Hello everyone. My name is Tabitha and I am 27 years of age. I will be banded on August 24th. I am feeling so many emotions as the days go by. I feel excitement, worry, tears, and joy. Today my emotions took a turn for the worse. My husband told me to call my insurance company to make sure everything is going to be paid for by my insurance. When I called the man said the most out of pocket cost I would have is 1,000. I told my husband and he said that he could not help me pay for that 1,000 since we are in a financial strain as it is. My husband works and I only have 2 weeks left of unemployment. Though its not much what I get I am grateful for it. Well as soon as my husband told me this I started to cry. I truly felt all alone in my own situation. I texted my good friend kde who has been banded for only a week. She advised me to call my patient care rep Angela, which I did. I was all tears. Angela put me in a conference call with the billing department. They said all I would pay is a deductible of 300 dollars. Without me mentioning it Angela said I could come in the office tomorrow and fill out some paper work to have the deductible paid by them since I am having financial hardship. I felt so blessed and relieved. I was literary not going to pursue the surgery if I had an out of pocket cost of 1,000. So tomorrow I fill out that paper work. I am really happy with my life right now. I think this surgery is just icing on the cake. I am a newly wed with a wonderful husband. In 2 years we plan to try to start a family. This surgery will surely make that possible. I guess I want to say no matter the emotions you just have to push them to the side and persevere. God is good and he will never let you down.
Healer…..
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
I sang that chorus over and over as the song Healer played in my living room. All alone in my apartment I had a moment of breakthrough with God. I know something inside of me broke and was being healed. Something I didn’t even ever acknowledge as needing healing. We all have unspoken requests; many that we don’t even think need a touch from God. The writer of this song was suffering from an addiction no one knew about, which was later found. I do not know where he is at with his walk with God or his healing but I do know he wrote this song for his unspoken request. A request he was afraid to bring forth out in the open because his position in the church. No matter where we are in our walk with God there is always something inside of us that God is looking to heal and change in our lives. I know today is one of those days where I have learned something new about our God. That our God can move at anytime and any place. He knows our requests even if they are spoken or unspoken. I know the Lord has healed me from an addiction that I didn’t even know I had. The Lord has healed me from food and from the years I used it as a comfort and as an enemy. No request is too big or too small for him. You just have to surrender it all and really want the change. And believe that God can heal.
O LORD my God, I cried out to You, And You healed me. Psalms 30:2
You (God) satisfy me more than the richest feast. Psalm 63:5
