Hello Everyone,
I believe I may have experienced almost the best day in my life so far. I have been accepted for lap band surgery and I have a date which the surgery will take place. Since I decided I definately wanted to have the surgery a couple of months back, I must have subconsciously been holding my breath in because today I feel like i've started breathing again. The relief is indescribable. While I thought the probability of me not being accepted was small, I was still quite worried.
One thing I contemplated is that I will be completing the mushy food stage over Christmas. While this doesn't worry me, I do find it hilarious. It will be funny to see my family's reaction. They are all SUPER supportive, but it will still be funny. :laugh:
While the surgery date is still a little while off, I am happy because it gives me some more time to read up on other's stories and become mentally prepared. I'm hoping to bypass the stage of grieving food. We have our wedding in October, 2010 people, I DO NOT have time to grieve something that has helped cause me to be the person I am today!
Now i've updated, i'm off to finish preparing dinner. Curried chicken and rice. YUM :laugh:
After reading some other users blogs, I thought I would post my own. I haven't been banded yet and have my first appointment with the surgeon 3rd August (which I can't wait for). However, I thought I would post how I'm feeling and about the little that has happened so far. Here goes...
I have almost always been overweight. Even though my Mum tried really hard to get me to eat healthy and exercise. I would try hard for a bit and then burn out and the cycle would continue. After a breakup with my first serious boyfriend I weighed 90-95kgs (198-209lbs), I started going to weight watchers and lost around 25-30kgs (55-66lbs). When I reached the 75kg (165lb) mark I went a bit loopy and stopped eating much at all and exercising like a mad woman, I was having a tough time at work and troubles with hormones and I snapped.
I had some time off work, time off exercise and started making myself better. I can't describe how weird it is to realise that I went from over-eating to not eating in such a short amount of time. My brain hadn't quite registered the loss and I still believed myself to be as fat as I was (maybe a couple of kgs less). What made me realise how much weight I had lost was trying on dresses for my mum's wedding. I was pulling size 16-18 dresses of the rack- I ended up purchasing a size 12 dress, which had to be TAKEN IN! That was an achievement
I first heard about the lapband a little over 12 months ago. After hearing about it, I organised to go to a information session the local specialist holds. The information session was fantastic, there was a man there that had been banded and lost a large amount of weight. I got an folder with lots of info and left the session thinking this is the right tool for me.
However, when I discussed it with my friends and fiance I had half saying 'good for you' and the other half saying 'really?!' with their eyebrows turned up suspiciously. So, after some more thought, I decided to try gym and healthy eating again and if that didn't work, (which it didn't), I'd try and organise lapband.
I have tried weight watchers, healthy diet and exercise, shake diets, meal replacement diets, no carb diets, fat free diets, whatever I thought might work. Well I'm tired of what MIGHT work and ready for what I believe WILL work. I'm ready to do this for ME. I want to be as healthy as I can and live a life as long as I can.
I want to have confidence in myself again.
I want to feel sexy again.
I want to be able to go into a store and buy items off the shelf again.
I want to go to the beach again.
I want to be able to exercise without feeling like the grim reaper is standing beside me grinning.
I want to be able to wear lingerie (my brain stops me at the moment).
I want to be able to go places and not feel like harpoons are going to be targeted at me anymore.
I NEED TO DO THIS FOR ME
For those that read this, hopefully you're not asleep drooling on the keyboard. :thumbup: