Hello Everyone!
I was banded on 6/30/2008. I really need some support or some help or maybe just some words of wisdom! First I was having some serious second thoughts right after I had my surgery, I was in a lot of pain and discomfort, even just a few sips of water would have me feeling so full that I thought I was going to explode. I was taking in about 200-300 calories per day and I lost 14 lbs. within the first 7 days after my surgery. I went to my post op appointment and they really only told me to keep up the good work, try to take in more protein and see you in about 5 weeks. Fast forward to the last 2-3 weeks. I feel like I dont even have the band in. When I get hungry I can pretty much eat a normal amount which is really making me nervous. I do my best to cut out all the bad foods and things that caused me to get obese in the first place. I have gained back about 3 lbs since I started eating food again, this really makes me nervous. I realized that before I had the surgery I was so used to overeating that I never actually felt the feeling of being hungry for years. When it came upon me after the surgery I didnt even really recognize the feeling and it scared me. Did this happen to anyone else? Now that I have the band in, it has not been filled yet, sometimes I wait until I feel hungry and other times I catch myself slipping back into my old ways and eating something just because...I feel really lost and confused right now? I started out at 339 lbs and I am now at 320, I walk at least 1 mile, 5 or more times per week but its like I'm stuck. Did I make the wrong decision to have this lap band or am I just destined to be obese?
So dazed and confused.
I think I really do understand how you feel. I was really really believing that I made the wrong decision getting banded. I thought I wanted the band so bad and I did everything perfect to get it, then after I got it, I was in pain and confused. Discouraged and I experienced something that I realized I had not felt in so long I couldn't remember. HUNGER. I have been overweight and overeating for so long that I couldn't even remember what being hungey actually felt like. I have spent the last 20 years just eating and eating and eating, eating because its morning, night, afternoon, because I'm happy, sad, or because I passed someplace that I just have to stop in and get something. I used to eat a meal while I was cooking a meal and convince myself that I was still hungry...Once I got the lap band, I was experiencing a lot of different emothins and my natural reaction to emotion is to EAT. Except, I couldn't and still can't eat the terrible way I have been eating for so long. I actually got HUNGRY. I was so scared and nervous and depressed and just a whole host of other things...But I have been coming to LBT everyday and reading about the experience of others and getting encouragement and tips and I realize that I am actually Happy and pleased that I do feel hungry, its a sign that I am not overeating anymore(being hungry feels so much better than that, I am so stuffed I want to throw up or die right now feeling) I can no longer stuff everything down my throught and then feel terrible about myself because I did that. I have not had a fill yet and I have only lost 26 lbs so far, but I feel great! I feel like I can do anything. I feel like if I stick with this lap band and use it as the tool it is meant to be I will finally be FREE!
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