Having feelings of guilt today. It's almost the "is this too good to be true" feeling. I am at the thinnest I've been in my life, I can do things I've never been able to do, wear clothes I would never dream of wearing before, I pretty much eat what I want (within limits of course), have NO health problems...I should be at the happiest point of my life, but I feel so guilty. Do I regret anything? no of course not, but guilt is creeping in.
I think it's stemming from seeing overweight people at work struggling. I see the look on the faces, it's such a common look "don't look at me" "i'm the biggest person on here" "omg everyone is loking at me". I know those looks oh too well. Trying to hide in the corner of each room your in praying no one pays attention to you. Doing everything you can to avoid drawing attention to yourself. I want to walk up to them and tell them about me and my story..I want to inspire them to better themselves.. but wait, who am I to judge? Who am I to say they need an 'improvement' in their lives? Just because I'm at a healthy weight, do I look at the world different?
Yes I do. Am I horrible? I don't judge, not by any means...I just want everyone to feel as good as I do. It pains me to see overweight people in wheel chairs or in hoverrounds. It pains me to see overweight people with oxygen tanks. I feel so shallow right now. My G/f gets on me and says "Not everyone can take the easy way out and get surgery"... haha..easy way out.. Yes because it's been easy.
I spent the 1st year after lapband throwing up and practially living on liquids only. Yes, that was easy. I loved it. I loved starving inbetween my 1st and 2nd meal. Oh and I loved having my lap band removed, a hearnia repaired, most of my stomach removed, falling in the hospital, bleeding internally losing over 4 pints of blood, and having my spleen repaired the next morning. Yes I loved that.. WTF?? This path has not been easy. Now I'm exactly 2 years from the date of my 1st surgery. and NOW , yes life is easier. I don't focus on food, I eat when i'm hungry. and i feel great, i'm still losing and most of all i'm MAINTAINING. I've dreamt of this all my life. and now i'm here..and today.. i feel like i'm not worthy.
SIGH.......
I am still seeing post about what you should be eating, how much you should be eating, why am I not losing weight, why does this hurt and why does that hurt. One thing that should be clear when you leave your doctors office either pre op or post op, you should have a list of foods you may eat. You should have been told exactly what to expect after your surgery and during the pre op phase. If you are not sure of these things then you need to schedule an appointment to see your doctor. I can not believe so many would have this kind of surgery and still be asking what you should be eating and what you should not be eating. In the pre op stage if your doctor or nutritionist has not gone over these things with you then you should ask or find another doctor. When I left my meeting right before my surgery in my hand (which was also gone over with us by the dietician) was a list of foods to eat and at what stage. A prescription for pain medications and nausea medication. I had times when I could start exercising and how much I was to eat in a day. The only way that they lap band is going to work for you is to have every piece of information from your doctor available at your finger tips. Every doctor is different in what they want you to eat so asking us if you can eat something is like asking can you remove your sutures. If you are afraid to ask your doctor questions then why have your insurance pay him or if you are self pay why hand over 16,000 dollars or more. He is getting paid to give you what you need to be successful in this journey. Not everyone loses weight the same and if you want or expect to drop 100 pounds in a few months that is unrealistic. Yes others have lost more then you but it does not mean you are doing anything wrong. It just means your body is not going to lose it fast. If someone weighs 400lbs and you weigh 250 they will lose faster then you. If you are having any kind of pain call your doctor it could be something serious. I think if you are unsure of what you are doing then your doctor should be the one guiding you .
I finally paid my AT&T Uverse bill word of advice check your bill often because they will upgrade your internet without your knowledge. I guess they didn’t get the memo about me being on a budget!
Anyway how is everyone? I am okay… I guess. This recovery time is harder than I thought it would be. I guess I can start with the morning of the surgery. Surgery took about 18 minutes and I was discharged around 930am. Once again my amazing daddy took care of me. He made sure that my a$$ sat down and got my meds. And just like last time he went to work that evening! This is why I love my daddy! My coworkers (I don’t know if I told you guys this before but I work with nurses) been checking on me every day especially my partner in crime. It cracks me up when he texts saying how is my patient this morning! (I can’t laugh too much because it hurts) Despite of all the things that been going on with him losing his home and getting his life back on track. He still makes time to check on me and that means a lot to me.
My support system has been wonderful to me. They are concerned about me because the first thing they ask me is I hope you’ve been sitting you’re a$$ down! I am but it is hard. I thought I prepared myself mentally for this but I didn’t. I am afraid that I am going to gain some of my weight back when I am so close to One Hundred Land! I was doing so good with my workouts and I really wanted to do my first 5K with Catfish next Saturday but I have to wait and try again. It’s sorta depressing but I am trying to get over it by thinking about how much I accomplish during this journey.
So, I am going to put my faith in God and move forward. Besides I will have to do this again in a couple of months because my port has to be put in again. My surgeon let me know this yesterday I will a little disappointed but he told me to continue what I been doing and I will do just fine. Then he removed my packing on my incisions and showed me how to do packing. I just like to say two things: That f*cking hurt! Thank goodness for pain killers and two I am glad my daddy drove me because after all that I wouldn’t been able to drive. So what did my daddy do…. He took me out for some ice cream! I am such a daddy’s girl and a big kid but this actually made me feel better!
I haven’t got my appetite back yet but I’ve been eating. I have too because all the pills I’ve been taking and I don’t need to be taking them on an empty stomach. I know I will resume my workouts soon but until then I will continue making healthier choices until I get back on track! I have to remember this is only temporary.
Thanks for reading.
My surgery was on August 14, 2013. Pre-surgery I was 243 lbs and now I am 217 lbs.
My weight goes back and forth every day and it has been like a stale mate here for going on 2 weeks now. I can't get passed the 217 mark and if I eat anything I will go back up to 220.
It has been very difficult getting food down. Shakes, protein's and vitamins. I am struggling to get anything down. The only thing I have found that I can get down and keep down (if I take 45 minutes to eat) is Salmon. The frozen packakge.
Other than that, Its hard. I am still on a soft solid diet. So I will try mashed potatoes, yogurt, eggs, bananas, etc... Yet anything I eat just sits there and takes forever to go down and hurts, which in turn makes me not want to eat.
Everything else has a funny smell or taste and its like parting the red sea to get me to eat it.
I am walking everyday at work. I walk around the building 4 times which equates to roughly a mile. I try to get enough water down. I drink about 3 bottles a day. (about 45 oz's). It's been tough getting that down.
I didnt think I would have this many issues. It just feels like I am failing and I don't know what to do.
Ok, I was saving two pair of jeans because they were like new, they used to be so tight I couldn't wear them. I was looking forward to be able to put them on. I got them out yesterday to try to see if they would fit, and horrors of horrors, they are too big!!! I couldn't even get them to stay up comfortably with a belt. I'm crushed because now they have to go to the good will and I didn't even get to wear them!!! Oh well, I suppose that is a good thing. People have finally noticed that I'm losing weight, one at church and one saleslady at work. I told them thank you and yes it is hard work. I've lost 45lbs and I know I should be proud of that but somehow doesn't feel like enough. I know that I shouldn't compare myself to others but sometimes it's hard not to get weight loss envy. I was sort of complaining the other day and my son said to me that even though I'm losing weight I still look good and healthy unlike two of his co-workers that had the bypass procedure, he says they've lost a lot of weight but look like they've been sick. So i guess that losing slowly isn't so bad as long as I look healthy. I'm off all BP meds now, and have reduced my diabetes meds in half, Doc says probably will be off all soon. I am waiting to go back for another sleep study to see if I can go off my CPAP, I can't wait to get rid of it. I have 4 lbs to go before I hit one-derland, I can wait I'm so close.... but probably another 2-3 weeks. Oh well, slow and steady....
I was really happily surprised to find out that my gastric sleeve surgery is expected to last less than an hour. Apparently my doc has done A LOT of theses and can pretty much knock them out like an assembly line.
I'm to check in at 7am, surgery is at 9:30am, expected to be back in my room by 10:30am. Spend the day recovering and walking. Next day drink the barium for the leak test and be released late in the afternoon.
He said not to expect any internal pain, the only pain should be at the incision points and very little gas discomfort. So we'll see.
Some of the unexpected things that I didn't find out until the last minute:
Had to go to the hospital for several tests - blood, ultra sound, chest xrays and EDG (camera down the throat to check out the stomach).
Have to go to the hospital with 72 hours of the surgery to get blood typed (in case of the need for a transfusion) and urine test.
So the only things I have left is the per surgery blood/urine test and then the surgery. Very excited.
My copay for the doctor has been about $2000 so far (office visits/surgery cost)
My hospital costs so far, $1000 (blood, ultra sound, chest xrays and EDG)
Costs still to be determined: pre-op blood/urine test and hospital costs for the 2 days pre and post surgery.
It's been 5 days since I've started the liquid diet and it's going better than I expected. I've found I'm still getting hungry and that's annoying. Sugar Free Peppermints and Hot Tea seem to help.
I'm getting a bit nervous and wondering if I'm doing the right thing. I'm worried about going for my pre-op meet with the Surgeon and him saying No, we're not going to do the surgery for any one reason or another. I really just want to get it done with already and get on with the next stage of it all.
I have an incredible support system and I know I can rely on each and every one of these wonderful people. I don't want to speak my fears to anyone except my husband. And even then, I don't get too involved with it.
And then I think about the goals I have set for myself. Both on the scale and not on the scale. I think about how much fun it will be to have the ability to shop at any store and buy cute clothes. I think about being healthy and getting off a lot of my medications. I think about living to see my grandchildren being born and being able to get on the floor and play with them.
Then the fear goes away and I know I'm doing the right thing. The wait and the prep work will be well worth it and I'm guessing forgotten once it's all said and done. I'm looking forward to living the rest of my life and not just being being alive.
Today is exactly 16 weeks since surgery & I’ve lost 55 lbs since then. That plus the 10 lbs I lost pre-op mean I am down a total so far of 65 lbs! 65.4 to be exact, but who’s counting lol.
I am excited! I am about 7 lbs away from being half way to goal. I am doing a lot of closet shopping, and now I realize if I don’t try on things frequently, I am in danger of several items becoming too big before I even get a chance to wear them! My sweet & generous husband thinks I should buy new stuff whenever I feel like it, even if I know I will only wear it a short time, & he says there are worse problems to have and that I should treat myself for having earned it. While I certainly agree with him in theory I cannot bring myself to go out and buy brand new things when I am not close to goal yet. I’m cruising ebay a lot. I have maxi dresses that I can wear quite a bit longer without them getting too obviously big, and a Donna Karan wrap dress that will just need to be wrapped tighter and tighter, but my pants and jeans…oh boy when you can take off your jeans without unbuttoning or unzipping them, you know they’re getting too big! So I need to get a smaller pair of jeans….and that’s where ebay comes in. I’m bidding on my favorite kind of Levi’s in the next smaller size and if I can get them for less than $20 I consider that a success.
I’m so grateful for the sleeve. I’ve really had no problems with it, except for a bout with stomach acid a few weeks ago. I’m managing it with OTC meds and hoping eventually I won’t have to take it much. If I do have to take it every day forever, then so be it. It’s a very small price to pay, in contrast to the laundry list of health problems that I was headed for with obesity.
My relationship with food has turned a compete 360. It is a bit of a mind trip though, because having loved food so much for all my 41 years, I still get excited about it. And then I eat it and after 4 bites I’m like “ugh, that’s enough”. So in some ways I feel like I live with a ghost – the memory of how satisfying stuffing myself used to be. And yet, now after a couple of bites I don’t want – can’t have – any more. (please note this is when following the "protein first" rule) It’s a very strange thing to wrap my head around -- this new ambiguous feeling about food, but it is actually a good thing. It’s what I wanted. I’ve always envied people whose lives weren’t driven by the urge to eat – food was always my obsession. When to eat, what to eat, when to eat next, what to eat if no one was there to see. Now I don’t have that uncontrollable urge, and it is lovely. I hope it lasts forever. I easily & happily stick to pretty paleo type eating, and have recently added one day a week where I have some good starch like whole grain bread. I think that revved my metabolism a bit, although I think it dampens my energy some on those days. I just don’t eat many carbs in the way of starches any more, and I absolutely do not miss them! I think I’ve had some dark chocolate maybe twice and my reaction was “meh” ....so why have it again? I have to say I am detoxed from refined sugar and thank God for it. I was a slave to sugar before. That evil is behind me and I do not ever ever want to let that monster out of its cage again. Because I fear sugar could sabotage me in the future, I am going to be very cautious about ever reintroducing it.
My husband, who really wasn’t entirely on board with me having the surgery, has recently talked quite a bit about how happy he is with how things are turning out Go figure. LOL. We bought a 42 lb thing of cat litter at Costco last week, and as he said “ooof!” while hefting it into the shopping cart, I said “Yeah, well I’ve lost 1 ½ the weight of that” and it Absolutely. Blew. His. mind. Now, that was more than a week ago, and he’s remarked on it several times since – contemplating the weight I used to carry like that really had an impact on him. I said, “now you understand why I never had energy, right? Aren’t you glad the 65 lbs is gone? And, think about me losing another 65 lbs! You’ll have to put a tether on me or I might just float away!!” LOL Really, my energy has gotten so much better and I’m less than half way there….it is hard to imagine how good I’m going to feel when I get to goal!
(please do note that I say ‘when’ not ‘if’)
I’m stoked. I had a great week, and a great month. I track the patterns in my weight loss – regardless of intake or working out, every third week it flat lines. I accept it. The big picture is important; meeting mini goals are important. Meeting goals that are not related to numbers on a scale are important too. I’m all over this!
Onward!
Today I look at my life and I am thankful. I am thankful for my loving family. I am thankful for a good job and a steady income. I am thankful for my Lapband and for getting my life back.
I look at who I was 18 months ago, 250 pounds of misery. I didn’t care about myself or how I looked. I would wear potato sack clothes, I never wore make-up or jewelry, I looked like a tired old lady and I didn’t care. I couldn’t exercise, just walking up the 4 steps into my house would put me out of breath. I really hated myself!
Thankfully I did something about it. I got the Lapband and lost 80 pounds. I went from size 22 to size 10 and have never felt better. I take pride in the clothes I wear (no more potato sacks for me ~ I hate baggy clothes now, lol), I love to wear jewelry and make-up. I want to look good, my smile is from ear to ear. Life is so enjoyable now.
So many things have opened up to me since my band. My husband and I have doubled the amount of land we use for gardening because I can physically help manage it. We increased our flock of chickens to 30 birds because I can physically help manage them. I find myself always on the go, moving doing this & that because I can physically do it. I even got my concealed handgun license (Never shot a gun before 6 months ago).
All this because I decided to change. Yes, I changed everything….. No more fast food, soda, junk food, midnight bowls of cereal, or gallons of ice cream and no more sitting on my ass watching TV all day. Do I miss these things? Sometimes. But if I have cravings I have a small portion of whatever I’m craving. Day to day I don’t miss a thing.
Life is too precious to waste it away on pizza and greasy burgers or cake and candy. I am thankful for my rebirth on February 6, 2012 and I promise to live a health happy life. I deserve nothing less.
Holy ****...finally!
I am 28 days out and i thought why not hop on the scale. I had only lost 2 lbs...i checked and had lost another 5-7lbs. (My scale is off from my surgeons)
Finally. That's awesome. Especially since im menstruating. xD
Yes, it is a complete oxy moron that a person who is in the process of getting approved for a sleeve is baking cake. But that is what I am doing. A good friend and co-worker is getting married soon and we are throwing her a shower at work. I was asked ( rather nominated) to make the cake for it. I am pretty well known for my baking skills. (Yep- another stereotype. A fat baker!) I heard through the grapevine she is not having an actual wedding cake at her wedding, so I decided to go all out and make her one. I am also completely insane and have a masochistic side! LOL What the HECK was I thinking? And this ain't gonna be your average thrown together, out of a box cake either. Nope. It will be three tiers, all double layer. The bottom will be devil's food with butterscotch caramel filling, the second layer is marble with chocolate ganache and the top will be white with raspberry filling. And if I wasn't already a glutton for punishment I am making my own homemade buttercream icing for it and decorating it with fall leaves I am making by hand out of gum paste! Really? REALLY?? And here is the kicker....I have NO formal training whatsoever. I just got a burr up my butt that I could do this. I jumped on the internet for ideas and it snowballed. This is also a loooong process. Last night I spent 5 1/2 hours baking the bottom layer of cake (2-14" cakes) and making the gum paste. Then I rolled it, cut out the leaves and started to paint them. Had to stop as they were still too tacky. So today at lunch I went home and painted a few. Tonight I am going to make the other two layers of cake ( 2- 12" and 2 -8") paint the leaves, and crumb coat the first layer. ( after I make a batch of icing) This is all after working an 8 hour day, and I also have to entertain a 4 year old! Tomorrow I will finish icing and decorate the whole thing for it to be ready for Friday. If I did this for a living it would be ok. It is kind of fun to be creative and make something. But to work a full time job, take care of a preschooler AND do this on the side.....well it isn't as much fun as I had thought. Yet here is the weird part. With all the cake and sugar and smells around me last night I had to make myself stop and eat something! I get so focused on getting done I don't want to eat. And once I stopped for the night I was so tired I didn't care about food. So maybe baking IS the key to weight loss...Hmmm
I made it thru surgery! Not as bad as I thought. My mouth was dryer than dry, but they gave me ice chips.
My surgery started at 7:30am
They did the sleeve & hernia, was in recovery by 9:25, in there for about an hour, the to my room at about 10:30. I was on oxygen, they took it off at 11:30, just had to remember to breath deep when the buzzer sounds, they also gave me a breathing thingy that I have to do minimum of 10 an hour, it gets deep breaths, it helps A Lot with Gas bubbles & helps so yo don't get Phenomena I've been burping a storm. Walking around my room & the halls. No nausea at all They are stayed on top of the meds while I was in the hospital, the second morning I didn't have any. I just had gas pains.
Also, I was able to get out of the bed & I'm sitting in a what they call recliner... But it's better than the bed. I was able to be out of the hospital by noon the day after surgery, I hated being there, being on the IV & eating ice chips, I was able to walk to my GI & passed, so they said I was cleared t go home.
We ran to get my Rx & home we came where I started drinking an Iso Pure, not the greatest, but its protein, i wasn't to bad after I mixed some powder protein with it. took for ever to drink 8 oz. but I did that twice yesterday & so I hit my minimum mark of 50 grams of protein. I figured that was a great start. the only time I took the pain meds is when I went to bed. I don't like them they knock me right out.
Since this
morning I have choked down a iso pure without added powder & 1/2 a 16.9 oz bottle of water guess that's not bad where its basically 10am. I am not hungry, I just keep telling myself drink this, drink this. slowly. but drink this. then I give myself a break.
I weighed myself & I am down 2lbs the only reason I got on the scale is I do my measurements once a week those were not so good, but I attribute that to being swollen, my plans for the day are SHOWER! then this afternoon a walk, & maybe 1 tonight. and of course every-time I remember I use the breathing thingy. I haven't really had troubles passing gas, from either direction. I know TMI, I also had a BM. the nurses had me a bit scared about that. I had it on my own no medicines or juices.
I had it in my head it was going to be worse than it was. I guess it's better to thin that then have it be better. now if I could just Fast Forward the next couple months.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Today's my day! I took all my measurements this morning and recorded them, did my pre-surgery wash, now it's just waiting until time to head to the hospital. I was excited to weigh myself this morning and see 216.4 on the scale. That is a weight loss since I started 6 months ago of 54 pounds. But it is a total weight loss of 86 pounds from my highest weigh of 302 pounds. I am hoping this surgery is a tool that will end the up and down yo-yo I have experience on the scale all my adult life.
My body has a rule, when ever I have a cheat day, my body uses that as the new minimum for food intake.
Had a couple of slices of pizza last night, starving this morning even though I have eaten my normal breakfast
So I had my 3rd NUT visit towards my 6 visits for insurance coverage. Down another pound and I am shocked! Shocked because August was a BAD month for me. Most of all happy I didn't gain. So I went from 286 to now 279. Going to do my best this month and try to loose at least 3 to 5 pounds. Would at least like to be down another 9 pounds prior to surgery. Fingers crossed I will make it. Not 100% sure because the holiday season is the worst time for me.
Happy Weight Loss Journey to you all!
Stop go, stop go, stop stall stall, go, that is how my weight loss has been. I am completely happy with my results. But like others I've seen on here, I am as impatient as a child on Christmas morning! Today I stepped on the scale and saw a movement of 2 pounds in one day. Wow, that's crazy. So that will boost my efforts to exercise, I have begun walking with a friend from work, this way it gets done before I even get home. Only walked a mile yesterday, but I figure its better than sitting on the couch. I have felt great, have no complaints. No pain, no pukies but I do notice if I take that one bite too many or too fast it sits in my esophagus for a bit which is unpleasant. Looking forward to expanding my food horizons, but have to wait till my next appt on the 17th. My surgeon said after 6 weeks I am considered healed. I am noticing a difference in my shape. So far have kept my boobs but they seem to be migrating south, sigh. My legs have thinned and I can see muscle again. My problem area which is my tummy or spare tire will be the last to go, but has shrunk some. My goal will be able to go into a different size by oct 17th. I am going on a girls weekend with my mom, we rented a beautiful chalet on lake Michigan right near Michigan city. There are wonderful outlet malls there galore so hoping I can find some deals. Staying the course with my morning protein shake, and soft foods, the never ending liquids and so on.
I've never written a blog so I thought why not give it a try. How did I get here? I'm not too sure. Yes, I'm lieing I know. I've been heavy all my life. "Thick" was good for me . Every year a little more would creep up on me. I had my son and thought, maybe I'll be the lucky one and loose all the baby weight. Fat chance (literally). I always stayed active but, it was never enough. 16 years later and I'm still trying to loose the baby weight. Now it just looks like I'm pregnant with twins. Give me a break. I always thought WLS was for people who were lazy and didn't want to work out. Talk about a change of heart. It's no fun when you don't have the energy for ANYTHING! It feels like my life has been sucked away. I'm tired all the time even when I get enough sleep.....bring on the bed I'm ready for a nap! Nothing is more embarrassing than not fitting on a ride at an amusement park. Being told (after the operator comes over and smashes the chest device on you) that it will not lock and you must get off the ride. I told myself I would never go to another amusement park again. I was mortified!
After some horrific events in my life happened, I decided I was going to make a change. I needed help and I obviously couldn't do it on my own. Sleeve here I come! I went to weight loss seminar and found out that I qualified for bariatric surgery. I was excited!!!! OH, but wait, you have to wait six months, you have to go to a nutrition class, you have to see a nutritionist, get an upper GI, an endoscopy, have monthly weigh ins, go get lab work, drink protein shakes, take vitamins, give up chocolate......WAIT!!! What did you just say? Give up chocolate? That might be the deal breaker! All this while spinning on my head and loose weight at the same time!!! Anyone who goes through all this MUST be serious!!!
So I committed to doing it. And lemme tell you, it's not easy. I am 4 months in and when my sixth month hits and they prepare my paperwork for insurance approval I'm gonna be a nervous wreck! I didn't have to jump through this many hoops when I bought my house!!
I guess I better go to sleep. I can't even say it's because I'm tired. I'm always tired. Can't wait to get some energy back. Then maybe I won't look like the walking dead!
Tory Johnson is on GMA and was sort of told lose weight. She has a book coming out called The Shift. I don't know much about her or the book. She is doing a book tour but very over priced tickets, $75. What nerve in my eyes. On Yahoo it said something about nail polish helped her. I have been saying that for a long time. You can not eat with wet nails. I have used that trick for around 25-30 years
Just because someone like Tory is on tv doesn't mean your bosses have the right to tell you to lose weight. My thoughts.
Enjoy your evening-sleep tight.
Arlene
I received my phone call from the Dr. office today that I am to be at the Hospital at 11:30. Looks like I will get to sleep in on my first day off work. I have been suffering a headache all day, but other then that I am feeling pretty excited. That is even after watching two videos of the sleeve surgery on Youtube. I think it grossed my husband out, but I found it pretty interesting to see what exactly they are going to do. I do feel like I have researched and prepared these last 6 months about as much as possible.
Hi All!
I had my sleeve done on August 19th where I weighed 247 lbs. Today Sept 10th I weigh 237 lbs. I am totally ill with this number. I dropped those first 10 lbs the first week and now in my 4th week the scale won't move. I'm counting proteins and getting in at least 48 to 60 oz of water a day, plus working out 5 days a week. I am at a loss. All I can do is keep doing what I'm doing cause it's not like I can get upset and over eat since I can barely get down the little I eat now. Did anyone else have this issue? Sorry for this boo-hoo Blog. I just know next time will be better...
OMG...they FIT, they FIT, they FIT!!!!
The JEANS, that I have had in my closet forever...FIT!!! Skinny, yet curvy(curvy is GOOD people!!)
SO...I was in the closet, I decided today was the day I was going to try them on AGAIN...thinking to myself, "oh these didn't fit 3 weeks ago, they will fit in about a month from now". WELL...I put them on, because I always love denim, and I buttoned them, smile began to surface...zipped them, BIG cheesy grin by this time, AND...I AM STILL BREATHING!!! So you better believe I did NOT take these suckers off!!!!
I've been doing a little jig, with a little song that just makes the big cheesy grin, not so cheesy...they fit, uh-huh, they fit...oh yea!!!!
It's the little successes that are HUGE!!! Just made my day!!!
Have a blessed day!!! Keep up the good work everyone and remember to be FABULOUS today!!!
I am at day 19, the scale has not moved for over a week, since I started soft foods. I also haven't been walking like I did the first two weeks. Now that I have gone back to work, I have not figured out how to make it part of my routine. I have a treadmill in my livingroom that doesn't work. I believe I would use it if it did. I wish I had one. I also have a friend that lives in an apartment on my way to work but I don't have access to get there without her. I am trying to stay positive and focused but I am realizing this doesn't jsut melt off without my initiative.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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