December 20th 2007
Discovering a new tool is a wonderful thing. This site will be one of the many things that will help me stay grounded and focused on my goal. I have chosen to keep my decision to go through with the Lapband to a very small circle of people, which makes it difficult to share any information with firends and family who cannot understand why I am under so much stress and experincing severe anxiety at times. Or for that matter, why I have suddenly taken up a serious diet (Or atleast trying)
Not only do I have the stress and fear of going through my first ever surgery, but I am also in my last year of university, applying to Graduate school, looking for work and buying an aptment. There are so many things that I need to do, that I spend 2 or 3 days doing nothing, just need to escape after having 3 or 4 days of doing everything. In many ways this is literally the year of change for me. I am no longer a student living at home, I need to be or will have to be soon a presentable, working adult individual who is pursuing a graduate degree and living on her own.
Talk about stress. But looking at the postive side, which is always important to do when finishing a not so happy thought. Its all very good stress and very positive change and what can be better than that?
