I never in a million years would have guessed I would be recovering from lap band surgery. I guess a million is slightly dramatic, but I really thought I finally had my weight under control. Last year, in the spring and winter of 2009 I had just run three marathons. Last summer I was 120. What happened? How did I get to 192 from December to August? As long as I can remember my weight has fluctuated drastically since I was a child. I always had to watch what I ate. The lap band is giving me the opportunity to stay at a steady weight and beat the odds of my family history. I love to exercise and I have always been active. I also have taught nutrition classes and exercise classes. However, I love junk food. Cookies, candies, cakes, McDonalds, etc. I am trying to establish new healthy eating habits. I just feel I don't know if I am off to a good start with the band. I haven't lost that much weight. I feel old patterns still are present. Even though I am not eating that much food. Is it possible to still be cheating? I am confused. :wub: