Things are certainly not currently going the way I had just thought they would go! I have not lossed any weight, and no matter how you look at it, that says a lot! I got my first fill on 7/28/10, I can still eat. Daily I work on eating right, sometimes I do not win, well I win my spirit does not. I am going to a therapist and psychologist. These changes in my life, I am resisting, have no idea why, so far have come up with a lifetime feeling of loneliness. I am only now starting to deal with it. I not only have binged on food, but illegal substainces as well. I am to stop that or check myself into an inpatient program. I take it day by day but have faith I will get through the next test life has for me.
Very much so a ramble...this is the only public sight I feel comfortable enough to post this on. I am sharing my story because that seems to be a part in overcoming obsticles.
lauren
thanks for listening :thumbup:
I went to a support group today, through my surgeons office. I found it, freeing a bit. I feel I need more of that to succeed. why do I push it away? This whole weight life journey of mine is all I know, and is definetly as much mental as it is physical! I know I can overcome this, I just dwell on when and what's next.
Today I have felt crazy! I am going through so much emotionally. This journey with the lapband is really doing a number on my life. I don't doubt it is what is to be, but my emotions are once again taking over. Having a hard time dealing with this on a minute to minute basis...:smile2:
