I do believe this is it! I've lost count of fills but I have restriction, I'm not hungry and when I eat I'm literally eating bites of food and I'm satisfied.
I feel great, minus the sweet cravings, food is NEVER on my mind....I LOVE IT. No longer am I a slave to food, the drive thru or anything having to do with food. It feels great to eat an orange or apple and be full. To eat half of a sandwich and be done. To be full off of a protein bar or yogurt. Just great great stuff!
In other news my craving for sweets got the best of me last night so I decided to go to my old standby Peanut Butter and Jelly.... BIG mistake. BIG BIG BIG mistake.. I now know what you all mean by "STUCK", "SLIME" and "PB'ing" - Ok I'd been stuck one before the first week after surgery but it hadn't happened since..
I got about 3 bites into the sandwich and OMGosh the PAIN.. the PAIN.. The nausea the slime the please just go down.. please just go down, or come up.. oh wait it's peanut butter it's not going any where..
Thankfully the whole episode only lasted about 5 mins but it was the LONGEST 5 minutes of my life... so note to self.. Peanut butter is NOT your friend...
Dark and dreary day here in az with a high of 54 right now... all I want to do is stay under the covers but I've got work to do.
So today I was going through the forums and found the "protein" post and while I was giving advice and recipes I got some inspiration on this cold day.. HOT CHOCOLATE!!
Yumm yumm yumm!!!
I could improve it but it was good for the first try..
4oz skim milk
1/4 teaspoon vanilla
pinch of cinnamon
1 scoop designer whey chocolate protein powder
I made it like old fashioned Hot Chocolate on the stove.. milk, then dumped eveything else in and stirred until it started to bubble.
I could have made it creamier by adding some yogurt or non-dairy creamer, and the sugar free chocolate pudding but honestly the way I made it is good too. And I won't feel guilty when I go back for more later HA! lol
Ok in other news... It's official!!! My surgery is now back on the 18th, better day, better number, more recovery time! WOOHOO and I may, may just be able to eat something come Christmas LOL... But now this puts me EXACTLY where I want to be. I'm SO excited! YAY ME!!!
Pre-band but losing and my underwear are entirely too big. Part of me wants to go buy new ones, but then part of me is like wait, we get banded on Friday, let's see what happens after that. lol
This may be an overshare but I think it's a good problem to have.
In other news, other items of clothing and now loose and too big, my one time favorite fitted t-shirt is fitted no more.. YAY!
Well I think, on the upside I get to go shopping. On the double upside, my mother goes through periods of buying everything I buy clothing wise, soooo I can just go into her closet since she's smaller than me and keep my cute outfits LOL.. well for a few sizes anyways, until I get to a size 18, then I'll HAVE to go buy stuff. In a 22 now, so it won't be long... but either way it's still some cushion. YAY a good problem to have.
I'm constantly hungry...but that's because my metabolism is working again, YAY! Another good problem to have..
I'm sure I'll think of more, I'm hungry time for a shake..
So last night I joined a friend at her church's "Friday Night Live" - out of sheer coincidence her family and the church they fellowship with have done business with mine so I knew the majority of the Pastors, Apostles, etc...
As with most church "royalty" there's usually a dinner after service where everyone breaks bread and has their fellowship behind closed doors.
Although I'm a leader in my church I am not a minister or anything like that yet. I'm the administrator for my church. Taking direction only from my Pastor's and I direct the teams, ministers, praise, etc... basically I'm like the "manager".
Seeing this particular group of people was awkward because they had an issue with us over money. (How Christian like, right? lol)
Basically my Pastor agreed to bless them for 3 months of friday night services and after the 3 months he would charge his normal fee for speaking engagements. Seems like a fair deal. Evidently not so much, but I digress..
So they invite me to the dinner and I agree as graciously as I could. Although, if I remember right I said "I guess" and then a quick "thank you."
Awkward because 1.) I'm on a fast and 2.) they're supposed to be on a fast and 3.) The food being served was not fast friendly. And 4.) The above mentioned "disagreement" between our churches and 5.) they piled food on my plate like I was eating for 3 people. 6.) Again, aren't we on a fast?!?!?!
So I did my best trying to not be insulting to people, trying to finish what I could and stay as close as I could to staying on my fast...Not only that, but BAND FRIENDLY!
But as it turns out...Everything they had was NOT band friendly. I tried to eat just fruits and veggies...but they looked at me funny for not eating the fried rice, orange chicken and sweet and sour meatballs they had piled on my plate.
Oh and there's cake... oh and hmmm fruit punch, one sip. oh look it's carbonated. UGH.
I left out of there feeling like I was going to bust. The food was all things that would "expand" in my stomach and adding that sip of carbonated fruit punch fizz did NOT help!
The room was darkly lit light they were trying to set some sort of "romantic mood" the kind where you can see your plate, but if there was something wrong with your food, you wouldn't be able to see it. Yeah that dark.
I finished what I could and was SO thankful when they came around to take our plates. I was able to just throw my napkin over the top and act like I'd eaten the portions they'd given me. Even if I mostly just swirled them around on my plate.
Needless to say my band hurts today... not "hurts" but I can "feel" it today.. if I breathe deeply I swear I feel it.. Nothing but liquids today... this is NOT the business...
Next time I'll just say no, instead of "I guess" really who says that anyways???? "I guess" how rude of me... *sigh*
My best friend is super excited for me now that my surgery date is getting near. She's been with me through the I think I want it.. no wait I don't.. no wait I do's.. I've been through over the last 2 years we've been friends.
When I finally decided to do this, she was shocked but super supportive. She began looking into it herself but due to insurance, it's not the right time for her.
Last night we were talking and we came up with the idea to do a banded vs. unbanded challenge. She's going to eat the same foods and amounts as me or try to, and we're going to document the differences between the two. I think this will be interesting for the two of us, and for everyone considering the banding. We started today and will do this process for 1 year.
Today is a ease into day. I don't technically start my pre-op diet til Monday, but I decided to get used to it by easing my way into. So for example today I had 2 protein shakes, but I also had cucumbers and crackers w/ ranch. The cucumbers not so bad, the crackers and ranch.. .well I think you already know lol.
I also had soda which oddly enough I rarely drink, but because I "know" I'm not going to be able to, I suddenly just HAD to have it. lol
Other than that it's been a normal day, the 2nd shake was MUCH better. Everything tastes better out of a wine or martini glass lol (that's really funny considering I don't drink lol)
But I made a protein shake with a lil' yogurt, skim milk, ice and strawberries and it was almost on the verge of delicious. After the first one though it was like heaven to my mouth lol.
In other news.. some people said my previous post was almost "pornographic" but obviously they don't understand that that's the point, I wanted to show how UNHEALTHY my relationship with food is/was.
This is what I do... if my writing makes you think, laugh or hiss it's all intentional. Chances are that's the EXACT reaction I was going for.
I know my writing style and personality isn't for everyone.. and that's why they invents the X at the top of the screen lol :biggrin:
Just kidding, I have :wink2: for everyone!
Anyone ever done it? I'm starting today for cleansing and weightloss purposes. I'm 10lbs from my own first personal goal and I MUST reach it by monday. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. I thought about doing the pre-op diet or the liquids pouch test diet but then I thought if I'm going to do it, I need to cleanse my body as well.
So here I am...dreading my first Salt water slam... the thought of it...ICK...
I know you can do the master cleanse for 40 days but I only intend on doing it til Monday morning before my fill appointment. I also want them to go super aggressive on my fill, since I skipped my last one, if they'll put 2 cc's in that would be good, or maybe even 1.5 cause I need one. I have days where I feel like a hungry hungry hippo and days where I want nothing at all.
I'm super sore from working out yesterday...Oh my goodness...I think it was the stretching that did me in, not even the work out lol.
It's all working and worth it, when kids tell you "Oh wow you're getting skinnier" lol gotta love the honesty of kids, especially when they keep you in check as well...as the 4 yr old says to me "Why do you always eat that?" as I'm popping something not good for me into my mouth. I stop to think, do I ALWAYS eat that? and pop it out... lol it's a great checks and balances system lol
So now I'm off to the store, need some syrup and some seasalt... here goes umm something lol:thumbup:
Totally realizing that weight loss is more of a mental battle than it is a physical. Going through my closet getting rid of clothes that are too big for me, and instead of having tears of joy, I have tears of something else. I know they're just clothes, and can be easily replaced...I can rationalize but it doesn't change how I'm feeling. *sigh*
I'm a bit of a clothes horse and when I buy something, I buy it because I absolutely LOVE it, so watching it go to someone else, or parting with it is hard, but really it's not about them or the clothes. It's more about I feel like layers of me are be peeled away and I'm not sure what we'll find or what will be exposed. It's so weird, I never thought I'd feel this way. I thought I'd be doing the HAPPY DANCE, and there's times I do, but tonight, I don't know.. it's just affecting me different. I think because as many times as I've cleaned out my closet and given away clothes, there's certain items I've hung on to, and kept "just in case" maybe that's it... maybe it's because somewhere deep down I'm feeling like, I can't go back, like before, I've yo-yo'd my whole life. Making jokes out of true stories about how I went on a cruise at a size 18, but packed my "Fat clothes" and came off a 20/22. I think maybe it's because releasing those items on some level means I'm releasing the permission I once gave myself to be fat, that it was OK, that I could go up and down and would figure it out and be fine as long as I stayed under 300lbs or a size 26 or smaller.
Going into stores I'm so used to shopping in and realizing I'm toward the end of my days there... maybe I just feel exposed and afraid of the unknown, a size 18 is the smallest I've ever been in adult life. Well since I was about 14 actually.... I don't know anything else beyond this. I see my body changing every day, even if the scale doesn't change, I lose inches, go down in size etc..
A custom t-shirt I had made not too long ago is now a little big, I just realized I may actually HAVE to get another shirt made soon, just these little things, usually they make me happy. But tonight, for some reason they made me sad, like I literally had tears... I was laughing at myself because I couldn't figure out WHY I was feeling this way, but I no matter how hard I tried... I still felt the way I felt.
This is a long journey and it's so much more than just a physical one, but at the same time.. to be honest, I haven't really worked out since I've had my surgery.... in this exposed feeling tonight, I think it's evident why... I've been afraid of the unknown, of the life that awaits me below a size 18 of the life where I'm not longer really seen as "fat" or overweight by most people. Where I'm no longer the biggest person in the room. The last time I was here... I creeped my way back up to a 26 in a year and half... their were some extenuating circumstance but still....it happened.. thing is, the whole reason I got this done was so that it would NEVER happen again.
So ready or not, here I go...tomorrow (or today) is a new day, I'll take each day, one by one, do something for myself everyday, move everyday, do something EVERYDAY and see what changes come out of it. Who would have known at a year and 3 months out I would be feeling this flood of emotions?!?! Like I always say....this is a journey... I've obviously got mine cut out for me, but I'm more than up to it!
Just shy of 5 months post-op... Down 40lbs, when I was down almost 80... my doctor says "Don't worry Yvette, this is normal. Especially in people with your body type, your weight gain is muscle not fat, don't be upset."
Ok so I'm not gonna lie, I'm a lil' upset. I KNOW I build muscle really fast, and I KNOW muscle weighs more than fat.. I get all that.. I KNOW my weight is down and so are my clothing sizes and inches.
I'm just I dunno.. a lil' skewed on all of this. I finally got to a fill point where I was almost "too tight" but it was working.. I missed my follow up fill because I was traveling.. and so I went to my month appointment yesterday and although I was down 8.8 pounds which I know I should be happy about and I am.. I'm just like shouldn't it be MORE...
I don't even know why I'm complaining.. I shouldn't be. I guess I'm just feeling the pressure of my 6 months and then my year coming up and my own personal goals in there.. relax Yvette...slow and steady wins the race...
Day 3 of the pre - pre-op diet.. lol I started a week early just to ease my way into it.
The first day the 1st protein shake was HORRIBLE. The 2nd one was tolerable. Day 2 I started off right, created a protein shake that was on the verge of delicious. Then I got derailed by some chocolate chip cookies with skim milk (because yeah that skim milk makes ALLLLLL the difference lol) and a pollo asado burrito for dinner.. WHAT??? It's protein... lol
Ok so I fell off yesterday but I knew I would, that's why I did this a week early. Despite my falling off, everyone made comment about how great I looked and my energy level and I must admit I felt GREAT. People were asking me how much weight I've lost lol.. Umm I've been on a diet for 2.5 days, how much do you expect me to lose??? Lol but you know what? I will RECEIVE those compliments and how I feel!
Today I ate a cucumber like it was THE BEST candybar I'd ever had.. I think I was just excited for the texture lol, but I also played around with some shake recipes which I will be posting here in my blog as I develop and taste them.
Today's shake:
4oz Healthy Balance Apple Juice
2 tbsp vanilla non-fat yogurt (be careful with the sugar/carbs etc in your yogurt. Greek yogurt is best if you can find it - LOTS of protein, low carbs and little to no sugar.)
1 scoop vanilla Designer Whey protein mix
handful of icecubes.
Mix or blend, whichever you prefer, I've tried it both ways and they're both delicious. Well as delicious as it can be lol.
Tomorrow I'll do one with Acai juice and see how it turns out.
If you try the shake let me know what you think. :thumbup:
As with most women, the week before my period my appetite increases and the cravings hit.
I'm two days shy of being two months post op, 2 fills down, feeling restriction and all is going well BUTTTTTTTTTTT.... Man if mother nature isn't tryin' to go 12 rounds with my band.
At my current level of restriction I'm almost never hungry. But when I do eat it's hard to stop... I've gotten so full it's almost painful because mother nature/cravings can't seem to get enough of the taste. Not the amount of food, but the taste of it.. and carbs...OMGosh CARBS.. pasta...pasta..pasta and cheese. I need to get back on track or I'm going to gain and that's SO not on the plan.
On the recent episode of Supernatural there was a guy who ate so much he burst his band... I just thought OMGOSH what if that was me.. cause when you DO eat too much it hurts.. I couldn't even imagine. I know it's overly dramatic but as I sat there watching, realizing I had eaten nothing but homemade mac & cheese for the day I let my mind drift and get wrapped up in that.. Ugh mother nature why must you treat me this way.. lol
I must be strong... every time I want to eat I should go work out... but then the cramps and ugh...
I've been having cravings for "sweet & creamy" - ice cream, blizzards etc... it doesn't help that I have a view of a dairy queen from my kitchen...
Anyways I've been doing ok... but then I remembered I make REALLY good protein shakes, I think I had just tried of the ones I was doing so I stopped doing them.
So today.. today I did banana chocolate chip.. YES chocolate chip and it was SO good.
A few chocolate chips won't hurt you and if you don't want the "extra" you can make it the same without them.
2 handfuls of ice
1 scoop each - chocolate & vanilla protein powder
8 oz of skim milk (I think I did 10, over pour)
4 table spoons of fage greek 0% yogurt
1 banana
1 table spoon of agave nectar
A small handful of chocolate chips (just the palm of your hand 10-20 chips at most).
Blend and enjoy...
So YUMMY!
Since getting my call and having an actual surgery date, all I can think about it is my surgery and life after. Researching diets, nutrition, etc.. 100% committed to this lifestyle change.
It's consuming my thoughts and mind, to me it's a good thing, but I'm starting to think I'm obsessing over it. I have SEVERAL projects I need to be doing, but as I start to work on them, I get a thought about a recipe or a surgery question or something surgery related and I'm off doing that.
I need to focus.. I NEED to get all of these projects done TODAY.
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS... but all I can think about is how long my stay will be, can I talk the surgeon into the single incision method. Does he already use the single incision method? My pre-op appointment is tuesday with the surgeon so I'm SURE I'll get alot of my questions answered then.
And wondering if I can get my original surgery date back.. I was originally scheduled for the 18th, but I pushed it back to the 21st due to an event I had scheduled for the 18th, but last night I decided to cancel the event. Now I want the surgery on that day.. I need to call my scheduler and see if it's still available. She'll probably want to ring my neck after I already changed it once lol.
18=9, 21=3 - both good numbers... I'll have to think on this. 9 feels better and has stronger meaning.
12+18=30 3+0=3 12+21=33 - 3+3=6 eh still a good number but I prefer 3 or 9... so 18th it is.. now let's just see if I can get my scheduler to agree :thumbup:
Yes I'm strange, yes I just totally just worked that out for the world to see and let you all in on my crazy lol -really Yvette? Really.. lol oh well it's my blog lol.
Starbursts do not count as "Gummies".
Pasta especially covered in cheesey fattening goodness, in even a small bite or two are NOT your friend.
Sugar cookies dissolve in your mouth before you even realize you put one in there and you're REALLY not supposed to be eating them.
No those ghirardelli chocolate and caramel squares will not just melt and slide...
Christmas parties and potlucks are the devil when you're a day short of being a week out of surgery.
All of the above results in gas, and gas pains coming back even though you've been pain free for a week.
Today I will do liquids all day, until dinner and then I will be VERY VERY VERY careful and then go back on to liquids to repair any damage I did last night... UGH...
LMAO... I took my first progress pic last night and it's the first time I took a pic straight on without the use of "flattering fat girl camera angles" in I can't even tell you how long.
I'm sure you all know the tricks.. Camera UP way UP so you're looking up and the excess chin or in some cases chins are below your jawline and aren't seen in the picture...
Uh huh... famous for those...
That being said I didn't have to do that last night and I'm just one week well 10 days post op.. I'm SO excited!!!
Progress, progress, progress!!! Love to see the changes!
:drool:
First let me say a thank you to those of you who sent me messages to check up on me, or let me know you missed my blogging, etc...
I've been quite the busy lil' bee lately and being online has only been for work and the occassional facebook check in lol.
All of that being said, let's see it's been about a month since my last log in.. not even sure about my last blog.
But the 4th of June I had another fill....I think this puts me at 7.75 in a 14 cc band. And wow can I feel the difference. Even getting samples at costco is too much for me right now.
My last two fills have had me experience sliming, pb'ing and last night for the first time...vomiting, well I think it was vomiting, I get confused on what you guys call PB'ing. Either way, It may be TMI but I ate a few chunks of fruit, (pineapple, cantaloupe, watermelon, etc..) by the time I got to the 4th chunk I had to excuse myself.. as I sat in the bathroom sliming....suddenly in one fell swoop up came the last chunk of fruit I had, not gross, but just as if I had chewed it and spit it out. Then I INSTANTLY felt better and went back to eating. I think I didn't chew enough, or my band just doesn't like honeydew lol.
Anyways...my weightloss had seemed to slow prior to this last fill. When I went in I had lost 2lbs. Which is still great considering what my diet had consisted of... Not that it's an excuse but I've been working excessive hours like 9am to 3am and moving. My house/houses were boxed up for about 3 weeks and for some reason the movers boxed up the kitchen first. So the combination of all of that had me back in my old lover's arms, basking in the light of his golden arches. Darn you Ronald...DARN YOU!! I said I would never call again... but you got me. But I'll get away this time lol... So after almost a month of fast food almost EVERY night.. I still lost. *Sigh* when I think of how much MORE I could have lost if I had been on plan!
I'm back to a white out (no flour, sugar, salt, rice) and putting protien shakes into heavy rotation while eating very small portions. Like last night I had 1/2 of a fish fillet (the fish not the sandwich lol) and some veggies. I wasn't hungry at all, but I hadn't eaten since 2 or 3pm so I figured I should eat something.
I have an appoint on Friday, supposed to be a fill appointment, I REALLY don't think I need any more liquid in there than I have right now.. maybe .25 to put it to 8 and tighten me up through my PMS phase which is due to come.
I can't be the only one who's band does not seem to be a match for mother nature during that time. I swear it's almost like my jaws come unhinged and I want to put everything in sight in my mouth, the sweeter and carby-er the better lol.. yes I know carbyer isn't a word but you know what? It's MY blog lol
Ok so where does that leave me.. been a good girl for the most part since my fill.. really didn't have a choice..
Came up with a new smoothy recipe that is AMAZING.. I mean AMAZING!!!
Speaking of amazing...I experienced this tres leche cake at a local spot here that is AMAZING.. I mean toe-curling, grab the edge of the table and look at the plate like it just did some dirty things to you, kind of amazing!!! I've made this my once a month treat.
Tres Leche cake, with coconut milk ice cream, topped with toasted coconut and pineapple tidbits and this rum sauce.. OMG this rum sauce.. AMAZING! I mean A-FREAKING-MAZING!
Like I had to stop eating it before there was a When Harry Met Sally kinda scene in there.. luckily I was sharing it with someone else so it didn't go to waste.
I'm going hardcore from now on... this friday is my 6 months post op and although I've lost, I'm not happy with my progress because I *KNOW* I could have done WAYYYYYYYYYY better. I've been so busy putting other things first and not focusing on me and my workout time, etc...
So going hard core, come my 1 yr anniversary ya'll are gonna be congratulating me on 100lbs gone. Probably more..
Epic moments so far: My shirt size and pant size now being the same, or close to (depending on the shirt lol)
For the first time since I was a teenager I fit into an 20 shirt which to me is a HUGE deal.. I mean HUGE! Then when I fit into an 18 I was ecstatically happy!
So 18 shirt down from a tight 32 (at my highest). Able to wear an x-large t-shirt and not have to special order a shirt for me for all of the various events I do. It feels SO good!
I'm teetering on the 18/20 size range, depending on the cut of the item. I bought a pair of capris from LB that were a 20, only because the 18 fell right on my Lapband scar which was uncomfortable.
I'm now at the point where I understand WHY people get lipo and other surgeries, although I DO NOT have saggy skin, I see my body changing and getting tighter in some areas, where I start to think... "Hmmmm if I just had this sucked out... I'd be GOOD" lol but I KNOW it's a challenge and I am determined to do this the right way, without any cheats or surgery.
So thankful to have friends who are helping me along the way, a seamstress friend to help with clothes, an esthetician friend who brings me all sorts of firming and rejuvenating creams, that seem to work. Bodybuilding/exercise guru/expert friends to help with diet and workouts. I have it set, I just need to take action which is what I am doing now.
Ok so I think that about covers it, my schedule is freeing up no so I'll have some more time to be back on here and check in with everyone. Please do give me the recaps of your progress!
Hope you're all doing amazingly well!!!
So today is my 6 months of being banded. I had my regular appointment yesterday and we did some extra things to make sure everything is ok as well.
I have a clean bill of health. The band is working wonderfully, I got another fill which puts me to just over 8ccs in a 14cc band.
I'm 7lbs shy of my 6 month goal which was to lose 50lbs, but given the weightloss rollercoaster I've been on with the shedding pounds then gaining muscle at this point I'm just excited to be losing and to see the results in my body.
When I shared what has going on with the sliming etc.. we discussed what I was eating each time, and then did a barium x-ray to make sure the band was working and not leaking, etc.. Everything looked great, it was so interesting to see it actually "work" in my body.
After we decided to do a small fill to aid in my upcoming PMS eating... and today I feel great, had some eggs and even a porkchop today. - at separate times of course lol
Other than that everything is great, this is still the best thing I ever did for myself... it's amazing to me to think and know that in 6 months time I will have another 50+ lbs to have lost a total of 100+lbs. It's amazing to me, makes me just want to shout and run on that like I was in church! God is SO good, none of this is possible for me without Him! Hallelujah! :sneaky::confused:
This whole thing has just been awesome!
Just shy of 14 months out, finally in my sweet spot and losing PRAISE THE LORD!!! I'm at the lowest weight I've been since having surgery and shrinking...lt's been 2 months since my last fill - lol had to remember I'm not catholic , this was starting to feel like confession lol.. anyways.. as I lose and my body is shrinking... my skin is so ITCHY, mostly at my incision sites. I use cocoa butter and coconut oil on a daily basis and stay hydrated so it's not dry skin.. it's all weight loss related.. like the skin that's used to being covered is now being exposed to air or something.. but the incision sites, the incision sites are something else completely. Maybe it's because 1 of them has keloided - oh the joy of being mixed lol.. but they are just ugh.. I can't even explain it.. is anyone else experiencing this? There's no rash/infection etc.. it's just ITCHY!
Not because I'm embarrassed or ashamed, never have been. But because my bathing suits are TOO BIG and I don't want to go shop for another one that will be too big in a couple of weeks.. what's a girl to do.. lol
Oh to have such problems LOL... YAY ME!:smile2:
Hey bandland!
Weird to realize I haven't been here since August 5th.. Life has kept me pretty busy!
I am almost to the 10 month mark, (the 18th will be it) I've been told I'm doing well by my dr's so I'm happy about that. Before the end of the year I have to have an upper GI to make sure everything looks good with my esophagus...yeah that sounds fun.. lol..
In other news, I attended my friend's birthday party last night and saw lots of friends I hadn't seen since my surgery. They all went on and on about how great I looked so THAT... THAT right there makes it all worth it! LOL :cursing: and totally gave me the motivation I needed to keep going and reignite my fire!
On my last fill I had them go aggressive and so now I'm having some issues but for the most part all is well.. I'm doing 2-a-days at the gym and loving it, pilates, yoga, zumba, cardio, weights, kickboxing, swimming, you name it.. I'm doing it and it feels great!
I'm actually feeling the effects of being out of town for the past week without access to a gym.. I can't wait to get back in there tomorrow :thumbup:
Other than that, I think that's it for now.. this is my busy time of year so I don't spend alot of extra time online, but I would love to catch up with all of you, hope you're all doing well!
Love & Faith,
Y
So something else I was doing made me start to think about all of my progress.. I think I need to print this out and put it on the fridge or something.. It's not goo quality, I don't know how to photoshop or anything like that.. but umm yeah.. WOW
*Please see attachment*
So I've figured out my weakness and what I need to stay away from... CARBS.. carbs carbs and more carbs. I already KNEW they were my weakness, but I didn't realize just how bad it was. I've been doing great post op, losing, etc...
This week I've been moving and having my kitchen boxed up and unavailable I've been eating out lots, fast food... (I know, I know) I thought oh I'll just eat the meat... Which would have been ok, until I realized I need a FILL (SO glad I'm getting one on Monday) and I'm eating everything in sight blah.
Buns, tortillas, rolls, breads... I'd been almost 8 weeks without them and in just one week weight is back in my face.. just one week. That's all it took..
So now that I've seen the other side and how quickly it can come and go.. GONE in the bread and simple carb. GONE GONE GONE and so will my double chin be, hopefully in time for my date.:biggrin:
Liquid diet and working out, my chins were the first thing to go, and the first thing to come back.. EEEEEK!! So I've got the next week to get it together!
Stupid carbs! lol
So last night I spent my NYE at church. We had a great time and as usual a potluck, we tend to have sandwiches as the main course because they're quick, easy and people can do what they want with it, add mayo, etc...
Being banded I now see how much we as a society over eat! Let me explain...
The deli didn't have enough time to make our order but they did have some ready made footlongs, you know the ones made piled high on a whole loaf of french bread? This is the same sandwich we usually order but it's cut in 3 instead of slices. We usually order a 6 foot sub and it's gone within minutes.
So last night we got 6 sandwiches to equal the 6 ft sub we usually buy. They brought it into me to prepare and I looked at the huge hunks of sandwich and now in my banded eye and mind cut them into reasonable portions.. I took every third and cut it into 4 mini sandwiches.
Wouldn't you know, we ended up with 3 unopened sandwiches and leftovers from the first 3.. this has NEVER happened in all of the gatherings we've ever had.
To go a step further, I kept the bread from my mini sandwich, ate the meat, cheese and lettuce and kept the bread. I purposely mashed it and balled it up to see what it would look like chewed and in my stomach.
I was disgusted... me, the bread lover. The person who would get a hot loaf of french bread with some butter from the store and would eat it as a meal. I was so disgusted by the ball of dough now sitting in my hand, to realized that it came from just that lil' mini sandwich and was about the size of my upper stomach/stoma.
I thought about before how I, like everyone else, would take a thick slice of sandwich or two and eat them. I never realized just how much I was putting into my body..
And reality struck me... Yvette THIS is why you're fat. Your whole life you've loved breads, even meals that come on breads, burgers and sandwiches have been the mainstay of my diet. Going upscale? Beef Wellington please... that's right I like my beef wrapped in dough..
Pizza, I don't even like pizza, but I do like the crust covered in parm and pepper flakes.
You name it and if it was doughy deliciousness I've probably eaten it. Carbalicious doughy deliciousness. If it was sugar or frosting coated or filled even better.
I have a completely new outlook, but it's going to be a struggle. Even after being disgusted by the ball of bread, I let out an excited fat girl scream when someone came in with Hot Krispy Kremes... I limited myself to one and enjoyed it, savored it. This must be how the other half lives, because never in my life have I nibbled and noshed on something that tasted so good. If it was good I ate it, ate it quick and as much of it as I could.
Prior to being banded, I have and would have eaten a dozen of hot glazed krispy kremes by myself. Then justify it by not eating anything else the rest of the day or saying "they're just so good and like air, they melt in your mouth"
Gone is that person, it's physically impossible for me to do, but I've also renewed my mind to food, it's purpose and it's effects.
Disgusted by the memory of me going to Krispy Kreme and ordering a dozen or a dozen and half. Eating 6 and feeling full, looking down to see the icing mess on my shirt. Going home or to work with the rest and some how losing track until they were all gone.
Ugh.. seriously it makes me feel a multitude of emotions, sad, disgusted, pathetic, angry, etc.. How do you do that to yourself and not even realize what your doing. What is so wrong in your life that Food is your only comfort? I know the answer to that question and it's not something to put here for all to see but WOW.. Really Yvette???
How far gone do you have to be where you're in relationships with men encourage you to eat like that, or have fights with your husband about food and donuts, and other food related nonsense. What a site that must of been, wolfing down donuts in the parking lot of the Krispy Kreme, I remember that look he gave me, and now 7 yrs later, I get it. It was disgust.
On the upside I've done something about it, so the past can never be again...
That's the new reality and it's definitely struck me, whether I was ready for it or not.
2010 here we are....Let's make the most of it. This was my last fat christmas, my last fat NYE, my last fat anything... Life solutions, not resolutions. Do everything in excellence or don't do it at all.
One of my favorite omlettes is what's usually called a California Omlette or a Santa Barbara Omlette.
Typically it has bacon, jack cheese, spinach, avocado, tomato and sour cream/salsa.
Today I made a band friendly version in a scramble that was delicious.
2 eggs
2 pieces turkey lunch meat
1/4 cup fresh baby spinach (half a handful)
1 slice Jack cheese
Fresh diced roma tomato
Fresh diced avocado
First dice lunch meat and put in pan to warm,as it's warming add preferred method of cooking agent, evoo, butter, etc.. If using a spray, spray the pan first.
Next add baby spinach and allow it to cook down, mixing with the diced turkey meat.
Once spinach is soft and wilted add 2 eggs and scramble the mixture as it's cooking (or pre-scramble eggs in bowl depending on your cooking level) stirring/scrambling constantly will insure soft light fluffy eggs.
Once the eggs are about done add cheese and turn off the heat.. eggs will continue cooking while you mix the cheese into them.
Once cheese is melted plate the eggs and cover with desired amount of diced roma tomato and avocado. (about a table spoon of each is good) mix into eggs and serve.
You can add milk to your eggs for protein, or you can serve with fage plain yogurt as a sour cream subsitute.
Eggs should be soft and moist, not dry and hard.
It will look like a alot of food, but in reality it's about 6oz total. Eating that puts me right at my limit for food and being full.
You can also cut in half and make with 1 egg, 1 meat, 1/2 cheese etc...
Let me know if you try it, and how you like it! :biggrin:
A big HEY GIRL HEYYYY! Out to all of you in bandland :scared2: I know it's been a while since I was here.
I have some how managed to gain 4lbs in the last 2 months. Well I guess I shouldn't say some how, I know exactly how. STRESS causing me A.) to not eat enough and B.) stress eat when I do eat.
And you know what? It's just not worth it, so EFF IT. I've decided me and my health is worth way more than someone else's project so I'll give it another week to see if they get it together, if not.. See ya! And I'll be busy working out and working this weight off.
Totally lost my train of thought... 8 hours later... eh I'll come back to it
So year out... couple weeks over.. this time last year I was on liquids only so the spiritual fast I do every January was very easy...protein shakes and more protein smoothies.. I had been doing it for weeks prior to my surgery and just kept on it while I healed. So here we are this year... January and this year's spiritual fast is here.. no meat, no bread, no sweets. Just all natural fruits, veggies, etc... essentially vegan for a month.. NO animal products. This means alot of gluten free, wheat free and organic eating.. Oh look that was in the aftercare diet..
So now here I am eating veggies and "whole" foods, all organic and gluten free and in the 3 days (started on the 3rd) I've been doing it, I haven't had one single issue with my band, getting stuck or getting that overly full feeling sneaking up on me. Wouldn't you know that in 3 days I've lost 10lbs?!?!?!? PRAISE THE LORD.. last year I lost 42lbs on the fast but I did it for 6 or 7 weeks if you include the pre-op diet.
If I keep up at this rate for the month... Hmmmmm I'll be ALOT closer to goal...
In my prayer time, I heard to stop eating wheat, it's the gluten that keeps me fat because of my blood type. Then I went online and researched and sure enough... there it was clear as day, O blood types shouldn't eat wheat products because the gluten reacts with our bodies and we pack on pounds...
As someone who has lived most of their years on the planet eating sandwiches, hamburgers and pasta.... it ALL makes sense... either way the point to this post is.. I totally get it now and will be making these changes, and adhering to the true aftercare diet...this time next year, I'll be on a billboard... Watch!
