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OMG...Dilated Pouch

July 14, 2010   Last week I went to my lap band doctor to have my band checked out because I hadn't been able to keep anything down. I thought or felt like something was wrong. My doctor determined that I was too tight and consequently my pouch had dilated. He removed 1.5 cc's and I am scheduled for a check up after six weeks. If all is well, then I will be able to get a fill. Although I was happy that my band hadn't slipped and I didn't have to have another surgery, it has been tough being able to eat so much. For the past week, I have been devouring any and every kind of food imaginable.   Since then, I have gained 10 lbs. Yes, I went to the doctor last Wednesday and by Tuesday morning, I had gained 10 lbs. The scale read 171 lbs. and I had been around 160 for the past year.   I am sick...what sane person allows food to kill them? Who can gain 10 lbs in a week with a lap band? I can and I have...   Tuesday morning, I was determined to put an end to this madness. I woke up and went for a walk before preparing for work. At work, I drank water. I increased my protein and decreased my junk food intake.   I know that I need a lifestyle change and it begins with my commitment to myself.

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Focus on the goal

Jan 4, 2010   Weight 163 lbs Chest 35.5" Hips 40.5" Thigh 23 Arm 12   Walked for 25 minutes   I am on my way to goal...new year, improved me!

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Let the CHANGE begin in 2010...yes, I want to be thin!

I love to make New Year's Resolutions and commit to change at the turn of a new year. My commitments for change for 2010 include:   1. Focus on Spiritual Growth 2. Focus on Family 3. Focus on Health - Exercise 5 times per week - Appreciate who I am and how I look like every day (in the past, no matter how much weight I lost, I wasn't satisfied) 4. Focus on finishing dissertation - Propose by February - Defend by May - Graduate by Summer

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One Year Out -- Now What?

Nov. 29, 2009 162 lbs.   I celebrated my one year bandiversary on November 20th. I have lost a total of 51 lbs. and I am only 9 lbs away from my goal weight. I feel good about the progress I have made even though it has not been an easy journey. It has really been rough at times. I have spent more time trying to work the band than I have been working out. I would love to be at goal weight of 153 lbs. by my birthday, Dec. 17th. It will only require that I: 1. do some form of cardio workout 3-4 days 2. drink my water 3. take my vitamins 4. eat the way I am supposed to...   I haven't come this far (and spent over 13,500 dollars) to stop before I get to my goal, which is pretty conservative. My doctor thinks I should go down to the 140's but I think that is too small and would be hard for me to maintain.   Ok...I am on my way to a thinner, healthier, happier me!:thumbup:

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Unfill = weight gain, now what?

October 6, 2009 165 lbs.   Last Wednesday, I had .25 removed from my band. Since then, I have been able to eat more than I ever. Consequently, I have gained over 5 lbs.   I am somewhat confused and I don't know what to do. I don't want to be miserable as I was, but I think I need a little more restriction.   I am torn. I also realize that I have a sick addiction to overeating.

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Let's see what happens with .25 removed

Oct. 1, 2009   Yesterday, I went to my appointment and had .25 removed from my band. I didn't know how much was in my band, but the nurse said that I have 6.35 remaining in my 10 cc band.   I immediately felt a difference and was able to eat and I continued to feel restriction too, which I was afraid wouldn't be as effective.   I feel like I made the right decision.

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I can't take it anymore -- unfill tomorrow...yes, I'm scared!

September 29, 2009 159 lbs.   Since my last fill, it has been an unpredictable journey full of valley and mountain top experiences. Lately, I have been having too many episodes and can't keep anything down. I pray that all is well and look forward to my appointment in the morning to have a slight unfill. There have been days when I thought I might be at my sweet spot, but I have experienced more days of misery than anything else. Currently, it's my TOM and I can't eat anything. I have scheduled an appointment for in the morning for an unfill. A couple of months ago, I scheduled an appointment for an unfill and canceled. I have this fear that I am going to gain weight, but I know that I will continue to have restriction. I only need to lose about six more pounds and then I want to focus on maintaining.   I am happy with my progress, but I want to be able to eat more protein and vegetables.   I will post my feelings after my appointment tomorrow. I pray all is well and I haven't waited too late...

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Confused about success...

September 24, 2009 159.6 lbs.   I can't believe that I weigh only 159 lbs...I haven't been in the 150's in a very long time. I am happy, but also confused.   I get so much attention that you would have sworn that I lost these 50 lbs overnight. I can't go anywhere and it doesn't help that I work in a high visibility possition.   I look in the mirror and I do see that I look much better, but I don't see the "skinny" person that everyone is raving about...I don't know if it's a mental thing or not.   I haven't been this close to my goal since I got married over 11 years ago.   I am very happy about my success, but I am having to adjust to the amount and kind of attention that I am receiving.   I can't believe that I am at the end of the journey to reach my goal weight of 153 lbs., but I know that the hardest journey will be addressing the issues that caused me to yo-yo diet for half my life, maintaining my goal weight, and adjusting to the new healthier me.

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What is too small for me?

September 15, 2009 162.6 lbs.   Yesterday at church, the preacher's text was MYOB...Mind Your Own Business. Immediately after church, this lady approached me to say that I know this goes against what the preacher said because I have to mind your business. She proceeded to explain to me that I was too thin. She went on to say that had she not been plump, she wouldn't have survived her battle with cancer. To say the least, I was speechless. How could I respond without being or seeming rude?   This has become an ongoing problem as I get closer to my goal weight. I haven't been this small in a very long time, so people equate it with too thin when I don't think it's actually the case.   I am fortunate that my body can carry more weight. Currently, I can wear sizes 6, 8, and 10s. I don't want to be unrealistic, but I do want reach my goal.   What a journey!

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Why am I afraid to reach my goal weight?

Sept. 7, 2009 164.4 lbs.   Okay...this is a strange feeling that I must confront. I have become satisfied with my current weight loss and I have no motivation for losing the 11 lbs. to get me to my goal weight of 153 lbs. It has been a very long time since I have been in the 150's... probably high school was the last time.   My mind tells me that I should try to get to goal by my 1 year bandiversary of Nov. 20th. It's a realistic goal to lose 11 lbs in two months.   I don't understand why I am so afraid. I don't think I realized how much I used my obesity as an outward covering to shield me from experiencing life. I now feel like I no longer have a shield and consequently, I am noticed more often than ever by women who compliment my outfits and men who open the door for me.   I just need to take one day at a time and enjoy the journey...

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Progress Report

Sept. 1, 2009 weight 164.8 lbs start (nov) - current = loss chest - 40.5 - 35.5 = 10 inches loss waist - 41 - 29.5 = 11.5 inchess loss hips - 47.5 - 40.5 = 7 inches loss arm - 14 - 12.5 = 1.5 inchess loss thigh - 28 - 23 = 5 inches loss   Total inches loss = 34 inches Total weight loss = 48.2 lbs.   The weight loss has continued at a rate of approximately 5 lbs. per month. I am amazed at my total weight loss of 48.2 lbs and 34 total inches loss. I am wearing 8's and 10's and feeling good about myself. There are still times that I look in the mirror and I see the overweight person that I used to be...I don't know if that will ever change.   I am approximately 12 lbs. away from my goal of 153 lbs., which will put me at a total weight loss of 60 lbs. I can't believe that I am this close when I have been so far away. Now I must work to adjust my psychological addiction to food that cause me to be overweight in the first place.

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8 Month Progress Report

August 1, 2009   Then(Now) = Amt. Lost   Chest 40.5(36) = 4.5 inches :biggrin: Waist 41(30.5) = 10.5 inches :thumbup: WOW Hips 47.5(41.5) = 6 inches :eek: Arm 14 (12.5) = 1.5 inches :thumbup: Thigh 28(23.5) = 4.5 inches :thumbup:   Total inches lost = 27 inches:thumbup: Weight 213(169) = 44 lbs:thumbup: Starting size 16/18 (XL) Current Size 8/10 (M)   I am so excited about my progress. The journey has been rough and there were times when I was disappointed, but I definitely am thankful for the life that the lapband has helped me to attain. I feel good about my physical self again. I can dress with confidence. At this point, I know I have to reevaluate my goal. I want to be able to wear size 8's. I have no desire to be smaller; however, I haven't been smaller in a very long time, so I don't know how I would look at a smaller size. I guess I will take it 10 lbs. at a time. I will evaluate how I look at 160 lbs. and then 155 lbs.

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July - August Progress

August 1, 2009 169   July 1st Aug. 1st 175 lbs. 169 lbs. -6 lbs.:biggrin: Chest - 36.5" 36" -1" Waist - 31" 30.5" -.5" Hips - 42" 41.5" -.5" Arms - 12.5" 12.5" 0 Thigh - 24" 23.5" -.5"

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Delivered's Journey

July 27, 2009 171.6   Yesterday evening, I played Volleyball and this morning at 5:30 a.m., I went walking 2.6 miles. I am striving to get 10,000 steps per day. I have also been drinking more liquids. This has helped me in two ways. First and foremost, I read on the forum that dehydration may cause the band to be tighter than usual, so I have increased my water intake and this has enabled me to eat more. In addition, increasing my water intake has helped me to break the plateau.   I definitely can see the results of my weight loss. I can wear my "old" clothes and I feel much better. The compliments have been extraordinary. I am constantly getting positive feedback everywhere I go, so either I looked very bad before or I look much better now.

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Praise Report

July 24, 2009 172 lbs.   I was excited this morning when I stepped on the scale and it read an even 172 lbs. I increased my exercise by getting in my 10,000 steps with steps, treadmill, and walking more. In addition, I have been drinking the protein water.   I am excited that I am getting closer to my goal. I don't think I want to get all the way down to 150 lbs. Currently, I am 172 and wear sizes 8 and 10's. I really just want to be a fit size 8. I think 155 - 160 lbs. will allow that comfort, so I am less than 20 lbs away from my goal.   It's a slow journey, but a worthwhile one. I struggled at the beginning and wondered what had I done, but I am very glad I did it.

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Idk

July 19, 2009   I must be the queen of plateaus because it seems like I am always trying to come out of one. I guess I am averaging about 5 lbs. per month of weight loss per month. So...it takes about two months to lose 10 lbs. I know that slow weight loss is best for the skin, etc...   I am also thinking about having a slight unfil because the stress of eating impacting me negatively. I have never had a good relationship with food. In the past, I was glutton and now I am afraid to eat. I experience a lot of stress prior to eating and there are times when I don't eat at all in a social situation because I fear having a PB episode.   I don't particular like the shakes anymore. I waste more than I drink.

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Praise Report

July 10, 2009   Today I decided to wear a sleeveless top for the first time in approximately 10 years. I feel liberated. After spending the last couple of months noticing others who wore sleeveless shirts, I decided to get out of my box. My husband was impressed and noticed immediately. I feel very good about the progress that I have made on this journey.

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I am still striving

July 1, 2009 175 lbs.   Chest - 36.5" Waist - 31" Hips - 42" Arms - 12.5" Thigh - 24"   During the month of June, I did okay. I didn't gain any weight. I only lost about 3 pounds and a couple of inches. However, progress is progress as I said in an earlier post.   I think I am headed in the right direction. I have been walking every morning at 5:30 a.m. for about an hour and I have been lifting weights after work. I really don't know how that's going to work. I am extremely pleased with my current look. I am wearing sizes 10 and 12 and the 12's are very loose.   I am feeling more confident. I just don't want to become complacent. I want to make it to goal this time. I am less than 25 lbs. away and I want to go all the way to my goal.   I am very sore right now and it feels so good because it's a reminder of all the hard work waking up early in the morning to walk and taking the time after work to lift.   I hope to continue to work to improve the following:   1. Drink more water. 2. Eat more protein. 3. Post on this blog

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Broke the Plateau

June 30, 2009 174 lbs.   For the past week, I have increased my physical activity. I have been walking. Yesterday, I walked and lifted weights. This morning, I walked. I am hoping to work hard during the month of July because I want to be at or near goal when school starts back.

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I hate plateaus

June 21, 2009 178.6 lbs.   I know that the band works for me when I work it. If I were to be honest with myself, I have not worked the band at all. The band is doing its job in spite of my weaknesses. I can't eat skittles, icecream, and m&m's and expect to lose weight. I hardly drink any water and I haven't been doing any purposeful exercising.   So...I have to quit lying to myself. Do I really hate plateaus? If I hate the state that I am in weight wise, then I will exercise, drink my water, stop eating slider foods, and increase my protein intake. It's that simple.   Otherwise, I don't hate plateaus, I hate myself as evident with my destructive behavior.

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New Month - Renewed Focus

June 1, 2009 178.8   Chest - 37" Waist - 31" Hips - 42.5" Arm - 12.5" Thigh - 24.5"   I am so happy that I am over halfway to my goal of 150 lbs. I am receiving compliments on a daily basis about my weight loss. I am striving to reach my goal because I haven't been at it since high school. However, if I don't lose another pound, I still feel good about my progress. I feel so much better about myself. I was headed on a path of destruction. I have no doubt in my mind that I had I not opted for the lapband, I would have reached 300 pounds during this end of my stressful year on my job.   I know that I must become more consistent at drinking more water, taking my multivitamin, and exercising in order to promote more weight loss.

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What Plateau?

May 22, 2009 179.8   I couldn't believe the scale this morning...I lost over 2 lbs which put me in the 170's and a total weight loss of 33.2 lbs.   I am so thankful for this forum and all of the encouraging comments that were left. I took some B12, increased my water intake and walking, and stopped the snacking after 6:00 p.m.   I am definitely getting a lot of positive comments about my weight loss. My clothes are fitting loose and I feel so...good that I could scream!   I am over half-way to my goal of 150 lbs.

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Plateau...please go away

May 19, 2009 182.2   For the past two weeks or so, I have been at or about 182 lbs. I want so very badly to be in the 170's. :smile2:   I know this is a journey...I am not going to give up. I am going to put my metabolism in gear. I haven't been walking as much, so I am going to increase my activity again. Also, I need to drink my water too! So...let's see how those two goals work for me!

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Restricted for Mothers' Day

May 9, 2009 183 lbs   I am not looking forward to eating out today for Mothers' Day. It's also my TOM, so I know that the restriction is tight. I must remember to chew, chew, chew, and chew some more and take small bites.   I wonder why my band is tighter during my TOM....   Here's to a wonderful Mothers' Day!

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30 Pounds Gone Forever

May 3, 2009 182.4   On the day of my surgery, I weighed 213 lbs. and today I have passed the 30 lbs. mark and am 182.4 lbs.   I feel so good. I am halfway to my goal. The process has been slow. It has taken 5 months for me to lose 30 lbs, but I am not dwelling on that. The lowest I have been in the last few years has been 173, so I am really looking forward to losing some virgin fat and to think I am only 10 lbs. away is great progress.   The best feeling I have is not worrying about gaining this weight back so ... quickly as I have done so...many times in the past.

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