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MY EXPERIENCE..FROM THE BEGINNING

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what to expect

I know that everyone gets excited with the thought of the weightloss. What happens when its off? Can we live a normal life? Can we still have spaghetti and meatballs? Lobster? steak? Are fills for the rest of our lives? I wish I knew the support groups....are they truly supportive. anyway..i'm starting to get terribly nervous...its the "unknown"

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Tomrrow is the day for my band

OK ALL, ITS FINALLY HERE, 12.5 HOURS AND COUNTING..   I DID IT WHOOOOOO!!!   MY NURSE GOT ON ME ABOUT CALLING THEM SO MUCH CUZ SHE SAID I WAS TRYING TO CHICKEN OUT..SHE WAS SO FLIPPIN MEAN...HATE HER! GRRR..ALL I WAS DOIN WAS GETTING MORE INFO..LIKE IF THERE WA A REASON WHY THEY WOULD NOT OPERATE. IVE LOST 14 LBS. PPLS SAY THEY SEE THE DIFFERENCE IN MA FACE.   OK SO..IM ALL READY TO GO..   wanna thank ma peeps especially..bt..., betsy, and diva..thanks for everyones supports...ima lovin ya'all!!!

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

The waiting is a killer

Well, I had a day approved from my job to go to my mini-consultation on 8/22 but it got taken back (management didn't realize someone was already off that day). I had to reschedule for 8/27. This has been nothing but agony. I should never have changed my mind from January. I always look in the mirror and say one day, I wont have to lay down to put my jeans on. One day, I won't have to go shop in the plus size department...one day they wont look at me weird because i'm so fat and my boyfriend is so skinny. I want to cry so many times for feeling like a failure...why did i have to give up that time! I am determined this time to get it done. I hope I dont have to go through all those doctor stuff again.

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

The day to schedule

Tomorrow is the date that I go to the doc..and thats when we schedule a day for surgery..but..i've been worried about what if he changes his mind and decides i'm not the right candidate? or what if the insurance declines it? or what if something goes wrong???   i dont have anyone to go through this with me. no family or friends...so i'll make it through..somehow    

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

The cars fixed i'm soon to be :))

AFTER 4 HOURS AT THE MECHANIC, HE FIXED IT AND IT WAS AWESOME! NOW MY CAR HAS HEAT..WHOO WHOO!! RADIATOR AND THERMOSTAT REPLACED   ON A LIGHTER NOTE, I'M GONNA GO GET MY "SUPPLIES" TOMORROW.   ANY LAST MINUTE THOUGHTS IDEAS?   PREOP IS IN 2 DAYS AFTER TODAY   I CAN DO THIS!!!   WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

THE BEGINNING

Its difficult going through this alone. I came here last year without knowing anyone, change of job. I made a decision since I came here for a career change, that I would make a "me" change. I don't know......I found myself looking at myself and not liking me one bit. I want to be a good rolemodel for others and thats why i'm doing this...I went through the pre-screenings..January 4th I should know when the surgery will take place. It's hard not to have someone close to you for support; especially being in a new state, new environment. I like the doctor though, hes nice. Lets hope for the best... Greek

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Survived day 1

SO IT WAS OK..NOW ITS 9.20 AND I'M GONNA CRASH..TOMORROW SIGN CONSENT FORMS AND BLOOD WORK FOR SURGERY..   THANKS FOR KEEPING ME IN YOUR PRAYERS AND KEEPING ME STRONG   I CAN DO THIS!

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Preop meeting today

I have my preop meeting. It'll be nice to meet some new faces. I start my liquid/proteins tomorrow...i just don't feel like i've shopped enough. All i bought was shakes..eh, i'll get somemore..broth, sugar free jello..i'll have more of an idea once i get there.

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Paying attention

I HAD MY PRE-OP CLASS MONDAY (3RD TIME I'VE GONE). NOTHING MUCH HAS CHANGED. OF COURSE I'M NERVOUS...IT'S HARD TO COME OUT OF SURGERY AND NOT HAVE ANYONE BY YOUR SIDE. MY MOM AND DAD ARE IN GREECE. NO FAMILY HERE IN THE STATES..JUST MAKES IT VERY SCARY..COMING FROM THIS AND NOT SEEING A FAMILIAR FACE...BUT..IVE DEALT WITH SIMILAR SITUATIONS. THE ANGIORAM I HAD I WAS AGAIN ALONE. A LITTLE WOE IS ME..IM SORRY SO..I'VE REALIZE, AFTER ALL THIS TIME, THAT FOOD IS BIG FOR COMFORT FOR ME. HOW DO YOU GET BEYOND EATING WHEN YOURE DEPRESSED? WHY DO I FEEL IM THE ONLY ONE WHO EATS WHEN THEYRE SAD OR HAVING ANXIETY ISSUES?? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME THAT I'M NOT ALONE IN THIS?? I AM SURE WITH THE UTMOST CERTAINTY THAT THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO. I FEEL IF I GET ANY FATTER THAT I'LL BLOW UP. I HATE SEEING MY DAUHTERS GET BIG, AND THEY DO BECAUSE WE DON'T EAT HEALTHY. 2/16/10 IS THE DATE, 2/2/10 I START PRE-OP

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

No support

I can't explain what it's like to go through this with no support. My 12 soon-to-b 13 year old is worried i'll get skinnier than her..(odd), she (i've mentioned before) is upset i'm doing it a day after her bday (worked around work schedule). The b/f is against surgeries period doesn't think i've tried everything..now i'm second guessing..i know this is what i want. I know my b/f was attracted to me the way i am. Do i risk losing him when i get skinny? Well then he never truly loved me. This will be the real test. I don't have anyone else...it's hard when you dont have support. What do you do?

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

no go...grrr

Just my luck......i went to my appointment, because I switched from PPO to HMO, They said: do you have your referal? Do you have your new card?? BCBS sent me PPO cards, even though I switched to HMO..I had gone to the doc in 12/07 but under PPO. he happens to be an HMO dr as well. They were supposed to send the referal in January, but failed to do so.   so, I went to my doc's office and said: whats up..they looked, no referal..they acted like they didnt even know who I was. They asked me if I even saw the doc. I had to re-decribe the series of events and make sure they knew what happend. I got my BCBS information, gave it to the nurse and they made the phone calls. Soooooooooo...now, I wait a week for the referal, then make the appoinment for the Lapband doctor (Dr. Joyce). My goal is to have the surgery on or before the 21st of Janurary. I have to rush because I dont have much sick time from work (new job) and I dont want to take off too much of my vacation time. I believe in everything is meant for a reason. Hopefully we can get this accomplished...I think I'll make a big fat chocolate cake to wollow in my depression..lolllllll KIDDING!!!!

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

liquids today

I start liquids/protein today.i couldnt sleep...all night i kept tossing and turning..i had all the stuff going through my head last night and whats gonna be coming up..whew...day one..i'm grabbing a shake and hitting the road..going to work   peace

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Just waiting around

Called my Dr for the banding, I was told need a referal for the office visit, they already had one for the surgery..waiting on cardiologist to send clearance..waiting on choosing a date, waiting on preop diet..arghhh!!! oh and waiting for the referal for the office visit.

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

it's been 3 years

Good morning everyone, 2/16/10 I experienced my life change for the lapband. I lost maybe 1/3 of my weight. part of the problem was I had a knee issue called chondromalacia. basically my knee was off track, I wasn't able to excersice like I wanted to, lack of motivation etc. I thankfully did not gain the weight back. the good news is in 1/13 I went through arthiscopic surgery and they were able to put it back on track. now I've signed up for a membership at my fitness center in my apartment complex. I will start working out slowly. I also bought a big thing of protein shake. I want to lose more weight but more importantly I need to tone up my body. I actually feel pretty good about the way I look but would like just the fat to go away. I intend to start working out and to try to start getting adjustments again. it's hard getting adjustments because of my work schedule.hope everyone is doing well..good luck...xoxox K

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Im banded

GOT IT DONE FINALLY 2/16 AT 730AM IM IN HOSPITAL..IM FINE..ALOT OF SLEEPING..THANK GOD FOR MY LAP..   WRITE L8R

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

I JUST SAY "LAWDY HELP ME!!" <and shes baaack>

So, after being gone a year, this is what happend. I broke up w/ my b/f (he was 9 years younge>, my daughter grew and matured AND i got even fatter. So, here I am. This is the THIRD FLIPPIN TIME..the first time, the lady said she regretted it..i chickened out, the 2nd time, my daughter..< i can't just do it for me...i never have since i had my babies...i live for them..my time will come>. I am ready now Even funnier. I told my co-worker about it. She'd never heard bout it, then she goes and gets it done (pffffft!!) just this pas Friday. Oh, and I bought a puppy..i can't keep up darn it!! the little shi*!!   One step at a time.

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

I have a date!

well, after getting cold feet back in 2/08 when i was supposed to have the surgery, i started the process again. I called bmi surgery and explained to them the details as to what scared me etc. The coordinator was understanding, and said lets get you in for a mini-consult with the doctor. My biggest fear in doing this again was that i would have to be evaluated again. But, i had my consult 8/27 and i don't have to!! Within 24 hours, i received the call from the cordinator and we scheduled everything from the pre-op classes to the surgery. I have no ones support. My daughters are 10 & 12 and they are worried..they of course dont see the big picture. The other part is my parents..they have not responded to my emails..so that to me indicates they aren't willing to even discuss it. Last of all my b/f. We met in feb when i was as fat as i am now and he definitly doesn't want me going through it. But i explained to him, you may come and go in my life but my fat (unless i do something) will always be with me. I'm a bit nervous of the port and how protruding it is. Other than that, i am going to do it. I've told a few girls at work because i dont want to look stupid if i back out again, that way i have a better change of going throught it. good plan eh?

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

I got cold feet the first time but...

Hey all, here I am again. Last January or so I was to do the banding. I got nervous. The lady who was to set up my surgery told me she regretted it. I think its different when you read about issues someone may have had..but its something else when someone talks to you and says..i wish i hadn't done it...so, i got scared. But then, I tried watching what I ate..but that ended up watching from my fingers to my mouth (haha)..so the dieting still didnt' work..of course I had tried so many times, it didn't surprise me...   I am ready to go through it again. What changed my mind you ask? well...I think I have found that at my age I ain't getting any younger and that I am sick of looking the way that I am and not being able to do anything about it...I have a mini-consultation with my doctor and hopefully, if all goes well, september is the month to have the banding...   Peace

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

how do you keep going

me and my co worker, tired of being so fat..i told her about the banding and she went and did it.   we both agreed we were tired...we couldnt move..felt like we were running and not getting anywhere..   i like to see the participation on this site, and the friendships that ppl have made.. its awesome...

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Grocery list

so whats a typical grocery list once the band has been done? I need ideas for what to buy, what to keep stocked in my cabinents..i know theres a forum on : what i ate today but I need to know what to buy in order to make it then i can write on what i had to eat. :thumbup:

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Getting ready

Well, I have 22 days left....how exciting! yesterday I took my daughter shopping for clothes, and she kept trying to get me to buy new clothes. I was saying nooooooooooo cos i don't plan on being a size 20 much longer!!! CAN I GET AN AMEN!! i can just imagine me in my new little body going: TA DAAAAAAAAA as she was jumping out of the dressing room..I CAN'T WAIT!!! I went to GNC and bought the Atkins Shakes..choco-licious..yummmmmy!! I'm scared to death of the liquid diet but preparing myself...I CAN DO DIS!!..whooo whoo!!!...well........Peace for now all, and lets say a huge prayer for our bro's and sista's out there in hurricane country!!! WE LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU!!!

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

 

Feel fat and getting fatter

I feel like I'm hungry all the time now. Now remember, I have not been banded yet. It's not psychological, I am not like I was last year when I felt that the closer I got to my appointment, the more I ate because I knew it'd be my last meal so to speak. Maybe I don't want to drop my BMI or something. I love being on this website, and participating on blogs, and chats. I feel that I have something to offer even though I haven't been through it yet...more to come........K

KatrinaD

KatrinaD

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