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Kim's Daily Food Log Journal
 

TODAY IS THE DAY!!

SO, Ok, I have not posted a new food journal in exactly 2 weeks, since my downfall I have gorged and snaked my way into oblivion, so I won't have to write out every calorie or meal I will just list some things that I ate over the past 2 weeks:   Fried fish and tatar sauce from Luby's brownies cookies popcorn with butter reese's peanut butter cups peanut butter fudge bars from Mrs. Field's Peanut M&M's Peanut M&M's Fried Chicken sandwiches Chicken Nachos Chips and Hot sauce Taquitos with sour cream sopapillas Chicken Fried steak Fried Onion blossum lasagne peanut butter pie more Peanut M&M's chocolate cake with ice cream     just to name a few. I feel better writing it all down and I decided after my tall caramel frappachino I had for breakfast: TODAY IS THE DAY. I know it is Friday, which is the day I am usually starting to be lax on my food through the weekend, but I need to force myself to start today instead of saying, MONDAY, I will start Monday. Then Monday gets here and it's just another fat eating day. Well, I drank half my frap and threw the rest away sickened by my actions over the past two weeks. I am always sickened AFTER my stomach is full and I am satiated. Why can't I be sickend before I go in a trance? Like last night sitting in front of the TV with my Luby's take out and take an hour to eat Fried Fish with tons of tartar sauce, mashed potatoes with gravy, stuffing with gravy, a roll with butter and sweet tea to push it down. Of course I couldn't eat all of the portions but it was bad enough that I sat there an hour eating to get that damn fish down. From 8-9 pm after I got off work, stuffed myself while my band was open and as I got stuck after 5 bites had my husband get me the sweet tea it would take to slowly push it all down so I could shovel more in. God I am disgusting.   I am worried because I am one of those people that can make myself throw up if I don't like the taste or smell of something. Like anything that would remotely be good for me. Any veggies and fruit I can't handle the consistancy of the food and I gag on it. Like green beans or oranges. ANY vegetable that is not salad covered in ranch dressing. But not fast food salad except for taco salad because it tastes really dry and is hard to chew for me. I am so freakin weird, but I have been this way since I was at least 2 years old. My mother told me that she would cook these fabulous meals and I would cry and barf if it was any veggie or non fried food. My father would drive and get me Churches chicken legs and corn on the cob!! At 2 years old. Now bear in mind my father and mother divorced when I was 2 and this was my "step-mother" who raised me whom I love dearly. So he was just feeding me to make me happy through the changes in my life. 2 years old it started for me. How do you break something 25 years in the making. My bio-mother who was 98 pounds when she got pregnant with me has eaten junk food her whole life and stayed thin on her 5 foot frame. It is just now catching up to her in her 50's the cupcakes and DP for breakfast and the popcorn for dinner. I'm sure the sugar thing runs genetically, I just got fat from it and she didn't until later in life. BUT TODAY IS THE DAY!!   I have a plan. I am writing down everything I eat including calories, fat, carbs and proteins! Everything! I am exercising every day, Every Day!! I will not give up the entire day because I had a frap for breakfast.   Frap: 210 calories, 2.5 fat grams, 43! Carbs, 4 grams of protein   I have planned for my lunch to eat a chicken salad cup from chick fil a and I will do this!! I WILL DO THIS!!! TODAY IS THE DAY!!!   Luckily even though I have pigged out for 2 weeks straight, I have not gained any!! Thank god to this band o mine! I love my band and need to start working with it! TODAY IS THE DAY!!
kimalicious

kimalicious

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Rockman's Journal
 

Full wwek

it is now a full week since my surgery. I am having mixed signals (internal) concerning food. Mind vs. Stomach. Weight loss is good. 34 lbs. since presurgery dieting and 16 lbs since surgery.
Rockman

Rockman

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"The Journey of Many Miles"
 

God will make a way...

Today is 2-23-6 on a Thursday. I faxed a five page letter to my surgeon's office today. The nurse, Melissa, will be sending it along with some other information to BCBS of TN. The nurse, Robin, from BCBS who reviewed my information so far says they need documentation of a psych evaluation within the past two years as well as documentation that I have been on a structured weight loss plan within the past two years at some point. Melissa from Dr. Paynter's office said she was going to try and pull some strings and see if she can't get her hands on my psych evaluation from two years ago about this time when I first pursued this procedure. :nervous I have prayed about this several times and I believe that God will make a way. I prayed that if it is His will then He will open up the doors of opportunity for me to do this and if it is not His will then he will close the doors. However, I realize that doesn't mean I just give up. I will continue to be persistent in this endeavor because otherwise all my efforts have been in vane. I did ask God that if it was at all possible that He would make a way and open up doors for me to do this and that He would lead me down this road. I realize it took awhile for me to put all this weight on and it will take awhile for me to take it off(and keep it off). God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, Courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference, Just for today. Amen
Mona

Mona

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Papillon's Journal
 

walking

so...we moved out here where there are no sidewalks. There is a highway and then a ditch. Its kinda messed up to walk around here. I attempted to walk in the field, but the ground is so uneven, so wet, I felt like I was gonna twist my ankle at any time. I did walk to the mailbox, which took me a good 5 minutes. Im from the city, so this country life is foriegn to me. So, I walked for about 15 minutes all together. When I came back in the house, my heart was pumping pretty good. I think when the mail comes I will walk to it again. Damn I wish there were sidewalks around here..or level ground.. If anyone reads this, and does excersice from a tape or dvd, can you reccomend one that isn't too strenuous? Well, at any rate..I guess I need to get creative with my excersice out here..
Papillon

Papillon

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Liamaroo's Journal
 

Mind's made up!

Well, I have finally decided to do this. Not sure what else to say at this point, other than I have made up my mind. I worry about living with the band, worry that I'll have complications. I also worry that husband, who is also very heavy, won't be able to keep up with me once I am healthier. I worry for our future together.   More than the worries, however, are the dreams. I dream about being able to run along the beach, to ride a Harley down A1A, and to hold my own child in my arms. None of these things can happen until this weight is gone. And this weight ain't going easy, so, surgery it is. I've made up my mind.
Liamaroo

Liamaroo

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Julie*'s Journal
 

February 22

Home and banded! Everything went well according to the surgeon. I am really really sore but that's to be expected. I'm working on sipping slowly- things feel weird inside. I'm so happy to be on this side of things.
Julie*

Julie*

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Papillon's Journal
 

ramblings

:clap2: I just weighed myself and I am down to 258..its like some sort of miracle. I haven't been walking lately because I have been moving and finding a new job. I had a couple of off days where I let myself get depressed and I ate somethings I shouldn't have.:cry I did, although, resist the allure of a hostess ho ho. lol..I:speechles am ready to get back on track and start walking. We moved to a really rural area, with no parks per say..I live on 40acres, so I think I will just walk the perimiter of the property. I want to get a low impact workout dvd and start that asap. I can't believe I still have over a hundred pounds to go. Im learning to think differently about food and to find other sources of comfort. It is a vicious cylce. Well, I just wanted to write somethin in here since it was blank..I think this is a great website and I wish I would have found it a month ago...Peace to all..:kiss2:
Papillon

Papillon

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Liketorun's Journal
 

My first posting..February 21, 2005

Well, I'll start with the basics. I was banded May 15th, 2004 by Dr. Ortiz in Tijuana. I am 44 years old and 5'1" (almost), at the time of banding I weighed 205 lbs. As of today, I weigh 142 lbs. My weight has gone down very slowly. In fact I've lost the last 20 pounds in just the last year. I would like to lose 10 more pounds. Except for family I rarely discuss being banded. I changed jobs last year and only a few of my new coworkers know that I was obese. I decided to start posting on this website to help me open up about my banding. I feel like I need to be comfortable with who I was before I can learn to be comfortable with who I am now.
Liketorun

Liketorun

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lianna's Journal
 

Feb 21

Tuesday 206 lbs   Well, I actually stayed down a pound. I think that makes me 8 down from Jan. 1st. I am going to get a tiny fill on Saturday, not because of the rate of weight loss....but because I am hungrier all the time and can eat anything and hate it. I tried a bisquit this morning and had no problem at all, went down like butter. I notice I have to have a snack between meals or I am starving. I think I will ask for a .2cc fill which will put me at 1.7ccs. I have lost SIX inches from my waist now. I dont know how it is so much smaller when the scale has barely moved.   b.....2 pieces sausage, 1 bisquit l......1 slice pizza and salad d......DH took me out and I had a 8oz ribeye and baked, ate most of both with no problems at all. I think my band is emptying before I finish eating. I know I am not very restricted.
lianna

lianna

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luvlif's Journal
 

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark,

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all.   Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.   The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours." - Ayn Rand.
luvlif

luvlif

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sbest's Journal
 

2/21/06

I did really good yesterday. I didn't drink a thing, and ate about a 1000 calories and think I met my objectives for the day.:clap2: This is what I ate:   breakfast: coffee-20 1/2 soup-110 lunch: 1/2 soup-110 3 crackers-36 1/2 slice bread-18 midday meal: egg sandwich-200 snacks: w/w ice cream-140 pretzels-110 dinner: 1/2 slice triple cheese pie-100 3 parmessian puffs-150
*JASMINE*

*JASMINE*

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Julie*'s Journal
 

February 20

I am so glad that surgery day is tomorrow. The anticipation is killing me these past couple of days. I have done well with the liquids and am proud of myself (except for my slip!) and my liver should be nice and small. I lost 10 pounds total and I hope and pray that this is the beginning of good things for me in terms of my body. Wish me luck- I can't wait for the next few days to be over.   Julie
Julie*

Julie*

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Nickysmom's Lap-Band Journal
 

finally going outside

I* will venture out today. I need a few things from Shop Rite. Gas-x and some food. Hopefully I can start eating a few things now. Will try. Need a new battery for that scale too, it keeps giving all different kinds of readings.
Nickysmom

Nickysmom

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sbest's Journal
 

2/20/06

:angry O.K. I was really bad yesterday. Total : 2275 calories I ate:   breakfast: veggies-1 cup-100 brownie-1/2-140 lunch: chicken nuggets-4-215 popcorn-1/2 bag-150 snack: biscuit-1 1/2-360 dinner: doritos-1 bag-400 2 drinks-200 1 shot-100 chocolate-1-190 oreos-1 bag-170 popcorn-1/4 bag-150 snickers-1 mini-100 :angry :angry :angry :faint: :cry :cry :cry
*JASMINE*

*JASMINE*

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Rockman's Journal
 

Surgery Complete

Its nearly 4 days post surgery. Everything went fine. The operation took less than 90 minutes, I was out of the hospital by 1 p.m. and was able to briefly visit the office. Almost no pain, no leakage or problems. I have not taken any pain pills since the first day. Except for the incision where the post is located all the incisions have minimal swelling. Following the prescribed diet with little problem.
Rockman

Rockman

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A New Outlook on a New Life
 

My first visit to the site

I have registered with this site after chatting with a fellow-bander in our doc's office while waiting for my first fill. She was banded a year ago and is now 3 months pregnant so she has to start unfilling. My first fill was easy but I don't feel any restrictions. I think I freaked out a little on the third time I had to drink the water because I really thought I was going to puke!!! My next fill is March 29 at 2:30. I hope its better next time.   I like this site. It's a lot to go through but I find it very interesting!!:clap2:   My weight at my first appt was 344. On my surgery date, it was 324. I am now at 284. I seem to be at a standstill. I can't get below 280.:help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help: :help:
stephanie1836

stephanie1836

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Pattman's Journal
 

20 (45?) lbs to go this past thursday

Ok, this is my first of any kind of journal, so if your reading this, feel free to comment, point out spelling mistakes, or reduce my grade for grammar! I refuse to grow up, still trying to have fun as life goes on!!   I'm 41, was banded 7-28-04 at a weight of 268. Now down to 220. "My" goal is 200. My Dr. wants to see me at 175 .... I think that would be pushing it, but if I happen to get past 200 I"LL TAKE IT!!   Been kind of bumming the last year. My personal life sucks (not trying to bring anyone down, just jawing) and if it weren't for my new job (go Geek Squad) don't know what I'd do!   Anyway, haven't anything to really say today, but can't start the journey without opening the door and taking the first step .... no, I would not consider myself religious (might be an interesting topic for another day, though) ... L8R
Pattman

Pattman

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Dawg's Lap-Band Journal
 

2/19

Weigh in day and another 2 pounds gone.   Current weight is 268.5.   Also managed to do .95 miles on the treadmill and I am completely POOPED.
dawg

dawg

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luvlif's Journal
 

230

230LBS BY WEDNESDAY!Who are you under the excess weight? You are your best possible you, that's who! After you have had your band for a while and learned to work it well, food will become - just food - and you'll be able to get on with your life. It is a process however and it takes time and work.
luvlif

luvlif

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luvlif's Journal
 

2/19 235LBS

WALKED 50MINS LAST NITE 1.550 MILES, & 290 CALS BURNT, ATE 575 CALS. I HAVE TO BE DISCIPLINED W MY EATING... EGG WHITES, COTTAGE CHEESE, & FISH ONLY! I MUST WORK WITH THE BAND IT'S A TOOL LIKE THE VACCUM CLEANER, YOU GOTTA USE IT. NOW I MUST MEASURE EVERYTHING THAT I EAT. MY LEGS GOT SLIMMER...MY TROUSERS ARE VERY LOOSE. WENT TO TARGET & BOUGHT REAL MISSES SIZE 18 PANTS IN BLACK & BROWN THE BLACK FIT BEAUTIFULLY...I LOOK THINNER!
luvlif

luvlif

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sbest's Journal
 

2/19/06

Well, I decided to start this journal to try and keep track of how often my head demons seem to overcome me. Maybe, I can figure out how to ward them off better.   It all started this week, after Valentine's day. My husband bought me a bag of chocolates (which is something I asked for for Valentine's day:confused: ). Since then, I have had no self control. I decided that I needed to go through withdrawal, and then my control would come back. I was doing very well, until last night. Yesterday, I went to my nephew's b-day party and managed to do quite well resisting everything there, such as pizza, nachos, and cake. Then they sent us home with a party favor bag for my son. In it, it had a couple of debbie's brownies (my absolute favorite). I ate half of one and tried to pig out.   The problem is, that once I decide to pig out, it becomes a very hard task. It's like, I then decide to plan my pig out, but can't seem to get in everything I want. So I go crazy. This is what I ate last night:   gold fish (100) bbq chips (15) cracker-1 cottage cheese-2tbs meatloaf veggies-2tbs chocolate chip cookies-6minibites brownie-1/2   I know, that after reviewing all of this, it doesn't look like a lot. I keep reviewing it to see if there is anything I missed because I felt stuffed last night.   This morning, I feel terrible. The problem is that I am an "all or nothing" type of person. Either I have full control, or I have none. I feel so gross and bloated. I also worry about my band and the damage I do to it by not following the rules.   O.K. I think I know what the problem is. The problem is, that I drink too much. I have 2 mixed drinks every night. This takes away all of my self control. I know I have a problem, because I can't go a whole night without drinking. I know I need to stop, or at least decrease, my drinking. I just think I am too analytical, and when I am sober, I tend to think about things too much. I used to be a pothead, and think that this is why. Since being banded, I realized that I had to choose: the band or weed. And I chose the band. I haven't smoked weed in over 3 months. O.K. I was a functional pothead and am a functional alcoholic. I still go to work and do really well all day long, until about 7pm, when it is time to relax. I do use alcohol to relax. I admit it.   Weight-loss wise, I have done really well. I have lost 63 pounds in less than a year. I know that if I didn't have weed or alcohol in my life, I could have lost more. My goal is to be down to 145, or 135, by my one year anniversary.   So once I gave up weed, I knew that sooner or later, I would have to give up alcohol, as well. I think, no I KNOW, that it's time. I just don't know. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to try. I hope I have the strength...
*JASMINE*

*JASMINE*

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