Today I was approved by my insurance to have lap band. It is all seeming so real now. I have a surgery date of August 18th. When I spoke to my doctors office today I didn't know whether I should smile or cry, luckily I didn't have to chose and I did both! I am so nervous and excited. I still have distant memories of what life is like when you can walk in to any old clothing store and find your size, eat in public and not think people are wondering why you are so fat, or walking up a couple flights of stairs with out feeling like you are going to faint, or better yet not constatnly thinking about all the health issues I am putting myself at risk for for being so big! I can't wait to be back to the life I know I was ment to have. to be able to chase around my 4 year old son, and get back to my active lifestyle. So much is racing through my head! I guess all I can do now is start the count down! :thumbup:
