Well hello everyone first and foremost....
I am 23 a newlywed and have been overweight all my life....I never ate as much as everybody in my family, but i ended up being the fat one. I started seeing nutritionist at age 6. I had to get my meals counted out even thru high school. It was definetly embarrasing, not so much the diets, but all my classmates knowing i was on diets and asking, "Aren't you suppose to lose weight." I have been use to being fat all my life, I was ok active and tried to watch what I ate. My self esteem for a morbidly obese person is pretty darn good most days. It wasn't until I met my husband Dean and fell in love with this wonderful man, and realized I wanted to have his child more than anything in the world. I graduated nursing school one year ago, so I knew everything that can go wrong if your morbidly obese and pregnant. You risk not only your life but your childs. I decided to do the lap band, because I diet and lose 20- 50 lbs, I have never been close to being thin or average. I am 5'2 was 333 in JAN 10,2009.
So I started my lapband diet that diet, till May 10th I had lost 34 lbs. I was down to 299. Very hard work with diet and excersice.
Since May 10th though, I have not lost anymore weight. I gain pounds then lose pounds but never more than 2 or three.
So these last four days I increased my cardio to 35 minutes, weights, 1 hr. Now my fat butt gets on a bike for 15 minutes, and started doing 30 minutes of TAE BO. Haven't lost one lb. My diet consists of protein shake, snack: nuts, lunch salad with 3 oz chicken lite honey mustard, snack: pear, dinner crab salad with light mayo, mustard. Diet pop and green tea, lots of water.
I am just wondering what if lap band doesn't work for me. What if I am doomed to be morbidly obese for the rest of my life. I just feel so discouraged and upset. I don't know what to do.:thumbup:
I am a pretty lonely person, I think I have a good personality, and I am caring about others. Yet I seem to not have to many friends... My husband is my best friend. Yesterday at work everyone decided to go to six flags, they all worked around their schedules, except for mine. I keep thinking if they feel that maybe I wont be able to keep up with them, if they have to wait for me, or watch me take the walk of shame, because I wont fit into rides. I sometimes think well geez I am not that fat, but then when I had to ask for a seat belt extender on an airplane, I knew I was way fatter than what I thought.
They all go shopping together, but I am not there size so I know there is no point in going, but I don't know how to tell them that it hurts my feelings when they don't include me. They are all really nice, and they don't want to humilate me when the event happens.
-I just wonder if it is my size keeping me down or is it just me?
-Will my life change, regarding making friends and having fun, once my surgery is over with?
I seem to always be the friend that people want to go have lunch or dinner with. Does anyone else feel like that? How has is changed since you have lost weight.
-Weight has stopped me from:
*dancing in public
*wearing a bathing suit in public
*going to the pool
*going to six flags
*going up the sears tower
*hiking up an ecuadorian volcano(once an a lifetime oppurtunity, to out of shape to do it)
*going up a mountain ride
*going rollerblading
*going ice skating
*going rock climbing
*going to the mall, and finding clothes that fit me
*eating in public and not feeling ashamed
*running after my nice and nephew
*driving a motorcycle
*driving a 1972 mustang (couldn't fit, I cried)
*going down a water slide
* going on bumper cars, or any rides at carnivals
*wearing high heels
*running
*jogging
*going more than 3 flights of stairs
*talking to people confidently
I am going to change all this, I know that lap band isn't a miracle, that I will have to change my lifestyle.
Before I decided to have this done, I wrote a list of pros and cons. My cons were
1. I could die.....My pro was 1. I will live longer, healthier. I hope this will give me that boost in life, I want to do so much in my life, yet there is this weight, this overbaggage, that I have carried for to long of time. My parasitic twin that invaded my body, and made others see it and not me. A burden, that makes me ache and groan every step I take. I WILL NOT LET WEIGHT STOP ME ANYMORE!!!!:thumbup::tt1::angry::angry:
