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Okay, it is time for a private rant. The lady at Curves (I can't remember her name to save my life. I'm sure we were introduced at one time, but whatever...) she is driving me crazy. Everytime I go in there, she goes on and on about my weight loss. EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!!!! I am more than just my weight!! I hate the measuring days. Not just because of the scale, but because she's usually the only one there to do it. Then she gets all giddy "oh girl you've lost so much. blah-blah inches off your blah-blah, blah-blah pounds." And apparently that isn't enough for her. Oh NO!! She's got to annouce it to the entire freaking club. Even when it isnt' measuring day, she'll ask me how much i've lost since the last measuring day, or how much altogether since joining or since surgery. How many pounds, how many inches, gone down any clothes sizes? I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!! I never answer her, but she doesn't seem able to take a hint. Why can't she ask about anything else??? I'd almost rather discuss religion!!!! I'd really just like to smack her in the head with a hand weight. Maybe then she'd quit it. If I object to her GUSHING, she says "oh you should be proud." Well I am, but I'm proud of myself. I don't need everyone else in the entire free world to know about it. I don't want them (anyone) to make a big deal out of it. I'd much rather be ignored. It makes me uncomfortable. I've thought of just going to a different Curves. Just to get away from her. I know she's being nice (or thinks she is) but I need it to stop!!!!!!!!

February 21, 2007

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3rd. mini-goal met!

-75 lbs. This means that I've acheived my third mini-goal. The reward for that is buying my second Van Gogh painting (reproduction.) Of course, I never bought the first one, so I can't really buy the second. But still, I earned those paintings. I go to the website (www.vangoghmuseum.nl) sometimes and just admire them. I can't justify the expense right now. Someday though. "Almond blossoms" and "Irises"; go check them out, they're so pretty. I'm going in for another fill this Wednesday. Just a teeny one. Only 5 pounds away from One-derland, I think I'm going to lose my mind!

January 28, 2007

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Liquids are aw(ful)some!

I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. They're both true, but I can't make up my mind which is more true. I hate liquids because I would really like a hamburger or some Chick-fil-a. I love liquids because they broke my stall. I've been stalled for 3 weeks now. I had my 4th. fill on Wednesday (9cc total) and Dr. Jay requires liquids for a whole week. I've lost 7 lbs. since Wednesday. :biggrin1: :clap2: :biggrin1: I've also had a NSV. I was trying to get ready for work and it took me 15 minutes to find a pair of pants that wouldn't make me look like an M.C. Hammer impersonator. That day my work handed out Wal-Mart giftcards for Xmas. So I figured I would use it to buy 2 pairs of workpants. I've been wearing size 22 pants. The ones I bought for work are 16/18!! They're a little snug but that means I'll be able to wear them longer. After Xmas I'll be going shopping for everyday clothes. I can't believe that I'm actually looking forward to going shopping. It is also time for a challenge update. Those three weeks at a stall have really shortened my chances of making this goal. I'll get close though and I'm happy with that.

December 15, 2006

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Bike & cookies

So, I'm going to try again this week to take my bike to the park. Everybody keep your fingers crossed for me. I've had a good week, exercise-wise. I went to the Rec. Center near my work 4 times. Three of those times I had also gone to Curves. The last time I went to the Rec. (Thurs.) I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes on the treadmill. I actually wished I could've done more. Can't believe I just said that! I also just found out that because I am technically a city employee, I get a free one year membership to the Rec. That is awesome since otherwise it would cost $150. I was kind of upset when I got home from work today. Last night I baked a batch of chocolate-chip cookies. This is something I hardly ever do. Usually when I bake cookies, I bake oatmeal, because that is the kind my mom likes. I don't like oatmeal cookies, so I don't eat any. And since I'm the only person in my family who will actually take the time to bake cookies, I almost never get to have any cookies. So I was all happy that I would get to enjoy some choc-chip cookies for a few days. You know, I wasn't planning on eating the whole batch in a day or anything like that. Just a little treat for myself, my mom and my dad. However I get home and I look around for the cookies. Didn't see them. I ask mom "do you put away the cookies?" Nope she didn't move them. I ask dad "hey dad, where's the cookies?" HE THREW THEM AWAY!! All of them. I was so upset I actually teared up. Those were my special treat, extremely rare event, just-because-I-deserve-them cookies. And he threw them away. :think Just hope he knows not to ask me to bake him his special pecan-raisin cake anytime soon. I'll let him have one piece and then I'll give it to the dogs. HAH!:heh: Anyway, here is my ticker:

March 18, 2007

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I lost my bet.

Yeah, that's right. Still not in One-derland. And now no reading for a week. :think I'm very sad. :think :think :think This is my punishment. I deserve it for being such a slacker. I'm not very happy with myself right now.

February 25, 2007

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5 weeks

Well, no leftward tendencies. That's good. I was not a good bandster yesterday. My mom & I went out to dinner at Chili's. NOT a good idea. I ordered the chicken crispers and fries. I did do one good thing: I asked for a to-go box as soon as the food arrived. I figured I'd only eat half and save the rest for lunch today. Yeah, that didn't quite happen. The half that I brought home with me I ate a few hours later. I looked up the nutrition info. online and just:faint: . I still burned more calories than I ate but it is a bad precedent. I have been walking, at least 1 mile a night. I got a cheap pedometer at Wal-mart and I've been keeping track of everything on Fitday. That is one handy website. Next week my 20 lb. lifting restriction expires, so I think I should start looking into gyms. I am really looking forward to this Sunday. A few of us from LBT are getting together at the White Rock Skate Center in Dallas. If anyone wants to join we'll be there at 1pm. Should be lots of fun. White Rock Skate Center 10055 Shoreview Road 214-341-6660 sweetsue: Thanks for the comments:o . I'm glad its been of use to you, I try.

September 8, 2006

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Roller Skating

I just got back from the roller rink. I had a blast!:rockon: I met up with Divanita2006 & gonnabethin from LBT, they're both very cool. Skating is harder than it used to be when I was younger. My center of gravity has really shifted. The rythym started to come back to me, I just need to work on my balance. I really want to practice and get better, I would love to take part in the skate race. Not win, just feel brave enough (and skilled enough) to join. Since I went ahead and bought skates, I had to go back and change my list of rewards. I made sure to add a reward that will require some activity. Our next skating session is Sept. 24 at the Red Bird Skate in Duncanville. The link to their website is http://www.redbirdskateland.com/ The address is: 1206 N. Duncanville Rd. I'm not sure what time they have open skate, but I'll check and update my post. Anyone in the area is welcome to come and join us. The more the merrier! And hey, just think about this: roller skating burns 80 calories in 10 minutes. Can we all say "Wahoo?"

September 10, 2006

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Progress Pic!!

Well, my ticker has slid back to the left some. I'm not real stressed about it though. It was a combination of Thanksgiving and sloth-ness. Those two things won't coincide again for at least a year. I went to the gym once last week, which isn't great I know. However, it is an improvement over not going at all. I'm making it a goal to go twice this week and work my way back to being a faithful gym-goer. I spent the morning playing around with a virtual model and photoshop. I'm including a picture of my "virtual progress" in this entry. Its probably going to be too big. I'm not sure how to deal with that. If you want to play with a virtual model, go to http://www.mvm.com/en/go_shopping.htm Its fun, I promise.

November 26, 2006

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Curves report

Hey y'all, I've been delaying my weekly journal entry so I could have my monthly Curves report in it. I finally got the time (and energy) to go over there today. I didn't work out hard though, my back is just miserable today. I've just noticed that I didn't post my Curves report from last month. Oh well, I'm not going to go back and do it now. ................................Last month.............................Now Bust........................44 in........................................43 in. Waist.......................41 in. .....................................41 in. Abdomen...............47 in. .....................................45.5 in. Hips........................44 in. .....................................43 in. Thighs....................51 in. ....................................49 in. Arms......................29 in. ......................................29 in. Body fat %.............38%........................................37.40% My arms just will not get any smaller!

April 17, 2007

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update & an NSV!!

I know, I'm a day late with this week's entry. I just didn't feel up to it yesterday, or now for that matter. edit (10-29-06): I feel up to it now. I'll be going for another (my 3rd.) fill very soon, hopefully some time next week. I need to call & schedule, I keep forgetting to do that. I can tell I have more restriction than after my first fill, but I can also tell it still isn't enough. I think I'll need a fill to help me cope with the Thanksgiving turkey. Man, I love making sandwiches with the leftover turkey. Oooh, and chocolate cream pie and biscuits with mayhaw jelly. Oh jeez, stop me now. On a "happy,happy,joy,joy" note-I have an NSV. I was an hour early to work today.(darn time change, screws me up every time) Since I had some time to kill, I went into the nearby Avenue store. I figured I'd try on a pair of 20s just for fun. I wanted to see how close I was to being able to zip them. I could zip them, I could even zip (and button) the SIZE 18s that I tried on next! Of course I still had a "muffin top" but hey the important thing is that I actually had a pair of 18s on my body and I could still breathe, sit down and walk normally. WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!:clap2:

October 28, 2006

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babble-mania

Nothing new, or even remotely interesting to report. I've been procrastinating so hard on my grad. school assignment that I haven't had time to even attempt anything else. No bike rides, 'cuz Texas has apparently decided that it is time to rain. Which is good, we need rain, but then again, we always do. (I don't think I've ever used so many commas in one sentence in my entire life. It wasn't even a very long sentence. I hope my professor isn't on this board. ) Oh hey, I just thought of something new. I bought a toaster oven. It's cute, I got a bright red one, so that it will match the kitchen. Better than buying a blue one so it would match the bathroom. Because really, if you think about it, a toaster oven in the bathroom just isn't a good idea. For multiple reasons. Where would I plug in my hair dryer? Okay, I'm going to stop now. I'm just babbling at this point, and no one deserves that kind of punishment.

March 27, 2007

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07/19/06 ~ 272.5 lbs. (gave up sodas & popcorn)

Just had my "consultation with the doctor." I had to wait over an hour past my appointment time for them to call me and I'm a little irked because I still have yet to meet the doctor. I don't like the fact that I won't meet Dr. Jayaseelan until the day he sticks a scalpel in me. Anyway I did meet the Nurse again (Arlene) she is very nice. They checked my height and weight, asked about any medical allergies or previous surgeries and that was it for the physical part. I went back up to the scheduling desk and got a surgery date of August 4th. I was also told to get an EKG and have bloodwork. I'll have to go back for that tomorrow b/c it was so late in the afternoon that the cashier people in the lab were all gone. One of the downsides to being self-pay I guess.

July 23, 2006

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07/21/06

I went back today for my bloodwork & EKG. It didn't take too long. I was surprised though that the bloodwork ($295) was more expensive than the EKG ($85). I've had blood taken before, so there weren't any surprises (except the cost!). The EKG was completely new territory though. The technician just stuck a bunch of magnets on me: one on each wrist, at least 5 on my chest & stomach. I wish I had known to lie completely still.

July 23, 2006

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2 weeks post-op

It is my official weigh-in day. So here's my new ticker... I made it to my first mini goal. :clap2: :clap2: I ordered my ipod this morning. Yippee!!! I also graduated to mushies this morning. I was never so happy to eat a smushed potato. I could only eat about half of it though. This is the list of what I'm allowed to eat now: In addition to the clear and full liquids, you may have the following: Cream of Wheat Oatmeal/Grits Scrambled eggs Mashed potatoes and gravy Refried beans Queso Yogurt Pudding Applesauce Cottage cheese (small curd)

August 19, 2006

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Milestone

Hi Its been awhile. I've been lazy both in updating this journal and exercising. I just haven't felt like doing either. Work and grad school are taking up just about all of my time. When I'm not doing grad work, I'm thinking about doing grad work. I don't have much brain capacity left.

July 1, 2007

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10 month pics.

I've got some 10 months pictures to share. Of course my 10 month anniversary was almost a month ago. (Can you really say anniversary if it hasn't been a year yet? Ahh, etymological puzzles, how I love them. And yes, I am a geek, why do you ask?) Okay. In the pics. I am wearing size 14 jeans and a 1x t-shirt. Sorry the pic is kind of blurry. I don't know what was going on with my photographer. She's usually pretty good. Oh well, no big deal. Just as long as my 1 year anniversary (which is a real anniversary, but I digress) pictures turn out in focus. I've also got a Century Club card. You get the card for losing 100 lbs. I got it from someone on another website (www.obesityhelp.com) I suppose really you could get one no matter how much you've actually lost. Its not a real club, it is just a cool graphic. Okay, gotta go. I've got a book report due today that I haven't finished. The report, not the book. I read the book already. Just want to make that perfectly clear.

July 1, 2007

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C'mere you big lug!!

Oh, my journal how I've missed you. I've been using the one at OH (don't be jealous), it just isn't the same. You're my favorite journal. :sleep I'm so glad the journals are finally back. I've got quite a few updates to make. I'll put each in its own little sections so it doesn't get too confusing. Luckily I remember the dates for all of them so they'll be in chronological order. Okay, LET THE UPDATING BEGIN!!!

September 27, 2006

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9-15-06

9-15-06 (6 weeks) I'm finally allowed to lift more than 20 pounds again. Which is excellent because my dog got out and I had to chase him down the street. When I caught him I couldn't put a leash on him. Why, you ask? He had bronchitis a while back and the collar irritated his throat. Plus I kept forgetting to put it back on, but that isn't important. The important thing is, since I couldn't leash him, I had to pick him up and carry him back to my car. Yes, I chased him down in my car. It was early in the morning (early for me anyway) and I was still in my pajamas. So anyway, I decided I should join a gym now that my lifting restriction is over. For further proof that I should join a gym, see my ticker below. Yes that's right folks, my ticker has slid over to the left. Did anyone ever watch Hee-Haw? "Gloom, dispair and agony on me. Deep dark depression, excessive misery. If it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all. Gloom dispair and agony on me." Of course, it is all my fault. I acknowledge that. I found a forgotten Hershey's Sundae Pie in the freezer. Did I ignore it or throw it away? Based on my ticker, what do you think? I ate the damn thing. Not all at once, it took me several days. Also to add to my guilt I haven't been walking anymore. I went roller-skating last Sunday but no other real exercise. Now back to my actual topic (the gym, in case you forgot). I joined Curves. I'm going on Monday for my introductory session. The lady there said they would train me on each machine. This is a nice change from previous gyms. I would usually just wander around, say to myself "hey that machine looks cool, I wonder what it does?" Not very productive. I also like that I can go to any Curves gym in the area, there are several nearby. As part of the sign-up process they weighed & measured me. ("yippee" she said sarcastically) So here they are: bust- 52 waist- 51 abdomen- 55 hips-53 thighs-29 biceps-17.5 body fat- 44.5% :faint:

September 27, 2006

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weekly weigh-in

9-22-06 Well, my ticker has resumed moving towards the right. Yippee!! I also have an NSV for this week. I weighed myself this morning (always do on Fridays) and had to adjust my ticker. Then when I was getting dressed, I had this crazy idea. I went through my bag of "I'm too fat to wear these" clothes. I pulled out a pair of size 22 petite jeans and decided to try them on. I kept telling myself "they probably won't fit, I just want to see, it'll be okay if they don't." But they did. I put them on, zipped them up and buttoned them. I didn't even have to jump up an down to get the zipper up or lay flat to do the button. AND I can still breathe. I am just grinning from ear to ear. I've only had a fill for two day and I'm still on liquids. I have to stay on liquids for a whole week until the 27th. This makes my mom upset because she knows I won't be cooking dinner for a week. Since she doesn't cook except on special occasions (like Thanksgiving) that means she gets a lot of peanut butter sandwiches. I think that most of weight loss for this week should be attributed to Curves. I just realized that I am only 10 lbs. away from my next mini-goal! I've already decided which print I want and where it will be hung. This is the link: http://www.vangoghmuseumshop.com/ProductDetail.htm?productId=9110 and just below is my newly updated ticker. Wahoo.

September 27, 2006

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Granny, Gym & Going shopping

Granny is gone. It was nice having her here. One of the first things she said to me was "you've lost weight." I'm glad she noticed and didnt' drive me crazy offering her patented "helpful" advice. I didn't tell her about my surgery or mention exactly how much weight I've lost. I don't like telling people that anyway. It always bugs me when people ask how much weight someone has lost. I don't know why, that just irks me. I didn't lose any more this week. I didn't gain any either so it's all good. I'm actually very proud of myself for not gaining. Considering all the holiday food and the gym being closed: just maintaining was awesome. The gym reopens soon so I'll be able to continue going. Although not as much as I would like. My job offered me extra hours for the next month, so of course I took them. Gotta pay for that Master's degree somehow. The extra hours mean that I'll only be able to go to the gym twice a week. Maybe I can do a double workout those days. I'm hoping to be able to go clothes shopping sometime this next week too. (I can't believe I just said that!) I really need some new jeans and some new exercise clothes. I didn't make my Jan. 1 goal. Yes, I know it isn't quite Jan. 1 yet. But I'm pretty darn sure that I'm not going to lose 11 lbs. in the next 2 day. That's ok. I'm almost there. I should definitely make it to One-derland by the end of January. See ya there! HAPPY NEW YEAR, Y'ALL!!

December 31, 2006

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NSV!!

Today when I was getting ready for work I realized I desperately needed to do laundry. The only clean "work" shirt I had left was the one I wore in my "before" pictures. I've been avoiding wearing it since then. I didn't want to put it on and not be able to tell a difference. NOT a problem! As soon as I put it on, I could tell it felt looser around the arms. And around what passes for my waist. I practically skipped to work. BTW: I'll be updating my ticker tomorrow. This morning was much too hectic.

September 30, 2006

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weekly update

Okay, so I'm a day late. I just didn't have time yesterday morning for my usual routine. I even had to skip my workout at Curves. :cry I'll try to add an extra one this week. This has been my first whole week with a fill. I don't really feel much restriction. I do occasionally feel a little tightness if I eat too fast. A couple of deep breaths usually clears it right up and I can continue eating without any problems. I"m just going to try to take it one meal at a time and see if I get any more restriction. I'm not sure how long my doctor requires between fills. I'll have to call his office and ask. I've had some good NSVs this week, so overall I'm pretty happy with my band. Also as you can see from my ticker, I now have less than 100 pounds to lose!!:clap2: :clap2:

September 30, 2006

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New self-challenge

Okay so I've been sitting here thinking about my goals. Then I thought about my current weight. Then my brain kinda went in neutral because I'm also watching the 2nd. Harry Potter movie. After a while, my brain thought it realized something. I got out my calculator and did a little figuring. I'm only 36 lbs. away from One-derland. There are three months left until the New Year. 36 divided by three is 12. Does anyone see where I'm going with this? My new goal is to lose 12 lbs a month in October, November & December. Making it all the way to One-derland by January would be super fabulous. I can't think of a better way to start off a new year. On the 1st., 15th. & last day of Oct., Nov., & Dec. I'll post an updated ticker so I can keep track of my mini-goal progress. 36 lbs. by January 1. It's not impossible. Is it?

October 2, 2006

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