GET A LIFE IN WHICH YOU ARE NOT ALONE
FIND PEOPLE YOU LOVE AND WHO LOVE YOU
AND REMEMBER LOVE IS NOT LEISURE, IT IS WORK ANNA QUINDLEN
WHEN YOU CONTROL YOUR BEHAVIOR,
YOU CONTROL THE CONSEQUENCES.
DAILY DIET
DAILY WALK
DAILY RECRUIT
DO NOT BELIEVE THAT HE WHO SEEKS TO COMFORT YOU LIVES UNTROUBLED AMONG THE SIMPLE AND QUIET WORDS THAT SOMETIMES DO YOU GOOD. HIS LIFE HAS MUCH DIFICULTY.....
OTHERWISE HE WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN ABLE TO FIND THOSE WORDS. RAINER MARIE RILKE
MARIA SAID TODAY SHE ATE 4 CHICK NUG & SM CHILLI & SM ICRM CONE
BFAST: 2 CRACKERS, 1 CHEESE, 1 EGG 100 CALS
LUNCH: CRAB LEGS 260 + SHRIMP 75 + ROLL100 = 435 + 100 = 535
DINNER:CHICK NUG 170 =705 + 4 RITZ CRAKRS 100= 800
:hungry: 1-25-2006
Breakfast- whole Luna bar 180 calories, 10g protien
Lunch, snack and all the way till dinner :help: I ate Sausage and cream cheese rolls. It was low fat sausage, fat free cream cheese and reduced fat cresent rolls. I don't know how many I actually ate...its all a foggy blur. I have no idea how many calories it was...but I'm sure it was too many.
Dinner, about 6 oz of tilapia. Yep...a fill is defiently in order.
Had my nutrition appointment yesterday, and even though I'm loosing weight I really think I'm eating too much. So waiting for the office to call me back to schedule my first fill. Feeling much better cough wise, and think I may finally be over it. I actually slept all night last night. Going to go back to exercising tomorrow, today I'm just going to take it easy and get some laundry done.
Well today was a good day. Its almost over. I did accomplish a few good things for myself. I had a shake for breakfast and lunch....I got out of the office for lunch today....came home...not so much ya can do with 1/2 hour. But over all, I am feeling better today than I have in a while. I weighed myself today. They had a segment on Good Day NY where this Fitness expert said to wake up and weigh yourself everyday and that should help keep you "true" to your diet goals better than weighing in once a week. Sooo Todays weigh in was 211.5 pounds. I sorta got away from my weigh ins and maybe that was one of the things that contributed to my passay efforts...We will start up this weigh in every day thing and see how it works... I dunno how accurate my scale is...but if it is, that means a weight loss of 61 pounds~ holy shit......I can't believe it~~~ I will compare these numbers to the numbers I get at Dr Kwons on thursday. I did do one bad thing today...I ate bread. No pain involved but carb content alone. Well, if thats the only bad thing, then accept it and move on.....could have done a lot worse. :heh:
WALK IN A.M.21 MINS & 115 CALS WALKED LAST NIGHT I LIKE WALKING.
B.FAST CRACKERS, CHEESE & 1 EGG...105 CALS HAD 1 C TEA
LUNCH CHICKN BR- GRILLED, W 2 SLICE CHEESE, = 280 + 105= 385
DINNER: CHILLI = 220 +385 =605 +
6 CRACKERS & SALSA= 70 = 675
THE DAYS ARE GETTING LONGER DIDN'T GET DARK TIL 5.15 P.M.
I HAVE G-R-E-A-T RESTRICTION TO-DAY!!!YIPEE NO HUNGER PANGS WORE MY SIZE 20 STYLE & CO. PANTS FROM MACYS W NO PROBLEM...ZIPPED RIGHT UP!
Acceptance. I was reading a book last night, and acceptance was the topic. It was in Simple Abundance...I am sorry, I forget the author's name right now. Sarah Van...something. The point is that in order for us to move on in our lives, we must accept where we are now. That IS our weight on the scale, this IS our messy house, this IS my unfulfilling job, etc. Very simple. HUGE IMPACT! That idea clicked and clicked and clicked. It works in regard to accepting the death of my mom. It works in relation to the mess in my house. It works when I think about my weight loss, and how I've been in stall mode since Christmas. There's nothing magic about it...it is all ME. The good news is that if it's all me, then I can change these things. I can't change that my mom is in heaven, but I can change how I accept it or not. I can't wiggle my nose and clean my house (wouldn't that be GREAT?!) but I can choose one spot to clean and organize, and move to the next one. I can't change my past behavior with food, but I can change my behavior today. As the writer recommends, breathe a big sigh, and accept. Now change. I just love that.
I am grateful to wear my new size!
I am grateful for the opportunity to learn patience each morning, as I "accept" the traffic.
I am grateful for the seasons and the progression of life.
To be continued...
again....:sick Still sick but out of bed. Reminder to myself "get a flu shot next year"
The best part of being sick is loosing weight, down to my all time low of 166!:clap2: :clap2:
Well today was a better day. I actually got out of the house for an hour, and walked down to the store. The best part is the store is at the bottem of a steep hill!!! And I walked it. I am going to try and do that occassionally. My stomach hurts. I dont know if I pulled a muscle the other day, I was doing crunches..or if my band is choking the hell out of me. I go back to see Dr Kwon on thursday I will discuss it with him then. Im very sleepy tonight........And its 1140 pm...I need sleep~~~:notagree
Let's talk about weight and perception of weight. Very few subjects cause as many intense reactions as a discussion of weight....unless you want to mention religion and politics, which I don't (right now, anyway!). I remember doing exercises with my mom when I was probably 10 or so...by the time I was in jr. high, we were trying all kinds of crazy diets. Remember the one where one day you ate only bananas, the next day was eggs, the next day grapefruit...I think there were 10 days of that. How about the cabbage soup diet? Check! Hypnosis? Check! A tablespoon of vinegar before every meal? Check! The original Atkins diet, complete with ketosis strips you tested your pee with? Check! Aerobics? Check. Step classes? Check. Weight lifting? Check. Weight dares and competitions, with cash prizes? Check. You know what I'm talking about. When I was a young adult, I found out about those doctors - the ones who would talk to you for a few minutes, then write you a prescription; mine was for Tenuate. All you had to do to get more was lose some weight each month. That wasn't a problem! And, I had a really clean apartment! This drug brought about one of the greatest sustained weight losses ever...I actually wore a size 10. You can't stay on diet pills forever, so that had to end, and the weight came right back. It took a while, but I gained it all, and another 80. Sure, I intervened from time to time, and the term "yo-yo dieting" was my lifestyle. For those of us of a certain age, Twiggy had a profound effect on our self-concepts. I look at pictures from high school, and I see a perfectly healthy, vibrant 17 year old. I remember thinking I was fat, even then, at 5'7" and 135. I mean, embarrassed about it kind of fat. Can it be true that thinking something actually does make it true? I wonder if my fellow bandsters have had similar thoughts, at least the ones who were a normal weight as teenagers and gained weight during adulthood? If one's perceptions are that powerful, that they can actually create reality, then I think I'm going to try an idea someone on the LBT boards wrote about...I'm telling myself that I'm losing weight, and that I weigh about 10 lbs less than I actually do...and create the reality I desire. My brain is so full of negative self-talk, I figure it can't hurt to use a little positive self-talk to win the battle.
I'm grateful for being able to work with kids who have hard situations, and help them make a success out of their lives. It's so great to do something you love!
I'm grateful that today has brought a break in the clouds for me, emotionally.
I'm grateful for my home, which is safe and full of love, if also quite a bit messy.
To be continued...
I'm really getting frustrated with myself this past month. If I'm eating well, I don't exercise. If I exercise, I celebrate with ice cream. I want to break through the next 20 lbs so bad, but I seem to be sabotaging myself lately. Here's my food intake for the day (junk, junk, junk!)
2 pieces of cheese
2 servings of cheetos
10 caramel hershey's kisses
3 cheese-its
1/2 roll with butter from Callie's dinner plate
I'm sure I grabbed some other crap too, but this is all I can remember
water: 2
vitamin: no
I'll edit this later to add dinner.
my life, my life it is so difficult at keeping up with a daily exercise routine. I get so discouraged at times. I work out 3 to 4 times a week and the scale doesn't move. I try really hard. I'm wondering is there anything over the counter that I could buy to assist me with my weight.
"I believe"
I believe - That we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.
I believe - That no matter how good a friend is, they're
going to hurt you every once in a while and
you must forgive them for that.
I believe - That true friendship continues to grow, even
over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I believe - That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.
I believe - That it's taking me a long time to become
the person I want to be.
I believe - That you should always leave loved ones
with loving words. It may be the last time
you see them.
I believe - That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I believe - That we are responsible for what we do, no
matter how we feel.
I believe - That either you control your attitude or it
controls you.
I believe - That regardless of how hot and steamy a
relationship is at first, the passion fades and
there had better be something else to take its place.
I believe - That heroes are the people who do what has
to be done when it needs to be done, regardless
of the consequences.
I believe - That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe - That my best friend and I can do anything or
nothing and have the best time.
I believe - That sometimes the people you expect to kick
you when you're down, will be the ones to help
you get back up.
I believe - That sometimes when I'm angry I have the
right to be angry, but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.
I believe - That just because someone doesn't love you
the way you want them to doesn't mean they
don't love you with all they have.
I believe - That maturity has more to do with what types
of experiences you've had and what you've learned
from them and less to do with how many birthdays
you've celebrated.
I believe - That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe - That no matter how bad your heart is broken the
world doesn't stop for your grief.
I believe - That our background and circumstances may have
influenced who we are, but we are responsible for
who we become.
I believe - That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't
love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they
do.
I believe - That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.
I believe - That two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.
I believe - That your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.
I believe - That even when you think you have no more to
give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find
the strength to help.
I believe - That credentials on the wall do not make you a
decent human being.
I believe - That the people you care about most in life are
taken from you too soon.
Today its snowing..I had to go to work three hours early because i didn't have a ride (dad took my jeep so he could get to work) I rode to work with my sister because we work at the same place. I am sitting here listening to my MP3 Player and going over posts on Lapbandtalk and obesityhelp. I am truly thankful that i had this oppurtunity to have this surgery. I honestly think that if i wasn't able to have this surgery i probably would of ate myself to death. I wish that i would loose weight faster then i am (averaging about 3-5lbs a month or sometimes 2 lbs a month) it sucks but i have just increased my exercise..We shall see..I don't get weighed again til 02/09. Last night i did 1.1 miles on the treadmill and i burned 125cal, Not bad for me. I was thinking about the plastic surgery part of this surgery..I am going to need it. The way my skin hangs and my arms flap. UGH..I probably and going need everything because my boobs have shrunk too. But i deserve it..I spent my whole life being fat and it will make me feel happy to FINALLY be skinny and healthy.I have 127 lbs to go til GOAL..I am hoping that the exercise will help me tone some stuff but i highly doubt its going to tone everything..I am thankful for everyone's stories, It helps to keep me inspired. I hope one day i can someone say the same for me. But for now..One day @ a time.. ;)Kristen334.5/277.5/???
Jan 22, 06 -- OK I fell off my wagon and rolled down the hill and then jumped on the next wagon and fell off that one too. LOL!!
But I did it all for making the video for Biggest Loser. I thought why not show them what I eat in a typical day. NOT THE Nutrisystem meals but what I could eat in a typical day. LOL!! So, pizza, chips, beer, cheeseburgers, and desserts also. SIGH!! Now I feel like crap. I don't mean mentally I mean physically.
I knew that some foods can trigger physical symptoms and now I know what foods can trigger mine. Just about all dairy and processed foods are bad for me. I was feeling light as a feather (ok maybe not that light but less heavy ok) when I was eating all veggies, fruits, and getting in my water every day. I went off the diet for two full days now and man can I feel it. My bones hurt, my sinuses are a mess, my head is all stuffy, my nose is running and NO I am not getting the flu or the cold. I feel fine otherwise. OK the video is done. So starting tomorrow back to Nutrisystem.
I venture to guess that I gained some poundage back at next weigh in. YIKES!!!
The important thing about this date is that it is (was) my parents anniversary. It would have been their 51st anniversary. I am proud of dad...he went to church this morning and we sat together. It seems like just yesterday we were sitting in church, last year, celebrating their 50th anniversary! My DS and I had special flowers on the altar to commemorate the special day. We all posed together after church, with the flowers...we had all their friends send cards, and we have a great big storage box full of those cards. Mom's dream was to take all of us to Disneyworld for their 50th anniversary...we did that Christmas 2004. Thank God we did that when we did...if we had chosen to wait until summer, well, we wouldn't have had that trip. So, Mom and Dad took all 8 of us (my sister, husband and son...DH, DD, and me..plus the two of them) to Disneyworld for 8 days at Christmas! We did everything! Mom couldn't do the really intense rides, due the abdominal aneurysm, but she had the biggest smile on her face the whole time, just so thrilled that they could give us such a great treat! I like scrapbooking, and have planned to make 3 scrapbooks, one for my sis's family, one for us, and one for my parents. I have not been able to work on them...after she died, when I look at those pictures, I get lost in sadness that I won't ever, ever see that face again (here on earth, anyway). So, all the pictures and really cute scrapbook stuff sits in the cabinet, waiting on me. I know it will be such a healing experience to put it together, and I look forward to doing it, when I'm ready. So, on their anniversary, I honor my parents' devotion and commitment. It was not always easy; perhaps it was rarely easy. They had their arguments, and they had their differences. But I learned this: marriage is a decision, and love is a decision. Love is giving it all, when the chips are down and the road is rough. Love is getting each other through the good and bad times, and the even worse times. There is sacrifice in love. There are tears and joy beyond measure. When I sit here today and think back on my parents' marriage, the vow, "Until death do us part" means more than it ever has before. They kept their vows. What an accomplishment.
I am grateful for the lessons in love I learned from my mom and dad.
I am grateful for the rainy day we have today, and the cooler weather.
I am grateful for my church, and the people who have surrounded us with love and care.
To be continued....
I weighed 213 this morning so I guess my whopping pound down for the month is going to stay down. I go for a fill tomorrow and hopefully that will get back on the losing end again! I love the idea of having a journal here. I think I will start using it to track my daily menus and weight for the week. I kept a journal like that when I was lowcarb dieting and it really helped to be able to go back to weeks with great losses and see what I was eating.
The first week of January, PMS came upon me, and with all the bloating, my band was very tight. I wasn't really surprised by this. It happened in December too. But it was tighter than December. But I figured I would get through it. So the PMS stopped and then it was "that time of month"... I started taking water pills to offset the bloating. Seemed to help, maybe...???? But then when I lay down at night I started coughing and coughing and coughing... nonstop. Coughing so hard that I would vomit. 1 night of no sleep. Next night, same thing happened. I am soooooo tired... I decided that I need sleep so bad I would sleep upright but I didn't have enough pillows. Ended up sleeping in the recliner. That worked. Got a few hours of sleep that way. Next night I decided to sleep in the recliner again... Coughed more that I had the night before but I did get some sleep. I see my doctor at work and ask for his recommendation and he said he thinks its acid climbing up my esophagus while I am sleeping that is causing me to cough. "That time" has been over for a few days now but I am still not over the tightness and I am still coughing. I have an appointment in 2 weeks for Dr. Martinez to remove some fluid and check my band. Hopefully everything is ok. I could have gotten an appointment sooner, but the last 2 weeks has made me loose 15 more pounds, and while I know its not good for me, I kinda like the fast weight loss. I figure I may loose a few more pounds in the next two weeks. Go over my 50 pound weight loss mark... stupid I know, but I can't afford to go down right at this very second anyway. I am getting more liquids down now, so thats better.
So after the fill in November, I can definately tell that I have restriction, but I can also see that Chocolate goes down way too easy. I am eating fine except for the tiny halloween chocolates that are everywhere. Thanksgiving was a joke. Everyone else ate 2 helpings of everything and I ate a slice of turkey and a scoop of mashed potatoes. Even with holiday candy abounding, I still managed to loose about 15 pounds from mid november to the 1st of January.
I got my first fill in early November... 6 weeks after my surgery. My mom and I flew in to San Diego and decided to save some money by taking the bus and the trolley to the border. Cost 3-4 bucks each way and it was a piece of cake. I would do it again in a heartbeat. Took a cab from the border and almost got killed cuz the driver was crazy and he cut off some other cabbie and the other cabbie cut him off and started screaming at him in spanish about whatever... All i got out of the conversation was that they would discuss it again later but that my cabbied had "la passaga"... I am assuming that is the passengers?? *US*... The office was hot, and the only thing on TV was in spanish, but not a big deal. Dr. Martinez talked with me and mom for a good 15 minutes before he put 2.2 cc's in. It was very cool to watch them do it with the flourescopy.
I had no problems after the fill, and we even had lunch in TJ before taking the trolley back to the airport... Did it all in 12 hours... very cool!
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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Einarmige Banditen
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