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Spring Equinox = Life and Death

Today was very surreal for me. At first I was excited about spring and getting seed starters going for the flower and vegetable garden this summer. And then reality stuck me with one phone call. My grandmother, is simply divine in every way. Her eyes penetrate with a deep ocean blue hue of love and wisdom smiling forth from her golden heart. After 93 years of earthy living, her body is no longer functioning well enough to make life her life livable and she is ready to go home. She and my mother are the smartest and most loving people I know. The world will not be the same without her. Sending out prayers for her journey and for the grace of my family during this emotional transition... All others are welcome thankyou....peace
Jadeite

Jadeite

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fill numero dos

Alrighty, time to get this thing movin. I haven't felt any restriction from my first fill so I am hoping with this next one I will start seeing some better results. So far i waver around the 10lb loss marker from my surgery just a little over a month ago. Today I have a long day drive to Abq and back so i am going to jump on my elliptical and go to a chiropratic appointment this morning. My neck has been killing me Needing to amp up the yoga too.   Something to Share So I have been reading this book called Awakening and Healing the Rainbow Body. One morning i opened the book to the section titled INTENTION. Intentions are conscious and subconscious. We are mostly aware of the conscious intentions ie getting the lapband or calling in a new lover to your life... However there are even Stronger intentions we put out there everyday through our subconscious. These types of intentions can bring us harsh lessons filled with much tribulation and pain. The reason for this IS our own personal feelings of unworthness and lack of self love!!! I almost cried... For me, these words hit home like a falling boulder. I see this truth played out for me over and over in my relationships, which have always left me shattered. I thought to myself, How/why do i hate my self this much. I really do love myself and believe that i am an amazing person. Even this realization of subconscious intention is baby steps towards changing the ingrained thought patterns of self abuse. I mentioned earlier how much I LOVE yoga and how it makes me feel So good after i go to a class. Knowing how much i benifit from going to yoga class doesn't mean i go everyday or every week. I am really having to take a long hard look at my self and ask why and i not going. Is this just part of the ingrained pattern of self abuse and lack of self love? So i am making a commitment to myself to consciously be aware of my subconscious and correct myself if i hear myself thinking negatively. Also being grateful to know that i am positively affected by going to yoga class and will make the effort to go more often for the sake of self love and repatterning my intentions.   Just to put it out there in the universe. May i be given the strength to follow though this knowledge with action.
Jadeite

Jadeite

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When Men start noticing!!

Anyone there yet?? At the point where you are feeling better and other people.. ie MEN start noticing you look better too. Men are such visual creatures and a skirt and boots when there is still snow on the ground will do the job most any day. It was just nice to notice others noticing me in a good way:) NSV1... lol... I haven't lost much on the scale only about 10 lbs but my tummy is down and with a little black slimmer and a sweet new top... Well lets just say that outfit has magical powers lol.. I sure hope this trend continues. all aboard... to ride the crazy train to the land of skinny... :tt1:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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I need a FILL NOW!!!

I can eat way too much and my appetite is back in full swing. Noooo. I am still trying to watch what i eat, but i can feel those bad overeating habits coming back. Not good. I reallly need to get in to see Dr Smith this week pronto!!! I wish appointment setter would call me back so I know when he is going to be here. I am not super stoked on having to drive 3 hours to get a fill. Totally not cool. Wish there was someplace closer like Durango, where i live.. That would be great. Even still it is worth the long drive to get a fill and feel the restriction again... Not liking bandster hell :rolleyes2:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Happy Valentines Day to Me!!

Today was nice. Feeling much much better today. I am feeling 100% better than Friday after surgery. I felt good enough to walk around the mall and shop a little. My mom is great. She has helped me so much. This is the greatest gift anyone could ever give me. I am so grateful to my mother for giving me this gift of a better life. Today we got pedicures and enjoyed each others company. Im loving the new band.. Little sore but waning off the pain meds. :confused:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Day 2 Pre-op Diet

Okay the count down begins. I saw a couple other gals on here that used this as a way to stay on tract during this process. Soooo.. Since yesterday was a disaster i am hoping this will help today be better.. Day 1. Breakfast Had a smoothie Lunch Green Chili Chicken soup Snacked on cashews Dinner- two sushi rolls. philly roll and shrimp roll with a little sake. :bored:   Day 2. Breakfast - Drinking tea now, Spearmint then off to smoothie land.. I found a protein shake that is awesome... But im trying not to get burned out on it so im mixing in other flavors but the Spiriutine (sp) Double fudge chunk with skim milk, 1 tsp almond butter and frozen cherries.. yummy! Lunch- Soup Dinner Smoothie and jello.. Thats my plan anywayz.. Sure hope i stick to it but 4:00 - 6:00 always gets me. Today is a long one.. lots to do...
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Saturday

It has been eight days since my surgery and i am healing right along. Maybe I'm feeling a little too good? Movement is good, I hiked about 3 miles in the snow today. It was awesome. I still have intense pain in my upper left shoulder after I eat. Weird. It does not go away. sharp and throbbing. I really hope that sensation goes away soon. As far as food goes... I am not following the regulations. yikes... i am already back to eating solid foods but chewing them much much more. I am still not eating very much and i have lost 10 lbs. Morning Protein shake smoothie with almond butter, milk and banana Lunch Soup, cottage cheese Dinner A real dinner. thai food rice noodles with chicken and veggies sushi rolls. Only my portion is an eighth of what it use to be. I have called in to the Abq office to meet with Dr. Smith near the end of the month. I'm thinking next week or so to get my first fill. Adding more movement into my daily routine will be vital in jump starting my continued loss. I dont think eating solid foods so early is super bad for me. ?? I'm just not a caned foods kind of person. Although i was thinking about trying my hand at making homemade broccoli soup. been craving that stuff lately. Must need the iron. I do take my vitamins but nothing beats the real thing. All and all i am feeling pretty good. But also keeping a close eye on myself. Well here's to looking great and feeling good now! Manifesting my own reality, full of joy and adventure.:redface:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Down 20 LBS

So This third fill i believe did the job. In fact i think I might be a little to tight. This fill has severly limited how much i consume. I have had a couple days where everything i ate i threw up. I am getting better but not eating much at all. I think it might be time to start reving up the supplements and getting those soup recipes out again. I find that warm well cooked food goes down the best. Trying to focus on the protein but it is not going to come from chicken fish and turkey. i just cant eat that much. I was so hungry last night and wanted comfort food so i made mashed potatoes. By the time they were done and i put a normal small serving on my plate, I was only able to have about 4 tablespoons, if that. And Maybe three bits of fish. Is this the sweet spot??? Not sure but i think i must be pretty close. So far I have lost 20 pounds since 2-12-2010. Hoping the next twenty comes off even faster. I have seriously been considering signing up and saving for a yoga teacher certification class starting in August. So my goal is to train for my training and make enough money with my business to afford it. Here to achieving all or goals!! I am excited to finish my finals, move to my new place and get a new routine going again. Yeah long everlasting summer time:biggrin::wink2:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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I'm Back from the Boonies..

Sorry lovelies, no internet in the woodlands of Colorado!!! I fully missed all of you! Right now im on spring break but working doing a house sitting gig out in BFE. It is truly beautiful out there, Snow on the ground, Evergreens and Bluest of Skys. I'm currently taking care of two dogs and two cats... I walk the dogs at least twice a day for a mile or two. Come to find out I'm Allergic to cats!!! Full blown sneezing, runny nose and sinus pressure. It's getting worse each day. Thank goodness I'm done on Monday. Okay now on too the Banded Life, Soo, I got my first fill a week or so ago and NADA! I mean really, no restriction whatso ever!!! So I made an appointment for fill #2 on the 23 of March! Yay, March Madness Here I Come... I really liked what another bandster said about Bandster Hell.. Sorry, Bandito is it??? Not sure anyways. The point that sticks with me from the blog post is to treat this time "Bandster Hell" as a gentle yet effective training period to make healthy food choices and KICK UP THE EXCERSICE!!! Anyway you like it ladies and radical gentlemen. For me the Yoga sessions 2 - 3 times a week Really Really Im mean really make a difference. My weight has puts a lot of pressure around my hips and in turn my low back and neck have taken a beating. Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night with severe pain and the only thing that has provided me relief and strength has been yoga. When I slack on the classes, my body makes no hesitation to remind me. Just how much it still hurts. :thumbup: So for March Madness, I am trying to stay focused on going to at least 3 classes a week and fitting in 2-3 days of elliptical. As far as food choices go Ummm i think i might still need some work on that. I tend to go for carby thing & quick fixes. So im trying to plan meals a bit better, but needing some more inspiration. Well take care and keep smiling bandsters. :wink2:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Ummm What?

Okay so in went in for a fill on Friday a whole 3 hour drive. I was hoping to fill some even a little restriction but Nope.... Bummer. I almost wonder if he put anything in?? I feel like i haven't even had surgery sometimes. Still making healthy choices and even went to yoga on Saturday and Monday with a little extra hiking in between, but still the scale does not move. :rolleyes2: Hopefully things will start to turn around and I will see some Fabulous results soon. we will see...
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Feelin It

Alrighty Good Morning Lovelies,   Just a little update here. I went in for my third fill on 4-20 and boy am I feeling a difference. Since my last fill I haven't lost really anything on the scale and was kinda bumming about that. Doc asked if i wanted him to be conservative and i explained to him what my eating habits were like. ie. Normally in the mornings i can't eat much, really nothing. Even the shakes are to thick for me in the am . But by 4:00 i can eat a normal sized meal. Honestly i haven't had to mention this procedure to anyone just because i am eating dinner with them. I just eat slower and chew well. And I also mentioned to him that i hadn't lost muh since the last fill. He said he noticed that and it sounds like i just needed a little fine tuning. So he gave me another 1cc in the band. Quick and Painless.. Love my Doc!! The after he was done he said that my band was lose and even though i didn't lose lbs that i lost fat around the organs to in turn make the feeling of restriction less. I am happy to report that my weigh in on Tuesday was 212.8 and I am now at 209. School is almost out annd i am getting excited to increase the physical activity via mountain bike, hiking, rafting, elliptical, yoga and dance! Feeling the Power Risin and the pounds Fallin. Gonna be LOOKIN GOOD Rrrrrreal soon!!! :biggrin::frown::ohmy:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Scale issues

Ok has this ever happened to anyone. i steped on the scale the other day and it said 199.5... Shocked i couldn't believe it was true so i did it again and the same number showed up again. I was sooo happy could i really be in onederland??...nope.....The next day i got on the scale and it was 208.... Very very sad. I havent moved the scale, wonder if it a barrometric pressure thing??? Anyways. I have gotten back on track with my exercise. I'm doing 30 minutes on the elliptical and have been riding my mountain bike. consistantly for a week.. I have to do it everyday. And it feels really good. My clothes are looser and even though Ive only lost twenty pounds it feels like alot more. I know exercise will amp up the weight loss. So Im stickin to it. I really want those size 12 by the end of the summer.. Victory will be mine!
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Struggling

Okay so this weekend (Fri-Mon)did not workout for me so well. I completely went off the deep end and got wasted on Friday and spent saturday recovering :w00t::w00t: I am so disappointed in myself. I was doing so good on the pre-op diet and now its like starting over... So today i am getting back at it. :tongue_smilie: My surgery is on friday and i don't want to have any complications. I really hope i didn't mess anything up. Hoping these next few days of protein shakes and hot tea will be enough to at least get me back to where i was on friday.
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Spring in full effect

Good Morning Lovelies!!! I have noticed a decline in posts from many of my friends I can only assume it is because it is finally nice outside and no one wants to be inside on a stupid computer lol ... little up date on my status.. I am going in for my 3rd fill on 4-20. I don't feel like i have los much weight. but my clothes are looser but not falling off by any means. I was down to 209 but that didn't last long as i had a mararita binge last week that brought me up to 214 :thumbup: yikes.. So no more tequillas for me.. I did go to a yoga class last week and spent a little time on the eliptical. But i know it is not enough to see the results i really want. As a side note... I am moving again.. super stressfull.. hoping for the right place to come along.. Durango has a serious houseing crisis, And you would be shocked at the prices they want for toaster boxes of a house... Well ladies and men.. more later.. but for now im off to get me a protein shake and get things movin again
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Im a brand new BANDIT!!!!

Good Morning World!!! I'm now an official bandit!! YAY:) S o excited. Yesterday was my surgery and everything went well. I had a hiatal hernia which they fixed and also gave me two shots of moriphine... DANG.. All day yesterday i was battling nausia which was not fun But today i am feeling much better. Still loopy from all the codine but surviving. I also met a wonderful woman who lives close to me who also had the surgery the same day. How cool A new Bandit Buddie:)
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Day 6 POST OP

Just a quick check in. Today is day six after my surgery and I am finally getting back on track... Fyi Codine does not mix well with others.. ie herbals... Very bad idea.. Good NEWS!!!! I am down 9lbs since the day after surgery!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!! This make me very very very very did i say very happy:biggrin::biggrin::thumbup::biggrin:   Physically - I am still in a bit of pain. Burping a lot peeing and having normal bm's... thank god! Lost 9 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Feeling like getting on the elliptical already:)   Emotionally - Well wouldn't you know... I'm kickin it in the red tent and have had strange bouts of overwhelming emotion. Couple tears nothing tragic. Again I am just watching myself without judging.   Spiritually - Feeling blessed, loved, strong, and transforming before my own eyes. Much like the snake shedding its skin.   Here Here for the 21st century..
Jadeite

Jadeite

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June Update!!

I made it! 199.00lbs. Hoping what happened last month wont happen this month. In May my scale said the same thing just before my period and then the scale shot back up to 206. Sad... I'm feeling so much better about how i look and the clothes i can wear. I know I've only lost a total of 27.5 lbs but the difference is clear when i can put on the dress i want even able to rock when i got it. hahaha.. I would always buy outfits i wanted to wear as a motivator. So far I have had three fills. The last one made me very very tight. So there was some adjustment time. But now I am comfortable with the amount of food i can eat. Me thinks it is just right. I dont want to be so tight i cant eat anything and starve my body of nutrients. This week I started Geology Field camp which involves lots of hiking in the high country. Can you say SORE!! I sure can. I decided to hold off on any more adjustments until the six week of intensive mapping is over. I feel like im prolly at or really near that sweet spot. I feel that the amount of food I am eating in a day is reasonable since it is not much at all. The exercise Im getting in Field Camp will help out alot. And hopefully get me to my goal weight of 175!!!! Here's to my and all of your continued progress!
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Its working!!!

Gotta say Geology field camp has been kickin my butt. Last week we backpacked in 5 miles up the mountain to almost 12,000ft... thought i was going to die.. lol... What a great experience.. I lost about 8lbs just last week! Im offically 189 and dropping!!!! yay!!!!!!. Three more weeks of intense physical activity, but i know it will be worth it in the end. Finishing my degree and shedding the pounds! Only 14 more pounds till my first goal...
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Full Moon Fiasco

Ahhh... Full Moon in Libra. Wow im really feelin this one. Deep sleep and waking up well rested. I planted some seed starters in those peat pot greenhouse things you get a home depot. I decided to start with flowers and some herbs to put in window pot outside the house. I am itching for spring and the warmth and energy of sprouting. I need green. (Funny i worn a totally green outfit today lol) I am Tired of the snow and cold wind. Grateful for the white blankets of renewal but now i am ready for riding Rivers, Full Trees in bloom. ohh the smell of Lilacs and bright colors of tulips. I know you can't rush a good thing. Growth takes time and patience as nature intended. The seeds i planted wont sprout overnight. And much like the lap band this new lifestyle pattern im creating is a work in progress and not something that is accomplished overnight..   With this second fill i have noticed some better restriction. I have had a couple of close calls with obstruction but nothing that lasted too long. It happens when i eat to quickly. Mostly i feel an uncomfortable sensation in my upper stomach (not fun) Normally it goes away and i can continue eating. Sometimes my mouth waters like when you have to throw up. Its kinda weird but i think your body produces the saliva to coax whatever it is... out. I guess this is what they call the Band working. This is the negative response to over eating or eating too fast... ahahah i feel like Pavlov's Dog.. Funny.. Alrighty then. So this is good. I still think I could be tighter. But this is a good amount of restriction for now. I will be ready for the third next time doc rolls into town. I am still very glad i did this procedure. I know it was the right decision for me to make:biggrin:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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All the many changes

Goodness!! It has been so long since my last post. It feels like summer has flown by. Currently 180 and loving it! Thats a total of 46 lbs since Feb. I did a lot of hiking this summer during Geology Field camp. All the activity really helped me to drop those jean sizes down to a 14. I have really loved looking nice and wearing heels again. Soooo much fun! What's even better is that I've found the man of my dreams! I know it sounds crazy but its undeniably true. We have been dating since July 16th and a couple since the 6th of August. He is what i have prayed for and then some. Ladies!!!! We were destined for each other! Believe in the power of manifesting your dreams. I can't even begin to start on how amazing this life's journey has been. Having the lapband surgery has been a vital part of my continual transformation. It's has given me the ability to regain my confidence and achieve my own personal success. As for my new man, who is the sweetest and one of the most sexiest on earth... I was so nervous to tell him about wls but I knew the longer I waited the harder and weirder it would be for me to finally do it. When did finally tell him, he couldn't have been more loving understanding and sweet about it. In the end telling him made me feel closer to him because I was truly opening up to him about a subject that so deeply emotionally charged for me. I am such a happier person now. I loved all the beautiful places I was able to hike to this summer and the long nights of dancing in heels in the downtown bars. I love being comfortable in my body. It is truly a blessing. I am not at a stopping point in my weightloss by any means. It is a continual commitment to be active and challenge myself to obtain higher heights. May we all have victory in ourselves love and future!
Jadeite

Jadeite

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In the Healing Process

I am back at home and taking it SLOWLY!! To be honest I am feeling okish but not in the mood to get back into the normal routine, ie school. In a sense i have let go. Time has changed, Everything has changed. Any previously constructed outcome i had imagined is now non-existant. I don't want to go to school, not interested in having to do anything else besides take care of me... Yes there i said it. I don't want to worry about an ounce of responsibility. i enjoy sleep, my dreams have been out of control and wild. My energy levels fluctuate and a general sense of surreality looms around me. I am watching myself in the most literal sense. Cool. May only the highest good befall unto me!:thumbup:
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Day 3 Pre OP

Good Morning, burrr Colorado Well yesterday was a victory and I"m hoping today will be too... :drool: My Starting weight was 223 and this morning im at 219. Sweet. Looking to continue the trend.... Starting off with my warm tea then off to smoothie land. I plan on bringing soup and jello with me to school today. It is going to be a long one. Wish me luck on my Physics exam.. yikes..
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Day 2 Pre-op Diet cont..

Well it's 11:05 pm here and what a day!!:drool: But i did manage to stay on track:sneaky: I think the worst time of the day for me is late afternoon when im over being at school and needing a break. I had a smoothie for breakfast and some low fat cottage cheese Water through out the day and Soup for dinner. Yay! One day at a time. Ooh yeah something else happened to me today... Just before i left to go to school I was feeling stressed out like before a panic attack, I could tell i wasn't really breathing. i had the consciousness of it. So I acted and took many deep breaths just breathing deeply and letting go. Then left out the door feeling better. On the way to school I broke out into a hymn.. Sometimes my own voice surprises me. I just belt out words of love and gratitude in a sweet harmony. The song shows me how to live. It was pretty wild actually. Now that I'm thinking about it... Today is Imbolic. A pagan Holiday celebrating mid winter. The term imbolic translates to "in the belly" This is the time we manifest our intentions for the coming year. Holding the vision is important for these next few days. I know i must bring love and attention to this surgery before during and after.... In a pay it forward kinda way... I pray this is the right thing for me to do and that i have no regrets. Jade
Jadeite

Jadeite

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Food reconsiderations with the Band

There is a learning curve that I've had to over come while eating with the band. Sometimes I can get two bites down and i know im stuck If i eat any more.... no bueno and looking for the bathroom to dislodge. Some things are just harder to eat sushi rolls (sad) doable but takes some time. Also spicy food.. jalapeno, hot green chilis which i love no longer love me back. Whats weird is when people get upset that im eating slow or not woofing it down like they are. It takes skill to look like your eating normal when you really just can't. Well-cooked homemade food works the best. Lots of currys and quinoa... Corn tortillas are my new bffs. The one kind of bread-like substance that goes down well. Its great for lunch when i make a little melty chicken n cheese tostada. I am very gassy ie burp alot after i eat. Not pleasant for people im around There must be a way to prevent or calm down the angry stomach acids. I am currently doing some research on herbal teas and tinctures that can help the stomach discomfort and irritablity and keep the energy running smoothly in the right direction. In TCM traditional chinese medicine burping is considered rebellious Chi. meaning the energy is moving in the wrong direction. This is a sign of the body not being fullly happy. I believe that my body and the band can become friends and live synergystically together with a little adjustment in what i eat as well as calming the stomach with teas and tinctures. If anyones else out there has or had similar problems I would love to hear your experience and or remedy.
Jadeite

Jadeite

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