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Halloween Is Really Scary

My five children expect a little Halloween Party every year. So, we will be doing that this weekend because Halloween is during the school week. They dress up and watch some pre-teen scary shows on TV eat candy and pizza and run all over with their friends.     I am terrified of the candy(I bought yesterday.) I began to hear the candy talking to my cravings as soon as I got it in my house last night. I locked it away in the filing cabinet drawer in the home office. Now it sits in there wanting me to let it out so it can be mindlessly consumed by me. I should not have bought it two days early, I should not have bought it two days early..... (lesson learned). I know it is there waiting to get out....thus the reason we have "no good stuff in the house" as my kids remind me .....If I eat just one...that leads to another, and another....It is like eating popcorn...who can eat just one kernal ( I don't eat that anymore either..band issues).   I have a plan to pour it out and have the kids eat it up as fast as they can! I will try to do something else while they enjoy the scary candy hiding in my filing cabinet...... How do you curb those old habits and cravings for sweets?

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Why Didn't I Listen?

Boy Oh Boy! Can I do a number on myself or what? I saw my Dr a couple months ago, he thought my band was in a good place. I said oh no Dr. I need a fill because I am eating way too much and my weight loss has stopped and my cravings are taking over. Well he reluctantly gave me a small fill.. Now I am paying the price. I have reflux reallllllly bad.   The problem didn't occur over night but gradually over a month or so. My work shedule has delayed my abilty to see the Dr. I have an appointment to have the fill removed hopefully this will fix my reflux problem. Meanwhile, I am doing liquids to get by until my appoinment, eating Zantac, trying not to eat tooo late, and sleeping on a STACK of pillows. ugh. I didn't go to medical school...so I have no idea why I would pretend to be a Dr!

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

VICE----ICE CREAM

Why oh why can't ice cream make me sick? Like some protiens do? Ice cream goes down so easily. I am having sooooooooooo much trouble beating back the ice cream deamon. I have fallen off the wagon into the ice cream sundae dish....   I have gone from 305 to 209 back up to 220 since Dec 2009. I want to lose another 60 pounds. I need some help or something to get me back in line.   I know put down the spoon....but it is kinda like an addiction. I want to be good until the deamon gets lose and then it is a nightmare in a real big hurry... I live 17 miles from town and do not keep it in the house...but I have secretly driven to the store late at night for Ben and Jerry's. I need a way to get thru the cravings.   Anyone else have issues....suggestions of things that work for you would be appreciated.   Thanks.

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Happy New Year---Here's to GOALS!!!

My Band-a-versary has come and gone...305 before I started 209 the week BEFORE Thanksgiving....now it is New Year's Eve and I am out of control........Again...sigh...up to 219. I am afraid that I won't be able to get myself undercontrol. That thought is always nagging in the back of my mind, you know the one that the weight loss is just a dream that it isn't real. I am still having a hard time seeing myself as a thinner person. I see people sometimes that I haven't seen in over a year.... They truly don't recognize me....I really like that :-) So, it is back to the gym, in for a fill, and back in the saddle for me.....I really want to lose another 70 pounds.. this year... GOTTA have a goal right? Maybe the girl in the mirror next New Year's Eve will be getting dressed for a party in a cute little black dress    

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Cravings B Gone!

I wonder what is wrong with me. It is like I have no control. I ate like a P-I-G this weekend. I hade a candy bar, two mini hershey bars, potato chips, and Tater Tot cassarole of course it was only band size eating but still that is soooooo stupid. Now I am feeling like a failure. Why do I struggle so hard all the time to make good low carb choices and then just flip out and eat, eat, eat....   I know tomorrow is another day. All I can do is start over. I pray that I can get control of my cravings and get myself back on track. I am still trying very hard (or maybe not so hard self sabotage :thumbup:) to get to my goal of 100 pounds of loss before my first band-a-versary.   Cravings B Gone!

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Size Matters!

I am being reflective today as I am celebrating my 17th Birthday for the 25th time. So, I went shopping. Losing weight has opened my eyes to fashion. I have a new motto, "Just because they make it in your size, dosen't mean you have to wear it." The joy of losing weight means, I no longer have to look like an old sofa with hideous flower prints splattered across my...whatever. I now wear a size 16/18. I was in a 30 when I started. I can't believe the difference!

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Motovate Me!

Yikes! Well i had lost 82 pounds....Not now..I am up 2 pounds in the last month. I can't seem to get my motovational fire burning...I am just smoldering along...you know all smoke no flames :confused:.   If anyone has any ideas, please let me know I need a kick in the motovational area to get me back on track. I have a goal of 100+ pounds of weight loss by my one year Dec. 16. I have gotta get flaming hot or I am sunk.   Thanks for reading my tale of woe...I love this message board thing...it lets me vent with folks who understand my feelings.   Thanks I am on my way to the gym!

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

You Never Know What is Waiting Around the Corner

I can't believe this is really me. I am down 82 pounds. I am having a hard time adjusting to the new me. My clothes are falling down again! :cool: I actually own and use a belt...(that is sooooo funny to me:lol: never had to do that before...ever.)   I am working hard to hit my goal of 100 pound weightloss before the one year mark in December. Of course I have a much bigger goal in mind.... a total weight loss of 150 + pounds. But I keep reminding myself, you didnt gain it all in one year so it is more realisitc to have a multi-year goal.   I like the fact that my weightloss has inspired some family members and friends to seek a healthier lifestyle. One friend joined my gym and I am her workout buddy(she is thin but is quitting smoking and just wants to get healhty)...I would have never dreamed that I would be someone's workout buddy and inspiration for a healthy lifestyle. You never know what is waiting around the corner:smile2:   Life is GOOD TODAY!

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

HELP! I am STRUGGLING

Ok. I was banded 12/16/2009. Since I have lost 50 pounds. But for the last 5 weeks I have lost not one pound. Just See-Sawing back and forth with the same three pounds. Joined a gym 2 weeks ago. Got a trainer at the gym to help me with the equipment (I don't want to end up hanging upside down from some of the equipment...It is all alien to me.) So five days a week I am getting in at least 30 min of cardio and 2 days a week I am doing circuit with a trainer.   I had a fill in March which I thought was too tight. Now I am asking was it really too tight. I could not eat breakfast until 10 ish then I would struggle to get in 3 oz of yogurt. I definately was not getting enough fluids. So, the fill was reduced by .3. Now no problems in the eating area or with getting fluids.   I need some advice or ideas from a seasoned lapbander.   Thanks.

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

I think I can ....I think I can...

It is wonderful to feel really great. I just hit the 50 pound mark. Me, I have lost 1/2 a hundred pounds. I look around sometimes and wonder if this is really me. It doesn't seem real. I still have a long long way to go with 80 more pounds. But I think I can I think I can! I just keep chugging

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

What Happens When You Lose 40 Pounds!

I recently hit the 40 pound weight loss bench mark and I noticed a few things.......   1. I am only 10 pounds away from 50 which is half of 100:thumbup:   2. I now have a place to rest my hands when I put them on my hips to "discuss things" with my 5 children. (waistline who knew I had one?)   3. My fat girl jeans now look like they belong to a circus clown...never realized that before. That explains alot of things in my life:tongue_smilie:   4. "EGGBEATERS" really are manna from above.   5. The treadmill is more than just a closet anex.   I never knew this weightloss journey would lead me to so many new realizations. On top of everything, I feel good today better than I have felt in a long long time.   Mommy1558

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Fear and Frustration Take OVER!

I am afraid. I am frustrated. I began my journey 12/1/2009 with the Pre Surgery Diet. I thought it would kill me, but I made it with the hope of losing weight long term. Surgery went well 12/16/2009. I had lost 18 pounds by the day of surgery.   The month since has not been good. I have only lost 2 pounds for a total of 20. I want to cry. My family (5 kids and husband) sacrificed $12,000.00 for me. That is money I could have used to support them but instead I am afraid that the money has been wasted on me. The expese is worth it if I can lose the weight and get healthy. The walls of the doctors office are lined with before and after photos of people who have lost 100 + pounds in a years time. I am afraid of being a failure.   I have had one fill on 1/5/2010. I have another appointment on 1/26/2010. Hopefully, I will get another fill. I am exercising. I purchased a treadmill that I am actually using. The first day was 5 minutes of huffing and puffing. Now I can do 40 minutes of huffing and puffing (LOL).   I just needed to vent to other lapbanders who may understand my frustration and fears.   Thanks.:w00t:

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Newbie Blues

I am newly banded 12/16/2009. So, far the gas pains in my shoulders have been my biggest problem. But now I am starting to freak out a little because I have not lost an ounce since surgery. I have been fanitical about not eating many carbs and keeping my foods very high in protein. I have my first fill on January 5. I hope I will begin to see results after that. I have not been exercising because I havent felt well. I did the frantic shopping trip to WAL today but tired out before an hour had elapsed.   I just want to get the weight loss going again I lost 18 pounds during the pre surgery diet. :cursing:

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

 

Two Days to Go!

I am excited about having my surgery day in two days. But tonight I am worried that the clear liquid diet which includes broth soups is making me retain fluid...My feet and hands are swollen. I guess tomorrow will be spent without any broth. Hopefully, I can get the extra fluid off before I weigh in for surgery. Yikes! PS. I am sick of jello.:confused:

Mommy1558

Mommy1558

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