So seriously - I'm down several sizes. I lost most of my weight in my boobs :thumbup:, my butt, hips and thighs ... Poor me, right? :cool: lol But !! My waist is still about the same size ! How does that work??? I went from a 26/28 pants to a 18/20 . However, the 18's are just a bit snug at the waist, and bag out around my ass and hips and thights .... Anyone else going thru this ? It's such a strange feeling to be able to fit into XL or L , not XXXL or XXL - 18/20 , not 26/28. And my shoe size is shrinking as well ! This losing weight stuff is getting expensive hehehe But darn well worth it!
This time last year, I was banded, but didnt have much restriction. This year, I dont have as much as I HAVE had because they took out a full CC , and did a fluroscope. I dont get to have a fill until Dec 4 :-(
So, I KNOW the basics. i KNOW what I'm supposed to do. I KNOW I'm supposed to change my habits. I KNOW I'm supposed to exercise. THEN WHY DON'T I DO IT ???? ANY of it ????
I still have really crappy eating habits, i don't exercise at all on a regular basis, I throw up constantly because I eat too much, or the wrong foods, or too fast. Yes, i'm down 60 pounds - and I'm thrilled with that. But many others are down TWICE that, in the same amount of time ! Why ?? They've changed their habits and exercise !!!! WTF! Why can't I get this into my head ??? It's not that difficult a concept to understand ... SHEESH ! :cool2:
Ok , that being said, I DO read and re-read all of my materials, books, etc... on WLS to get me motivated. I'm also a Foodie ... I love to food, and cooking. I read / subscribe to many mags , and buy tons of cookbooks. But lately I look at them, and I try to see what other ingredients I can swap out - to make it lower in fat, higher in Protein, etc... Thats a step in the right direction , isn't it???
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So, I've been playing with the same 6-10 pounds - Up and Down - Since Feb. I was banded 10/14/08, and went from 288 to 252 - then up to 256 - up to 258 - down to 255 - up to 256 - etc.... totally frustrating!! Also, most times I'd go out to eat, I'd end up barfing into my napkin , much to the dismay of my dinner partner. And this kept happening - at home or out in public - it was just as embarassing !!! I went to Shellie, my surgeon's PA who does the fills, and she thouhgt I was too tight. I thought I was eating too fast, too much, the wrong foods, etc... So in Feb, she took OUT .5cc ... I was so depressed, because i felt I wasn't too tight. But, this is her job, and I had to trust her judgement.
In March, i met her again. Still no weight loss, except the bouncing back and forth of the ever dreaded 6 pounds! :wub: So she and I went down the hall to my Nutritionists office. We all sat and discussed my diet, my exercise habits ( which are barely visible ) and my snacking options. She gave me a plan to follow, which i did, to the Letter! I was to see both of them again in a month.
April arrived, and I STILL hadn't lost any weight, and i was still throwing up after most meals, and feeling so tight and full. So, we decided to give it one more month. After all, it's best to explore ALL options before doing anything drastic, or expensive, such as testing and scans. And this is what they do for a living. So, yes, i was terribly dishartened not losing any weight, but, I was willing to try. I had a date set up for the end of May.
Well, I never got that far. :eek: After dinner one night, a couple of weeks ago, i threw up, again. But this time I had major pain in my diaphram area, and a really sharp pain in my Right shoulder. Sooooooo - I'm not an idiot. I know the signs of a Gallbladder attack, but i was really hoping I wasnt having one. Well, a couple hours later Im heading to the ER. I called Shellie the next morning to inform her of my visit, and she got me in for an untra sound the next morning. I wasn't out of there an HOUR and she called me and said " Hey Bobbie! What are you doing Tuesday morning? Oh wait! I'll tell you ! You're having surgery. What do you think abou that"? :sad:
My first reaction was YES!!!!!!! Not that i wanted another surgery, but I finally had a reason WHY i was throwing up, and feeling do damn full, and why I wasnt losing any weight. :w00t: Apparently I had tons of stones, and a raging infection going on in my gallbladder. And it was justification for the ER visit. { I was honestly accusing myself of being an alarmist }. So, Er Tue night/Wed morning, Ultra sound Thurs morning, and pre op friday morning with surgery planned for Tuesday am, 05/19/09. I had my post-op visit yesterday, and i get to go back to work Monday. And, I had a fill !! In feb they took out .5cc, and yesterday i got 1cc put in. Im finally on the road to recovery, and can concentrate on my weight loss. Im so thankful we found this now, instead of 3 months from now. I feel like I've already lost 4 months in my weight loss journey.
So, feeling super now ... I just had to write it down.
Bobbie