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Today was a bad day

OMG today was really bad. I woke up and was sore all over....just generalized not feeling well. I know I am only 11 days post surgery and I am not fully recovered but it makes me wonder why I feel this way as I was doing good. The nausea.....I have been so nauseated...It takes everything I have to keep from vomiting. I made it in to work, it was the most unproductive shift ever. I have just felt terrible..I guess this is the hell that everyone is referring to. Why did I know about the hell prior to surgery. That wasn't discussed at the seminar. My doctor didn't tell me that when we discussed the surgery. I wouldhave just liked a heads up so I could be prepared. Well how could you really prepare for this....I just keep praying for the strength to go on and am trying not to ask myself WHAT have I done!

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

scared

Monday will be three weeks since my surgery. I am starting to freak......I have this weird almost burning kind of pain in my right upper quadrant of my stomach....where the largest incision is. It only hurts to touch or when I sit down and then get up. It is so sore I can barely touch it. When I press around I feel something there....I don't know if it is the port or what I am feeling but I am concerned. I am thinking about calling my doctor but I am not sure...I dont want to seem like a hypochondriac. My incisions are healed so I don't know what this could be???????????????????????????????????:thumbup:

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stoney0282

 

On my way

I paid for my surgery today....ten dollars left in the savings account. I know that a year from now that it will be so worth it. I am eight days away and I am excited. I am looking forward to a new year and a new me!!!!!

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

I think maybe it is getting better

Two weeks. I am still having substantial pain in my port incision. I think it is bruising and it is so tender...I am getting some energy back. I have just been amazed at how bad that I have felt since my surgery. I was not expecting it to be such a hard recovery. I have not gotten a fill yet but I am getting full quicker. I have also noticed some restriction with certain things so I forsee my first fill resulting in weight loss. I am excited and starting to feel better.

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stoney0282

 

I think I am getting back to normal

I am feeling much better. The pain that I was having was a muscle strain. I put myself back on liquids and really made an effort to not use that muscle when getting up and did not do anything too strenuous and it is much better. I have lost 12 pounds and can feel it:thumbup: I am pretty stoked right now. My first fill is Feb 8th.....can't wait for that!!

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

I did it!!

My surgery went very well. I had some severe pain in the recovery room but in a short while that subsided and I am at home,,,,really am feeling incredibly wonderful....I feel that this is all a dream...

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

I am so nauseated

I am two weeks post op. No matter what I eat, I am nauseated. I am so tired of it....I have not thrown up I just stay sick at my stomach.

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

Attack

I was banded on Monday....everything was going fine. I was so happy, I had very minimal pain, I was up and down and was thinking wow...this was so worth it. Up until yesterday I was following the diet to a tee. I have been off work so here I am sitting in this house thinking about this band.....I was so hungry, nothing that I done was taking my mind off food. And really it was just a mental thing. I didn't feel hungry.. I just needed food! I felt like a heroin addict needing a fix....I couldn't sleep for thinking about eating. I ate a biscuit with syrup. I had no problems getting it down. And then I felt soooo bad because my daughter wouldn't speak to me because she knew that I was not following the doctors recommendations. I am fine now that I have that out of my system....I am starting to have mixed emotions now....the restrictions are too restrictive,,,,,or maybe it's depression I don't know but this is where I am.

stoney0282

stoney0282

 

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I made a mistake by coming back to work tonight. I feel terrible. I never thought about having to bend over if I drop something or the weight restriction, not being able to lift over 10 pounds. I feel like an invalid....and I am in pain. As I sit here, drinking ice water and eating watery grits while everyone around me is eating juicy cheeseburgers and fries I wonder,,,,,if one would have told me how intensely hard that it would be to fight the urge to eat, and that it would take every ounce of willpower that you ever could imagine to stay on this liquid diet,,,,would I have still agreed to this? I just keep thinking what have I done. I could have just been fat and happy....This is a living hell...not to mention the pain when you have to burp feels like being punched in the sternum with a baseball bat.....God give me the strength to do this.....this is so much harder than I thought it would be.:smile2:

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stoney0282

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