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I've litterally lived the yo yo's life of going up and down in weight between 155-264! 264 was my ultimate max! I love working out but portions is my enemy!! Im pretty steady and up to date on these

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Dreamming of the up comming surgery.

For the past 3 nights Ive been dreaming about this whole thing. Like this past time I dreamed that I was about to have it and I had to use the restroom then all of the sudden it took me forever to clean the toilet, there were tons of people crowding the waiting room. Like Im in line at a spa just making another order. So by the time im finally able to use the restroom an announcment comes over calling my name. So I say forget it i need this done, by the time i make it through the crowd Im in my room the doc has cancled me!!! Refuses to do it and reschedule.. Whats this all about? Ive been telling my self every time doubt comes across my mind that I do need this I need it really really bad, Ive bounced up and down up and down with my weight all my life I need a steady point now, I need my career now... Did any one have to keep convinving them selves to keep doing this? Or have weird dreams? I feel like I need to convince my self cause I slip back in to dream world of maybe just maybe Ill lose the weight on my own this time? I know i wont succeed on my own for sure even though i dropped 46 pounds on my own and maintained it a year now but i cant get passes this point grrrrrrrrrr
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Conseltation date

Okay so i finally called back and they said i had to start over again. My first consletation is April 9th, I can get my surgery that month if I wish N im going to do it. I just need help with my fear of surgery ppl!!! Ivenever been under the knife or even a tooth pulled. I admit the fear of surgery and being judged is my worst fears, im not affraid of dieing or nothing just the pain. THe pain of ppl making fun of you having this surgery only my mom, one friend here and this guy im talking to will know about it.. The guy im talking too we have been talking for about 2 months now but known each other longer. We got talking about it with my best friend in FL and he said why dont you do it? we discussed more and he made me feel sooo much better...     Kellie
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call from the office this morning

I got a call from the dr's office this morning saying that I dont have to restart over, i just need to re weigh in. Then go from there. NOW the biggie is my mom had a turn of fate temporarily. She said kellie I know you can do this on your own. You went from 264 to 215 with just eatting out of a coffee cup! Well so that got my hopes up again and Ive been doing just that this past week. I was weighin in at 211 but i think thats just cause im considered empty. lol So now that this ball is rolling again Im really trying to fight from the idea of i can do it on my own. This has happend to me twice and well I never made it on my own Im still in the two hundreds. Has any one felt like this before?
fitflab25

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A potion for lose skin really works

HEY ALL, WELL THIS IS TESTED AND APPROVED BY ME! DURRING THE WEIGHT LOSS I DID ON MY OWN I WOULD ALWAYS NOTICE MY SKIN IN MY UPPER ARMS THEY WOULD CREAS A LITTLE DUE TO BEING SAGGY SO I WENT ON A MISSON TO FIND SOME LOTIONS THAT REALLY WORK AND HERES WHAY I FOUND. WHEN I USED THIS COMBINATION I AND MY MAN WOULD NOTICE A HUGE DAY AND NIGHT DIFFRENCE IN ONE APPLICATION SO I WOULD REAPPLY WHEN EVER I WOULD LOSE MORE AND THE SAGGY WOULD COME BACK.. DAILY USE PALEMERS CO CO BUTTER FOR PREGNACY AND WEIGHT LOSS, AND THEN ON THE TOUGH SPOT US BATH AND BODY WORKS BRINGING UP THE REAR!! I SWEAR BY THIS STUFF EVEN MY BEST FRIEND IN FLORIDA HAD THE LAP BAND AND LOST ALL HER WEIGHT REALLY TO FAST THROUGH MAJOR MILITARY LIKE WORK OUTS. AND SHE ALREADY HAD PLANS FOR TUMMY TUCKS AND BREAST AUGS. SHE FINALLY TRIED AND IS NOW SATISFIED WHERE SHE ISNT UBSESSD WITH COSMETIC SURGERIES ANY MORE. OH ONE MORE THING WATER AND HYDRATION IS KEY TO OUR SKIN LET ME KNOW HOW U LIKED IT....:blushing::wink::thumbup:
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a pic of my breakfest.. wow before lap band

I WAS AT I HOP THIS MORNING I GO LIKE ONCE EVERY MONTH OR TWO AND GET WHAT EVER. I DECIDED TO TAKE A PIC OF THE MEAL I HAD FOR REFRENCE IN THE FUTURE. NOW REMEMBER THAT I ATE THIS AND DID NOT GET THAT FULL FEELING JUST SATISFIED FEELING!!!! UGH IS THAT NOT HORRIBLE  
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39.9 percent and .1 short

so I went in this morning to weight in to start the process over, I knew i was short. So i wore my baggy pants cause more material, ate a number two meal from wendys, and manged my cell phone in my pocket. I have to be 40% bmi and I came in at 39.9%! lol so i have to come back in monday morning to do this damn thing. I almost said for get about it that simple and then i benged on chinese food and was like omg omg omg i need this damn thing cause there is no way i would have managed that with the lap band. Not to mention this drastic measure is going to give me the kick in the butt that i need to hit it hard core more than what i am now... so monday it is. I just hope i dont take a big bath room break before hand lol lol sorry if thats tmi.. love u banders and i cant wait to join the family
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