Okay I am 33 yo 5'4 and 238 lbs.. I havent even gotten my surgery date but thursday is my nutritin/psych consult which is the las thing left on my LOOOOONG list of things to do. I am excited and nervous at the same time. What to expect and how i will react to the consults. i am really weird about opening up to people. but i am willing to go out of my comfort zone on this one! I am hoping to get approved quickly. I would hate the suspense of waiting! My biggest issue i think is going to be night time eating. I am really bad with this. I know most of it is emotianl eating. I do have alot of stress right now, between $ and the kids and my DH's eyes and just the fear of our future. I think i am keeping myself fat for a reason. Probably to use it as an excuse of why i cant do things or whatever. i want to go back to school yet the telephone #'s are sitting here on my computer desk and i havent even made teh call. its kinda sad. i am a mom of 4 GREAT girls and i am setting a crappy example for them. I hope with this tool and lots of work i can make a huge change in my life not just in my pants size!
