1) 199.8 by July 31st...I know this is sort of steep, but I start my new job that day. Weighed 201.4:cry -27
Update- reached goal on 8-10-06 (199.2) -29.4
Averaging 3.675 per week
***mini goal - half way mark -39.3
Update - reached goal in November
Average 2 pounds per week
2) -50 (178) December 31 - Reached on Dec 21! Just over 6 months. Average 8.3 per month.
3) Down to 169 - an overweight BMI, rather than obese! By January 31. - Reached on 2/2
***valentines day challenge- 164.2- not met - 168.2):
4) 150 (-78) - April 30.
5) 140 (-88) - July 6
6) 130!!!! (-98) August 19 ----WEDDING!!!
old -50 (178) by October 15th. About 15 pounds per month.
old- Doctor Goal -78 (150) by Christmas vacation around Dec. 14. Average of 11 pounds per month.
old -Personal goal -88 (140) by summer 07 - birthday.
Of course all of these are the super best case scenario...but....
Also, weekly goals
4 walks
2 bike rides (at least 30 minutes)
Lift weights at least once ):
10-15-07 - 173.4
goal- 11/15/07 - 165
goal 12/15/07 - 159
1-6-09 - 185.2
goal 2/6/09 - 175.2
goal 10/6/09 - 145 (40 - avg. 5 per month)
Its been a long time since my last entry so we have a lot of catching up to do. After my last fill nothing really happened except work became a lot quiter and I had a shitfight with a dickhead at work. So I ate. We then went on holiday.... so I ate some more. I went back up to 104 before my next fill which was last week. Needless to say the doctor was disapointed but I told her that I could easily eat a 3 course meal. She gave me another .6ml bringing me to 3.1 ml and asked me to drink some water. I drank it without any trouble at all and she said that it is unusal for someone with as much fill as I now have. She concluded that I must have a small stomoch (you wouldn't know it) and/or my stomach wall is thinner than the average resulting in the band not giving me the expected restriction. The solution was to be a bit more agressive with the fills. I have to go back in 2 weeks for a another go.
Since the fill I have noticed quite a bit more restriction. The first couple of meals after the fill I had to bring some food up. The message is clearly that I need to slow down. I now think I know why people say they can no longer eat certain food like bread. Up until this week I have not had trouble with any food really.
Anyway, the day after the fill I had a god almightly migrane and ended up in hospital. I didnt realise that the band would virtually stop me from vomiting. It was very stressful not being able to bring anything up. For the next two days I felt sick and even more restricted which I guess was from the swelling from the vomiting.
I have just taken some measurments:
Weight 100.9kg
bust: 112cm
waist: 105cm
Hip: 129
O.k... that funk didn't last too long... I am back to positive and feeling great about my loss.
I finally (after alot of tinkering) have discovered that it takes me eating less than 1000 calories a day to lose. I also have to have a solid workout at least 6 days a week.
I lost the weight that I had gained last weekend from the little bit of cheating that I did at the casino...
I know that I still am coming up way short on my loss, but today i realized that I haven't weighted this "little" in about 8 months! I actually reached my mini goals of doing the intermediate level aerobics, AND I got to get some bins of clothes out of the attic and I can fit into the size 18 jeans! Yeah!
I'm sore that true. By port incision is the sorest. I can tell that I still have gas, my tummy is extended.
I did have a BM today though.
I also had yogurt. It was good to have something other then jello, protein or water. I've also had about 15 fish crackers through out the day.
I'm going to the movies w/Steph and her kids to get away. My kids have been just bored and bothering each other and I need out and DH sees this. He's the one that called her for me.
Ok it's fucken hot and I need to get away from the computer.
Ok, so I guess that adding more food to my diet really didnt work...Well, it did get 1 pound off but that was about it...So I am just flat out going to give up on my hopes of losing anything else until my first fill...I have really high hopes for after my fill tho...I am just wanting more to happen alot quicker than it is...I know, my weight didnt come on over night and it wont go away over night....I just need to work on keeping the right mind set for the next few weeks before my fill...Its really depressing tho
Boy, I am sick of not losing! Got down to 212 in May, been between 214-221 ever since! I know it is my own fault because of poor food choices and lack of sufficient exercise, but I can think of a million excuses why I haven't been doing the right thing!
What do I do to find that initial motivation..? I am right back to the mindset I had before surgery - I'll do good today, but then by lunch I've gone and screwed up again!!!!!
Well, nothing else to do but try, try again...
New measurements as of July 15th
Weight - 215 (-51.5/surgery)
Neck - 15.25 (-1.25/Jan.7)
Upper chest - 42.75
Chest - (no bra, largest area)- 45.5 (-4.5/Feb.27)
Rib cage - 39.75
Waist 1 - (big pooch #1)- 44.75
Waist 2 - (at navel) - 43 (-3.5/Jan.7)
Waist 3 - (pooch #2) - 46
Hips - 44.25 (-4.75/Jan.7)
Thigh - 25 (-2/Feb.27)
Calf - 16.75 (-1.25/Feb.27)
Upper Arm - 12.75 (-1.75/Feb.27)
Wrist - 6.75 (-.75/Feb.27)
Pounds lost - 51.5
Recorded inches lost - (-19.75)
(forgot to measure prior to surgery!!!)
12/5/05 - Dr. Les Miles - B'Ham, AL
Filled to 2.5/10cc Inamed Band
Goals 1,2, & 3 - priceless!!
4th mini-goal - oh, well...win some,lose some
5th mini-goal - no weight gain this month?
Labor Day Goal
Life Goal: 150 (maybe)
Well I went in today for my first fill and the doctor was unable to access my port. After what seemed forever, he decided to do it on monday with a x-ray machine. I was so upset that I didn't get my fill. I have been looking forward to this for a while now. I was very depressed when I left the drs office.
But hey on a brighter side......... It has been 6 weeks and two days since surgery and I have lost a total of 30.6 pounds. YEAH!!! Today I wore the same clothes I wore on my Pre surgery appointment and I can pull them off without having to unbutton them. Everyone in the office got a big kick out of that. They told me I should buy some new clothes. HA!
Okay the Pulmonary Doc called today to discuss the outcome of my sleep apnea test 10 MINUTES BEFORE I GOT HOME TODAY....do you think any of my family members told me!!! No, I found out at 5:45pm......he called at 3:30pm...now ya know had they told me, I could have actually spoke to him and then called my surgeon to discuss my surgery date!!!!!! Agghhh they are all fired at my house.....no more message takers, they are slacking on me!:help: So now i have to wait till Monday and ya know I am gonna have to talk to nurse-zilla..........ugh shoot me now please:laser: :Cry: ....lol.
:eek:
To get even with my family i made sad "poopy" face for the rest of the day...lol :Banane20:
Okay that was enough whining :faint: for now ......gonna go do my spanish homework. :ranger:
OK...so maybe I am getting older and weirder (as if it were possible...the weirder part....getting older is a given unless you are a vampire...). I SWEAR the older I get (I know, I said it already, and no, I am not 80 and senile!), the more things I find I cannot eat without really bad effects on my body. So, anyway, I have learned that nuts make me have to RUN for the bathroom. So do eggs. NO! I am not talking about run to hide...I mean that eating them makes me sick as a dog and it is either get to the potty or hire a maid! :eek: Now I am finding out that dairy does it to me too! Tonight, I made a strawberry smoothy with lots of milk...something I rarely drink....and I got so sick! Oh wait!!!!
Sorry....detour...... Maybe if I live long enough, I will become allergic to every kind of food and A. Not be able to eat them anymore, or B. get such severe diarrhea every time I eat them that I will become skinny from lack of nutrition..... <<<<<<<
OK, OK.....Not realistic. Back to my story. Wait....what was my story? $HIT! I forgot...... Maybe it is this getting older thing..... (kidding, it was supposed to be a joke about being senile.....anyone get it?)
Anyway, truly, I am now starting to think about all the things I CAN have when I am banded...especially the liquid phase. Now tell me.....is this a good thing? For example, is this a sign of me mentally preparing myself and planning ahead. Or, is this bad....An example of my really horrible subconscious preoccupation with food? Maybe I am thinking too hard...
Maybe I am getting older.....Did I already say that??? :nervous
All right enough of that....
Anyway...what really happened today? Well, I tried to call my insurance company to see if they cover the surgery. Apparently I have to call a toll number (5 euro cents a minute) and speak to someone to get the answer. Problem? Yes, you can only call from 9-5. I work from about 8:30 to 6 and don't really want to be discussing my business in earshot of all of my colleagues. Stupid Dutch lack of service! And they make you PAY to call them! Anyway, I am going to have to go in late on Monday to call them. After they say yes or no, I decide whether to upgrade my policy or get on with my next step. Either way, once I get that info, I will then call and make an appointment at a clinic about an hour from here. Hubby has agreed to go with me, and says don;t worry about money, we will just pay it outright if I want it. Nice huh? I am also researching other places I can have this done..... So, I am seriously putting one foot ahead of the other.....And, I am having DREAMS of being skinny again.....
Bikinis, short shorts, sexy lingerie.........HERE I COME!!!!!!!!! I think I might walk around naked the rest of my life if I get back where I wanna be!! Hell, I might join a nudist colony...Wait....now I AM going too far!
OK, outta here....more insanity from the "Weird and Wonderful World of Me-ville" tomorrow......
WOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!! Tenatively my surgery date is August 1st!!! Woo hooo.... although I missed the call from the receptionist. So hopefully we will still have enough time once I get to talk to her on Monday. I have to do a 2 week diet, I am really hoping that is enough time! Keep your fingers crossed for me! Woo hoo!
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So I didn't write yesterday. I was so busy and will be super busy today too. My youngest is having a b-day party this weekend and I am a cleaning mad woman. Then I still have to go shopping, and and good friend is going out the next two nights so I am having a sleep over with three extra kids for two nights... ahhh 6 kids and no sanity!!
10 days left and I will be banded. I have not done so great on my diet here in the last two day but I am keeping up with my workout.
I am so addicted to this board. I have meet some great people and truly believe that my journey will be easier with all the wonderful support I have recieved.
Well I must get busy..
Work out yesterday
45 mins on cross trainer
300 crunches
20 pushups
50 leg lifts
no nite time work out to tired..
DD work out
18 mins on cross trainer
100 crunches
50 jumpin jacks
Are you sitting comfortably? Then I'll begin :biggrin1:
I have been thinking about lots of different things these last few days. My moods have been up and down and kind of non existant which makes for many different thoughts.
I was let down by a friend yesterday. In the whole scheme of life it was no big deal but I was disappointed and a little upset ('cos she didnt even call to say I couldn't visit after all) and suddenly the old demons took this as an opportunity to pay an unexpected visit. How can moods and often consequently eating change so damned suddenly? One minute I'm happy with my piece of chicken and my veg and am contemplating and afternoon at my friends. The next I'm thinking of nibbling anything and everything in the house and going out to find somethings that I don't have in the cupboards...a nice big ice-cream being top of the list. It's ridiculous :eek: to change so quickly. I guess it ultimately shows that maybe the demons will never go away and they live behind a very thin veil in our heads and are willing and happy to visit any chance we give them .
What did I do? Aaah well, you'll be dead proud of me :clap2: I sat for over an hour thinking about food and about why I was thinking about food! I hadn't planned to do any exercise that afternoon because I was going out. So, I pulled on my trainers but couldn't for the life of me muster anything like enthusiasm for walking, aerobics ..nutting! I called another friend and while we were talking it got into my head to walk down to hubby's pharmacy. So I did! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: (thought I deserved them). Now you have to understand that the pharmacy is no easy task...it's not too far and it's all flat or downhill...ahh but it is in Athens! The pavements are narrow and often have cars squished onto them...they are uneven and have these silly trees planted in the middle so I have to duck every ten seconds or walk in the road(I'm way too tall to live here)...which makes my knees hurt 'cos the curb sides are so high to step back onto...Anyway I did it. Used to take me 40mins the last couple of times I tried it. This time it took me 25 which wasn't bad (but maybe am still not as fit as I think I am now). And that was that. Didn't touch a single thing I shouldn't have and had a good walk instead.
I have been thinking about some other things too but I know there's only so much you can take in one sitting so I wont bore you silly (and I'll have none of those.."too late"comments thank you very much!)
:biggrin1: Did I say I'm happy....I am waiting for a pork chop to go down but I am happy. My restriction may not be what it use to be but it let's me know it is still there. My silly butt tried to eat a wendys burger with one bun, uhhhh that didn't work. I give up, where is the soup, salad and ground turkey?
I have not exercised since Monday, that is not good. I have no excuse not to walk this evening sooooooo I will and of course Sat and Sun morning.:eek:
Ok lunch was a lean cuisine and that restriciton is still there, just when I thought it was gone.
Okay so first I get the bloodwork done locally (it was faster). Then came the nutritionist, then the psych eval....lol I am a psych major--I interviewed myself several times already.....didn't they know that???....LOL:lalala:
on the 30th of May I had all the other fun stuff done...xrays, ultrasounds...drinking that puky stuff so they could xray me again:spit: .
Next stop....pulmonary specialist to make sure I do not have sleep apnea :sleep . Omg Nurse-zilla and her faithful followers work in the NJ office!!! What a twit, I try to arrange the test after the doc swore to me that he would speed me thru and get me a bed in the next day or two......yeah they gave me an appt 5 weeks later!!!!!!! Then i called around to get a better deal...same sleep center company just a different location and one I knew for sure was covered by my insurance---and Nurse-zilla had a fit. Hello-----its my right as a patient to make sure I am getting the best medical attention I can!!!!!! :heh: Ugh I was sooo mad...she had the nerve to tell me that getting an appt quicker would not get my surgery quicker...omg did she even hear what she was saying??? My surgeon told me the faster the test, the quicker i get my surgery date!!!! But no, I was nice to Nurse-zilla because I figured she had something I needed----I will bitch slap her later!!!!:devious So after a week of "convincing" her i get my appt....I did the sleep apnea test :notagree on July 2nd.
This Tuesday, I get the results from the doc. (If I am lucky -nurse-zilla will be on vacation).
Getting so excited now.
My PCP's office called today. They are mailing my letter of medical necessity to both insurance companies. Yeahhhh! Now I am waiting for my endocrinologist to do the same. Wait, Wait, Wait... Worked out for 2 hours at the gym today - man, am I sore.
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Okay so as previously stated, I decided in April (2006) to do something about it (the dreaded pounds). I called my sister and asked her about her surgeon. She told me how to look him up online. I did:paranoid . I found his webinar. I tried to register online but they were having problems so I called him. I decided to at least go see the doc and see what he had to say :paranoid. Oh did I mention that I watched that webinar four times!!!:success1: ?? Yeah I wanted to know exactly what I was getting into :eek: .
I decided on lapband surgery, it seems safer...just better all around. Plus recovery time is faster which is for me as I cannot miss too much school! And the weight loss is slower which is great for me also because I cannot afford to have surgery to remove excess skin :Banane20: . I called my husbands insurance to see if the doc and the procedure was covered...OMG it is:clap2: !!!!
My first appt was April 24th... I was so excited!
The doc said I was the perfect candidate...not too too heavy, no co-morbidities, and my age. so excited!! Gotta do the tests...no problem I'd do what ever they wanted to get this done. (the doc was impressed that I watched his webinar 4 times...lol)
One Day in April (2006) I decided that this weight gain has gone too far. I hated feeling "sick" all the time. I def do not feel my age, and didn't want to look older than my age. My sister had gastric bypass surgery done 4 years ago. I was a huge supporter of this as I do not want to see her die young (she is younger than me).:faint: At the time I was no where near the weight you have to be to have WLS.:eek: Last year I went to Europe with my oldest daughter for two weeks...we literally "walked" europe. I came home 17 lbs lighter:D , I vowed the weight would not come back. I lied. :phanvan It not only came back, it brought 30 of it's friends with it......ugh:cry . Oh I didn't mention that I am not a big snack-attacker....I am a full-time student whose husband cooks like a gourmet and I am at his mercy at dinnertime:hungry: . I also have three kids, three dogs, two cats....busy house.
i went and got my band tighn today and ive lose some wieght i was 344 the last time i got a fill wich was about 2 month age now in 329 not bad but i need more i will keep working on the wieght lose can't eat nothing but that cool food is not my freind its my emeines
So I went to the Diebetes training.... Learned nothing...LOL a great 9 hours well spent! But the dietician wants me on 1600 cals a day...uhuh WHATEVA!!!! But I got my drugs too so feelin great... Been walkin, and History is still kickin my bum....UUUG and I have been looking into the political nightmare that has become of our country...LOL extra credit from my "pointy headed liberal teacher" She calls herself that, and I love her. But come on!!!!! How evil is it to ruin a womans CIA career cuz your mad that her husband disagrees with your opinion??? I still have not wieghed... I will try tomarrow since I have to go down there to sign some release to get my fricken paycheck that was from MARCH!!!!! LMAO I need a great lawyer!!!!
Ok...I am lying..It isn't day one. It's really more like WEEK ONE...... I have had in my head for weeks my trip to the US back in April. I had not seen my best friend in a year and a half. We were talking about my weight ( a topic sandwiched somewhere between upcoming Jazz Fests and world politics) and she said, "You know, they do weight loss surgery laproscopically these days and it's not very risky."
Now, had this come from any of the other billions of people inhabiting this planet, I would have smiled, walked away very annoyed, muttering foul names under my breath and never spoken to them again. But, we share a rare sort of honesty we know is always tempered with the most amazing love, loyalty and respect...a once in a lifetime friendship. Instead of doing what I MIGHT have done, I walked away feeling sad that my friend was so obviously disturbed and worried about my weight........
So, I went and had a nice Mexican meal...most probably washed down with a pitcher of margaritas.....Didn't help my weight, but sure was yummy!
After returning home, I tried to forget the whole thing....Then a week ago, I had a dream about having "stomach stapling". That morning, completely unsolicited, my next door neighbor told me about our former neighbor who got "banded." Well, hey...God doesn't need to hit me in the head with a brick. I could see the signs...Thanks God!
I began my internet search and found myself here...among fellow wannabes and brave already banded LAPers!
Now, less than a week into this thought process, I am having epiphanies all over the place and imagining unleashing this thin girl I have inside me. My husband started out with a typical man response...Why don't you just work out more...They DO like to have all the answers, don't they? Now, I have him calling the insurance company for me (we are in the Netherlands, and although I can speak in Dutch, I am afraid I will end up in an Austrian hospital with a vasectomy if I try to discuss the ins and outs in Dutch.) He has also offered to go with me anywhere I need to go for appointments. And, he said if I want it, I have to do it....Pretty good progress for a few days. maybe after I am banded, he can eat all the goodies I am missing and I can live vicariously through him! :-)
Anyway, I am wrapping my mind around the whole idea of a foreign object inside me. (As if it is the FIRST thing foreign inside me...but that was when I was single...hahahahahaha :heh: ) Ok...enough about my sexlife.....
WAIT...NO! Back to my sexlife...I am also imagining me in my old corsets and things......waaaaaaaaaay back when I actually looked sexy in them! And, it would be nice to make love and not lie there in terror that my stomach was going to be touched at some point..... Anyone relating...Yeah, I bet!! Man would I love to hit forty looking HOT!!!!!! Forty and Fabulous sounds like a goal I can live with!!! Better get started..I only have three years......
Heading off now to get some beauty sleep...Wouldn't it be nice if sleep made you thin too??? I think I would have to be Sleeping Beauty...........Rip Van Winkle......you get the drift.....
Ugh...I was told yesterday, absolutely, positively the nurse would be calling me back to give me a date on my surgery. By 4 pm I was nervous, so I called them.
The nurse for the 3rd day in a row "forgot" to put my file in front of the dr. to get final ok. Now I have to wait for her to remember to do it tommorw and get a call next week. I know good things come to those who wait, but I do not do well with incompetence. She giggled and didn't even apologize, like it is funny.....grrrrrr.....
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So today is July 13th, and I had another appointment with Dr. Hess and with Wendy as well. I had lost another 14 lbs since I was last there on June 1st, a total of 34 since surgery and 50lbs since my first appointment with Dr. H back on January 10th.
The appointment went well, I've lost around 31% of my excess body weight since surgery and the average person looses %40 one year post-op, so I'm way above that. Dr. Hess was very happy with me and thrilled with my loss - I'm such a "teachers pet" at times. We got my blood drawn today so they will make sure everything is all set, that I'm getting all the nutrients that I need etc. So that's good. My next appointment is in two months on Sept. 7th, but he said that if at anytime before then I feel as though I need a fill, that I can come in anytime, but that there really is no need to get one at this point. I'm still loosing at a good rate, and I don't want to mess with a good thing.
So I found out Dr. Hess lives on St. Botolph Street - 195 I think he said, which is really close to my old apartment, which is so funny. He said he's lived there about 4 years so we were neighbors for a couple of years, which cracks me up.
Then when I was leaving, Tony stopped me and said that he had said to Dr. H that I was looking so great, that he was going to have to ask me to marry him…and Dr. H replied, “Oh Tony, she’s out of your league”. So cute, that cracked me up.
Okay so new goals:
Get below 200 by my next appointment with Dr. Hess in 8 weeks
Make a commitment to go to the gym AT LEAST 3 times per week
Only give in to ONE sweet craving per week
Stop eating when I start to feel full – no matter what
Okay, that’s good for now
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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