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6 month bandversary coming up

Well, my 6 month bandversary will be here on December 22nd...I was hoping to be at a goal of 250 by then...I seem to be a little stuck on 264...I dont forsee anyway to get rid of 14 lbs in 11 more days...I will have to work really hard to get even close to where I wanted to be by then...I will have to see what I can do by then...I am at 48.5 lbs and will be just totally excited to be at 50 lbs in the next week...With all of the holidays surrounding me I havent been having much luck on sticking to my diet and eating right...But come January 1st I am going to be going hard and strong...I was hoping so much to be at my goal by my 1 year bandiversary but thats 74 lbs in the next 6 months...I might have to make some new realistic goals and go for the 2 year mark just to keep my sanity

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Gave Up

:sickI finally gave up...I have been feeling terrible for more than several days now, thought it was a summer cold...Well, I finally gave up and went to the after hours clinic this morning...After finding out that they dont use my insurance there cuz my dr is not in their "group" and 70 bucks later I find out that I have a URI and brochitis...I knew I wasnt feeling quite right and I should have taken a hint when I was having severe headaches in the beginning of the week...Really sucked cuz I have been on vacation since Wend to get my son started in school and sick basically since Thursday...Oh well, finally got some liquid antibiotics and some codiene cough meds to help me out...I missed my weekly weigh in today due to not going to work and wont officially weigh in till Tuesday since I will be off till then...Its going to be kinda scarey Tuesday cuz I havent had the strength to work out since Thursday but hopefully that will change once I get the antibiotics working full force...Well back off to bed...Well, I guess its a good thing too cuz I have lost my ambition to eat... Thank goodness that came after my wonderful dinner out last night!!

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My First Fill

Well, I had my first fill today...It wasnt bad at all...I got 1.75 cc in my 4 cc band, so I guess thats good...Of course I cant tell how well its working yet cuz I am going to have to be on liquids for 48 hours...But they were very excited with my 22.5 lb loss as was I...My weight has been up and down and up and up all week and I was able to get it back down to my lowest before my appt today and was happy with that...The dr said that I wouldnt need to schedule another fill until I stop losing weight or go below a loss of 4-6 lbs in a month...Now to me 4-6 lbs in a month is really not enough so I will start pushing it now that I have my fill and hopefully some restriction...The only difference is that my water goes down alot slower and I have been having issues with getting in all my water today but it will be better with time...So, thats it about my fill...On to another new stage in life:drum:

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First Post Op Visit

Well, I had my first post op visit yesterday...They weighed me in and were very happy with my results, even tho I have been unhappy that it has been stuck...They told me that I should be just consentrating on healing right now cuz my body is in a "starvation period" where it thinks that its starving and storing extra fat cells...The nurse said to be happy and consider anything that I had lost as a bonus, but I am thinking what choice does my body have but to lose weight with me only eating 2 ounces of food a meal...Oh well, atleast they were happy...My appt was actually with the drs helper and I told her what had happened after my surgery and that it was still freaking me out and giving me nightmares...So she left the room and talked to the dr and she came back in saying that the dr wanted to see me and for me to wait for him...So I wait about 30 minutes for him to get finished with his regular paitence so that he can come see me...He reassured me that everything was normal and for me to make sure to tell the anethesiologist (if i ever have surgery again) that I have problems staying knocked out long enough...And that was basiclly it..He seemed genuinly concerned that I was upset about it tho and was really nice...So, I am scheduled for my first fill on August 4th...Then they said I could consentrate on me losing weight...They made sure to also tell me that I probably wont lose anything else until then and to take it easy...Im going to see what I can do between now and then to prove them wrong tho of course, cuz Im not happy just not losing after going thru what I had to to get to where I am...So, I will work work work on it, no promises tho

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Ouch

Well, I dont know what got into me today...I woke up and took my son to Mcdonalds for breakfast...I did really good by picking the real small breakfast burrito for myself...When we got home I ate the insides, egg, sausage and cheese...If I had stopped here everything would have been fine...I thought the tortilla looked pretty good with all the melted cheese still on it so I ate that too...By the time I finished I was hurting so bad up in my chest...I thought by getting a drink of water I could make it go away cuz it even hurt to breath and to move...But I ended up infront of the toilet getting rid of the top layer of whatever was in my pouch which ended up being the water i had drank afterwards and a vitamin...It wasnt like throwing up at all, I cant really describe it. My pouch and chest just felt very very painful until everything finally filtered thru...I dont know what in the heck this was but i know that i never in my life want to go thru this again cuz it was miserable...I should have stuck with the inards!!! Could this have been some type of PB, I just dont know..

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Blah

Its been one of those blah weeks...It seems that I just keep teetering on the same couple pounds...Its real upsetting cuz last month I did so good and now nothing...I have been trying to do what was right for me and work out most of the time but its just not working...Maybe my body is just taking a quick break and will shift into gear next month...I am going to keep on trying and maybe get over that hump that I am stuck on

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Falling Off Again

This past week has been good for me...The weight has started coming off .5-1 lb at a time...I am getting excited and hope that it dont stop again, knowing that it will of course...I guess that my body just needed a little break and now has kicked back into gear...Since my last fill I have only been able to eat 4-5 ounces of food at a time and I am trying to get everything in that I need...I guess my dr knew what he was talking about when he said to not worry about getting in 1000 calories a day and to stay under that as much as possible...Its working again and I couldnt be happier...I have been working out most days and drinking all my water and just in general feeling really well...Only problem that I have is that none of my clothes are fitting me anymore, but I am going to wait until I absolutely have to to buy anything new so that I dont have to spend so much to replace them when I outgrow them...I want to get the smallest size possible so that I would be able to wear them when I am at goal...Even at goal I will be wearing XL shirts so if I order 2X here before long I will still be able to wear them too later on cuz I like my shirts big anyways and around the house they will just be comfy...Cant wait till the day that I can say that I have lost 100 lbs total so far....Only about 42 or so more lbs and I will be able to say that..One of my goals is to be under 200 lbs by my 1 year bandversary...but that would mean another about 58 lbs before June...I dont think I can do that, but I am going to try my hardest...At even 1 lb a week thats only about 21 lbs...So I might actually have to do this 1.5 year goal thing if I have to...Just as long as its still working I will be fine with it

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.5 lbs away

I have been waiting and waiting to hit the 50 lbs mark on my loss...Today I got to .5 lbs away and ruined it by having 2 slices of pizza...Oh well, I will get here in the next couple days and I will be totally excited...Its really hard during the holidays to actually lose weight but thank goodness for the band or I would totally be gaining alot during this time...I have been averaging about .5-1 lbs a week so I guess that I ought to be happy with that because that mean eventually its all going to come off

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3rd fill

Ok, I went in and had my 3rd fill this morning...Now at a 2.5 in my 4 cc band...I actually saw my dr today and he did my fill, I havent seen him since my follow up after my surgery so it was nice to see him again...Well, at a 2.5 my barium went down very very slow and had to swollow several different times to get it to go down...But the dr says that i have lost 13 lbs since my last fill about 2 months ago and was totally happy with my loss...I guess that their expectations arent as high as the ones with the band...I thought that I was going really slow on my loss lately and had been at a stand still for several weeks without a loss of anything basically, but as long as he says I am doing great then I am not going to be all depressed about it...Well, I am on the thick liquids till Sunday morning and hopefully that will help jump start my loss...I just had a Dannon Light and Fit yogart and it went down really good and tasted great...I will have to see how the fill treats me after it has time to settle in

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Could Have Been Worse

Oh well, my weekly weigh in could have been worse...With me being sick and not up moving around much I will totally accept the 2.5 lbs gain...I will get that back off in no time...Of course I am not happy with it but I think my health this week was alot more important...My husband says that will can start walking as a family in the evenings for a little bit more of a workout, but we will see how that goes...I am going to atleast get back started on my afternoon workout possibly today...

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I did it!!

I finally did it!!! I finally passed my 50 lb mark that I have been having an issue with for the last month...I am now at 52 lbs...I am so excited!!

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New Idea

Ok I have decided as of today that I am tired of being in the "starvation" mode with my 2 ounces of food per meal...In the last couple days if I have gone over my 2 ounces and just ate till I was just a little bit full I notice that I lose a little bit of poundage...I only have 2 weeks to go until I am allowed on normal food and 4-5 ounces each meal, but I cant seem to wait..I am going to move up my food intake a little and see if I can get some to start coming off, cuz this "starvation" period is just depressing...Of course I just now came up with this idea, my plans may change...But today I had half a can of split pea soup with ham and bacon, it was the most wonderful thing I have ever tasted...Half a can was basically all that I could handle and then felt full...I dont know what size a soup can is, maybe 6 ounces...So moving my intake up just 1 ounce has made me feel emotionally and physically better so far...Lets just see what it does to me in the morning on the scales...So, today I have had a whey protein drink for breakfast, 1/2 can of soup for lunch and dont know what yet for dinner but I am sure that it will be great regardless of what it is...If I start to have any sort of problem I will be right back on my 2 ounces of nothing mushie foods...I am crossing my fingers!!

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My gain

well, my gain from yesterday wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be...on my weigh in this morning it was only 1 1/2 lbs that i gained...I need to get all of that under control

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The Next Day

I am kinda excited today...After adding a little more food yesterday to my meals i was actually able to lose 1 lb...Now we are talking!!! If that is what it takes for it to start coming off then I am willing to go ahead and start on my 4-5 ounces of good food per meal...I just wanted to jot it down in my journal that it actually worked...16.5 lbs for me, finally!!!:eek:

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Finally some energy

I finally got enough strength back yesterday so I was able to finally work out again...Did my full 30 minutes even tho I thought that I would give up halfway thru...Lost 1 of those 2 1/2 lbs I gained from being sick last week...I am really hoping to be able to say that I am at 30 lbs by Sunday, I am really going to work hard at it so that I can make up for my lost week...I think that I will wait till next week to see how I feel and how I am doing about having another fill...I hate to go in for one when I really dont need one and get overly filled but we will see

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Vacation Time

Its vacation time for me!!! Off work till December 31st...I am hoping to get back on track and start eating right and working out again while I am off...It will be my 6 mnth bandversary on the 22nd of this month and I was kinda hoping for alot more than what I have lost lately...I got really really close to 50 lbs then just totally ruined it myself..I dont have a clue why I keep sabataging myself...Its almost like mentally I am trying to just keep myself safe by staying at the weight that I am at...I just dont know whats going on...I really want to lose the weight, its just my mind it telling me something different lately and I dont like it at all...From today on, I am going to be back on track with eating right...No snacks, no sweats, no bread (regardless of how good the package says it is for you)...Lots more water and starting to work out again this afternoon after I get my son home from school..I want to go into the new year with an entirely new outlook on this thing and get the weight off...I wanted to be at goal by the end of the 1st year, but that would mean a total of about 18 lbs each month for the next 6 months and I have been doing good at just 2-5 a month lately...I want to get as close as I can, but its hard working out the right amount of food I am suppose to be eating without going into the starvation mode...Its all a balancing trick that I just havent gotten down yet...Oh well, I will work on it and see what I can do and go in for another fill in about another month and see it that helps me along my broken road

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Called for another fill

Today I decided that I give up on the first fill and called and made an appointment for a 2nd...I have heard that there is quite a bit of a difference between the 1st and the 2nd...I just want to get to the point to where I am losing again and so far its not happening...Maybe the 2nd one will be that magic one that helps me along...Got my fingers crossed and going in on the 22nd, yipee! Of course I am going to have a hard time getting adjusted to the new fill cuz I am already pbing a couple times a week, bu all of that is my own fault for not chewing good enough or too fast...I need to learn to slow it down, its all a learning process!:cry

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Not so bad

Ok, so with it being my bday weekend I dont think that I did so bad..I gained about 1 1/2 pounds since Friday, but its still 1 lb less than last week...Im not going to kill myself over it, you have to splurdge every once in awhile...My dh bought me both breakfast and dinner yesterday then we had a cake around the house that I just had to grab a little of everytime I saw it...So I will take my 1 1/2 pounds with a smile this time...I went to my ultrasound friday and didnt find anything out bascially...The tech says she cant say anything till the dr goes over them first...So I have my followup with my regular ob next week and hopefully everything will be fine

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Today

Well, today I didnt lose anything...I think that I went under my regular calorie count yesterday and messed up my bodys way of thought...So today I started counting my calories today to make sure that I got all of them in today...So far I am about 620 calories for today and still have dinner to go...I might end up having to have a little snack before dinner so that I can get a few extra calories...I just dont understand how my surgeon expects me to keep to about 1200 calories a day with just 3 small meals and no snacking...It just dont add up to me...Well, I have several girls at work on a diet now and they are doing a grapefruit diet along with a regular diet..So, its basically eating a grapefruit before each meal but if I were to do that I wouldnt be able to eat my meal...So they let me know that they had read that I could do the sugar free grapefruit juice or find some grapefruit pills to do before I ate my meals...So I will go out tomorrow and find me some sugar free grapefruit juice (if there is such a thing) and try it for several weeks and see how it does me...Something new to try and there is just telling if it will work or not but it never hurts to try

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Im back on track

I am finally back to my 40 lbs even today...Now that the weekend is over with its time to get back on track...I wanted to be at about 250 by christmas but it doesnt appear that its going to happen that way...I will take whatever comes my way and learn to deal with it...I am scheduled for my 3rd fill on the 17th of next month and have big plans for that fill...I want to be at about 200 or less by June (my 1 year anniversary of getting the band)...I dont plan on getting anymore fills after that point due to that is when the insurance stops covering the cost of them...So if I lose or not I will keep scheduling my fills about every 1 1/2-2 months from no on to try to keep on track...I still love the band and without it I wouldnt be at a 40 lb loss right now and anything is an improvement...The band is really kind of fickled...I took leftovers from dinner last night for lunch today at work..Last night it went down great and caused me to get sick at lunch today...But after a couple bites and having something get stuck then lunch was over for me which I guess was a good thing cuz I ate less and expect a little bit of a loss by tomorrow...I was planning on getting back on track with my workouts today since my medical problems have really been keeping me from doing anything strenuous for now...But I came home and mowed the front and backyard today so that counts as my workout for today..This in itself was great cuz in the past I had to mow the front yard one day and the back another just to make it thru it and now I can actually do both...:clap2:...Yipee for me!! As far as the medical stuff, its still going on and heavier than last week, but I have my follow up with my ob on friday and hopefully she will have some good news for me and help me get it under control...I think that I have rambled on enough for today, but more rambles to come in the near future...The band is good, the band is wise!!:hail: I bow to the band!!

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Bleeding

[/b]:emoticon(':door')"]Ok, starting from the day that i got home from surgery i started having my "cycle"...I never have my cycle due to being on the depo shot and havent had one in many years...Well at my follow up i was talking to the surgeon about it and he recommended a cbc test for my blood count and said that it was due to losing alot of weight so fast in the beginning and to do a follow up with my ob...Well i guess that scared it and it stopped...So i never felt the reason to go in for the cbc testing...Well low and behold it started again today so i scheduled an appt with my ob for next Thursday...I am hoping that he can do a miracle and make this dang thing stop :angry ..Due to it coming back again when i am at a stand still on my weight loss kinda does away with my surgeons excuse so maybe the ob will have something different to tell me!!

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Working Hard

[/b]:emoticon(':ele')"]Ok, starting Monday I have really been working my butt off!!! I still have been doing my 30 minutes but I have been really working hard at picking up the pace and going alot faster than I had been before...I had a hard time at first but I am actually making it thru it without a problem now and am sweating up a storm!!! I really think that it will make a big difference...My legs are feeling crampy and noodly so I can really feel the change...Will weigh in on Friday and see what I have accomplished...I am crossing my fingers

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Celebrating PreOp

Ok, I dont know if anyone else has done this before or not....So, I just thought that I would write it down...Here we go, open and honest....I have been "celebrating my surgery date and insurance approval"... Basically I have been eating everything and anything just to be able to have one last great full enjoyed meal of each one...I know that I am terrible:phanvan , but some of you know exactly what I am talking about....I know that I am big but I also know that I am doing something next week to change my life and i want to go out with a bang:faint: !!!! I have enjoyed the last week since I found out that I was approved, not having to count calories or starving myself but enough is enough...haha...I have noticed that I have gained about 5 lbs and my uniforms for work are getting a little uncomfortable, so thats it....No more going crazy, atleast not until the dinner the night before my surgery, that night I will be having shrimp linguini from red lobster (my all time favorite!!)....Its going to take alot of work and an entirely new mind set starting the day of the surgery...Its going to be a hard, terrible, wonderful, life chaning experience and I have been waiting on this moment for years....On June 22nd I will be starting with my weight loss journals and will be notating them aleast every month or so just so that I can look back at my long journey if I ever feel like falling off the wagon to remind myself on how hard the road has been to get to where I was and how much I never want to revisit where I am now...I will never return to where I am now as long as GOD and the LAPBAND are on my side....and damn the day that the later turns on me...haha..:Dancing_biggrin: :angry :faint: ....It wont happen!!!

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Night before

Well, I am due for my follow up in the morning...My ob said to not worry if they didnt call me before then cuz that would mean that nothing was wrong...Well, when I got home from work I had a message to call the nurse for some results...Of course I called back and got a machine and they never called me back so I guess I will find out in the morning..I am hoping that its nothing of course and that they were just not aware of what the dr had told me...Its still driving me crazy not knowing tho...I havent lost anymore weight lately...I have been kinda stress eating, guess its time for my next fill if I am capable of doing that...Usually just the smallest amount of food fills me up to a point of feeling ill and lately have been able to eat more food...So the next fill wont get here soon enough for me!! I am keeping my fingers crossed for my appt in the morning and hope that everything turns out well, right now I am really worried about it tho...Will check back in tomorrow with the outcome of that visit!!:phanvan

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