Jump to content
×
Are you looking for the BariatricPal Store? Go now!
$99 Yearly Supply Alert! 🌈 "1 per Day!" Bariatric Multivitamins
Sign in to follow this  
Followers 0
  • entries
    93
  • comments
    188
  • views
    6,492

Entries in this blog

 

Second Fill

Its working again!!!! Wish the tickers were working tho so I could update mine....But little by little it will get there...Got my second fill on Friday and I am at a total of 2.15 in my 4 cc band...I finally got some real restriction this time and its working...I never thought that I could feel so full so fast, its amazing!!! I am now at 34.5 lbs and very excited!!!Today is the first day since my fill that I have stepped on the scales and there wasnt a change from the day before...Since my fill I have started going full force on my working out again and we will see how it treats me:clap2:
avilla

avilla

2
 

Scheduled Fill

Oh and to just plan ahead for my gain and getting back on track I went ahead and called in and scheduled an appointment for my 4th fill on January 19th...Maybe I can lose a couple pounds before then so I dont feel so bad about weighing in for them that day...I always feel insecure about my weight loss and like they are looking down on me if I havent lost enought during my fills or not (not that they actually do or not or make me feel that way, thats just the way I feel)...So, come on 4th fill...I hope 4 is my lucky number
avilla

avilla

2
 

Quit Complaining

I have decided that I am going to just stop complaining...I know that I am just in the beginning phase of this process and should be entirely happy with what I have lost so far...If the good Lord wants me to lose weight I will...And as long as I am doing what I am suppose to be doing then I shouldnt worry about it anymore...I am just going to sit back and try to enjoy the ride...Hopefully it all turns out the way that I want it, if not then so be it...I would rather live happy than being depressed over the band...So CHEERS...Here is to a new outlook on life!!!
avilla

avilla

3
 

Put Off

Yet I have to wait again...Went for my follow up and the dr had to leave for an emergency while I was actually in the room waiting to see her...Going in again next Friday...So upset right now!!!:angry
avilla

avilla

1
 

Poor Pitiful Me

:violin:Well the day started out with a gain of 1 1/2 lbs for me..Dont know what happened, was doing what I was suppose to so I guess it was suppose to happen...Did great all day today doing what I am suppose to be doing...Was really sore all day from digging and laying out a dog shocker wire all around my backyard last night so the dogs would stop digging out, so I came home and mowed the front yard and was too tired to do my workout, but atleast I got some sort of a workout while I was mowing...Made a meatloaf, vegitarian beans and for the boys also added garlic bread and mac and cheese (they have to have the extras)...Well, the bread looked really good so I started out with just a pinch of garlic bread and started trying to eat my meatloaf then bam, PB hit and ended up having to recover from it for about 20 minutes in the bathroom before I could return to the dinner table...This was the first time I have tried any type of bread since my first fill and it didnt go well...So now I am totally terrified of bread which I guess is good cuz I shouldnt be eating it anyways...So, Now I am going to refuse to weigh until maybe a week from now (its going to very hard to break that habit but I have to do it) DAMN SCALES!!! But 1 bad day out of as many good days as I have had isnt bad and I cant really complain...Its just been one of those days!!:phanvan
avilla

avilla

4
 

Ouch

Well, I dont know what got into me today...I woke up and took my son to Mcdonalds for breakfast...I did really good by picking the real small breakfast burrito for myself...When we got home I ate the insides, egg, sausage and cheese...If I had stopped here everything would have been fine...I thought the tortilla looked pretty good with all the melted cheese still on it so I ate that too...By the time I finished I was hurting so bad up in my chest...I thought by getting a drink of water I could make it go away cuz it even hurt to breath and to move...But I ended up infront of the toilet getting rid of the top layer of whatever was in my pouch which ended up being the water i had drank afterwards and a vitamin...It wasnt like throwing up at all, I cant really describe it. My pouch and chest just felt very very painful until everything finally filtered thru...I dont know what in the heck this was but i know that i never in my life want to go thru this again cuz it was miserable...I should have stuck with the inards!!! Could this have been some type of PB, I just dont know..
avilla

avilla

2
 

One More Day

Just 1 more day till Christmas!!! Then no more sweet goodies around the house to nibble on for another year!!! I can finally get back to eating completely right and doing whats right for me and my band!!! But as for now, baking Santa cookies for tonight and planning dinner...I actually got out about an hour ago to the grocery store and oh man is it packed...There wasnt even walking room there today...As for tomorrow, I am tired of cooking and we are going out to a late lunch to a restraunt buffet with turkey and all the trimmings so everyone can have exactly what they want and no clean up for me to do at home!!!! Thank GOD!!
avilla

avilla

2
 

OMG

Ok I am totally excited today...We got our new uniforms in today...I was guessing at a smaller size for later on...But guess what, they actually fit...I am just almost giddy...So from a 50x34 pants its now a 46x34 and from my 4x shirt to a 3x...Now just to get these new ones fitting as big on me as my old ones!!! Work work work!!
avilla

avilla

1
 

Ok, so I was bad

I was able to get down to 26.5 lbs yesterday...then I went home and rearranged my livingroom furniture...I was to sore and tired after I was done so I didnt work out, I thought that would actually count as my work out...Then I had a kitkat candy bar...So guess what, I woke up this morning to an extra almost pound and a half...I am going to do my workout when I get home for sure today and see if I can get all that off...Kinda depressing, but thats ok...1 day out of as many as I have been good is fine...Everyone deserves a treat
avilla

avilla

2
 

Not so bad

Ok, so with it being my bday weekend I dont think that I did so bad..I gained about 1 1/2 pounds since Friday, but its still 1 lb less than last week...Im not going to kill myself over it, you have to splurdge every once in awhile...My dh bought me both breakfast and dinner yesterday then we had a cake around the house that I just had to grab a little of everytime I saw it...So I will take my 1 1/2 pounds with a smile this time...I went to my ultrasound friday and didnt find anything out bascially...The tech says she cant say anything till the dr goes over them first...So I have my followup with my regular ob next week and hopefully everything will be fine
avilla

avilla

2
 

No Luck

Ok, so I guess that adding more food to my diet really didnt work...Well, it did get 1 pound off but that was about it...So I am just flat out going to give up on my hopes of losing anything else until my first fill...I have really high hopes for after my fill tho...I am just wanting more to happen alot quicker than it is...I know, my weight didnt come on over night and it wont go away over night....I just need to work on keeping the right mind set for the next few weeks before my fill...Its really depressing tho
avilla

avilla

3
 

No birth control for me yet

I just got back from my follow up appt with my ob...She said all the tests came back normal but she was wanting to do a biopsy while I was there today...She said something about there was a disease that makes the lining of the uterus too thick sometimes and wanted to rule that out...Said no birth control until after these results came back...So off to another drs appt on December 1st for those results and she said she would do something about birth control that day if everything was normal...I am just so upset about all of this and want it all to be over with...Not to mention that its getting pretty expensive for all my drs appts, er visits, estrogen pills and I have Christmas coming up that I need to spend my money on..Plus having to buy all the good stuff for Thanksgiving dinner that all my family is coming to...This is just the wrong time of year to be going thru all of this if you know what I mean
avilla

avilla

2
 

Night of 3rd fill

For the first time since I have had the band I am actually feeling real restriciton with liquids even...This has never happened before...I have heard lots of people talking about having to sip sip sip their drinks and it taking an hour or 2 just to get down their protein drinks in the mornings...Well, now I know what they are talking about...I just had a protein drink for dinner and after 2 small drinks I had to actually take a break before I could drink anymore...There was no room left for anything else...And a couple hours ago I almost got sick off of a half cup of small curd cottage cheese...I am really feeling it now...I guess its a good thing that I am finally to this stage and finally have real real restriction...I am totally scare about what is going to happen when I start back on solids on Sunday...If I was having PBs before on my last fill I can just imagine how much I am going to have to slow down on my eating and how much more I am going to have to chew...I think that I might have to add a couple snacks between meals now just to make sure that I am getting enough calories cuz right now I get real full real quick...Will just have to wait and see how it goes in the days ahead...Hoping for some real weight loss this time!!!!
avilla

avilla

4
 

Night before

Well, I am due for my follow up in the morning...My ob said to not worry if they didnt call me before then cuz that would mean that nothing was wrong...Well, when I got home from work I had a message to call the nurse for some results...Of course I called back and got a machine and they never called me back so I guess I will find out in the morning..I am hoping that its nothing of course and that they were just not aware of what the dr had told me...Its still driving me crazy not knowing tho...I havent lost anymore weight lately...I have been kinda stress eating, guess its time for my next fill if I am capable of doing that...Usually just the smallest amount of food fills me up to a point of feeling ill and lately have been able to eat more food...So the next fill wont get here soon enough for me!! I am keeping my fingers crossed for my appt in the morning and hope that everything turns out well, right now I am really worried about it tho...Will check back in tomorrow with the outcome of that visit!!:phanvan
avilla

avilla

2
 

New Things

Well today has be kinda uneventful for me...I have been with my husband including dating time for little over 14 years and due to money reasons he has never financially spoil me its always been the other way around, but thank goodness for his raises...My husband actually went and bought brakes for my car this morning then gave me money for new underwear (which he has never done) and then took me out to dinner (which is the first time I have been actually out to eat since my sugery)...We went to Furrs Cafeteria so we could all have a taste of everything and it was great...I dont think that it did anything good for my weigh in tomorrow, but thats ok cuz it made him feel great to be able to do it for us...I had a couple bites of carrot slaw, a few bites of a salad, a couple bites of greens then a couple bites of bbq turkey and ribs...It was all wonderful...And with being able to get alot of different things and having a couple bites of each it was almost like cheating big time but I didnt...He noticed me smiling at him and wondered why, I let him know that this was the first time ever that he was able to do for me what I wouldnt have been able to do for myself and he loved it!!!
avilla

avilla

2
 

New Idea

Ok I have decided as of today that I am tired of being in the "starvation" mode with my 2 ounces of food per meal...In the last couple days if I have gone over my 2 ounces and just ate till I was just a little bit full I notice that I lose a little bit of poundage...I only have 2 weeks to go until I am allowed on normal food and 4-5 ounces each meal, but I cant seem to wait..I am going to move up my food intake a little and see if I can get some to start coming off, cuz this "starvation" period is just depressing...Of course I just now came up with this idea, my plans may change...But today I had half a can of split pea soup with ham and bacon, it was the most wonderful thing I have ever tasted...Half a can was basically all that I could handle and then felt full...I dont know what size a soup can is, maybe 6 ounces...So moving my intake up just 1 ounce has made me feel emotionally and physically better so far...Lets just see what it does to me in the morning on the scales...So, today I have had a whey protein drink for breakfast, 1/2 can of soup for lunch and dont know what yet for dinner but I am sure that it will be great regardless of what it is...If I start to have any sort of problem I will be right back on my 2 ounces of nothing mushie foods...I am crossing my fingers!!
avilla

avilla

2
 

My gain

well, my gain from yesterday wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be...on my weigh in this morning it was only 1 1/2 lbs that i gained...I need to get all of that under control
avilla

avilla

2
 

My First Fill

Well, I had my first fill today...It wasnt bad at all...I got 1.75 cc in my 4 cc band, so I guess thats good...Of course I cant tell how well its working yet cuz I am going to have to be on liquids for 48 hours...But they were very excited with my 22.5 lb loss as was I...My weight has been up and down and up and up all week and I was able to get it back down to my lowest before my appt today and was happy with that...The dr said that I wouldnt need to schedule another fill until I stop losing weight or go below a loss of 4-6 lbs in a month...Now to me 4-6 lbs in a month is really not enough so I will start pushing it now that I have my fill and hopefully some restriction...The only difference is that my water goes down alot slower and I have been having issues with getting in all my water today but it will be better with time...So, thats it about my fill...On to another new stage in life:drum:
avilla

avilla

2
 

Made It Home

Well I finally made it home today...My surgery went well...The only problem that I had during the entire process was coming out of the anesthetic once they took the tube out of my throat...I remember starting to hyperventalate and them having to talk me down and put me on O2, but I guess they are use to having to deal with that...The hospital was wonderful, I could not have wished for a better group of people taking care of me...They had several reason to knock me out thru the night...I kept having to get up and go to the restroom and kept setting off all the alarms on my IV and my heart monitor...One good thing to keep in mind, if you lay on your side your blood pressure goes way down so they had to keep a close eye on it and retake it several times...But back to the nurses, they even brought my entire family dinner the night of surgery, it was wonderful stuffed pork chops (not anything like the normal hospital food) and pancakes and bacon for breakfast for my husband...He was wanting to check in for the weekend like a hotel since it was so nice...The room even had a seperate livingroom area with a seperate tv just for the family then one over by the bed for the patient, it was great since my husband keeps a late schedule on watching his tv shows...The ride home wasnt unbareable, but I was nauseous and light headed the entire trip...But now that I am home I am feeling alot better and up moving around some...Beware of the scale when you get home, the swelling adds pounds (Be Ready!!)...I have only had to have 1 does of pain meds since I got home this afternoon and didnt even take a full dose that time, but I am thinking before I go to bed I might take one so I can get thru the night...And its true, the port site is the worst but starting to have some upper back pain between the shoulders (im guessing from the gas)...Its really strange not being hungry...I havent had anything to eat since night before last for dinner...I have been very lucky and have had no problems what so ever with the liquids...They brough me apple juice, broth and jello for breakfast, but I wasnt really wanting anything but took a couple bites of each anyways to just try to get some of my strength back and it went down same as always...I will be on a clear diet for 3 day (till monday) then on mushies (only 2 ounces) for 5 weeks after that...I ought to lose quite a bit of weight during that transition (I hope) but then it will slow down when I move to my regular foods (4-5 ounces)....But I can do it, I know I can...As good as I feel right now it should only take a few days for me to almost be back to normal (I hope!!!) I am really excited...Got my follow up with my surgeon (blessed man) on July 5th and will see how everything is going and then hopefully a fill in 6-7 weeks..Just wanted to touch base with my journal while everything was still fresh in my mind (foggy but its there)...Im on the other side!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!
avilla

avilla

2
 

Losing A Little

Well, I got my first fill on Friday...I have lost very little since...I just thought it would be a little faster, but I can wait...I started out on the day of my fill at 22.5 lbs lost and am now at 24.5 so I can deal with that...I am doing everything by the book...Measuring my food, making good choices, getting in all my water and protein and working out 30 minutes a day...My time will come and I am working hard to get there...Sometimes I feel like its trying to beat me, but I refuse to let it...So far so good, I cant feel much restriction from my fill really...Its nothing like some of the horror storys that some tell on here...The only difference is that I seem to get full a little quicker and have to stop eating, so thats good...A few pounds here and there is better than nothing and better than gaining for sure...I still havent broken the habit of jumping on the scale several times a day, but I am sure that will stop with time...My only problem is that while i am making dinner I might grab a taste of this and a taste of that while I am cooking then dont have much room for dinner, but I have to work at getting rid of that nasty habit cuz I really enjoy my family time during dinner...All good things come to those that wait!!
avilla

avilla

3
 

Little by little

Little by little the weight is coming off...I lost about another 1/2 lbs today and I can deal with that...Yes its very discouraging when the weight is stuck at a certain point for a while, but I am comfortable knowing that it will start back up again soon or later...And I am happy with my choice to start weighing again too, it helps me stay on track
avilla

avilla

2
 

Little by Little

Finally the scale has moved an inch...Not much but every little bit counts...And thats really strange cuz I had the bottom half of a cheeseburger last night but I did mow the front and back yard so I guess it evened out a little...My eyes got big this morning when I stepped up on that scale and it had moved...Next Friday is my second fill and I am more than ready
avilla

avilla

2
 

Last OB Appointment?

Well, i had another follow up with my ob today to try to get all my "stuff" settled...She said that my biopsy had been fine and that all of my problems were deffinately due to the depo shot fighting with my band...Now that all of my depo is out of my body all of the bleeding has stopped...So after a mandatory pregnancy test (which i thought would probably doom me today) she went ahead and inserted the minera iud...So, I am now set for birth control for the next 5 years and dont have to worry about the estrogen getting out of hand again since its estrogen free...The only thing wrong right now is that I am cramping really really bad, but the ob says that after the insert moistens and softens up I will feel alot better...I had to take 2 maxium strength midol about an hour ago cuz the cramping was getting out of hand...I am hoping that I feel alot better by tomorrow cuz I bought my mom tickets to see the Rocketts at the Nokia Theater tomorrow afternoon for part of her Christmas present and I right now dont feel like getting up and doing alot of walking around...Its hard enough just sitting still and feeling the pain...Oh well, like the ob said it will just take time then it will be like it was never there...I am just glad to have all of this behind me...I have basically been seeing a dr every friday since the first of October...Atleast the bleeding has stopped, that alone is joyous enough...Now back on track I can try to get my mind back onto working out and losing some of this weight, well after the cramping stops of course
avilla

avilla

2
 

Just waiting

Just sitting here waiting to take my son to the dr so I can go to my follow up again with the ob...I hope that she has some good news for me today...I am really anxious to get back on some type of birth control...My dh and I are not use to going without some type since we havent had to worry about it for over 10 years now...The dr wouldnt give me anything on my last visit thinking that it might make things worse if she did...We have messed up 1 time in the last week and had sex without anything and I am totally concerned that it might only take that 1 time to do me in...Thats all I need right now since I just got the band in June is to become pregnant...I think I would just end up pulling all of my hair out...Besides we just cant afford another child right now at all and our only child is about to turn 11 and I am not wanting to start all over again with late night wake ups and feedings and diapers....I WANT BIRTH CONTROL TODAY!! And I have been stuck on my weight for the last week or so too and am really wanting the 17th to get here so I can go get another fill...I feel like right now it is hitting me from every angle, band and all...
avilla

avilla

2
 

Just Waiting

I am just sitting back waiting for my weekly formal weigh in tomorrow morning...Of course my scales are different from the ones that I use at work in the breakroom, so I am not even going to speculate what it might be...I would be happy with anything around 2 pounds and extatic with anything over that...I knew that with the lapband the weight would be coming off slowly but I had no clue it would be this slow and this hard...I was even regreting getting the lapband earlier and thinking I should have gone for the more drastic surgerys then I visited the memorial page again for my sugeon and remembered why I had so much against it...I will just have to do my time and just remember its suppose to come off slow and healthy...Plus I really havent been that good this week but I cant always be good...But atleast when I do eat its bad its very very little...I have had a couple diet cherry vanilla dr peppers this week...Of course, no calories but I cant finish the entire can cuz it starts to feel terrible but it sure tastes good a little at a time...So, I am waiting for morning when I get to work to see what I have actually lost...Maybe even back to my 26.5 lbs I guess but I want more than that...I want another fill, but I need to wait atleast a month or so before I can ask my dr for that so I have the time behind me showing that Im not losing....So, long story short, I am hoping for more than 26.5 lbs and will update my journal in the morning right after my weigh in...Dang band is going to be the death of me!!
avilla

avilla

1
Sign in to follow this  
Followers 0

PatchAid Vitamin Patches

Bariatric Forums

For Patients

Health Professionals

Search Surgeons

Bariatric Surgeons: Want to research a weight loss surgery surgeon? Enter their last name below to start!

×