:faint: I just read my last post and I'm exactly the same weight 257. But I guess that's not too bad because I had gained more weight in the meantime. I just had my first fill yesterday. Dr. Aguila wanted to just do 1 cc but I asked for a little more. He said I should be able to fill the restriction but I really cant yet. Of course, I'm still on liquid. I need to start exercising. That's the key and we are coming up to the best part of the year in Florida. I go to LV in 6 days. I'm hoping to lose 5 lbs before I go. I ordered some clothes from Lane Bryant and Old Navy (shirt size 14-16, pant size 22). My boobs have gotten smaller. Woo Hoo! Anyway, I hope the new clothes get here before I go to NV. I go to IL at the end of the month and really hope I'm in a smaller size by then. I'll only be there for one night but I'm hoping I'll get to see Garry from IIA. Or maybe I shouldn't. I'm sure I'll be there again and that would give me more time to lose weight. I just ready to lose it! I'm really happy that I got the surgery. Even with the 13-15 lbs that I've lost. I feel so much better. I just can't wait. I'm so impatient. Anyway, it's end of the month and work is stressful. I have to go enter remaining principal into my spreadsheet.
I haven't weighed in a couple of days, probably afraid of the results. I haven't been exercising this week and been eating pretty badly. I'm not eating a lot, it's just that the choices of what I'm eating isn't that good. I'll go weigh now. I'm scared... :phanvan 257.0 That's pretty much where I've been for the last 1 1/2. I wore a dress last night to Rent and I felt so fat. The band and my weight loss haven't been the way I thought it would be. Much slower. I know that I'm not doing all the things I should and probably have no right to complain but... I go to Vegas in 1 month and wish I could lose another 10 lbs before going. Oh well, we'll see.
today I'm just over 2 weeks since surgery and I feel great. In fact, probably too well since I've been eating regular food. If I don't get a fill soon, I'll probably start to gain weight. So far I'm down 15 lbs. but have stayed at 15 lbs for the last week. I'm feeling a little discourage but I know that I'm not doing all of the things I'm supposed to. I NEED that fill! This is definately harder than I ever thought it would be when I started this journey. I haven't been too hungry since the surgery so I can definately tell a difference. Since the surgery, I've had Thai food once, spinach dip and sandwiches at a party (Ashley Lissy's baby shower), potato salad at another party (Maryanna's 1st Birthday), and 6" chicken salad sub at my mom's house. But on a positive note, I've exercised almost every day at least 20 minutes. I feel physically better. I just wished it showed a little more. At first, when I lost the weight really quickly, people that I work with noticed but that has really slowed down. Actually, the thing I think about most is "what if I paid 17,000 and lose 20 lbs?" First, that would make me feel like such a failure, second, I would be so embarrassed, especially because some people like Donna and Brent know how much it cost. I would feel like a fool. yesterday, we went out on the boat w/ my family. At first, I was excited to take pictures, by the end of the night (after I had seen a couple of them on the digital camara) I didn't want to be in any more. I looked so fat. That was really discouraging. Anyway, I'm still glad I did it, I just want to make sure I don't waste the money or the opportunity. I'm joining the chat forum. The next support group meeting is 4th Thursday in Sept. Anyway, thanks for listening.
Love,
Sarah