)
even if no one hit on me last night it was still a very good one!
*sigh*
O the Season is here for over eatting even for us who are banded,
Today and Yesterday we got droped off a Crap ton of Chacolate and Though I dont eat a lot of it, they had my Very favorit Kind! * O NO!*
So when i thought I was 20 pounds away from having lost 100 ...lets just say I'm fearful to go on the scales.
What is it about food and being happy? Anfd where the hell did my will power go to?
anyone got some tips for not diving head first into the Blissful season of over eating?