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I'M HALFWAY!!!

I just had to share: As of this morning, I am halfway to my goal weight. OH HAPPY DAY!!!! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :faint: :P :scared: :D :biggrin1: :biggrin1: :) ;) :scared: :D :P :biggrin1: :biggrin1: :D ;) :nervous :nervous :D :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

December 16, 2006

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Liquids are aw(ful)some!

I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. I hate being on liquids. I love being on liquids. They're both true, but I can't make up my mind which is more true. I hate liquids because I would really like a hamburger or some Chick-fil-a. I love liquids because they broke my stall. I've been stalled for 3 weeks now. I had my 4th. fill on Wednesday (9cc total) and Dr. Jay requires liquids for a whole week. I've lost 7 lbs. since Wednesday. :biggrin1: :clap2: :biggrin1: I've also had a NSV. I was trying to get ready for work and it took me 15 minutes to find a pair of pants that wouldn't make me look like an M.C. Hammer impersonator. That day my work handed out Wal-Mart giftcards for Xmas. So I figured I would use it to buy 2 pairs of workpants. I've been wearing size 22 pants. The ones I bought for work are 16/18!! They're a little snug but that means I'll be able to wear them longer. After Xmas I'll be going shopping for everyday clothes. I can't believe that I'm actually looking forward to going shopping. It is also time for a challenge update. Those three weeks at a stall have really shortened my chances of making this goal. I'll get close though and I'm happy with that.

December 15, 2006

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special weekly update

:happybday2: Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday dear me, Happy Birthday to me! :happybday: Well, its my birthday again. Just like last year. I am hoping to be at goal by this time next year. You would think I'd be able to accomplish that. I've lost 60 lbs. in the 4 months since my surgery. I've got 80 lbs. left to lose before goal, so it should be possible to lose that over the next 12 months. That is my major long-term goal: to be at goal by my next birthday. Which will be the 1st. anniversary of my 29th. I've had a much better week, gym-wise. I went three times this week. I've been doing each machine and station twice in a row. Somehow this makes me think the workout is shorter. I've got a gullible brain I guess. My ticker remains the same. At least didn't gain during my period of sloth-itude. I'm just stalled. I'm getting another fill next week.

December 8, 2006

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4 month anniversary pic.

Okay, it is officially my 4 month banding anniversary today. I had my mom take a picture to record my progress. I'm wearing basically the same outfit that I wore in my "before" and 2 month anniversary picture. The jeans are a loose 22. I can pull them on & off without unzipping or unbuttoning. The top is the same top: a 3x. I think it looks (and feels) looser. Two months from now I should be in a brand-new outfit. I'm not going shopping for new clothes until after New Year's.

December 4, 2006

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weekly & challenge update

I made it to the gym again last week. Just once. I have a weird work schedule since I am a substitute teacher. The days when I have a job, I'm too tired to go after school. The days when I don't have a job, I'm too depressed. I just can't get myself together lately. :think I have my gym bag packed and ready in the car, so maybe I can trick myself into going. And here is my challenge ticker. I've only got 4 weeks left. It probably isn't going to happen. I'm not trying to be pessimistic here, just realistic. Anyway, I'll be happy if I can get down to 210. I have a 4th. fill scheduled for December 13 (my lucky day).

December 2, 2006

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Progress Pic!!

Well, my ticker has slid back to the left some. I'm not real stressed about it though. It was a combination of Thanksgiving and sloth-ness. Those two things won't coincide again for at least a year. I went to the gym once last week, which isn't great I know. However, it is an improvement over not going at all. I'm making it a goal to go twice this week and work my way back to being a faithful gym-goer. I spent the morning playing around with a virtual model and photoshop. I'm including a picture of my "virtual progress" in this entry. Its probably going to be too big. I'm not sure how to deal with that. If you want to play with a virtual model, go to http://www.mvm.com/en/go_shopping.htm Its fun, I promise.

November 26, 2006

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Not so sloth-y...

I just got back from the gym. I made myself get up and put on my workout clothes. Then I drove straight to the gym. I've gotten some great support & encouragement here the last few days. Losingjustme, MoOrLess, & Teresita: thanks so much. Y'all really helped. A round of :clap2: for y'all. I've got some current measurements to post today too. The red is total shrinkage since my surgery. Bust 48in -4 Waist 46in -5 Abdomen 51in -4 Hips 47.5in -5.5 Thighs 27.5in -3 Arms 15.5in -4 BodyFat 41.2% -3.3%

November 20, 2006

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Still a sloth...

Why can't I make my lazy butt go to the gym? I don't know. I'm tired of thinking about it. It is hard to find the time what with my 3 jobs, errands and such. I could if I really tried, but it just seems like too much effort. Like I said, I'm a sloth. Another week gone, another 5 lbs. gone. I'm about 12 lbs. away from achieving my 3rd. goal. I hope my dress is still on sale. Unless my restriction tightens up real soon, I'm going to schedule another fill for the first part of December.

November 17, 2006

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Challenge Update.

I've gotten tired of typing all my entries in the same font and color. I decided it looks boring. Anyway, on to the challenge update. For those of you just joining my journal, I have challenged myself to get below 200 (199 to be specific) by New Year's Day. I started this when I had 36 pounds to go and 3 months to lose them. I'm doing pretty good. Even if I am a sloth who hasn't been to the gym in weeks. Somebody needs to kick my ass! Do they have an ass-kicking icon? Doesn't look like it, this icon will do though. :whip: This is what I need, someone standing behind me with a whip to make me go to the gym. At least until I get back in the routine. Any volunteers? So here's my challenge ticker:

November 14, 2006

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weekly update

Man, I almost forgot that it was Friday. I've been thinking it was Thursday all day today. I'm such a doofball. I got my 3rd. fill on Wednesday. Arlene (the nurse) and Dr. Jay were there. Arlene actually did the fill, Dr. Jay just stood there and supervised. Which I thought was kind of odd, she did my 2nd. fill without him there. Why would he have to be there this time? I got another c.c. which puts me at a total of 8. I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed that this one does the trick. So far I've been tightest in the morning but not to a great degree. Afternoons and evening have always been when I'm tempted to eat the most and I haven't had enough restriction to really curb that tendency. My eating habits are getting better though. I haven't had any soda at all since before my surgery. I used to be a major Diet Pepsi & Mountain Dew addict. I've also laid off the potato chips, another major weakness of mine. I'm still working on not eating meals in the car. I buy snack bars, like NutriGrain blueberry and GoTarts. They fit great in my purse and help keep me away from the Chick-fil-a and Wendy's drive thru lanes. Although I do still go to Chick-fil-a, just can't give that up. I bring it home and eat at the table and I don't get the fries at all. All in all, I think I'm making good progress. I'm getting closer to my third mini-goal and I may even make my Jan. 1 challenge.

November 11, 2006

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In a hurry...

:clap2: I don't have time for a lengthy entry right now... I'll be back later to add to this. I just wanted to put this in: :clap2: :scared: :biggrin1: :nervous edit: Okay, NOW I have time. I have been a lazy sloth this week when it comes to going to the gym. The last time I went was Oct. 23 (I think). Whenever it was, it was too long ago. Some of the days I have an actual reason for not going. Not an excuse but a Reason. I'm a substitute teacher and I also have another job in the evenings. So when I have a sub. job and have to go to my other job, I really don't have time to make it to the gym. Of course, this does not explain the days I didn't have a sub. job (or my other job, for that matter) and still didn't go to the gym. Those days I just had an excuse, like "oh I can't go today, it's raining." Yeah, like it was raining inside the gym. Or "I need to go to the grocery store." Apparently in my world it is impossible to do both. I really just need a swift kick in the ass. No, I take that back. I really just need to go to the gym. I need to keep my January goal in mind. I can't make that goal if I don't go to the gym. What's that you ask? "Am I going to the gym today?" Um, no. I can't today, they're closed.

November 3, 2006

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update & an NSV!!

I know, I'm a day late with this week's entry. I just didn't feel up to it yesterday, or now for that matter. edit (10-29-06): I feel up to it now. I'll be going for another (my 3rd.) fill very soon, hopefully some time next week. I need to call & schedule, I keep forgetting to do that. I can tell I have more restriction than after my first fill, but I can also tell it still isn't enough. I think I'll need a fill to help me cope with the Thanksgiving turkey. Man, I love making sandwiches with the leftover turkey. Oooh, and chocolate cream pie and biscuits with mayhaw jelly. Oh jeez, stop me now. On a "happy,happy,joy,joy" note-I have an NSV. I was an hour early to work today.(darn time change, screws me up every time) Since I had some time to kill, I went into the nearby Avenue store. I figured I'd try on a pair of 20s just for fun. I wanted to see how close I was to being able to zip them. I could zip them, I could even zip (and button) the SIZE 18s that I tried on next! Of course I still had a "muffin top" but hey the important thing is that I actually had a pair of 18s on my body and I could still breathe, sit down and walk normally. WAHOO!!!!!!!!!!:clap2:

October 28, 2006

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Curves weigh-in

Well I have some restriction. Not a whole lot, but it is a start. I want to wait until I'm completely stalled before I schedule another fill. It seems like the only time I manage to lose weight is the week I'm on liquids after a fill. Although I must admit, that I only stayed on liquids for about three days. I had my measuring day at Curves a few days ago. I'd lost 20 lbs. since I joined and they were all asking me what was my secret. So I pulled up my shirt and showed 'em my scars. Then I erased my name off the "Brag Board" 'cuz I'd really rather people didn't keep bringing it up. It makes me feel very awkward. I've never been good at accepting compliments & praise. I'm really very self-deprecating. Most of the time. Here are my stats from the Curves measuring day: Bust 49 in. -3 in. Waist 47in. -4 in. Abdomen 52 in. -3 in. Hips 50 in. -3 in. Thighs 28 in. -2 in. Arms 16.5 in. -2 in. Body fat 42.6% -1.9% (for stats from my 1st. Curves measuring day, see entry #24)

October 20, 2006

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self-challenge update

I think I've made a good start on my January 1 challenge. Even with the minor setback I had a few weeks ago. I think my 2nd. fill has actually given me some restriction. I'm going to go to Curves 3x a week and try to ride my bike everyday. Hopefully that will help keep the weight loss going.

October 16, 2006

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weekly update SV!!!!

Happy Friday the 13th. It's my lucky day!! Come won't you join me in a happy dance? Check out my ticker... That's right, I've lost 50 lbs. I walked into my mom's office today saying "All hail me, she who hath lost 50 lbs." I got cheers and a round of appalause. I think the new bike and the fact that I've been on liquids since Wednesday really helped jump-start the scale. So, to recap, I've already made my September goal, I'm back on track for my January 1 self-challenge, AND I made it to my 2nd. mini-goal. You know what that means, it's Van Gogh time. Wahoo!!!!! :dance::dance::dance::dance::dance::dance::dance:

October 13, 2006

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2nd. Fill

I had my 2nd. fill today. This time Arlene the R.N. (or is she an N.P., I can never remember) gave me my fill. I think she's faster at it than Dr. Jay. The needle hurt a little more but really still not bad. I think she just didn't bother with the numbing shot. She added 2 cc so now I have 7 cc in my band. I have the Vanguard which according to Dr. Jay can hold up to 14 cc. Arlene said I would be "super tight" now, so we'll see how it goes. Oh, according to my chart I lost 10 lbs. since my last fill.

October 11, 2006

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Bought a bike!

I've been thinking about buying a bike for awhile now. I got some great advice from other LBTers. So, I went out and bought my new bike today. The salesdude let me take it for a spin around the parking lot. I was grinning like an idiot. I forgot how much fun it was. If anyone in the Dallas area wants a new bike, I highly recommend B&B Bicycles. Those guys are awesome! Here are some pics. of my new exercise "toy." I'm going for my 2nd fill tomorrow. I am so very much looking forward to getting some real restriction. I need my scale to start moving in the right direction, before I lose my mind.

October 11, 2006

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ticker going the wrong way!

It is time for another weekly update. I'm so mad at myself for this week.:mad: Somehow I've managed to gain back 5-6 lbs.:think I don't even know what happened, this whole week has just been kind of a blur. I've scheduled another fill for next week. That'll be three weeks after my first fill. I really hope this one gives me some great restriction. I have to be back on liquids for a week afterwards. That should get me back on track for my January 1 goal. I really want to make it to One-derland by January. I also just found out that my dad is planning to bring my grandmother to visit for Thanksgiving. :help: Now, don't get me wrong, I love my grandmother. But she drives me crazy. She'll tell me how much she worries about me and how I'd be so pretty if I'd just lose weight. Oh but that isn't the worst! Usually about 5 minutes after she reminds me that I'm fat (you know like I forgot) she'll ask me if I want anything to eat. Does that make sense to anyone? 'Cuz it sure don't to me. So I want to lose as much as possible before Granny hits town. She doesn't know I have the band and I have no intention of letting her know. She'd just over-react and give me a headache. I know my reward for losing 75 lbs. is to buy a bicycle. I'm thinking of changing that. I may just go ahead and buy one now. It might help get going in the right direction again. I used to love to ride my bike when I was a kid. It would certainly help on the days when I can't manage to get to the gym. There is a bike store right by my work, I think I'll stop in there on Saturday. I've gotta do something. I won't be able to stand myself if I start yoyo-ing up again. :help:

October 6, 2006

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photos

Today is the two month anniversary of my surgery. In honor of that, I had some more photos taken. I'm wearing the same outfit as last time, except that my jeans are now a size 22.

October 4, 2006

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New self-challenge

Okay so I've been sitting here thinking about my goals. Then I thought about my current weight. Then my brain kinda went in neutral because I'm also watching the 2nd. Harry Potter movie. After a while, my brain thought it realized something. I got out my calculator and did a little figuring. I'm only 36 lbs. away from One-derland. There are three months left until the New Year. 36 divided by three is 12. Does anyone see where I'm going with this? My new goal is to lose 12 lbs a month in October, November & December. Making it all the way to One-derland by January would be super fabulous. I can't think of a better way to start off a new year. On the 1st., 15th. & last day of Oct., Nov., & Dec. I'll post an updated ticker so I can keep track of my mini-goal progress. 36 lbs. by January 1. It's not impossible. Is it?

October 2, 2006

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weekly update

Okay, so I'm a day late. I just didn't have time yesterday morning for my usual routine. I even had to skip my workout at Curves. :cry I'll try to add an extra one this week. This has been my first whole week with a fill. I don't really feel much restriction. I do occasionally feel a little tightness if I eat too fast. A couple of deep breaths usually clears it right up and I can continue eating without any problems. I"m just going to try to take it one meal at a time and see if I get any more restriction. I'm not sure how long my doctor requires between fills. I'll have to call his office and ask. I've had some good NSVs this week, so overall I'm pretty happy with my band. Also as you can see from my ticker, I now have less than 100 pounds to lose!!:clap2: :clap2:

September 30, 2006

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NSV!!

Today when I was getting ready for work I realized I desperately needed to do laundry. The only clean "work" shirt I had left was the one I wore in my "before" pictures. I've been avoiding wearing it since then. I didn't want to put it on and not be able to tell a difference. NOT a problem! As soon as I put it on, I could tell it felt looser around the arms. And around what passes for my waist. I practically skipped to work. BTW: I'll be updating my ticker tomorrow. This morning was much too hectic.

September 30, 2006

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weekly weigh-in

9-22-06 Well, my ticker has resumed moving towards the right. Yippee!! I also have an NSV for this week. I weighed myself this morning (always do on Fridays) and had to adjust my ticker. Then when I was getting dressed, I had this crazy idea. I went through my bag of "I'm too fat to wear these" clothes. I pulled out a pair of size 22 petite jeans and decided to try them on. I kept telling myself "they probably won't fit, I just want to see, it'll be okay if they don't." But they did. I put them on, zipped them up and buttoned them. I didn't even have to jump up an down to get the zipper up or lay flat to do the button. AND I can still breathe. I am just grinning from ear to ear. I've only had a fill for two day and I'm still on liquids. I have to stay on liquids for a whole week until the 27th. This makes my mom upset because she knows I won't be cooking dinner for a week. Since she doesn't cook except on special occasions (like Thanksgiving) that means she gets a lot of peanut butter sandwiches. I think that most of weight loss for this week should be attributed to Curves. I just realized that I am only 10 lbs. away from my next mini-goal! I've already decided which print I want and where it will be hung. This is the link: http://www.vangoghmuseumshop.com/ProductDetail.htm?productId=9110 and just below is my newly updated ticker. Wahoo.

September 27, 2006

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My 1st. fill

FIRST FILL 9-20-06 Today has just been the best day. I got 5 new books in the mail from Amazon, I got a fill of 5 c.c. and I got a job that pays a multiple of $5 an hour. My life just doesn't get any better than this. Isn't that kinda sad? Whatever. Let's talk about my fill, shall we? First off, nothing but water from midnight. My doc (who I actually met. It was about time!) did the fill with fluoroscopy. Basically it is a type of xray. (or at least that's what I say, someone who knows what they're talking about might say something else.) I laid down on the table and they positioned a big hunk of machinery over me. The fluoro camera I presume. Then I looked at this little TV screen and there was my port. It was so cute! (o.k. I'm a little weird, sorry.) The nurse swabbed around my port site with alcohol. Then the doc said he was going to inject something to numb the site and he said it might hurt a little. LIAR! It didn't hurt at all. I barely felt it, I've been hurt worse giving blood. Heck, I've been hurt worse stubbing my toe. Then he started feeling for my port. Which also was cool, because I could see his finger bones on the fluoro screen. When he injected the saline, I started laughing. I swear it tickled! The doc probably thought I was off my rocker but that's ok. Let's just hope that my ticker now resumes its journey to the right.

September 27, 2006

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9-15-06

9-15-06 (6 weeks) I'm finally allowed to lift more than 20 pounds again. Which is excellent because my dog got out and I had to chase him down the street. When I caught him I couldn't put a leash on him. Why, you ask? He had bronchitis a while back and the collar irritated his throat. Plus I kept forgetting to put it back on, but that isn't important. The important thing is, since I couldn't leash him, I had to pick him up and carry him back to my car. Yes, I chased him down in my car. It was early in the morning (early for me anyway) and I was still in my pajamas. So anyway, I decided I should join a gym now that my lifting restriction is over. For further proof that I should join a gym, see my ticker below. Yes that's right folks, my ticker has slid over to the left. Did anyone ever watch Hee-Haw? "Gloom, dispair and agony on me. Deep dark depression, excessive misery. If it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all. Gloom dispair and agony on me." Of course, it is all my fault. I acknowledge that. I found a forgotten Hershey's Sundae Pie in the freezer. Did I ignore it or throw it away? Based on my ticker, what do you think? I ate the damn thing. Not all at once, it took me several days. Also to add to my guilt I haven't been walking anymore. I went roller-skating last Sunday but no other real exercise. Now back to my actual topic (the gym, in case you forgot). I joined Curves. I'm going on Monday for my introductory session. The lady there said they would train me on each machine. This is a nice change from previous gyms. I would usually just wander around, say to myself "hey that machine looks cool, I wonder what it does?" Not very productive. I also like that I can go to any Curves gym in the area, there are several nearby. As part of the sign-up process they weighed & measured me. ("yippee" she said sarcastically) So here they are: bust- 52 waist- 51 abdomen- 55 hips-53 thighs-29 biceps-17.5 body fat- 44.5% :faint:

September 27, 2006

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