I had an interesting talk with my trainer/nutritionist the other day. He wanted to measure me again to see my progress. I didn't want too. I tried to explain that I knew I was losing weight and inches because my clothes are fitting differently. He insisted that I needed to SEE the progress on paper. "Everyone wants to see their progress." So he measured away. For some reason I was disappointed in the results. My head thinks I should have lost more inches. I was really bummed. He was happy with the progress. I asked him if it was more important for him to be happy or me? Ya see I was happy with the progress as seen from the clothing standpoint. Like someone said here about wearing clothes that fit and seeing the proof that things are going well. Now I have these tape measure numbers in my head. They didn't mean anything to me until he made a big deal out of them. Yet I can't accept his judgment that the numbers are good. It really wrecked the workout that day. My head was somewhere else. He kept saying not to let it get to me. Ya easy for him.
I'm finally in a good place with this journey. I'm accepting that it will take me a while to get to a healthy weight. I'm working with the band. I'm getting into a groove with exercising. I've set a goal with the Triathlon. I've set a weight goal to be 200 by my anniversary (10/12). I'm actually allowing myself to believe this is working. I think my judgment is the best. But now someone tossed a wrench in the works.
Grrrr. It's so frustrating. :cool2:
I have recommitted myself.
I have an exercise focus. I found a Duathlon (Duathlon - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia) in my area on Oct 19th.
I'm journaling my food . Got to keep a handle on intake.
I'm seeing the Dr. on the 9/19, possibly for another fill.
Im taking an opportunity to do some volunteer work. Horse therapy. Once a week.
I've stated to donate platelets again.
Yes life is good.
So its been a year since I found this site and essentially started my journey.
I started at 284lbs. Im 210lbs today. I would love to have lost 100 lbs by my bandiversary March 4. Should be doable.
My eating habits have changed drastically, and yet I really don't feel deprived. I just don't need to eat what/the way I used to anymore.
I'm sleeping better then I have in years. I think it is a combination of less weight and more activity. A motivated day makes for blissful sleep.
I love being able to shop in the 'regular' sections. I think it is important to have a few good outfits that fit well. Seeing my body change toward what I dream is very exciting.
I never had an operation or was hospitalized before being banded. Now I'm seriously thinking about plastic surgery. I'll be trading a few scars for the body of my dreams. Doable.
I'm under a month until the Triathlon.
On the bike Ive been averaging 6+miles daily. I need to up my runs over 3miles. I'm feeling good so far. No major muscle aches. Just my left shin being tight.
I had some really good BBQ today. I'm glad I'm training enough that I can eat it and not feel guilty.
Exercise is the key to weight loss people!
I got my surgery time 10:00. My stomach is all gurglely from the liquid diet.
I'm going to go have a glass of white wine(clear liquid) and listen to the relaxation cd from the complementary medicine program.
Night all.:thumbup:
I haven't had a fill in over a year. I wanted one the last time I had an appointment (6/09) but my Dr was out (I've only been filled by my Dr) and I saw the PA. She said after a few questions NO FILL. Go home and work on the diet.
It is now a year later, I've regained A LOT and am now afraid and embarrassed to go see my Dr.
I think I will cry went I see my Dr. I was doing well before the PA shut me down. He was proud of me. She made me feel like there wasn't anything the band could do for me now. It was all up to me. Now Im, well I don't want to say a failure, but gosh what else would I be??
So do I knuckle down and try to again lose by myself or suck it up and go to the DR??
Has anyone else had to suck it up? How did that go?
Jury duty!
I got placed on a jury. A BIG, ugly case.
I am not a happy camper. Im told it will last at least 4 weeks.
This will really put a crimp in my training schedule. I just ramped up to 3 times a week and I had a really good time slot. Now I will probably lose the time slot and I will have to train at night and on the weekend.
Not to mention stress eating. This will be a good test of my new habits.
On the bright side I got a new wash machine and dryer. I love new toys and Im easily amused. I sat and watched the washer (front loader w/ glass door) swish the clothes for about 15 minutes.
Ok Im off to watch the dryer now.
I went for my shin check up with the dermatologist today. She took off a "suspicious" bit of skin(and is sending it to the lab) and gave me a scrip for some cream to put on two other spots. Then she cut off one of my finger nails to send to the lab for a culture. What is up with that?
Back story is that I lost my daughter-in-law 5 years ago to Melanoma and my husband has been battling with skin cancers for about 10 years.
I don't need this now. I'm trying to focus on this band and getting the weight off and now this.
I went to the fill appointment today. My regular Dr was out so I saw the PA. Wow what a difference. I always had a problem with my Dr telling me he was ok with my progress and not really giving me motivation to keep going. Well the PA didn't pull any punches. She quizzed me on my food choices and made suggestions on alternatives. She said she could give me a fill but didn't think it would help with the things or the way I am eating. It would probably just make me get stuck and have a unfill. I am just choosing foods too soft and not substantial enough to stick with me. And of course not making the best choice with high calorie stuff. She explained how having a glass of wine before a meal just relaxes the pouch enough that you don't feel the full signal and over eat. Duh? I always knew I eat more when I drink. Now I know why.
So it's back to the mental game. Remembering the why of doing this and figuring out the how.
I hit the web hard today.
I ordered a bunch of protein shakes/puddings from different brands because I'm not sure which ones I'll like. I REALLY like food and variety is the spice of life. I've read on the boards about a few different brands and everyone seems to have a favorite. Soon to be arriving at my door are; Unjury(I liked that they have sample sizes), Medifast, and Focus 28.
My big problem is that when I eat it is everything on my plate and maybe what is left on my husbands. A smaller problem is remembering to eat. The first will be solved with the band. The second will become a very large problem if I don't address it. I get very focused at work and skip lunch. When I get home it's --GET OUT OF MY WAY-- as I head to the frig. The nutritionist suggested I get a timer that reminds me to eat. Hmm good idea. It would also work to remind me to drink. So I hit the web again and found this
really nifty watch that has a alarm setting. I thought about a kitchen timer but if I leave my office or am out and about I'm not going to take that with me.
I'm looking into elliptical trainers but I don't think I will buy that on the net.
tomorrow is -make some sense of the basement day.
Comments are welcome and appreciated.
:cursing: TTFN
Hi all.
I 've been having a bit of stress here. My mom(77yrs) broke her leg, compound fractures of the tibia and fibula. She has had one surgery and is expected to have a few more. Problem is she is not healing. Dr's say that if healing doesn't start or if an infection sets in they will have to amputate. Oh ya my parents live in California. Long distance stress.
Seems petty to also bitch about work stress. I was out all last week- yes I know it was a vacation but no one does my job when Im out. I can only imagine what it will be like the week before the cruise, in June and the weeks after.
Im visiting my sister this weekend (was planned before the vacation). She is in Kansas City, so more time on planes- probably in thunderstorms-yay.
Saw the eye Dr yesterday- I need glasses. yay.
Not losing weight. Actually really struggling to keep stable. I never knew stress to cause me to eat but now with food such an ever present focus it is the first place to take the stress hit. Well that and exercising- no energy- but I drag my A*s to the trainer because I pre-paid for that.
Im a little low right now. I need to count my blessings; husband, family, friends, home, employed, 80lbs down form my high.
Just breathe. Thanks for listening.
I hate to poop poop the band so early but I know myself and I need some more reenforcement to keep on the proper path. This thing is supposed to kick in where my will power can't. Or maybe not. Maybe I just wanted it to and read into the Lap-band information what I wanted to see.
I called the Dr about a fill and was told not for 6 weeks.
I really should have looked into the fill policy of this Dr before banding. Live and learn. There are other Dr's that fill more frequently. I think I should make up a list of ?? prebanders should ask.
I hope I will be one of those bandsters who at one year are counseling the newbies to hang in there because I had a slow start also.
I really appreciate the opportunity to vent in a supportive place.
THANKS:smile2:
Im on my own for dinner tonight and I have quite a few leftovers to choose from. In the past I would have heated them all and had a smörgåsbord. I've been good about packing away the leftovers in meal size portions so If I need to grab something I don't have to think. This is working REALLY well for me. I've been breaking down the grocery's too when I get home. Crackers, carrots, beef jerkey in little ziploc bags pre-measured. I've been buying tuna in the single serve cans- a bit more expensive but worth it.
So as I wrote over on the March thread.
"This is the first week that I feel great, really super. No doubts. Controlling my hunger with my food choices. I have a ton of energy. And best of all "Spring really becomes you. Your cheeks are rosy, and you're looking radiant" from a coworker.
What a difference a few lbs make.
When I make goal I'm going to be a whole new person!!!":thumbup::thumbup:(I hope I like me)
TTFN
comments always welcome:wink2:
I have been very discouraged lately. Second guessing my decision to get the band and wondering if perhaps I should have gotten the bypass.
The scale has not moved down since April 11(not counting the times it has gone up then down, back to the 4/11 weight). I had a fill on May 2, 1 1/2cc in a 4cc band. I have been working out with a trainer and doing the cardio. I have no soft stops, hard stops, BPs, anything. I "could" eat anything I want but manage to eat well most of the time. Although Sunday I had a whole NY bagel for Gods sake, that is not supposed to be possible. I have been journaling foods. Not drinking with or after meals. Its like I don't have the band in at all. Except for the scars and the golfball that is sticking out of my stomach(aka the port).
I have reminded myself of why I chose the band over the bypass- recovery time, malabsorption issues, reversible. But Im starting to think about the bypass in a new light.
Im thinking maybe I should have done some more research. Talked to some more people.
If I had the bypass there is no way a bagel could go down.!!!:thumbup:
I am not happy.
(on the Drs scale I have only lost 9lbs in the first 10 wks after surgery. I lost 5lbs in the first week. Do the math this is not working!!!!:thumbup::cursing::smile2::cursing::cursing: )
I have some stupid big scars. I don't know if this is just me or Dr's handy work. One is 2 3/4", two are 1" and three are 1/2".
Is that normal?
I've been thinking about taking up yoga. Nice gentle body work. Only thing is last time I tried my hands got so sweaty I slipped and almost broke my nose.
Or maybe a personal trainer.
I have an appointment with the Dr next week and maybe get a fill if the Dr thinks I'm really trying. I think it is interesting that some Dr hand out fills like candy and others like bestowing a knighthood.:confused2:
I went to my favorite Japanese place tonight. Out of habit I ordered what I always ordered. Its a chefs special, always something different but served in a bento box. I love how all the food is separated into its own place , no sauce touching something its not supposed to. Today it was: three pieces of sushi, 4 wedges of orange, four little pieces of sweet potato, chicken teriyaki (about 1/4 cup), two pieces of shrimp tempura & two pieces of carrot tempura, with a bowl of rice and miso broth. I knew I was not going to be able to eat it all. I had about half of the soup, the fish from the sushi(i guess that made it sashimi) two wedges of orange(an 1/8) the shrimp and the sweet potatoes. I figured it out at home for the calories and am very happy to say it was 300 cals, 22gm protein and 8.3gm fat. Not bad if I say so. I chewed very well and ate slowly. I had them pack the chicken and some green beans from DH's dinner for lunch tomorrow.
I'm so happy I don't have a problem with Japanese food!! Im staying away from the rice, which I really don't miss.
I've only lose 14 lbs since surgery but over 40 since starting the journey. I'm happy with that.
Ok Im off to add my 2 cents to the boards.
PS is having the soup with dinner the same as drinking liquids?:confused2: Crap I didn't think about that.
I leave Saturday for my cruise to Bermuda.(this is the trip my wonder DH surprised me with for all my hard work with the band) I'm packed and ready. I absolutely LOVE cruises. Bonus it departs from a port only 40 minutes away, so no airport nightmares.
I've packed work out clothes, running shoes, couch 2 5k podcasts and signed up for two rather active land excursions. A mountain biking tour of the island and a kayak tour of the sea coast. So I think I will be staying on track with exercise.
I am worried about all the wonderful food. I will have to be at the top of my game when it comes to menu choice and not being tempted by the between meals snacking. Then there's the booze. I have a 1:2 plan, for every cocktail I drink I will have to drink 2 glasses of water.
I think pre-planning will be the key to not gaining on vacation. Dare I dream to perhaps lose?
I've been to this place before with friends and said I "never wanted" to do it myself. That was Bull**it. I always thought I was too heavy and they wouldn't let me.
Today I climbed 6 walls more then half way and one to the top. We're talking over 50ft to the top.
It was fantastic!!
I've moved the training schedule to 3 days a week (from 2).
I've taken in a few pairs of shorts (and need to loss the stuff I don't fit in any more.)
I'm finding I don't feel hungry most of the time.
Scale is moving down-slowly.
Cholesterol went down by about 100 points.
I have to work on wanting to eat when I'm bored. Why is that?
I have to work on exercising on non trainer days.
I think that is good progress.
All my planning for the cruise was for not. I actually gained 7 pounds. Good news is that I have also lost it. (I think a lot of the pounds were water weight from traveling) So Im back to pre vacation weight.
I also returned with a cold(explains the weight loss). So working with the trainer is out until Friday.
I think I will go have some soup.
Memorial Day weekend is synonymous with BBQ and that means FOOD.
I did really great Saturday, very bandster. Today has also been fine. Sunday was the problem. I was on the hook to make BBQ chicken and ribs. Man were those ribs good, I make KILLER ribs! A nibble here a nibble there. Yum. Then at the party munchies were everywhere. I tried to be good at first and eat only carrots but the peanuts were calling to me. Then so was the pasta salad, ribs and fruit and cookies. I wasn't feeling too good when we left. Which makes it easy to not eat much today. Im not feeling too bad about my consumption this weekend on the whole I ate TONS less then I would normally have. Still I know that the scale will not be moving down in the next few days and I have only myself to blame.
On the bright side the scale will definitely not be going up.
