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Does being thinner make you look older?

:confused:As I move closer to my goal it all feels a little unreal. When I started my journey a year ago in May My goal was to weigh 155. I was 164.5 this morning. Last week my boss told me I was looking too skinny and I needed to start eating. Me? Need to eat? Is this a joke? Then over the weekend I had a friend tell me I looked "older" with out all the fat. Now I realize the fat did help fill out all the wrinkles but I wasnt real happy with that comment. I wouldnt go back. Wouldnt change it for nothing. In all fairness this man is a big jokester and picks on every one. He is also 515 pounds. I tried not to get my feelings hurt and just take it as a joke but I do see much more age on my face now. Honestly it is still worth it. I am more heathy now than I have been in 15 years. If I never lost anoher pound I think I would be okay. I am happy to b 93 down and still love my band. God bless to every one!!
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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The scale is moving again!!!!

I am finally losing a little again. Some times it seems like those scales will never budge! They finally moved. I am down 90 pounds. From 258 to 168. I started out out a very snug size 22 and now my 12 jeans are getting a little baggy. My original goal was 155. I am only 13 pounds to goal. It is hard to believe. This time last year I never thought I would make it. Thank God for my band!!!! Mechelle:wub:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Tomorrow is my Bandiverssary!

Hello lapband family. I hope all is well for you out here. I am doing okay. I cant believe it has been a year. It has gone so fast. I wish I had done this years ago. That is my only regret from the year. I have not met my goal. That is a litte dissapointing for me. I am truely happy and feel blessed for the changes in my life despite the fact that I didnt reach my goal of 100 pounds loss. I was a size 22 (bout to explode out of ) when I began my journey and was 258. Today I am generally (notice I say generally because I do fluctuate 2-5 pounds from day to day with fluid) about 173. So I am down about 85 pounds give or take a few. And I am comfortably in a size 12. It has been years and years since I could say that. I feel better about myself now than I have in ten plus years. I no longer take blood pressure meds. My cholesterol was sky high. It is now normal. I was borderline diabetic. Now not even close. I am healthy and happy. I want to lose 20 more pounds and I get really frustrated because these last 20 have hung on for months and wont budge. I cant get another fill. I am so tight now I can barely get regular food down so I think I need to concentrage on the protien and excercise. I walk two miles a night. When i first started, one almost killed me. Now alot of nigts I walk up to four and still feel really good. I know how blessed I am and I am not trying to whine but part of me does feel a little let down because I feel like I let myself down. I didnt quite make it. When I look at the big picture, I did pretty darn good though and this was one of the greatest things I have ever done. If you are debating it, DO IT! It is not easy every day but it is soooo worth it. You are worth it. God bless and good luck. New Mechelle:smile:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Soooo close but not there yet!

I am 18 days away from my Bandiverssary. I cant believe it has been a year. It has gone so fast. Unbelievably fast.I feel so blessed. I love my band. Dont get me wrong I would be lying if I said that every day has been easy but there is no way I could have been where I am right now with out the band. I had tried every thing every diet you could think of in he world I have done. For a while they worked but only for a while. The band helps me to be the best I can be. It helps me to stop when the food is good and I want more just because it's good. It gives me the ability to say no or even yes to just "a little bit" I am down 85 pounds, 17 to my goal weight. Seriously doubt I will make it before my year but I look and feel better now than I have in years. I just cant complain. 85 pounds is nothing to be ashamed of. I thank God for my new lease on life and thank my wonderful supportive husband and family and even the supportive friends here who have helped me thru. God bless and hope all is well. Come on 17 pounds, get off of me LOL!!!!!!!:smile:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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It moved it moved it finally moved!!!!!!

i was starting to think that scale would never move. Honestly. I finally am out of the 180's. Now if history repeats itself and I know it will. I will be in and out of it several times before out of it for good but it sure feels nice to see 179 this morning. I am sooo darn excited to just see some change!!!:thumbup: So I am 24 pounds away from goal. When I started it seemed like a completely un attainable goal. 103 pounds. I never in a million years thought I could possibly get here. Now I can actually see it happen. I feel so proud. May even make goal by the 28th of May my bandiversary. Good luck and God bless every one. What a ride!!
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Some times I really hate that scale!!!!

I said I would not panic when my year started to approach and I was not at my goal of 100 pounds loss (I am an 77 loss) I said I would be grateful for how healthy I am now and that I have lost several sizes. I have lost 40 inches on my body, between 3-4 clothing sizes, off all blood pressure meds, no longer borderline diabetic, no longer have high cholesterol etc. but here I am the scale will not move and I am feeling a little down. I cant recall the last week or even month the little sucker moved. Not even a pound. Please dont think me not grateful. I am so blessed I just want this other 27 pounds off do you hear me OFF AND GONE!!! I am walking 2 miles a day, eating healthy, feeling like I am doing all the right things but the body is a funny thing. My year is May 28. I REALLY want to be at my goal by then. Besides a fast, (lol) any suggestions?
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Celebrating the small things!

:thumbup:You know as you get closer to your goal it is easier to get frustrated because you know you are doing the right things yet the weight loss and slowed WAY down, I am about 76 down and wanna lose about 25-30 more, i talk in "about" and "arounds" because honest to goodness I fluctuate 2-5 pounds with in a few days it makes me so darned mad. But any way the things to celebrate: I now can cross my legs. I can comfortably take a bath and shave my legs and not splash ALL the friggin water out of my tub like a whale LOL. I can shop in the regular stores again. OMG I never though I could do that again. I can wrap a towel around me and it covers me, not a beach towel mind a a regular towel!! I can sit in a movie theatre seat comfortably. When I sit down :thumbup:at a booth with my friends or family, I dont have to be scared to death I may not fit and have the shame of saying "hey can we sit over here, I like this better" I was never turned away from an amusement park ride but I was getting close to "the limit" every time I went on a coaster with my kids, I started to sweat and said "please God dont let them ask me to get off" I no longer avoid people I havent seen for a long time (at Walmart or other places) and hope I dissapear before they see me because I am ashamed of how I look. I no longer out weigh my huge hunk of a 16 year old son. Heck I am no longer neck and neck with my hunk of a sexy 6 foot 1 husband (for weight) lol I dont feel like I have been beat after I go grocery shopping. My rear end is no longer wider than most of my chairs. (you know what I am talking about over hang) and a good friend of mine pointed out to me, my necklace that used to lay high up on my neck is now almost in my clevege (lol) yes it is the little thing we have to celebrate when we start to get frustrated. I am blessed. Yes I want this last little bit off but compared to this time last year, cant even compare, any one who is struggling with the decision to band or not to band? I would do it again in a minute. God has blessed me with an awesome family, friends and now another chance for a healthy life, I was a size 22/24 today 14ish and ......losing Good luck and God bless
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Nine months out!

:thumbup:This Sunday I will have been banded 9 Months. I can tell the weight loss has slowed down quite a bit. I feel blessed and am still very grateful for the surgery but I wish I could get the rest of the weight off. I have lost 72 pounds. Still want to lose 31 more. I would do it again in a heart beat. I have lost 20 something inches and about four pants sizes. I have been a real slacker when it coms to the excercise. It is really hard for me when the weather is cold. I like to walk in the park but the when it is cold, it is hard for me to get motivated! If any one has any ideas to get these last 30 pounds off I would love to hear them. It seems so strange to be asking. I cant beleive I am here. This close to my goal. I never thought I would get here so quickly, I had failed so many times before. I feel so blessed. Hope every one is well. God bless!
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Almost 8 months.

On the 28th, I will have been banded for 8 months. I cant believe it. It has gone so very fast. I have lost about 67 pounds. I say about because every day is different but most days I am around 191. My goal is 155. I feel better than I have in years. I am wearing 14 and 16 pants. I have lost 30 inches all over my body. I still have a way to go but so much better than I was. So much healthier. SO thankful and blessed. I love my band. Not every day, not every week has been easy but I would not trade it, I would recomend it to any one. The doc says in a few weeks, he wants me to go on a low cal low fat "rotation diet" so I can get the last 35ish pounds off. When I get there, he wants to do small fills a half a cc at a time till I can eat 4-6 small meals a day be satisfied and not starved inbetween. He said that is the key to long term loss and keeping it off. He says if I am hungry I wont keep it off, it is too hard for any one long term. Hope all is well. Hope every one else feels as blessed as I do. God bless and Good luck.:thumbup:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Looking to 2010

Each year I start off New Years Eve with a list of goals that I hope to achieve with in the year. Some of them are met, some are not, some get "partially" met. This year will be different. I have been banded for 7 months. I have 40 pounds to reach my goal. I had truely wanted to be there by the time I hit my one year bandiversary however I am learning with each month that this is not a race or a contest. The goal should be my health. I have lost an average of 10 pounds a month untill December then I found myself upset on the 28th when I realized I had only lost about 4 pounds this month. Most years in the past I would have gained like crazy. How in the world can I be upset? So I am off of most of my bloodpressure medications. I feel better than I have in years, I have lost about four pant sizes, I can breath again. Life is good. So what if i dont reach my goal by May 28th? Will life end? Realistically if I continue to do well, I am healthier all the time and working towards my goals is THAT urgent to get there by a certain day? I believe it is good to have a goal to shoot for but it seems when we put so much pressure on ourselves that failure becomes overwhelming. I am so blessed to have this band. I am 200% better off than I was last year and cant wait to see what the future holds. Watch out 2010, here I come....God bless each of you lap band family. Here we come new year.:biggrin:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Feeling a little defeated today.

I havent blogged for a while but I read every day to see how others are doing. The last few days have been rough. I was banded may 28th. Bye Thanksgiving I had lost 63 pounds and felt like I was doing pretty good. I have gained and lost 3.5 pounds since Thanksgiving several times. This morning I weighed 197. I try not to compare myself to others but I read earlier about some one who had been banded a week before me who is down 90 plus pounds already. It makes me feel like I am really not doing well. I can say the food temptations have been awful I have not "pigged out" but i have not been great either. There are m and m's and candies, fudge and cake every where at work this time of year and it is hard to pass it up every time. I just want the rest of this weight off. I havent been drinking my protien either. I just hate to take in the extra calories even though I know it is important. I just want this weight off! I have already had four fills. am up to 8 cc's in my 14 cc band I think. I should be pretty tight but it still takes more than I would like to make me full. It makes it harder to push the food away. Just feeling sad and a little defeated. Hope every one is well. God bless.:confused:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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I am thankful for so much this year

As I look back at the year, I realize just how blessed I have been.For my parents who have always been loving and supportive, my husband who is my rock and made a withdrawl out of his 401k so that I may have a second chance at life(lap band surgery) My beautiful healthy children, for a home a job and most importantly to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who made all of this possible. I know without him I would have nothing and be nothing. On the 28th I will have my band for six months. This morning I am 199. Though not skinny by any stretch of the imagination, I thought I would never ever see the ONEDERLAND again. Now I vow to never be in the two hundreds again. Not just because of the way I felt but for my health. My bloodpressure meds have been cut in half. I feel better than I have in years, I had a fill last week of just one half a cc but I am now up to 8cc's in a 14 cc band. This weekend after just a few bites of my favorite foods, I was satisfied. I LOVE THIS BAND!! I love my new life. I have lost 59 pounds. Thanks to my new friends here in this support group, Thanks to my family for their love and support and thank you God for loving me enough to send your son.God bless all and Happy Thanksgiving. Mechelle:smile:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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I'm Feeling a little nervous

I am starting to fear something is wrong. When I first had my surgery, I religiously took prevacid each day as my doctor told me I would need to for at least a year. I did so for about two months. It is SOOOO expensive. Even with insurance, it was almost $90. SO I decided to skip it. Maybe not forever but there was just not an extra $100 laying around for this medicine all the time. Any way I also take daily meds for headaches. I have for years. Some over the counter excedrin migraine tylenon, some prescription 800 ibuprofen, Some narcotics etc. Dont get me wrong I am not a crack head but I take something daily. Now out of the blue the last few days, my stomach is absolutely killing me. It burns and hurts so bad. I am scared to death I may have an ulcer or something now. Bad part is I dont have the money or time to take off work to have tests done. I have an appointment with my surgeon in a few weeks for my bi-monthly check up. I am wondering if i get a small fill if he would be able to see any problems (he does it under the flueroscopic machine I think they call it.) I have started taking prilosec OTC in the mean time and hope I have not waited to late. To boot I am under alot of stress personal and work related, the holidays divorcing parents (after 45 years of marriage just insane) on and on. My weight is the same. I am bouncing back and forth from 202 to 203. Have been there several weeks and not moved. How long does it take for an ulcer to develop? I have seen on this site numerous people who have problems and had to have their bands removed. I would die absolutely die. I was private pay for my band and not sure what the heck would happen if I had complications, I am pretty sure my insurance would cover the complications but not to be re-banded. I have lost 56 pounds and do not wanna start going backward. I feel like I need to throw up. My nerves are shot my stomach hurts and I have a head ache. CALGON...TAKE ME AWAY:frown:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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I am so very close to onederland

well I got on the scake this morning and was 202. SOOO very close, just a few more pounds and I will be out of the two hundreds hopefully for the rest of my life. This has been an amazing journey.There is always the fear for me that (as I have before) I will lose the weight, get where I want and need to be and then in time, little by little see the weight creep back five pounds at a time. This time I have a plan. I will weigh regularly. I didnt even have a scale before. I knew I was fat I was just in denial, not having a scale allowed me to not be accountable, Also once I hit my goal, I will not allow myself to add more than five to ten pounds, regardless of cycle time, holidays whatever. Accountability is the name of the game this time. My first BIG goal was to lose fifty pounds. My second was to get under two hundred, that is three pouns away, then it is the home stretch for me. I love my band. I hope every one else is well.
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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I know this is a little TMI but.....................

:redface:Okay some times we get into a little TMI on these blogs but I dont know where else to turn for these kind of odd questions.But here I go...... Before I had my band I had IBS. I lived in the bathroom, my husband joked and would tell me to save time instead of eating I might as well just throw the food in the toilet. I would often go four or five times a day. Now after the band, I go days and days (sometimes even a week or more) without going to the bathroom. Obviously I am eating less now and I am also ttying to eat healthier (less grease) but this is crazy. Does any one have any suggestions other than starting laxitives I would rather not go there. HELP?!:confused:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Im NewMechelle I guess

As You all may know I have desperately tried and tried and tried to get a ticker working. At this point, it is not the ticker as much as it is my stubborn streak refusing to give in. Any way, while working on it yet AGAIN last night, I got a wierd message that said something like "you need to change your user name" I thought maybe to actually change my signature I had to change my name too. Any way, for any one that may care, Hopefulmechelle, is now NewMechelle and to top it off......I still dont have a flippin ticker...... computers:mad:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Still a little down

Last night i was a little down. I had been doing very well and out of the blue, a pulled calf muscle. Feels more like a torn one. Any way today is about the same. I am still searching for my "sweet spot" may have found it, not sure yet. I had a fill twelve days ago. The only thing I can eat comortably is soup and mashed potatos. I went to dinner with my husband today and tried an omlet.Oh not so good. It felt like I was swallowing gravel. Hurt all the way down. So I tried tiny bits and slowed way down. Still eating gravel. I am not sure if I am too full or if possibly I am just so full that my transition from liquids to mushies to regular is going to be much slower this time. The surgeon said "respect the band, respect the fill this time you got alot in there" I have not thrown up tho I do PB at times. When do I know if I need an unfill? Thanks and God bless.
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Feeling down today

I have been doing pretty good, eating well, losing slow but steady, met my first big goal of losing 50 pounds excited about being around 7 pounds away from Onederland. I have been so motivated to excercise, just walking almost two miles five or six days a week. No one in the world hates it more, just about the time I get used to it and almost enjoy it.....I am walking down the steps this morning and hear a snap, like a twig snapped in half, I almost threw up, broke up in a cold sweat and hit the ground. Something in my calf either pulled or tore. I a,m so mad. I know this is not a marathon but I am trying so hard to "look good" for my 25th High School reunion the third week of November. I just kinda defeated tonight. Ate Cheetos like they were about to outlaw them lol. I just need to hope it is not damaged bad and watch me diet.If I start gaining, i will jump off of something lol. Tomorrow is another day.:biggrin:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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I vow this is my last "ticker" blog

Okay I would like to thank every one that has tried to assist me in my dingy attempts to do the ticker. I figured out how to do the ticker. I got a really cute one, loolks adorable half way almost to goal I have copied and pasted to option one block on the "update signature" area. I have copied and pasted on the option two area. I have tried hitting upload, save signature, and preview signature. Each time I do this It says invalid file. Does any one have any idea what I may be doin wrong? except for a possible shout out saying yea I got it some day lol I swear this is my last "ticker" blog.:thumbup:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Finally lost fifty

Well that 49 has been teasing me forever and ever but finally today i hit it. I hit fifty lost. My first big goal. My second goal Onederland. I am 207 today. Onederland, here I come!!!
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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computer is going in the garbage

okay so it is two am my time. I am really done this time i think i may have it this time. I just hate to let this stupid ticker thing beat me. one last try and it is off to bed i go. night all. God bless.:thumbup:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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last try

Okay Im fed up I have been playing with this thing forever. This is it for the night. Come on ticker, you can do it you can.!!!!:thumbup::mad:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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Please talk to me like a third grader

You know what is cute? When those people who are used to fooling around with computers try to tell us slightly computer challenged folks how to do something and it just sounds like greek to me. Okay I am trying to do a ticker thingy. I clicked on user cp, went to update your signature and then from there......clicked on every possible area and no luck. Yes I admit it. I am not the brightest crayon in the box. Could some one help a sister out? Thanks and God bless. Seriously, talk very slowly and use little words lol. On a positive note, I am down 49 pounds, such a tease, 49 and holding.:thumbup:
NewMechelle

NewMechelle

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