Ok so I get this email from a former fling.. I say fling but this Man I have been sooo inlove with for years emails me. He says he's movin to my town. I am terrified!! I was like a body builder last time we saw each other. What do I do? He's an X USMC.. This totally reminds me of one of my previous jobs as a hairstlyist. My boss sat the team down and read this article from a mag about what people think when they see us. She went on to compare the pretty and the ugly in the industry then began to discuss weight. That B*tch went on to say when people see Obese women they immediatly think LACK OF SELF CONTROL and dont want them working on hair. Is this what he will see? I thought I was over this crap yet here it is creeping its Ugly head at me. I could have soo sued my boss since I was the largest women in the room. I want to be stong yet I feel Once Again in bondage to others idea of me......
So I went to my first Dr. visit for the lapband. I finally have insurance to cover me and I find out that I droped some weight that took me from a 41.o BMI to a 39.0 BMI. Yea I am happy to have lost 10 lbs. However, My insurance needs me at 40 BMI. I have been set up for a sleep apnea test but my current co morbidities dont qualify. So I almost have to hope for Sleep apnea or Gain back the EFFIN 10 lbs!! I am so torn I droped the sodas and the sugas and it took me 3 months to lose 10lbs. I am almost disgusted to gain them back. How long will it take me to drop 80 lbs ... years!! What should I do????? My friend was like lets get you some lead weights from the pro bass shop...hahaha AMAZING HUH!:biggrin:
