I am becoming obsessive about getting this surgery. I feel like I have spent enough of my time being overweight and I am ready to not be obese anymore. I know I shouldn't rush it. But I can't help it.
So far:
I picked a doctor, then unpicked him after hearing how terrible he is in surgery (having to convert several laps into opens due to his errors).
my husband's insurance does not cover any wls
found a great job w/benefits didn't get it
NOW i have an interview for another job, which has great benefits. However, in 2008 they will no longer be paying for wls.
So now i am wondering what my chances are on buying some insurance that might cover it.
B/c if i get the job i interview for, they will reimburse me for my tuition, and save me some money instead of paying for my husband to carry me on his insurance, and they actually pay halfway decent. So I am thinking I can take the money we don't spend on his insurance and buy a policy that might cover me.
ugh, i just wish I would get some awesome news, like my husband's employer deciding not to exclude wls, or the new job to not exclude it. JUST SOMETHING GOOD! I am determined to have this surgery by next summer.
First of all, i have been very sick the past few days. This has been no fun. So I did a bit of research about the next doctor on my list and she really doesn't have much experience with lap-band. So that knocks her off my list. So I am on a mass search for a doc. I believe i have found one. I love his credentials so far. Now its just calling to set up the consult.
I am just disheartened. I need to get a job that will cover this. I HATE HATE that my husband's policy excludes wls. I know i'm sick and everything is weighing on my nerves right now. But it is just making me upset. I have finally come to this point in my life where I am emotionally and mentally ready for this commitment. I have a wonderful husband who is going to supprt whatever decision i will make. But i keep hitting walls.
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So, I have some bad news. First I did not get the job. So none of all the perks i previously mentioned. Second, I am swapping dr.'s. My cousin is a surgical nurse and has worked several times with the doc i was going to use. UGH! He apparently is a horrible surgeon. She said she wouldn't use him if he were free. I liked him so much.
So now i'm going to the next doc on my list. Which she has also worked with and said was a very good doctor and a woman so that's two good things in her favor. I've always felt more comfortable with female doctors. Also, my brother has offered my old job back, which won't be open for a month, and I just got another job offer for another company. I don't know any of the details though. But the money would be nice.
So In my last entry i talked about how my insurance excludes wls, and how i was trying to get other insurance or a job at the hospital b/c i can skip the 6 mo diet with their benefits b/c my surgeon is affiliated with the hospital. Well one of the jobs i applied for at the hospital got forwarded to the hiring manager so hopefully i will be getting a call soon for an interview.
It is actually a part time job WITH the benefits i need. This would work out perfectly. I can work this job earn a little side money for the holidays, still have my school schedule how i want, work my other side job, and most importantly get my lap-band.
I just pray that this will work out. In fact i believe i'll ask everyone else to pray it works out as well.
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So I am sort of disheartened. I went and got a copy of my plan and yea my insurance plan through bcbs does in fact exclude bariatric surgery. So now i'm trying to figure out all the options. Right now, i'm trying to either a. get a job at the hospital b/c the hospital does have insurance to cover and if i get on at that particular hospital i don't have to do the pre-op diet for Dr. Mailapur.
the other option is getting a part time job with insurance that will cover it. I sent out mass resumes last night. I am not thrilled about working at the hospital. I worked in the healthcare industry for a few years and i pretty much decided against it. However having this surgery is more important so I would much rather bite that bullet and get the surgery.
oh and also, my husband and i have to drive 5 hours tomorrow for a family thing that we got coralled(sp?) into going. I really really really do not want to sit in the dadgum car for that long. And on top of that when we get there, there is all this WALKING we'll have to do. Well umm I still have a huge hole in my leg and I'm supposed to stay off of it as much as possible. So i'll be hauled up in the cabin for a couple days probably. So i'm just really not happy about all of this.
I am also missing my best friend's birthday for this family thing. So she is mad at me. She won't say she is. But i know it hurts her feelings.
Maybe when i come back monday someone will have called back for a job. OR maybe i'll buy a lotto ticket and hit the jack pot and can pay for the procedure out of pocket.
Sorry for the rant
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