I HAVE HAD 2 FILLS IN THE LAST TWO MONTHS....I'VE MADE IT MY GOAL TO KEEP GETTING THEM UNTIL I GET TOO TIGHT. I'M AT 3.2CC IN A 4CC BAND. I LOSE 2LBS PER WEEK WITHOUT EXERCISE, JOURNALING, OR MEASURING. I THINK IF I DID THESE THINGS, I COULD REALLY LOSE AND GET THE MOST BENEFITS FROM MY BAND. I LIKE THE FACT THAT I STAY FULL FOR 3-4 HOURS BECAUSE I COULD NEVER DO THAT ON MY OWN, BUT IF I START EXERCISING I'LL BE LOSING INCHES!
I was banded in October 2006. I had my first fill July 2006 1.6 cc in a 4cc band. I lost about 90lbs and was happy. I felt empowered over eating a little bit of food and being able to walk away for three hours without thinking about food. Then in May 2007 I had a scare with not being able to hold down water or food due to a congested cold. So, I never went back for a fill. I made appointments and canceled. I saw that my body was looser due to weight loss, and I started thinking that maybe it was better to just be fat. And then when it came time for a fill, I thought well I could use $200 for something else. I've always put other people and their happiness before my own.
I've now decided that I am worth it. My motives have changed for health reasons, and to be able to live comfortably. . . like going in a store and being able to wear a size or jeans for that matter. Or going to get my hair done, and not have to worry if I'll fit in the chairs. I have been big all my life, and I feel there are signs all around that big people don't belong.
I know that I would be happier at a smalller weight, but when I do reach my goal, I don't want my success to be in vain. I want to help others who struggle with the eating addiction.
