Well my worst fears have been confirmed. I will be back to surgery on 8/10. My band has slipped and my stomach has prolapsed through the top of my band. The last two weeks have been horrible. I can't sleep and I can't eat. I am even more so nervous for this surgery than the first. My physician says I am rare only 5% of individuals have band slips. Well does that make me a higher risk for other complications? Please keep me in your prayers. Good luck to all, and here is hoping the 2nd time is the charm. I am going back in to surgery weighing 160. I should be exstatic that I am down 80 pounds since the beginning of my journey, but I can't help feel like a failure because of the slipped band. I know I need to be more careful this time around. That is if my band can be saved. I pray that it can be, as I would be lost without it!
Well only 5 more days till the day. I am so excited & scared both at the same time. I don't think I was nearly half as excited as I was for my wedding day. I of course am not into being the center of attention. I am the caregiver and don't have much time to care for myself, that is why this surgery is so important to me. IT IS ABOUT TIME I START CARRING FOR MYSELF!!!!
At my preop appt on June 18th I weighed in at 236 with a BMI of 44.1. My highest weight after nursing my son was 243 on May 31, 2008.
My husband has been supportive throught the preop process by going to appts with me and asking questions that he was concerned about. I have chosen to tell some people and haven't really decided on others, but you know how people talk, so I am sure that I won't have to tell many more people because the will have heard it from "the grapevine".
This weekend will prove to be a busy weekend. There is the birthday part on Saturday for my lil cuzin that is turning 1. Then Sunday another big day "my future niece's baby shower, can't wait to see you RaeLee!). Not to mention Sunday may last day of eating... At least preop. I start a clear liquid diet Monday-Wednesday and can't drink anything after midnigh on Wednesday.... I hear this can be one of the hardest parts, I am excited to start the process.
My husband won't be able to go with me when I get my surgery. Which in the long run might be better as he tends to get anxious very easily and if there were to be any complications it may be harder on myself.
5 more days and counting!!!!
The weekend went by so quickly. I just hope the next 41.5 hours go by just as quickly.
The baby shower and birthday party went well. I can't wait till I get to meet my new niece!!! I hope she isn't born while we are gone to get the surgery.
My last meal before the preop clear liquid diet for 3 days was left over sub sandwich(we had so much left from the baby shower) and guacamole.
The first two days on the preop clear liquid diet have not been bad at all. My stomach really rumbled the first day at lunch but I keep drinking my Crystal Light and it has been so bad. Broth has left something to desire but I am sure I will be wishing I had some broth after surgery.
This will be my last blog post until after the surgery as we will be leaving tomorrow night(8/13) for surgery on 8/14. The drive is about 4.5 hours or so and we have to be at the hospital to AM admissions by 8:30am.
My has band has been a bit of a grump...He always tends to get that way when he is anxious or scared about something. I know he is more anxious because he actually won't be able to be at the surgery.
My biggest yikes for the past couple of days is now my son (2year old) has strep throat. I am praying that I don't get it before we leave to surgery, because that would be a disaster since we have to travel so far to get to the surgery.
I am still very excited and nervous at the same time. So far, things haven't quite hit me yet, maybe because I am looking forward to the journey ahead and put the tiredness behind me...
Here is hoping to new me!!! :thumbup:
Well it has been some time since I posted to my blog. It probably has something to do with consistant loss of weight since then. Well I should say until recently. I guess I have alot to be happy about, but can't seem to be at this time. I guess gaining 4 pounds seems like alot at this point in time and it is impossible not to feel discouraged. I was filled to 7.6cc but had reflux and heartburn so I went back to the doctor and he took out a whole 1.0cc. I guess I should be thankful he didn't take the whole fill out:scared2:. Since then I have been so hungry it is driving me crazy, nothing seems to fill me up, or at least not before everything comes back up. I NEED HELP!!! My next fill is not for 16 more days, I am worried I will have gained 20 pounds by then if not more. I am trying to stay positive but it has been frustrating. I guess I should be focusing on the 70+ pounds I have lost, but I just can't seem to get past this hopeless feeling. I really had hoped to be down at least 10 more pounds than I am right now. I just need to refocus. Good luck to all on their journey. I am hoping this blog can help me put things into prospective.
I was just looking over old post and noticed that I posted last year around this time. Wow, what a difference a year can make. I have been at a plateau now for about 4 months. It probably has to do with my band being overfilled and then underfilled and now once again my band is giving me problems. I have had reflux for the last 3 weeks or so. After reading last year's post at least I am feeling better know that I have come a long way since then!! :crying: My overall message, no matter what obsticles we face we can overcome them if we give it time. I just hope I can make it throught this next week, while I wait to get an unfill and finally get a good nights sleep. This acid reflux is a real bummer, but at least I don't fell like the trick is on me!!!
Here it is almost 3 months out and I haven't lost any weight since coming home from the surgery... So today I sit and wonder if the trick isn't really on me.:thumbup: I have been walking and trying to watch what I eat and have been concentrationg on how I chew and make sure to never drink during meals. It is very frustrating to not see the scale move and not have any NSV. The worst part of it all is when people ask how much weight I have lost. I go in for my 3rd fill on 11/7/08 and I am hoping to feel some restriction. I really would be happy with at least loosing 1 pound a week. I guess I should be happy about not gaining, but I can't help but being frustrated. My first fill was on 9/12/08 for 3.4cc's( I have a 10 cc standard band), my 2nd fill was 2cc's for a total of 5.4cc's. I am trying to stay positive as the nurse stated that most people start to really see results with 6-8cc's. I hope I am almost there!!! I hope this is the last Halloween I have to feel like a stuffed pumpkin. Happy Halloween to All!