May 7th, 2010: 11 days until I meet with Carol to get my paperwork completed and start the approval process. Scared and excited. Scared that I'll fail. Scared that I'll not be able to eat. Scared that I will. :cursing: Excited that perhaps this will help me pay attention and be mindful of what I'm eating. Excited that I'll be able to feel better about how I look. Excited that I'll be able to buy pretty clothes.:smile:
May 16: Going to see my GP on Tuesday to get clearance to have the surgery. Do I really want this surgery? Yes. Do I? NO! Yes. I am so tired of gaining weight. Tired of feeling like the fat girl. Tired of being ashamed about the way I look, the food I eat. Tired. I don't think there is any other way out for me....:smile:
