Okay, so I managed to achieve all of my goals from last month except for the cooking one. But that's okay, as I looked through the reciepies, I found they were a bit more complicated then I had thought. So, goals this month:
Current weight: 223
218 (6/10/06)
1. Get to 209 by my next appointment with Dr. H on July 13
2. Go to the gym at least 4/week and do at least 30 min per time
3. keep up water consumption
4. continue to track my food on sparkpeople.com
Oh my goodness, Oh my goodness, I am so stoked I am doing it!!! I can make my birthday/bandiversary goal 375!!!!!
388 6.6.05
375
71 pounds gone
459 began
391 now
68 pounds gone
391 now
375 birthday/bandiversary
16 pounds to go for July4/July8
I need to start looking at new goals.
July 375
August 365
September 350
391-389-385-380-379-375-370-369-365-360-359
JUNE 6 -3 388
JUNE 13
JUNE 20
JUNE 27
JULY 4
Saturday- It began raining when I left home, so I went to the track. There were people there so I said if they can do it so will I. I would stop if it rained harder but the rain and cool breeze felt so refreshing. I kept walking. I did 3.5 miles and wanted to do more. Some folks left the track but more came. I like that... I have not been walking due to the heat (excuse) but my body responded well to the rest. Later that day I walked again with Crystalstart 2 miles at Tucker Rd Path.
Sunday- 3 mile walk at HP w/Crystalstar I felt great, we took a break by the water and it was just an awesomely, beautiful day. I felt so good that near the end I would job a tiny bit. I felt good to have the extra energy at the end. WOW I hope next weekend is as beautiful and cool.
Terrible day today. Derek showed up at my door at 3AM. What was he thinking. He wants to get back together and I said "no way"! He's threatened by my up coming surgery and I think he uses my weight as a control issue.
I'm scared and he makes me doubt my resolve and follow through with this surgery. I keep thinking....what if I gain the weight back? I want so badly to win this battle.
Took a nap this afternoon and woke up thinking that I CAN do this and I Will be successful....watch me shine!!!
Banded on May 29 2006, it's now been a little over a month. I seem to be healing nicely, been trying to put some neosporin with vitamin E on my stitches, hopefully to lessen the scarring. Have a little pain on one side and feel a little restriction with the band, but not significant. Went to Dr. Enochs first follow up visit after surgery. I had gained a pound over the 20 I had lost after surgery. That sure was a bummer! Dr. Enochs told me to concentrate on healing right now and if all looks good I might get my first fill next visit. The thing is I am still mostly on mushies and most of those are carb oriented. I sure have been hungry this last week, June 4, 2006. I am trying to be careful what I eat, but it's been a challenge. I guess this is where "patience is a virtue." Still a little hard to bend or stretch, also trying to keep up with a regular exercise routine. Since I am on the road a lot it's hard to come up with a snack I can eat while driving on the road. When I eat small meals consistently I seem to do much better. Kind of tired of liquids! Looking forward to down the road with weight loss. I wrote the NC site and they gave me some suggestions on eating, basic answer avoid carbs! I was referred to the LapBandTalk.com site on forums>food specifically dylansmoms listing. That site has a list of foods that help, great information. :nervous
If anyone knows how to make the photo show in the journal, as opposed to a link showing...please pm me. Thanks.
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I joined the Gone for Good club...was "persuaded" LOL! They post their weightloss on a Wednesday but I'm used to Sundays. Anyway it works out Ok cos I always have a peek day and that can now be Sundays. Plus, this week I really got going again on Wednesday after my fill so weighing in next Wednesday will make it a good week.
The scale is moving in a downwards direction again :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: but then with what I've eaten this week and the work I've put in, I'd be real disappointed if it didn't. I'm gonna wait until Wednesday to see if I lose anymore...watch this space (or the GFG!)
I'm doing well with my walking and building up my time. I'm at a good heart rate when walking and build up a sweat by the time I finish. Once I get to a happy walking time, I'll work on increasing the speed a little.
Some days this week I haven't taken any insulin and when I have had to it's been minimal...10units most (from 90 before band). I'll chat with my doc next week to see what general revisions he wants to do.
My BP has been great except for now..it's my TOM and each month it goes up? It can be 110/68 in the morning and get to 146/80by night. I dunno why other than my gyni said it happens because of hormones. So for now I still need help with this periodically (no pun intended! :cool: )
I'm doing well and feel really upbeat and positive about just about everything I can think of :clap2: Not much more to ask for really!
but at least I"m not gaining! I'm stuck at -29 pds and have been for a week now. Of course I started eating soft foods a week ago too and that may have something to do with it - that or the fact that I haven't had a good SHIT in a week, LOL :cool: I would take a laxative but probably will wait until Sun. nite so I'll be home in the a.m. when things start to happen.
I have been being pretty good, other than last weekend. I sort of went crazy eating and sneaking stuff last weekend - like a kid in the candy store ya know? I thought I was being pretty good, but apparently not as I put on 2 pds over the weekend - might've been fluid though - it was very hot and humid. It was gone by Tues and I"ve been stuck at 251 since then. I have been doing at least one meal of liquid protein, the other 2 have been chicken or fish, and occasionally I"ve have like the topping of some pizza - two times, but thats about it. I'm basically just stuck! Certainly not over-eating at all.
I found out that craig weighs 244 today - so thats my goal - my first mini-goal to weigh less than him......and when I reach that goal I'll weigh what I weighed when we got married! Funny huh. I remember how I worked to get down to that weight too - did the Atkins diet at the time....it worked, but man what a drag!
Hopefully next time I write I"ll have good news to report. First to get to 249 (move that bar down on the scale ya know) and then the next goal is to get to 243! I can do that no problemo! I want to achieve that by June 22nd - the day I get my first fill.
I can do this!!
Time has flown by since I started this thing in February! It's been over a month since I posted anything mainly because nothing has been happenin on the WLS scene until recently. The CPAP man came to my house with the cpap machine last week and I hate the thing! They said my sleep study indicated that I have moderate sleep apnea. I think the sleep study really indicated that my insurance company had money to fork over to the doc so it turned out that my diagnosis would insure him of getting the money! I do not doubt thaat I may have some mild obstructive sleep apnea due to the fact that I am overweight, but I do not think I need this thing and I have been exhausted every day and almost unable to get up because I sleep so badly with the damn thing on...not to mention the unsexiness of wearing an apparatus that just perfectly completes the whole "ELEPHANT" ensemble that I am sporting these days!
Oh well enough bitching to myself. I have also met with the surgeon, Dr Chand from Cleveland Clinic and had a laproscope stuck down my throat yesterday because I made some inference to some slight acid reflux that I occassionally have...that must have sent up some more dollar sign flags!!! Of course my esophagus and stomach linings were fine..thank GOD. Any way, I guess I don't hold it against them, because the more co-morbidities they can throw at the insurance company, the easier it should be to get approval...I guess thats the logic behind it all! I was laying in the procedure room reading my chart that is about the thickness of the New York City phone book, and I read the notes that the Psychologist wrote about our interview. I had to laugh. It's like everything you say is turned into a psychosis! I did a questionnaire for her and answered questions like: Do you ever feel self conscious about eating alone in public? Ummm I know 45 year old beautiful, thin women who feel self conscious about eating alone in public so why is it a disorder for a beautiful fat woman to feel self conscious? The thin woman does not have young boys who go past and make fun of her does she?? What the hell kind of question is that...She wrote that my perception of my body image is negatively affecting my social interactions and my self esteem. That was her take on my answering that question with a simple YES! I mean it's so retarded actually...the whole process...but, once again they have to show the insurance company how much this procedure will save them in the long run...think of the therapy bills and the suicide attempts this procedure would save for you....yadayadayada.
Did I mention that I am somewhat cynical? Oh well what the hell...I am now just waiting for the insurance company to give the final go ahead and to get scheduled...I'll keep ya posted.
Oh by the way, Myrtle Beach sucked for more reasons than I wanna go into...believe me it was NOT fun. My son and I stayed with some young friends of mine who just live a completely different lifestyle than anything I have ever seen so we were very uncomfortable with that situation, we also got sun poisoning and were sick as dogs for 24 hours and I ran out of cash because I screwed up my bank account with the help of some "small" ATM withdrawals that my husband neglected to tell me about....UGHHH anyway, some how we made it home alive and neither of us was ever so happy as we were looking forward to a 700 mile drive home!! Ok Bye.
D.
The crazy fat lady:eek:
Well, for once I finally feel that I have a doctor that is willing to help me. My thyroid is under control FINALLY!! he also told me that lapband was a possiblillity but he wanted me to try some other things first. He wants me to go back on weight watchers and get into an exercise class. i have another appointment in july he wants to do blood work for other things and switch my birthcontrol and he wants to see from there what happens. Im excited!!!!
WOW here it is one month out from having surgery! I am down under 300 lbs. today is the first full day for food. I had some ground chicken last night only get about 1 oz down.. now I just had some cottage cheese 1/2 cup and I"m full. Now wait an hour and then hit the water. I am going to start my food log on here until I get something else. I also use fit day.com it is really good to. I'm am so proud of my self I just won the challenge for the month of May losing 24 lbs stayed away from sugar, flour and water daily and exercises 30 min a day or more.
My 2nd fill has left me with a feeling of a 'something' but it's very hard to put into words. I want to say I can feel it but that's silly! I guess there is a general tightness that wasn't there before. I did two days of soups and they went down fine. Today I opted for soft foods..so I had a yoghurt for brekkie and that was Ok. I blended a tin of tuna with teaspoon mayo light and some dill and onion salad mix I have. I ate about 3 teaspoons and was full. Ate the rest a few hours later. For dinner I chopped an egg and a slice of low fat cheese and blended them again with one teaspoon mayo light. Everything went down fine, so tomorrow I'll try so meat and veg and see how I go.
I love my new treadmill. I did half an hour yesterday at a steady pace and today did 40mins. I built up a sweat but know over the next week I will be able to do more...the handles make such a difference for my back and neck not aching. Me, my mp3 with summer songs (upbeat and catchy) and my treadmill are gonna have a great summer
Tomorrow I might go back to 'my' hotel and swim some more but not sure yet. I was bought 3 new bathing suits as a gift and have only tried one of them out so far :cool: so need to swim more!
I must be getting enough protein right now because my nails are long and strong and this doesn't happen so often!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gave myself a french manicure today and am well pleased...love long nails on women!
My period is due and usually at this point in the week I'm tearful and tetchy but hormones are in reverse and I feel so upbeat and positive I can't quite believe it! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:
Fourth fill .4 cc was added. I am down to 163.8 lbs and the measurements are improving even as the pounds don't. 5' 2"
45" bust
38" waist
42" hips
6.25" wrist
14.5: calf
12 " bicep
21.5 thigh
15" neck
Of course my head is swelling to unmeasurable proportions from feeling so good about myself.
I danced to "Burn the Floor" for a few minutes Monday and it made me feel so good. My feet felt like lead from lack of dancing for so many years.
That will be my exercise for weightloss since I hate to walk or anything in public. Just too shy!!!
I put a stripper pole up in the basement a couple years ago and one day I will dance with that. (I just know it) Just for me of course...
My mother-in-law has told me how good I am looking.
I bought a few pieces of clothes and I am fitting into 12/14's (snuggly).
Can't wait to see how small I will get eventually. My premarriage weight was 86 lbs. I don't want to see that again. I felt awful at times. Not anorexia just no appetite. I even started taking WateOn tablets to gain..
I am anxious to get a tummy tuck. Since that is where the majority of the flab is that will be neat.
I am 58 YO and feel like 25.:cool:
I know I have not wrote on here for a while. But not much has changed until now. I have been so excited about my wound closing up it seems to get better everyday....until last night. I was watching a movie and I just couldnt keep my eyes open.. I started to get really cold and I went outside (80 degrees) and I started shivering. I knew this meant I had an infection brewing up. I went to take a warm bath (water does not touch my covered wound area) and when I looked at the gauze over my wound I noticed it looked green. So when my husband came home he repacked my wound and the packing that was in there was covered in pus.. (it had normally be really red blood throughout) there was a little pink but it was mostly greenish white pus. I didnt say anything I just laied there with tears in my eyes. Sometimes I just want to bang my head on the wall out of fustration I just want to be normal again. Who knows when I will get my band replaced and who knows if its not even messed up now. I am so scared that I will go get my new band and I will wake up to nothing. I guess I just have to see what happens.
I am going to have to look for a job soon. My husband pay check was just about cut in half and we are barely living. He is having to work overtime just so we can pay rent. He wants me to work at T Mobile call center, but I am scared about being around so many people with this open wound. Oh well I guess I dont have a choice. I will be applying there Tuesday. Wish me luck!
I am praying for a better day today!!!
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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