GM Everyone,
I am almost 3 weeks post op and I'm ready to go back to work. I really feel it's because I lost my spouse on 11/28/12 and my grief is still very raw. Being home all day is a 24/7 constant reminder that I don't have him by my side. When I looked to the left, he was always there, he was my rocked when I faltered and it's a constant, unbearable hurt.
I MISS HIM!!! At least while I was at work that was 8hrs of my day that I needed to concentrate on something other than my grief. And although that was hard as hell, being home all dayum day is harder, I'm 21.5 pds down and on the soft stage phase 2,
I stepped on the scale and noticed I gained like a pd 1/2 back. How is that possible? I thought the meaning of being sleeved was to lose, not gain.
Anyway, lot's of mixed emotions going on this morning, I'm going to pray on them and let my mind get back to continued success at this life changing decision.
Blessings,
MzO
http://www.verticalsleevetalk.com/topic/92717-3-weeks-out-sharp-pain/
I can press on the area and it won't hurt. I'm confused.
I'm also scared/paranoid, i got dressed. I'd really like to go back to bed though.
Surgery was 70 days go and everything has been great. Losing weight, eating well, drinking water. Then I get gout. I've had it or several years, but only have flare ps 2x a year that only last a day or two. This time it as way different. Two weeks later, two different prescriptions, foot swollen couldn't even put my shoe on. Finally dr ave me prednisone. Swelling is own nearly a week later but till painful. I'm sure it's the high protein and fish.
Anyone else suffering? Ideas?
Well this weekend has been a blast thus far. My man was able to take off Saturday and Sunday so I wanted to find something to do!
Tried getting a room at the beach - FAIL
Tried getting a room at the mountains - FAIL
So I tracked down a rental place at one of the lakes near by and YAY found a place renting out kayaks $35.00 for the day sounded awesome to me.
Went kayaking with my boyfriend (who cant swim and was FREAKING OUT! - even with a life vest) and we were out about 5 hours. We stop at a cove got out and swam it was fun. I even made him "practice" capsizing his boat in case it happened in deep water so he wouldn't freak out. All was fun an awesome UNTIL *MY* boat capsized - into the water I went. Now I had just shown my boyfriend how to get back in his boat at least 5 times and when it was in the middle of the lake.... I figured out HEY maybe I shoulda saved some energy in case I fell out of my boat. And on top of all that my boat knocked me in the head when I fell out. So now Ive got a huge goosegg. Well long story short I tied my boat to my boyfriends and swam 3/4 mile to a dock so that the rescue could come get me. Then went to eat at redlobster cause after being stranded I was FAMISHED. Can home and passed the hell OUT!
Today woke up needed to go shoe shopping. So went looked -nothing too great. So i decided to take a walk into DOTS my favorite clothing stores (its been about a yr since I went shopping). Just to look around and see what size I am now. So I went and tried on some 1X clothes in the plus size section. And they fit pretty nice. My boyfriend pointed out a shirt (XL) and told to try it on. I said it was too small. He said a 1X and an XL is the same thing. I said its not. So he googled it and turns out he was right. So I tried on the XL and IT FIT! So I ventured to the other size of the store.. BIG MISTAKE ...it was like a kid in the candy shop. I bought 70.00 worth of XL clothes lol
So doing good - amazing weekend. Glad for the small things in life.
Just read this on tumblr by someone called runsleepygirl:
"Even when the scale doesn’t change, the image in the mirror looks the same, when you feel like all of your efforts are for nothing, they’re not. Slowly, your body changes day by day. Your goals creep up on you until one day you look at an old progress picture and realize your words have become actions, your hopes have become reality and it was all worth it."
i love that
Tomorrow will be 1 week post op. I'm more tired than I realized I would be, in fact - pure exhaustion. Since I'm not physically sore anymore, it's hard to stop and realize that I just had MAJOR surgery. My incisions are healing so in my head I'm thinking "I'm fine"! But I'm not. I'm tired. All. The. Time. A lack of calories isn't helping but I'm doing my best to control that with constant shakes at my side. After doing some research to see if I'm "normal" I've come to the conclusion that I'm expecting too much and I'm my own worst enemy. Part of this is my "I'm ok, everything is fine" exterior I've exuded all my life that I'm working on changing (thank you to my therapist). Part of it is "what will everyone think that I'm just laying around" syndrome. Bottom line - I'm at a place where I just don't care. I have to rest. My body is begging me to. So, I will. And I am. And I do. This too shall pass, and I will look back on this period of time and wish I would have slowed down more. But, just in case, I am calling the Center on Tuesday just to touch base and let them know, cuz that's also how I roll. If you need me, I'll be over here sleeping.
Today I woke up looking at everything on the negative side. My appointment yesterday didn't go as planned. They did an eco for me instead of the stress test and scheduled me to get it done on sept 15. Every time I think I'm close to my last appointment something else always comes up. Its discouraging and frustrating! 7 months continuously giving me appointments and then needing something else shows the lack of professionalism at my medical doctors office. The struggles I have been put through its ridiculous. I'm starting to think this is not for me. Im never getting this done if it continues to be like this.
Im at my highest weight ever feeling miserable and not wanting to engage in any outside activities. Im not interested in going outside. I go to work because I have too. How much longer do I have to live this way? I just feel so disappointed. Im in the mood of not wanting to get out of my bed.
Then i get mushy stuffs.
I'm healing well i think. I bought some Mederma because one of the wounds looks like it's going to be a huge scar.
Constipation has started, woot woot.
I'm still having pain using my stomach muscles. (Sitting up) I also have pain in a new place. It's by an incision but its not coming from it. It's not red or irritated. It seems to happen when i stand or sit.
I hope that in a year I look at this post and laugh at nervousness and say to myself, "that was the smartest thing I have ever done." I am a few days out. Have not lost weight on the pre-op diet, though there is the issue of scale discrepancy and possible monthly water weight gain. Reading the messages from everyone else that far out, I have started to tell myself I don't want the words "I need to work on my protein" or "I should be exercising more" happen.
I'm 35, work full time. Just had a big breakup (he didn't want kids -- thanks for telling me now!), financially trying to get it together for the last 15 years, and I am ready for a change.
Yikes!
I lost 6 pounds in August. All by myself! I did have a fill, but i don't notice any difference ... so that means the 6 pounds I lost this month were all on my own! I am so happy. This really motivates me because if I can lose six pounds all by myself, imagine how much I will lose with my next fill ... maybe 8 pounds!
I can't believe I'm losing weight. And I can't believe how happy I am.
I received a call this morning about a cancelled appointment and if I could go get the stress test done today.. And of course I said yes!! I dont have to wait until the 14 and If everything is ok my doctor will clear me for surgery this week!
Hope everything goes well! Crossing fingers!
I wanted to FINALLY post a pic. The before picture is a couple days after surgery...probably about 300 pounds. In progress photo is my current picture (on my way to the gym) at 208. I am 5'6" My highest weight was 311 before surgery, but got down to 298 on my 1 week liquid diet for surgery day.
Today I met with my surgeon. This was the second time of every talking with him. The first time was 6 months ago. I was excited to go back in and show him how hard I have worked these past 6 months. The nurse was so nice and so positive. She complimented my dress and said too bad it won't fit you much longer. : ) Happy thought! I weighed in at 222 making it a total of 48 pounds loss since my first appointment last February!
Dr. Ku came in and was so great to talk with. He said he could hardly recognize me from the photo that they had taken back on that first appointment. (New hair style, new hair color, and weight loss). The Dr. went over my test results from my EKG and Blood work. Everything was in the normal ranges. So it is full steam ahead. The next time I will see Dr. Ku will be Wednesday morning September 11th for SURGERY!
After work today I went to savemart and stocked up on my vitamins, Calcium Citrate, B12 and protein mix. Everything came to $160. That was painful, but think of the grocery money that we won't be spending, not to mention eating out.
I have been getting a lot of support from my co-workers at work. I am glad I shared about my surgery, because at first I wasn't so sure I wanted anyone to know. Now I tell everyone who will listen!
Ok I have lost 44lbs in just over 3 months. I am very happy with this but.... no one seems to notice. I am in smaller size clothing, my face looks noticibly slimmer, but none of my co-workers have commented. I find this totally amusing. I didn't tell anyone but my boss that I was having the surgery and I was worried what I would tell my co-workers if they asked how I was losing weight but... again nobody notices. Guess I shouldn't have worried in the first place, however I better go purchase some new undies because the old ones are getting so loose that I'm afraid they might fall down.(I bet they'd notice that!) I am usually the one that comments nice haircut or outfit to the others so maybe they truely don't notice anything. I'm hoping to have lost 50lbs before my next doc visit, maybe someone will notice by then.
Hi! I just wanted to introduce myself. I've been thinking about vsg since 2009. doubted getting it done after getting 90% of the process done then decided not to. Now I'm all in for it and almost ready to go. All I need is to get the stress test done so my doctor can clear me for surgery. She needs that because I've complained to her about chest pain when I'm rushing up the stairs (as I live in a 6th fl walk up bldg). I scheduled everything fast. I had everything scheduled for August. within 2 weeks all my appointments were done.
I'm getting it done at St Lukes Hospital in Harlem, NY. I switched my insurance from Health First to Affinity because they don't require the 6mo weigh-in or supervised diet. I have an appointment to see Dr. Koshy on Oct 3rd to get my surgery date and submit paperwork to insurance. I am anxious and so ready to finally get this done. I want to be able to enjoy my kids and engage in the outdoors activities and not just sit down and watch. that's my main reason to do this. MY KIDS!
So I have completed all the testing require by my surgeon.Today I went to my family doc. she is clearing me for surgery. I
am nervous about making the decision. I know it is the right thing to do. But I worry about how I am going to be able to handle all the changes to come. Obviously I have not been successful at dieting or I wouldn't be here.
This is what I am worried about.....
I like food, I enjoy going to happy hour and I love having a glass of wine when my husband and I cook.How is this going to work?
We have a family wedding, a visit to my daughter college the holidays,do I tell family and coworkers etc...
The positives of this surgery are..
my body will not be in as much pain as it is now (arthritis, fibromyalgia ,asthma)
I hope to have more energy,and of course my clothes will look better on me
.I am not sure if I will qualify according to my insurance plan. My BMI is 37 but as of this moment my blood sugar is high, heart rate was high .But I do not have diabetes(yet) High Blood pressure or sleep apnea.
I will find out around the 3rd week of September 2013.
I will be blogging to keep my self sane. only my daughters and hubby know that I am considering this so you are my connection to people who will understand.
Well I do......surgery!! I swear I never thought this day would come, how in the world I didn't lose my mind I don't know. But now, how in the world am I going to keep this smile off my face, oh wait I don't have too!
For all those people who may read this and think, what I wouldn't give to me her, to have a date to know it is my turn, you will be here. Don't give up no matter what comes your way just do what you have to get to surgery. I already know it is worth it.
Its been 3 weeks since my first fill. To be honest it hasn't changed my appetite or how much I am able to consume. I feel full on small portions but it feels very temporary. Within an hour or two I am hungry again. I have been exercising but still snacking too much in between meals. I need to be more focused on not eating as much.
My next fill is tuesday. I am hoping that I am able to do better going forward with my diet.
Goodness, I had no idea there were blogs here... My focus needs more focus. SO dear diary is moving here. which makes sense.
So yay me, I can be taught
I have to say that reading blogs and viewing photos are so inspirational to me. When I made the decision to have this surgery it took me a year to say "I am going to do it". Now I am so excited to know that I am making the right choice for me and only me. I can't wait to have my surgery which is scheduled for Dec. 26th, 2013.
Just want to thank everyone on here for the good and bad stories reguarding their experiences and I wish EVERYONE success on their healthy weight loss journey!
If I can lose 25 more pounds by January 22 2014 I will be EXACTLY where I want to be in terms of pace of weight loss. On that day, this year I had my surgery. I have about 21 weeks (or 145 days) to make this happen. Completely doable but I have to really try, because the days of dropping pounds without effort are behind me.
I never really had what I would call a honeymoon period, I always had to try, but around month 6 or 7 I really noticed a slow down and I really had to increase my efforts to maintain a weight loss of a pound or two per week.
SO, as with anything, a game plan is helpful. Up until this point I have done very little in the way of exercise. Please don't crucify me for that, I just hate getting sweaty, I dunno what to say. HOWEVER, I have set my mind to getting over it and Monday I begin my couch to 5K program. In about an hour my husband and I are going to reactivate our 24hour fitness (supersport, because I'm a spoiled brat) membership.
Couch to 5k is three days a week, and I am still looking for something to do for the other 4 days a week in the gym, because I don't do well if I show up without a plan. I do plan on utilizing the pool, but I'm not a good swimmer and sometimes I feel like I do more fiddling around in there than actually burning calories. Maybe I'll look into classes or something. I'm not very outgoing so sometimes the group type settings make me a touch uncomfortable but I can get over that.
I don't know, I'm open to suggestions.
Since The end of June I decided after many month of research to submit myself to gastric bypass. It's been two months since I started this journey, I have undergo many test and I am almost ready for that surgery. I am hoping for a November date or late October. I been trying to do my best at eating "healthish" and working out proportioning my food and keeping a food journal. It's working! 2 months, 13 pounds off. When I get the surgery 13 pounds won't take me two months lol, but this are my 13 hard earn pounds off and I'm celebrating them. Now I am at 273!!! Yay!!!! They don't seem like much to some but for me it's glorious. I have tried so many diets but they don't work! So many pills and nothing, what really works its changing how you eat, not what you eat. Less is more. Small portions tru the whole days still enjoying food. Making healthier choices and sticking to a realistic calorie goal, and lots of protein!
So I start my day with a small workout, nothing sick, specially because my back hurts a lot and I have arthritis. Maybe dance alone, do a little bit of crunches and some walking around the room to music as fast as you can( don't over do it) because its not going to do u any good if you are to tired or hurt!
Then, I drink my breakfast shake I add cup of frozen fruit, 1 cup of 2% milk or almond milk, whatever I go there because I'm on a strick budget and healthy is always more expensive, and add a scoop of a protein powder. I used advance super whey. This if very filling but you have to sip little by little probably takes you 30 minutes or more to drink it because its thick! But guess what, you probably will be full until lunch, if you not, have a 100 calorie snack in between. If I'm feeling hungry I grab one of those smart food white cheddar popcorn! Yum.
Then have a lunch, anything you want try to stay within 400 calories or less 400 is a lot! Yesterday I made chicken chilli, it was the bomb! If you on the road believe or not u can go to McDonald's get 1 cheese burger from the dollar menu and small fries, and still be within the 400 calories. Try to limit fast-food to once or twice a week, but it's doable!
For midday snack I usually get the sweet tooth so instead I grab one of those detour bars or any bar s but stay within this parameters :
Less than 250 cal per serving
Less than 9gm of sugar
More than 15 gm of protein
Dinner is more challenging, because it usually involves family and my boyfriend, they don't usually want to eat healthy but guess what?! You will and they won't even have to know!!!!
Eat what is cooked but less of it!!! Measure it out use an app called my fitness pal! It tells u the calories of everything !!! My goal is 1,400 calories a day, and I usually even a little under or a little over on my bad days! However this is very important!!!! DO NOT TRACK YOU CALORIES LOST INTO YOUR CALORIE INTAKE!!!!!
It's impossible to know how many calories you actually lost, everyone is different!!!
Well good luck! I hope this help someone in the long run, I know my goal still Gastric Bypass and maybe in two years if I have loose skin some tummy tuck, but I'm only 30 and I got high hopes for my youth to help me save some money on that ;P
Well I did! I am ending the month of August right…. I am going on a Family Trip! Once again my mom plans a nice getting away for the family. Where are we going? Branson Missouri! I am too excited because me and my family really needed this.
So what is my plan for this trip?
I have packed healthy snacks for the road.
I grab a couple of packets of tuna so if we do stop at a fast food restaurant on our way there I will order a salad and add the tuna in the salad.
I will try my best to make good food choices when we eat out and I have my restaurant card handy.
I will work out for an hour each day that I am there.
Well my parents will be here soon but I wanted to give you guys an update.
I almost forgot I didn’t buy the kids ice cream but they did get suckers. There at 60 calories in a tootsie roll pop! Who knew?
Thanks for reading.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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