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June 24th 3rd fill a charm??

So, this last 2 weeks since my last fill became torture...ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS EAT! AND YES, I WAS HUNGRY! :tongue2: This last week was riddled with failures. I ate half of a steak house burger and fries for lunch one day and that wasn't the only time I fell off the wagon, but on this day I decided this is a bunch of crap after I feed my emotions with half of a snickers bar! HOW FOOLISH I HAVE BEEN! :frown: Lucky for me my doctor is the best! They scheduled me for my first day off that I could get there. Went in today and the PA did my fill which scared me. Dr. K is so good at it that I was afraid he would hurt me. It did hurt more going in, but as you see I survived it :smile: He added 1.4 cc's, and I think this time I definitely feel some "real" restriction. :wub: I kept my July 1st appt. just in case I feel like I need more. When he added 1.5cc's I could feel the water he had me drink nearly stop in my throat and felt the funnel effect, so then at 1.3cc's it went down every easily so 1.4cc's it is! This was the first time of any of my fills that I felt the slowing/stopping feeling. I liked feeling this because now I feel like i finally got a really effective fill. oh well, we'll see! The nurse said i now have 7cc's in total. I hope this does the trick. I want those ICKY hungry, cravings feelings to stop for good!:thumbup: BTW, I weighed in at 177. I was happy to hear I lost 5 pounds from the last fill but it definitey WAS NOT from eating right. When i messed up, like with the hamburger and the snickers I took an Alli pill with them, helps keep your body from absorbing all the fat. (I used this successfully before surgery on 2 different occassions to lose weight, but of course you stop, you gain it back) I worked my butt off at the gym to try and make up for the food failures. Looks like it worked, but I can't and won't continue on like this! Family reunion is coming up on July 22nd my goal weight for the reunion is 169...will I reach it???! I'll keep you posted! :smile:
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First Blog

I have never done a blog before so this is more of an experiment in...can I figure this out? I was banded on May 5, 2010 by Dr. Gerald Kirshenbaum in Aurora, Colorado. Before the pre-diet I weighed in at 212 pounds. At my pre-op appointment May 1, 2010 I was 196. May 16th, I weighed in at 186. Today June 1st I weighed in at 181, but that is what I have weighed for the last several days now. I guess I have hit my first plateau??! Uggggghhh! Hate those! So, I am super excited to have my first fill on June 4th. I am feeling the desire to eat these last few days...not sure I can really call it hunger, but I am wanting to eat. That feeling scares me and I just want it to go away!..FOREVER!! In fact I think I am hungry now, but i also think I have eaten plenty today so I am trying my best to ignore the feeling. I am looking for others who are going through this journey as well so that we can use each other as a support system. I know this is going to be more difficult than I had invisioned...I just have to keep motivated. I am a self pay patient. I paid $9,875 all on my credit card...so with the monthly bill coming in, guess that should be motivation enough huh??? LOL I know in the end it will all be well worth it. With no restriction though...these next 2 weeks are gonna be rough. OK, enought for now...tell me about you. :smile2:
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Started with Personal Trainer Today

Today I got started with Lori a personal trainer with 23 hour fitness. She got me set up with a simple full body workout. She kicked my butt, but that wasn't so hard to do. I am such a whimp and have no staminia...I can't wait to feel like exercising instead of dreading it. My arms are so weak 20lb weights are all I can bare to lift.   On another note...looking forward to tomorrow, I get to see the Doc for my second fill. Hopefully this time it will be an effective one. I am bouncing between 181 and 185. I want to see 179!:bored:
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2nd Fill Today

Went back in today to get another fill. I wanted more than he gave me, but he was really concerned that I would be over filled and then suffer the weekend. This time since I knew what to expect I was less nervous and the needle wasn't anything more than a tiny quick pinch. He filled me to 5.7cc so lets see how this will work! I stopped at Wendy's and got a baked potatoe and a junior frosty to sample both. I was only able to eat about 4 tablespoons of potatoe and about half an ounce of the frosty. YIPPPPEEEE....I hope it stays this way! I am eating watermelon for dinner and then off to the gym. The fill was a good thing but the rest of the day has been shit. Husband got a speeding ticket on the way there and then bad news from our attorney regarding his child custody battle. MY GOD am I sick of all this crap. I am trying so hard to focus on me, me, me so I don't go into a tail spin. Good thing I can't eat much or I totally know i would be on a binge on my drug of choice....FOOD. Instead I am headed to the gym to try and sweat out some of this frustration. :bored:
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How's my 2nd fill working?...

Well the 2nd fill has broken my plateau. Am I to my "sweet" spot? Don't think so, but feeling less hunger than ever.   Tonight I ate about 5ozs of good healthy food and felt satisfied. It's now 11pm and my belly is rumbling a bit, but seems that i always have a problem this time of night. Guess I should hurry and get this blog done so i can go sleep off the hunger?   I go July 1st for my next fill. So, in two weeks i think i will be where i want to be! Today is June 13, 2010 and I weighed in this morning at 178! Yippppeee!!!:mad2:   My first goal was to get to 179, so I just set my new short term goal today at 169.   Then, I have a family reunion coming up on July 22. So, that is five weeks for me to lose all I can. My original goal for family reunion week was 170. I think I am going to revise that to 165, this is just to push myself more at the gym. I am currently kickin' my own butt... I come home feeling good, but sore! I know I will be converting some of this blubber to muscle so I may even have issue with the scale moving the way i want it. But, oh well...it gives me something to work towards.   All in all today was long, but pretty good. No complaints...   I had a great day at the gym. 10 minutes on the rowing maching, 15 minutes on the stairmaster (my new love!) and then 30 minutes on the Elyptical on the cross training mode with intensity of 9 kept heart rate up in the cardo range the entire time. Everyday it gets easier!:frown:   Bad news, I am SO hungry! Think I'll have a little chuck of cheese:blush: then off to bed.
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4th Fill today July 1st. 7.65cc I'M TIGHT!

Today i went in to have my 4th fill i am now at 7.65cc's. :smile: i have had some personal problems at home and work so my emotional eating habits are coming back to haunt me no matter how hard i fight them. :sad: I am hoping this new fill will keep me from being able to eat the crap my emotions tempt me to eat. I was doing ok in the mornings but by lunch time seems like my band is looser because as early as 2 hours after a good solid food meal i was feeling hungry again already. Evenings have been the very worst. :blushing:So, i'll see how this fill works come tomorrow morning. I think I may even be a tad too tight. Well I ate some creamy mashed potatoes tonight i was getting the pain in my shoulder that says stop eating, even though I only had a few bites. Hmmm...looking forward to what tomorrow brings. Hopefully I can eat, but hopefully just not as much and most of all hope i stay full longer!
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My first fill was 4.4cc I am NOT happy..grrrrrr

I was very nervous about the fill needle and being poked, but turned out to be pretty simple.   When I was laying there with the needle and syringe sticking out of my body the doc says, "ok, now I'm going to have you sit up and drink some water'. At the point I started laughing hysterically, tears and all. I said, "REALLY! :w00t:With the needle sticking a foot out of my body?!" The doc and my hubby looked puzzled or maybe they decided I had really lost it, but I seriously couldn't stop laughing. Doc said this was a first, lol....I guess most people aren't that easily amused?   Oh well, now I am NOT laughing...:sad:I don't think I got enough of a fill! The doc filled some and had me drink water to see if it went thru, and with each fill and each big gulp, it always went down, no problemo. A few times i felt a little bit of what felt like a bubble in my throat but no feeling of water being stuck or backing up. i think it was just that it was a little air since he was requesting that I GULP the water. Not knowing what i was feeling I thought the bubble feeling and my husbands bulging eyes was maybe an indication that I needed to stop, so I took 4.4cc as good enough.   I have read so much on here, but for some reason it never occurred to me to read about other people's first fill experience. So I really didn't know what was a little or a lot in terms of 1cc, 2cc's etc.:eek: Since I have a 10cc band, 4.4cc's sure did sound like an awful lot for a first fill when I hear others say their doctor doesn't even let them participate in the decision and 1 cc is all they get whether it good enough or not. I really cheated myself darn it.   So, since my appt was at 11:30am and I was told to fast before the fill, I decided to have a junior frosty on my 2 hour ride home since I had a free coupon for one...skim milk later in the day and mashed potatoes for dinner. The doc said start with liquids & rapidly progress to full liquids and then soft foods as tolerated for the next 24 hours. NOW GUESS WHAT??!! I AM HUNGRY AND IT HASN'T BEEN 24 HOURS!   Grrrrr..thank goodness for me it's only a short drive for a fill. I have a feeling I will be heading back up there next week. I am so mad at myself! What the heck was I supposed to feel to know I was tight enough??? Next time I won't let him stop til water is backed up in my nostrils, lol....guess that would mean I am filled enough???
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Doin' the happy dance!

Am I feeling restriction yet?....NOOOPE! I am doing the happy dance because I expected to have to beg to go in for another fill, but heck no! I had ZERO resistance, just sweet, kind, gentle understanding. My doc's staff are so nice and i think most, if not all are patients of his too, so they know what I am going thru. I love that I am not treated like a fat woman there! They make you feel like family. So without asking when I told her my name she says, "oh, do you need another fill?" So, she read my mind and without asking anything else she says can you be here Friday, June 11th? HELL YEAH I CAN BE THERE!:eek:   I have been so bad, really bad the last two days since I know anything and everything will go thru my band. I am too ashamed to even tell the truth about what I have eaten..and I won't waste time beating myself up...help is on the way YIPPEEE! I can't WAIT to see what restriction feels like on Friday.
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