I am so proud to be a big and beautiful young lady, however not enough to let my health fail me. I am not ashamed of all my beautiful curves or the way my fat looks as I move, for I am only ashamed of the way my health is slowly but surely failing me. To have no health means no me for Sean or no me for life and what I have worked hard on. As far as being afraid to show my self and leave the house I have never had that, I love to shop, and I love to dress nice. However can't wait to shop at New York & Company...yay!!!