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Why do people have to be so mean?

Tonight I went to a birthday dinner at my bf's sister house. Just his immediate family were there. Some of them I have not seen in months and can't believe all the woman would not say a word when I took off my coat. His Mom had plenty to say when I was 42 pounds heavier. But now thinner..... No, No words. His 2 sisters did not say anything. I can't believe the compliments I rec'd were from 2 men at the gathering. One was elderly but he has met me before at that house and was like wow, u look different, You lost alot of weight. I responed and said yes, 42 pounds and 42 to go. He told me how great I look and still all the woman said NOTHING<>>> How hateful......The second man that spoke up was my bf's bother in law Big Dave. He came right into the dinning room area and soflty said that I was doing great and keep up the good work. He said he can really see it in my face. He is around 50 years old and he is very handsome. I was so embarrased when he came over to tell me he notice but it felt good. I really can tell now that I have gone done 3 sizes. I just feel so hurt and his Mom can't find any kindness in her heart and compliment me. She is so negative and is not a nice person. I love my b/f with all my heart. I really don't share with him how I feel b/c I don't think he wants to hear it. He knows that his Mom is abrasive because we have spoke about it before. He loves her but does know that she can be a bit hard to handle sometimes. He is her only son. She also has 2 sisters. I need some advice. I feel like, do I really want to go and be with them for the holiday. I am expected to go with him for all the holidays coming up b/c I have no family in Ct. My parents and brother live in central florida. Thanks MOM !!!

November 23, 2009

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What a meal?

Well, I made it through the day. Ate pretty good. Made some good choices and made some bad. All together not too bad. Did not have any PB episodes. Was able to eat slowly and not get sick. Not feeling too much restriction and trying to pretend like I do. Lots of choices today. Ate dinner with my bf's family. Was able to make the best of it and it was uneventful. My son had a good time and I got to whip his ass at 500 rume. (not sure how to spell that) I hope u all had a good holiday and a safe one. god bless

November 27, 2009

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What a difference

After this last fill, WOW what a difference. I can't believe it. I am less hungry. I am making better food choices just like my surgeon said I would and I am losing weight. I am now down to 25 lbs lost. I really feel it now. My clothes are falling off. I started on the Unjury protein powder at least once a day. I have one scoop in plain yogart. It is ok. Not great wonderful, but ok. I am working out 2 to 3 times per week. I can't believe what a change after this last fill. I am now at 3.75 cc in my 10 cc band. I go back in 2 weeks for a weigh in and another fill. Maybe just a small 0.25 cc is needed to get me to 4 cc. I can't imagine more than that. My body is changing and it feels wonderful. I am learning to play nice with the band..... :thumbdown:

September 7, 2009

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Week 3 Post op

Hi everyone. I started back at the gym this morning and feel great. Did a one hr. step class. All the ladies were so happy to see me back. I have lost 15 lbs so far and my doc. was very happy with that. I had my surgery on May 11 th. I also returned to work this past weekend. I am starting to remember less that I had surgery. My belly feels so much better. No more pulling feeling. I can't wait for my first fill. My doc. says he is going to put in 1.5 cc after my barium swallow. I love Dr. Mollinelli. I feel so different this time about weight loss. I feel ready to use this tool to help me. Can't wait to feel the restriction. So, now I wait ...... :w00t:

June 1, 2009

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Week 2 Post op

I am feeling hungry. I am taking things one day at a time. Can't wait to go for my follow up appt next wed. with my surgeon. I have lost about ten pounds. For the past few days I have stayed the same. I am trying not to think about the scale. I want to do well and I know that I have to change the way I think about food. We now have a different relationship. This site is really helping me. I want to stay active and keep my spirits up.

May 22, 2009

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Waiting for second fill

I am waiting for second fill. I only feel a small amout of restriction especially eating meat. The other day I was out to eat with my BF and I guess I was just going to fast. All the sudden, my chest started to feel pain. It was a big wake up call. I did not eat alot of food but it was how fast I was going. I have to learn to slow down esp. when eating out. When I am home I follow my lapband diet perfectly. When I eat out, I just have a different mindset. Why does food bring such joy? I have made so many changes in the past 2 months. I only had surgery on May 11 th. I need another fill and my doc. says I have to wait 4 weeks between visits. It pisses me off. I am paying for this myself. I want to get to the point that I don't have an appetite and can only eat small portions. I want the results so many others have had on this site. I think I should be able to pay the $ 175.00 for an office visit and get a fill. I am a self pay and just want GOOD results. I am going to hang on and just try to continue taking it one day at a time. I am back at the gym doing step class 3 x per week.

June 24, 2009

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Waiting for First Fill

I go next wed. morning for my first fill. June 17th. I am getting very nervous. I am in a Wedding on July 17 th and purchased the dress 9 months ago 2 sizes to small. I am just wondering from everyone how much weight do they feel I will lose in one month ? I don't know if I should exchange the dress now or wait and see if I can get into it. The bride (childhood friend since age 5) is getting nervous. I am back at the gym 3 days a week doing step class. I just want to feel full and hope that the first FILL works for me..... Any thoughts ? I hear so many people say that the first fill did nothing !!!! any advice ?????

June 11, 2009

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visit to the MD

Went to the MD today for my 2 week post op appt. He is very pleased with the 15 lb. weight loss since my pre-op diet and 2 wks of post op diet. My incisions are healing nicely. I can't wait until 6-17-09 and I get my 1 st fill. I hope I feel the restriction. So many people say they do not feel it. I WANT TO FEEL IT. The next 3 weeks until my first fill are going to be hard. With no restriction and no fill it is easy to make bad decisions. The doctor told me I would feel hungry and to make food selections. I can't wait until I am not hungry all the time. June 17 th come on baby !!!!

May 27, 2009

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very difficult meal

I everyone. My honey and I got together with another couple tonight for dinner. He cooked really expensive steaks and we had a potatoe dish and mixed vegtables. I think I got so excited b/c it looked so good and I just chewed and swallowed way too quickly. I had to get up during the dinner and go to the bathroom. I felt bad. I was running the water so no one would here me. I got sick 3 more times after that. When they warn u no matter how much u chew steak sometimes it just can't go down, they mean it. I have heard this over and over. Did I listen, do I listen? NO. I just think maybe I will be different. Maybe, I will be able to get it all down. Tonight I was a true fat person inside. My thoughts were all about food. I have not had any restriction in weeks. I can't believe this happened tonight. I now feel uncomfortable and keep having to burp. I can't lay down to go to sleep b/c it feels like it will come up. I am glad that I really do make good decisions most of the time. Tonight I just feel like it was too much food and the wrong foods. I will have to make better choices next time when having this couple over. My friend Jenn was one of my partners to eat out with and not eat healthy. She was one of those friends that u celebrate food with. One of those friends that no matter what u ordered she would enjoy it with you and never say, " we don't need that". So I think that when we are getting together I just lose site of all the rules.... U know what I mean?

November 21, 2009

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Too much too soon !!

I was feeling so good. My belly was really starting to feel normal again. So yesterday I got on my boyfriend's Harley for a ride. Getting on and off was slow but I felt I did great. So, last night we went to bed and I am still sleeping on my back so that I do not cause any damage. I am 2 weeks post op today. Well, I woke up and now I am suffering for that bike ride. My belly is very sore and almost feels like I could benefit from an abdominal binder. I go for my 2 wk post op appt tomorrow. I am going to continue to take tylenol every 4 hours today. I just think I over did it ~~~~

May 26, 2009

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this is a learning experience for sure.....

After this last fill, I am being very cautious when eating. Not only when but what I choose. I am leaning towards soft foods for now. I don't want to have PB episdoses. I am down a few more pounds. I feel thinner now and people are really noticing. I wish I did not have to hiccup and burp so much. Sometimes the hiccups hurt. Last night when I went to sleep too quickly after having some tea, after an hour I woke up choking on fluid that came back up. It was just nasty. I was coughing and thought I was going to throw up. It kinda felt like an explosion in the back of my throat. Has that ever happened to anyone else? My surgery was May 11 th and at this point I can't wait to get under 200. I am close and feel it coming.... Everyone have a good night.....

December 7, 2009

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Still waiting for my fill

I could not go for my fill appt. this past Tues. because my son needed to have out his wisdom tooth. My life has been so crazy and the end is near. We purchased an investment property here in Milford and our tenants are moving in this weekend. We have been at the house everyday painting and do all the repairs. I work 3 days per week as a Nurse and those really have been my only days off from working at the new house. I just can't wait for it to be over. This is our first time doing this and paiting a 7 room home and 3 full baths is ALOT of work. Anyway, my son has been home for a few days recovering and I am just beat. My doctors office is an almost hour ride away. They say they can't get me in for like 10 days and they will call me if they have a cancellation. I just want a fill. I know that I need one. He has not injected me in 3 months because he said I was doing great. I updated my ticker. It still feels weird to look at it and think wow , that is me. I really have lost 38 pounds. Everyone have a great day and keep up the good work!! :crying:

October 29, 2009

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Reflux = too tight

I ended up in the ER last night for an emergency unfill. Started with reflux 5 nights ago and then wed. afternoon I was having a hard time keeping anything down. All day Thursday I just kept on vomiting all day. Whatever I drank or ate it came back up. I was feeling so weak and tired from the whole thing. I had called my doc. on Tues. and he said to start taking prilosec 2 times per day and sleep with my head up at night and dont eat or drink for 3 hours before bed. I feel like he was good when all was good and now that I am having problems he does not want to know anything. I only got a 0.25 cc fill last week and it really made a big difference. The PA in the ER said I was too tight. I was worried a had a slip of the band. What sucky feeling to be sooo hungry and can't eat or drink a thing. I am glad today that I am feeling better. Everyone out there please listen to your body and dont let your surgeon push u around. I have not spoken to him yet and he did not even call here to see how I was today. I was expecting to hear from him and nothing.... My advice to all out there is if you start with reflux syptoms go and get some taken out. I wanted to get to Onederland but not this way. Have a good weekend all.

December 12, 2009

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Really Need Advice

I went for another fill this past Tues and now have 3.75 cc in my 10 cc band. I am really having a hard time getting in my daily requirements of water. I am feeling confused. I am tight in the am and had heard about that from many others and was not too concerned. But today having salad for lunch and taking my time eating did not go too well. It came back up. I am burping all the time and the min. I drink something I feel it going down. Is that normal? Does everyone with a band feel the food and liquids going down? I can't eat fresh fruit it makes me sick. I don't think I have hit restriction. I noticed that I am sticking with soft foods trying to avoid any epidsodes. I feel hungry. My urine is slightly darker. Before this surgery I use to call myself a beverage hore. I love to drink and drink lots. I CAN't DO that anymore. I just can't. I am going for bloodwork in the morning. I am also due for my period and wonder if that is affecting my bands tightness. I am really finding all of difficult right now b/c I don't know If what I am feeling is normal. Anyone ready to give me some advice.....

August 30, 2009

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One day at a time

I am 2 weeks away from my next fill appt. My belly constantly does this gurgling thing. It is crazy. All of the sudden I can eat more food. I am burping and have the hiccups several times per day. I did not have a good day today and ate more than ususal. Maybe I am being too hard on myself. I want to be one of those girls with a 100 lb. weight loss. I was able to eat a mini sub today at Subway. I ordered it as a mini sub but still I was able to eat it. Tonight for dinner I ate a half of a meatball grinder. I could not believe I could eat that. I am going to start keeping a food journal and have it out ready for tomorrow. My honey is taking me to the casino tomorrow in Ct. called Mohegan Sun. I am really looking forward to a good time. Then it is long hours on the weekend working. I think I am going to call the surgeon's office in the am and see If I could move up my appt. to next week. I know that I am down and do not want to gain it back. We go to Disney in 3 weeks and would love to be down another 10 lbs. well just thought I would give a quick update. I wish all of you continued sucess with your lap band.....:thumbdown:

September 11, 2009

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Not feeling so hot !!

I have to be on liquids for 2 days. My fill was yesterday. I feel so hungry. Cold liquids going down feel uncomfortable. Warm liquids are better, but still not good. It is so hard watching everyone around me have regular food and I can't have any. I am contantly burping and get hiccups several times per day. I feel so miserable today. I wish someone had told me before this surgery what entirely was involved. I did not have knowledge of this site prior to the surgery. I am wondering if anyone else finds it hard after the fill appt.??? Liquids seem so slow to go down and I keep burping my chest to get the gas up. What the hell ??? :laugh:

August 26, 2009

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no results yet......

Well I still have no restriction. I had the second fill last week and nothing. I am really watching what I eat and it is so hard. I want this to work and picture myself thin everyday. I just hear horror stories about how long it takes for this restriction to occur. Maybe years from now they will do this different. I am trying to stay positive. I had my surgery on May 11 th. I can't wait till the day comes and I am NOT hungry. It is going to be so worth it.......

July 7, 2009

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New Goal

My new goal with this lap band is to reach under 200 lbs before Jan 1 st. I really just can't wait to see 199. I am going to celebrate. I am 14 lbs away and think I can do it before Jan 1 st. Wish me luck all you wonderful lap band friends......:wink2:

October 19, 2009

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My Doc won't give me a fill

I went this am to see if I could get a fill. My surgeon is very happy with my progress and doesn't feel I need it. He does not want to see me get too tight and says I am doing a good job. I lost another 4 lbs since my last appt. 3 weeks ago. He sat and spoke with me for about 20 min. He went over all the complications from being filled too tight. He is such a nice guy it is hard to get mad. I am disappointed. I drive an hour to see him and then wait for some time to hear keep up the good work. He says that I am a good patient and I am doing it the right way. I would love to say my hunger is gone but it is not. He says that for some people the hunger does not go away ever no matter how filled they are. He comes across alot of individuals who eat around the band and make bad choices and still gain or do not lose after this surgery. I don't know what to do. I am not going to rush back there anytime soon. It takes up my whole morning. The only good part was seeing the scale go down which I knew b/c I weigh myself every morning. I hope everyone is well today and keep up the good work !!!!:smile2:

November 5, 2009

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Maybe the 4th will be a charm

I am waiting for next Tues. for my 4 th fill. At times I do feel like the band is really starting to do its job. Occasionally I do feel some tightness from eating too fast or too much. I am eating small portions and watching what I choose. I can't wait for my appetite to go away. I am so hungry all the time. I really feel like the 4 th fill is really going to make a BIG difference. I am heading to Canada next month for a week and my Surgeon is going to be away for 2 weeks in August so I am not sure when my next appt. will be after the one on Tues. I am in this for the long haul. So...... :thumbup:

July 21, 2009

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Life is ALL about Expectations

When I researched this lap band surgery I really thought that the weight would come off a little faster than this. I know it is safer to go slower. I just want to hit this restriction thing and embrace it. I am still hungry often. I go next week for a weigh in and another fill. I have lost a total of 23 lbs and need some help to change my ticker. LOL. I try to follow all the rules but I am not perfect. I gave up diet coke and do not eat and drink at the same time. I have made so many adjustments and just want the best results. My surgery was May 11 th. I have now hit my $3000.00 deductible for my Insurance company and now all my appointments for my surgeon for a fill will be covered 100%. Any advice from all of you that have had great success I would love to hear. Thanks for all your support LB family !!! :thumbup:

August 18, 2009

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I think I might need a fill

Hi there. I have not had a fill in months. I called today and set up an appt for this Wed. with my doctor. I noticed my portions getting larger and I am eating more. I have not dropped any more pounds. I hope that this will bring me down further. I know where I want to be by Thanksgiving. Well that is my story for today. I hope u all have a nice weekend with family and friends.

October 23, 2009

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I hope there is restriction now

Today I go to soft foods. I have been on liquids for 2 days. Lost another 2 lbs. being on liquids which I am sure will come right back when I starting eating reg. foods again. I now have 2.75 cc in my band. I go back again in 2 wks. My doc. is wonderful. I need to really focus on eating the protein first. I am in a wedding this Sat. and I really can't wait for this to be behind me. I feel that the dress is more appropriate for the thinner girls in the wedding party. My being 230 lbs. Not really a good dress for the "fat girl". At this point I just want to go and make the best of the day and smile. The bride is my dear friend for 35 years and I will be 41 in a few weeks. I would love to change my ticker but I am having a terrible time attempting to do so. I have lost 20 lbs so far. My surgery was May 11 th. :smile2:

July 16, 2009

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Got my Fill finally .....Thanks Doc

Well I brought my b/f with me to this appt. today. He is my 4 leaf clover. He is my good luck charm. The nurse puts me on the scale and I only lost 2 lbs this month. I was happy b/c I then knew he would inject me. So he comes in and we speak for a few minutes and then he says ok lets see where we are. He injects the needle and pulls back and tells me there is 3.75 cc in there. He then puts me at 4 cc. I am so happy b/c he got it the first shot and no pain. No discomfort. FIRST SHOT!!! YES.... I was so nervous. I am down over 40 lbs since May and he is happy with those results. He does not want to see me too tight. Too many problems. well, I am going to watch things very carefully. I have a work Christmas Party this Thurs night and know it is going to be hard. That really is the tough part, eating out..... Wish me luck everyone. :wink2:

December 2, 2009

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getting fustrated

I am eating more. I know that my restriction has left. I am eating more and more. I even went to the bakery today. I usually make good choices everyday. I have gone to my doctor several times over the past few months and he won't fill me. He thinks I am doing great. I am hungry. My hunger has not left. I am suppose to be at 3.75cc in my 10cc band. I dont think I even have 2.5cc. I don't know what else to do or say for him to see that I really do need a fill. I have lost each appt. and when I go back I think it is to my benefit for me to be the same weight. I really dont want to get a fill before the holiday next week. I do have a fill appt set up for Dec 1 st. I have to pray every night that when I see him on my next visit he will agree that I DO need a FILL. I went out for lunch the other day with a friend and ordered a entree. It came with a soup and salad before the dish arrived. I was able to eat the soup, then the whole salad (eating SLOW) and then ate probably 2 cups of the main entree. I have never been able to do that since I reached around 2.5 cc in my band. HELP !!! I don't want to gain......:biggrin:

November 19, 2009

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