This morning when I woke up it isaid I was 199.8. I know there is no way I lost a pound in two days. But I appreciate it trying to cheer me on like that.
Today the gym was 45 minutes on the eliptical, next Monday is weights with the trainer. Ouuu I dislike weights soooo much. I hate my arms hurting, I admit it, I would rather stay on the elipitical all day then hit the weights but I know it is a second part of my loosing weight and becoming healthier.
So the nurse said it is possible my calories are too low and my body is going into starvation mode. I listed off what I have been having and approximate calories in each and she told me to make myself a nice chicken salad tomorrow ith some fresh onion, chicken and mayo. She wants me to try to get better foods in my system with more calories and see how I do. Obviously she doesn't want me to jump in and have a Big Mac or anything. LOL
I go in on Thursday of next week for my first post op visit. I am excited and I know this little snafu of gaining is just that a snafu. I am allowed to complain about it though. LOL
Today was an okay day. Didn't get out walking like I wanted but will start in on a regular schedule soon. I need to just figure out what works best for me.
Well, time to reset all the songs in my IPod and get new ear buds. I try to zone away from the stuff going on around me in the gym and just sweat my hiney off. I also try not to sing at the top of my lungs.
Much love to all who read and those who don't!
I have come to decide that the scale is evil. So I did a test, depending on where I step on the scaled depends on my weight. Well that is a freaking PIA. So today I weighed myself in at...
207, 207, 207, 207 211, 211, 210.5, 210.5, 209.5, 207.5, 211, 211, 211, 211 LOL you get the idea.
I think it might be time to get a new scale and start the weight in process from a NEW scale that has a consistant weight. (Insert eye roll here)
I made Bison Chili, in 1/2 cup of Bison there is 23grams of protein. So that is good for me. So I ate that, and chewed it pretty well. I think the beans only added another gram of protein or something. Not sure on the calories, but little to no sodium.
Anyway, I guess that is it, I should get going. Much love to all who read and all who don't. Continue success on your journey.
I cut the string exactly to what I was prior and now it is two inches down. I should do after photos today and see what if I can see the differance. Have a great day!
Today was a rough day, I was at church all day. So I grabbed a shake in the morning and 6oz of tea. Then I headed to church with a bottle of water. I went down stairs to the social hour and they ended up not having their normal fair, just snacks. They did have cheese so I took two pieces of cheese.
The trouble came when I went to my mothers and she had veggies and dip, then mozzerella sticks and junk. I took the breading off and ate just the cheese and I had some veggies. Probably not the best idea, as now I am gassy. I did stay away from all the breaded stuffy and potatoes. My hubby brought me a protein shake though, thanks to him for that.
I came home and had my Bison Chili all pureed. I was starving. It was so hard not to eat everything. With out restriction I am always hungry. So it is a battle.
Seeing as my scale is whacky and is never consistent, my lowest weight was 205.5 today, my highest was 208.5.
Feeling okay, just tired. Everyone said I looked nice today, that felt good.
After I hit Onederland, after a bout of the stomach virus, I gained some of it back. I am going to the Doctors again to see if I have lost anymore. None of the scales are consistant so I am over figuring out my weight. I know I am exercising and I am dropping sizes, so I am not going to worry about the number anymore. Everyone says I look so much more tone.
I did weights today, I do it twice a week because I really do hate weights, I should do it more often but I am there five days a week doing cardio/weight loss so I figure what I am doing is good enough. Still too afraid to take Zumba. All the girls at the YMCA around here are thin and I hate to be the only floppy fat girl in class. It just makes me feel like poop and I don't want to feel like poop. I KNOW it is ME not them. I will get over it, will take time.
Today I pumped up my work out and was never so glad to get home and shower, boy did I feel gross. A good kind of gross, not bad. Now I have gotten my shower in and food in my belly, 20oz of water and I am feeling pretty good. I have a doctors appointment in an hour and will see what their scale says, I am sure I will need another fill. I can still eat pretty good amounts, however, I don't want to go too low because I want to get all my protein.
Will talk to him about the hair loss also.
Tomorrow is two weeks out, I am so excited to be two weeks out, one more week of mushy foods. Go me!
My scale this morning said 205.5 but I will not consider that my weight until I am at it for a while.
I am sitting here watching my husband play with his CPap machine and I am thankful that I might get real sleep sooner or later.
Besides that, things are good. I actually don't have much to talk about.
I see the doctor on Thursday and though the weight loss I have had is not drastic it is weight loss. I think part of that is becaue I am hungry and I haven't started exercising yet. I am supposed to be on mushy foods but I am just chewing the crud out of most foods and blending up things like my Chili. Which is more like a pile of meat because I make it super thick.
4oz of my chili is about 23 grams of protein, I even have it as a snack. LOL
I have paperwork to do and such for school and regular crap around the house. I am 205 on the scale today, I am hoping by thanksgiving to be down to Onederland. Time to hit the gym
My son came down with the stomach virus on Thursday. I was doing fine until last night. Luckily most of it is the rear end but I did vomit once. I can not imagine vomitting more than once, I am now sore where the band is. It kind of sucks. I am still able to drink so I don't think it is too swollen or slipped. I just want to say, it sucks. I was going to go to the gym today, but obviously that was out of the question. My daughter and father (whom is disabled and I take care of) are also sick. My daughter vomitted a few times and now she is feeling great. I am still sore though and my belly still doesn't feel right. UGH
Doctor had emergancy surgery so my appointment ended up really late.
I lost ten pound since surgery which they said is awesome.
I am doing well, they are proud of me and one of the girls didn't recognize me. I said, "I didn't loose that much weight yet.
She reminded me that since October 21, 1010 I have lost 19lbs and I should be proud.
I am now on a regular diet and will get my first fill on December 2, 2010.
Last time I posted was on Thursday of last week, talking about seeing my Doctor. Some back story for those who don't know I got a single incision procedure done to my belly button. Well, on Thursday my doctor cleaned it and said everything looked great. Well Friday my belly buttonw as tender, I assumed it was from cleaning until Saturday morning I had a red streak going down my belly button. It was hot to the touch so off to the ER I went.
To my doctors credit, he came in on his day off to see me at the hospital. He reopened the incision (yes I was awake for this and he just used local anethisia on the site) and I held my belly button open as he cut away. He then packed it and said if it didn't start looking better that I had to go back in for surgery. That he wanted me to go back to the ER on Sunday to get the bandage changed again. So Sunday I went and he came in again to do the job. Then on Monday I saw him, I feel like I should have a frequent flyer card or something.
Besides the double antibiotics I am on and feeling nauseous from that, I feel really good. Besides the fact that I am starving and have been wanting comfort foods. Last night I made Home made Pizza for the kids and noodles. Not protein enriched foods huh? I forgave myself and I am still loosing weight somehow even though I am not portioning my foods by the cup fulls. I am eating every two to three hours. I hate starving but I am still loosing weight. I get to go to the gym and walk on the treadmill at least.
So a bump in my road! I will survive and I am glad it is a small bump.
No let me state I do not love ALL things Easter Candy. I do not love Jelly Beans or Marshmellow chicks, what I doooo LOOOOOVVVEEEE is Hollow chocolate. As I sit her and write this I realize I made a very misguided or, perhaps just miscalculated decision, I bought a Hollow Chocolate Easter Bunny. NOw this bunny purchase is not going to put a million pounds back on me, but as the bunny stares at me Mockingly it puts me at a risk of possibly over indulging. Now I promised myself I would be okay to have a little of.... I told myself it would be okay to have a bite of his ear..... Essentially it is but my question is, what is the risk of me devouring the entire bunny in one sitting. Though essentially not the end of the lap band procedure but not the best choice in the world.
The thing that I thought today, and this is faulty food thinking at it's finest is.... "If I eat it all, at least it will be gone and I will not have to worry about eating it later." So in other words I would only have guilt one day and not two. Yah that is a benefit some how? Seriously, why do we put ourselves in situations that test us so early on. Just having had surgery, not even a full 6 months out quite yet, another week, there are a lot of foods that still are foods that make me weak. My comfort foods, Pizza, Chocolate, Chips and Cheese, etc.... I have to know to be smart about these choices and so far, the last few months I have fallen into old habits.
I am stating here in this blog, after Easter, I am making drastic changes. I am also looking into healthier non meat protein sources. My husband will hate me but I do not care, it is about me being authentic and true to me. I really have to make some better choices and I was, but now I have to get back on the bandwagon. Darn you CHOCOLATE EASTER BUNNY FOR MOCKING ME and for making me realize I need some better foods in my house.
Especially the liquid portion of the diet. It is important to share what it is I am taking in, if I can stomach it and so that others might find comfort in foods that are good or bad. That they can try as alternative proteins.
First is Myoplex Lite, 20g of protein in 11oz of fluid, drinking 3 of theses is half of my fluid intake. It is okay but gets monotonous. It isn't gritty or too thick so goes down well. I try to drink this three times a day but that might not happen today. Need to switch it out.
Wonder Slim (Bariatricchoice.com) Strawberry shake, can also be made into pudding, I believe it is 15 grams of protein, so that is good. It takes like Nestle strawberry mix. A tiny bit gritty so maybe next time I need colder water and to let it sit a bit.
Bariwise HotCocoa with Marshmallows (Bariatricchoice.com) This doesn't taste exactly like hot cocoa, but it fills the sweet void and covers for something different to drink. I believe it is 10-15 grams of protein. Well with in the sugar and calorie allowance for drinks. YAH
I have more drinks to taste, I have also been cooking up chicken bullion or similar items, soup broth and eating that. 5 grams of protein and just a different flavor. Nice and easy to go down.
Right now I am craving salty things so trying to behave and not cheat. Last night I did suck on a piece of cheese from the Pizza my son got. I spit out the cheese and did not even put the crust in my mouth. Just for the flavor. I was satisfied with that.
I know the liquid diet is to heal the stomach but I know I can get some mushy foods in there. LOL
I haven't been to the gym in over a year. Going to the gym a year ago is what prompted me to look into the lap bad because I was putting on muscle but the fat was sticking around, no matter how well I ate and how much I exercised. So today I got to the gym and reminded myself I couldn't start where I left off. So I went on the Treadmill and it killed my knees and hips but I pushed through the discomfort. I wasn't in PAIN I just felt loose everywhere. I did 20 minutes on the weight loss setting. My legs were wobbly and then I had to walk back and forth to my car twice because I forgot my daughters coat. LOL She loved playing with the other kids and wants to go back tomorrow so she will be my motivation to go to the gym so she can play with the kids. Very thankful for them watching the little ones which will let Alexanderia get much needed interaction with other children.
I am thankful to be holding steady with weight and not putting on weight despite the fact that I have no restriction and no exercise.
Onward, my wound seems to be healing pretty fast now.
Well, today is officially day five.
I slept too flat last night and now my chest is killing me, it is taking forever to burp out the pain. I miss sleeping on my belly. I miss that sooo much. If I tried that now I would scream and cry.
So I have been drinking a 160z bottle of water daily and most of the rest that I drink is protein rich.
Yesterday was Myoflex, wonderslim chocolate shake with a banana, Wonderslim Gran Grabe cold drink, broth, milk, and, well something else I can't remember. Oh and I licked a chocolate covered cherry. I bought them for my Dad and they are a favorite. I don't tend to over indulge in such things even before banding, but I wanted a taste of the chocolate and cherry. It is a almost a holiday tradition in my house.
Well, I am off, I am going to go to the grocery store today by myself. Still can't get my stupid pants on because of the bloat and sensitivity. Will try something else today. Good news is the weight is starting to finally show on the scale.
I check myself every am before I eat or drink. That is the only way to have a accurate fortelling, is to check the same time and place every day. Do I need the scale to prove weight loss, normally no, but right now because I am still bloated, yes, it is reminding me that my body is changing.
Day 6: It is starting off slowly....
First day home alone with the two and a half year old princess of a daughter.
Last night I didn't sleep well and went to bed way to late. I tried to elevate myself a lot more to prevent the pain in my chest from gas when I wake up. This morning was much better, just minus the waking up due to lack of comfort. What made me very upset is waking up to the sound of ice and snow pelting the window. Why? You may ask.
My son had to bring his project to school today. So this meant I knew I had to drive him. This also meant I had to wake up the 2 and a half year old princess. Which I did, to her dismay. I had to carry her 28lb body down to the car and get her into the car seat that was in the middle of the back seat. Oh so not easy, but I feel okay and not like I pulled anything. Mind you I had to carry her back into the house. She doesn't have snow boots yet and would not have been able to walk.
That being said, I made my own spreadsheet for tracking purpose. I like the one that the doctor gave me but I wanted to make my own that was more all inclusive, this way I can be sure to not only track fluid and protein, but have a place to check off my vitamin supplements so that I remember.
I am feeling okay, down 5lbs since surgery. So one week, 5lbs, that is what my doctor said I should be doing. AND I cheated, I sucked out the center of a chocolate covered cherry. Ouuu, and I have been eating mushy carrots with mushed chicken. IN fact to day I am going to buy some chicken and make my own chicken soup for the mushy phase fast approacing.
Much love to all.
Weight loss has slowed way down, I have also not made it to the gym. After the stomach virus and other ailments, then being super busy. UGH.... The good news is weight loss is still weight loss. I have been, unfortunately putting weight on and then taking it off. LOL
The good news is I am now in a size 16, I haven't been there in nearly 8-10 years.
I know what I need to do and I will get back on track. I haven't been drinking my fluids and I have NOT been exercising like I should. I have a lot of self motivation I have to rebuild up. Things happen and I always try to say that it isn't my fault, but me not going to the gym is totally my fault. I am doing four classes a semester with college and I am making excuses why I can't get to the gym. Then I sit on the computer and talk to people. LOL SO whose fault is it that I am not at the gym? MINE
So getting off here now to get myself motivated again. I have to drink more, (I am now onto herbal teas for variety and make it a goal to drink water first thing in the morning, afternoon and evening before meals) and not snack. I would love to feel full all the time but I get so gassy since this surgery about 2-3 hours after I eat that I have to put something else in my stomach. I think I just need to start putting an antacid in there. LOL
Hope you are all doing well.
This journey is a roller coaster but I am still enjoying the ride. I will get to the end, for now I just have to hang on.
Celeste
PS The hair loss is also depressing me, I have a nearly bald spot, most people say they do not notice it but it is a glaring shiney head. I can see it and I don't like it.
Every day I step on the scale my son comes to see my results. Well today I am 210.5 and he is soooo excited for me. He is jumping around going woohoo. IT's OUR birthday he said. I laughed. He keeps me inspired I tell you.
So today I am going to have to go out again. My son is with me so he is going to help with Alexanderia. He gets his B-day off. Will let you all know how my day goes.
So today brought about a new challenge.... The running around like a chicken with my head cut off challenge and being able to slowly introduce mushy foods challenge.
So I headed out of the house at 10ish with my son. I stopped at GNC because I wanted to try to find the IsoPure drinks. I showered and grabbed myself my protein drink and a bottle of water. I forced down the shake like I have never forced a shake before. LOL I got the drink and a Jello supplement that was high in Protein, no sugar and low in whatever else had to be low. (Exhaustion is currently my middle name.) So we then went to Game Stop and then Chucky Cheese. We were there three hours. I forgot to buy myself a water so I got a few sips of Alexanderias 100% apple juice box, just a few sips and they kids had Pizza. I had 5 small bites, which I chewed to the point of liquid mush in my mouth. I was fading fast. Left there and stopped and got the kids McDonalds and stopped to visit my mother. At which point I drank the IsoPure 40grams of protein drink. I now officially had 60 grams of protein in my. Good job Celeste, but I was still super hungry.
We got in the car and I promised my son we could go to Bertuccis for his Birthday dinner. The bread came out and I took two small pieces of the inside and dunked them in the oil, chewed them until they disolved in my mouth. I had ordered my usual (because I figure I can puree it) Balsmic Chicken with Green Beans (Double order, I LOVE veggies). I took less then pea size pieces of chicken and chewed and chewed and chewed and chewed and well I chewed longer then I have ever chewed before. Again, being sure it was puree consistency before I swallowed. No fluids either, I was good about that. I mean, I don't carry a blencer with me so I had to do something.
When I got home I was ultimately proud of myself for making good choices and that were fairly healthy. The Pizza there was no other choice other then salad and that is a no no. So all in all, I made my mouth the blender. I DO NOT think I got enough fluids and I have honestly been feeling fatiqued all day. I keep feeling big blood sugar drops and it sucks.
So lessons learned....
1. Do NOT forget your water
2. Carry protein something on you
3. If going with the kids somewhere and they are getting Pizza be sure NOT to be hungry. he he
4. Don't forget to take time to feed yourself, no matter how small the amount, something to help keep up your energy. You need a constant energy source, not just a quick burst of energy like with Carbs. So protein needs to be spaced through out the day better.
Even with the protein spaced out pretty well, I am still feeling pretty tired, no matter how much I sleep. This is a concern I am going to call the doctor about if it continues.
Off to take my vitamins. Rest well my friends.
Yesterday was a horrible day food wise, read the blog. I didn't spread out my proteins at all. I put on a half a pound. I am really still exhausted today and trying to get my protein down.
Seeing as I can have mushy foods I think I am going to make eggs today. These protein shakes are taking a lot out of me.
I am having horrible fatique episodes and feel kind of dizzy most of the day. I am trying to put proteins in every 2 to 3 hours, in fact I watch the clock. I am sad that I put on that half a pound. I think it was just lack of fluids yesterday. I hardly peed, so back to the drawing board.
Pump my fluids up and keep with my protein shakes and some little mushy things. Thinking of you all going through this with me. I am just HATING this dizzy feeling for the last two days.:scared2:
I had my first fill, it was a little weird, but okay otherwise. Made me gassy. I am now trying to get down a protein shake.
SO anyone who is following knows how aggrevated I was with the infection and delay in going to the gym.
Well I took out my frustration on gym equipment for the last week. Last Thursday I was 207.8 and today I was 203.8. Four pounds in a week from living on the eliptical machine four days a week. I LOVE YOU ELIPTICAL EVEN IF MY MUSCLES hurt.
Monday I have training on the weights. So things are looking up for me, finally.
So my goal of being under 200lbs for my birthday looks much more attainable.
SOOOOO My updates are not fantabulous but some new things have come about.
I now have a strange lump on my neck by my skull, hoping it is a cyst of some sort.
Every time I eat I get severe sharp pains on my left side under my ribs and I am concerned.
Besides that.... GUESS WHAT>>>
I am thinner than I was six months ago and hoping to keep going.
Celeste
Short and sweet, and no one thought I could do that!
Hey there fellow nuts. I ended up helping a friend at her holistic fair today, in order to prep, I hate a shake in the morning and bought an Isopure to keep my protein up. I didn't get home until 5:30 and got some of my chili and chewed it well. Probably not enough but I did my best, seeing as I was starving. I must make a note that eating when super hungry should not be done.
I am glad to keep fluids up though. So that was good.
Oh and about this TMI topick Bowels? Mine are still not working right. I need to take something. Nearly 11 days post op you would think things would be moving right. UGH, I think if I could use the bathroom I might loose 3 pounds!
