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Accepting Reality

I needed a place to vent... so why not here. I am scheduled to have my lapband surgery on 11-9. Should be excited, right? Wrong... I feel upset with myself. When I initially started researching the band, I knew it was for me because I am a BIG uncontrolled portion eater. Carbs all day every day. So I began my jouney... Well I think deep down inside, I thought I could still do this on my own. I can work out a lot, can be very enthusiastic. But after trying again.. I failed. failed cuz I just can control my mind to keep my mouth shut. No, instead I convice myself why I should have 8 slices of pizza and cinnamon rolls and biscuits.... URGHHHHH!   I guess I am coming to the realization, that I have a true problem. Something I just cant seem to get control of. I know the band is what I need. I know that I will probably do well with it. But I just feel really crappy for letting myself down over and over again....   Okay, I'll quit my bitchin now:cry
keekahari

keekahari

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As if I wasnt already feeling crappy...

:tired So now I get a call from my PCP and find out that I am H Pylori positive... I am thinking to myself... What.. what the hell is that and why do I have it!! :cry Well from my research, its a bateria in the stomach and it can cause gastritis and ulcers... Great. Now what does this mean for surgery. Well after going back and forth between the surgeon and my PCP, I find that I need to get on anti-biotics for the next two weeks. Then they will retest me in another two weeks... HOLD IT:omg: I have surgery in 3 weeks so now what. Well my surgeron office says that its cool, that some people are even on the meds when they go to surgery... well for me, I want on them ASAP. I heard they were some big azz pills and I dont want to be trying to figure out how to take them once I've been banded...   Oh so my PCP says that he wants to see me first before he prescribes the meds... what the heck. He just saw me and he has to see me again before surgery for clearance so whats the big friggen deal. Just write the darn perscription so I can be on my merry way... Well thank goodness my Surgeons office said they would write it. But they wanted me to call my PCP to let him know so that I am not stepping on anyones toes... HELLOOOOO. this is my damn body, I am the one who has to take the darn meds, get the dang on band and deal with the dreaded INS people, so I dont really give a rats azz if I am stepping on toes... If it were not for my persistance, I would probably still be hung up on why my ins hadnt approved me yet (GEEZ, THATS A WHOLE NOTHER STORY :faint: )   Well anyways, after all that drama... I will be taking my meds starting today and am still on schedule to have my band.
keekahari

keekahari

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more pics

Trying to find as many 'before' pic as possible to help me gauge my weight loss in pictures.. Here I am in Miami when Hubby and I went to a Heat game.. My stomach was (is) really big.:cry     Here is a pic of me and Hubby at the Miami Heat Game
keekahari

keekahari

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nightmares

Nothing exciting going on today... but i did have this weird dream last night. I was going in for surgery and there were all these medical people around me talking and I couldnt hear and I just kept saying "where is my surgeon, where is my surgeon" okay, so now I am having nightmares are the big day... How fun. :rolleyes I guess maybe subconciously I am just coming to terms with the whole thing. I have been operated on before so going under really doesnt bother me, but I dont know.. just getting a few butterflies maybe.
keekahari

keekahari

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Am I there yet???

Well this was a good idea when I first though about it, but we're aleady in June and I aint even got out of the damn 240 range... so I guess I just have to be patient... although I dont really know how... darn it!!!   I like the idea that someone had on their site so I am gonna borrow it.   Starting weight on 5/3/06- 248 (according to my scale at home) 1st goal - 240lbs met on ___/___/2006 2nd goal - 230lbs met on ___/___/2006 3rd goal - 220lbs met on ___/___/2006 4th goal - 210lbs met on ___/___/2006 5th goal - 200lbs met on ___/___/2006 6th goal - 190lbs met on ___/___/2006 7th goal - 180lbs met on ___/___/2006 Final goal -175lbs met on ___/___/2006   Come on' I can do it!!!!:whoo:
keekahari

keekahari

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No more fun

Okay well, my week should have started out great... and it did... but I go to a doc appt yesterday and Damn, there went my week. I went for a follow up at my orthopedic doc and he tells me that I have cysts in my ankle causing ostheoarthritis... I am like huh?? I knew I have had problems since I had a ski injury back in 02, but now he tell me I need to hault on some thangs... Like my STEP AEROBICS... WHAT... un uh... no can do. Stepping is about the only exercise that I enjoy and gets me going. I do like to walk, but Step burns the calories... sighhhhh.   So what the heck am I suppose to do now????:faint:
keekahari

keekahari

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I learn something new everyday!!1

Hey, I didnt even know this was out here. Great, a spot where I can post all my info... where I can look back at a glance, yeahhh.   Most that know me know I have not been banded yet. I just finished the 6 month PCP visits and now I am just waiting for an answer. But in the meantime, I am not waiting to jump start my weightloss. Since the new year, I lost 25 lbs and hope to be at goal by 12/31. Some days I do really well and some days... DAMN, life aint so great. Well thanks to all my friends on LBT, I stay motivated and am looking forward to losing this weight for good!!! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:
keekahari

keekahari

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Okay, let me get my sh!t together

Here is is Thursday, I aint dont crap all week except eat. I need to get my stuff together for real!! I am a lazy sob and need to get off my azz and do something.   Okay so I said it and I am still here sitting at my damn desk. &%^$$@%$   I just finished reading some jounals and yall are doing great! Let me go to the gym and get my 30 min in...
keekahari

keekahari

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