I got on the scale this morning.....119.5! I have lingered in the 220's for almost 5 years now, so I thought a special goodbye was in order.........
Goodbye cruel 220's. You started as a burst to 222 one day 5 years ago, when I discovered the Picato Burrito at my favorite Tex Mex place. I tried to beat you back down to the teens, but you would have nothing of it. Instead, you let me hover from 225-228 for years. I joined a gym, you laughed, I started Weight Watchers, you showed me the new pizza place around the corner. You actually let me sneak to 118 once when I was on Jenny Craig, but 2 weeks later you lured me back in. Your grip only loosened last year when you allowed me to venture into the 230's...you guys must be friends. It's been a long, bumpy (and lumpy) ride 220's, but good riddance. I am stronger than you now. I will never see you or the bad habits and bad choices I need to be in you again! Now on to the battle of the teens!
Thank you my glorious God for the strength you have given me!!!
I can't believe it has been 7 months already! It feels like an entire life time ago that I went under the knife and got the band. I had a rough patch from November to mid February...I only lost 10 pounds. So here is what the old me would have done - give up, knowing that I will never get to my "goal" and decide that I look OK at that weight...then eventually gain everything back. Here's what the new me did - got tired of the scale eaking slowly down, changed my menu (I had been eating a lot of the same stuff every day, not bad stuff, just all the same) got back to the gym with a workout buddy (I had been blowing off my workouts, she makes me accountable!) and BAM...5 pounds gone in 2 weeks! It feels great to be back on track!
My kids never said anything about my weight to me, even as I am loosing. They do say things like "Before you had surgery, you never did anything with us" and my favorite from my son "Why do you always look so nice?". I do do more things with my kids because I love to be out and alive, not hidden in my house. I can move; simple acts like getting in and out of the car are no longer an issue for me! And I do dress nice every day! No more huge t-shirts and whatever ugly pair of Capris fit me best and flip flops. Clothes fit me and look good on me for the first time in years, even shoes fit me better. I let my hair stylist update my very 80's hair cut; I now have short hair! Something I would never have done 7 months ago. My husband says he loves having his hot wife back.
I can't begin to describe all of the changes I have been through. I still have issues to work through, but they are not nearly as overwhelming as they were 7 months ago. I have slowly chipped away at my bad habits and have replaced them with good ones. I am close to my original goal and may lower it when I get there, and that doesn't freak me out..
Life is good!
October was not a good month for me. A lot of stressfull things happened and I returned to some bad habits with out even realizing it. I only lost 2 pounds, so I scheduled another fill and it snapped me back on track! I need to dig deep and figure out why it was so easy for me to not take better care of myself. Another step in the journey! I am going to try and post a before and now picture...hope it works!
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Well, technically still my first since I freaked out the first time. But, I need it for sure! The past few weeks have been not so good. I lost focus, ate larger portions, drank wine, ate when I wasn't hungry, etc. The scale shows it, too. Funny how that happens and how surgically altering my body still hasn't made that fact stick in my brain yet!
OK, all that is in the past. New start, new focus and a fill. I also picked up a copy of Jackie Warner's book "This is why you're fat". I learned a lot about sugar and its addictive hold. I went through my pantry and was shocked at how much sugar is added into "good" food! My favorite Kashi cereal has 13 grams per serving and I eat it with skim milk which has another 13 grams of sugar! Good grief! I'm going to follow her nutrition & exercise advice and see how it goes. I am ready for Onederland for sure! My goal is to be there before the start of basketball season, November 1st. I'll keep posting, that has a way of making me accountable!
I had to get on & off the scale a bunch of times today...can that be right? I have not seen that number on the scale in about 10 years....and that time it was like a fluke and only lasted a few months! I have been up and down for the past few months...too much wine during the week, not always making good choices, skipping the gym. Well, spring is the time for new beginnings and also a time to start wearing white capris (GASP!). Got back in the gym on a consistent basis, started my training for the bike leg of a triathlon on May 30th and back to the old food log. I haven't weighed myself for about 3 weeks, but got suspicious when every singe pair of size 12's I tried on yesterday fit with ease! (Size 12 may sound big to some of you, but I am 5' 8" and have a big frame, so 12 is awesome to me!). I am thinking I may even get to a size 10 when I am at goal! How is that possible? I am still amazed every time I see myself in a mirror. I was so obese for so long, sometimes I don't realize its me! Now every single part of me is smaller, including my fingers and feet! A very dear friend just had her surgery last week. I am so excited for her and for all of you starting this amazing journey. It truly has been life changing for me.
Thank you to God!
Getting closer! My goal to get below 200 was for November 1st, but it looks like I will be there a lot sooner! I feel fantastic, better than I have in years! It's been a little rough the past few weeks. I have had to get back to basics and really stop and listen to my body and distinguish the difference between "it's noon so it's time too eat" and "I'm not hungry, so it's not time to eat". Once I did that, the scale started moving again.
I did make a bad mistake last night with one of my old habits. I was making dinner for the kids and "tested" the chicken to make sure it was done (I calculated that in the past I was "testing" about 200 calories before I even sat down for dinner). I wasn't even thinking, popped it in my mouth...it was dry...didn't chew very well.....I was in pain for 2 hours with that darned stuck chicken! That hopefully will teach me NOT to "test" anymore!! I am sticking to fish for a while....
My next goal: This may sound weird, but I love taking pictures at my kid's games. I have a great camera & lens and I get some incredible football photos. However, they are all at the same level because I am not able to squat down. Well, technically I probably could, but won't even try for fear of not being able to hoist myself back up! So, my next goal is to be able to get lower so I can get the player's facial expressions and not just helmet & shadows.
I owe this all to the strength & love God has given me. I pray every chance I get for it all to continue! Thank you God!!!
Hi fellow bandsters! I had another one of those "then & now" moments today while I was out riding my bike. We were at mile 10 when my son asked if we should stop or do 5 more. What's 5 more was my reply! And off we went.
Back before Bandolina became part of my body, that was my reaction when I would get on the scale and it was up 5 pounds. Or when I was eating just about anything....never about moving my body!
Thought I wouls share!
Like another bandster who wrote about a comment she got on her narrow hips, I have never heard those words come from my husband's mouth! Let alone anyone's! All these years I bought clothes to try and disguise or hide my butt, now I have to look for clothes to NOT hide them! Laugh out flippin loud!
Thank you God for all of the little miracles!
