Barb said something today that made me realize I need to journal activity and food. If we don't, how will we know what tirggers problems?
AM
Coffee with coffeemate and l/2T raw sugar 35
Slimfast 190
Yogurt Activia Blueberry 90
Tea with peach flavor 0:biggrin1:
Bite of mango 5
I just had an epiphany.....I have lost 73 pounds. I need to lose 2 pounds to have 75 pounds gone forever. This is 25 pounds away from 100 pounds gone. :faint:
-.73
-..2
=75
+25
100
I need to lose 27 pounds to have lost 100 pounds. I will then weigh 359... I did not realize how close I was. OMGoodieness [/b]:emoticon(':ele')"][/b]:emoticon(':ele')"][/b]:emoticon(':ele')"]
459-386-359-250
Ok so thankfully my down moods don't last very long and yesterday I was much better and today I'm positively chipper!
I can't do anything about my now rapidly thinning hair...along the top and the crown is worst. I look like I have an extra wide parting if that makes sense but careful, gentle brushing can cover up the worst of it. It must have been happening gradually cos it was hubby who noticed it and I havent been losing lots of hair in one go so to speak. So anyway, I've got some pills and some shampoo (they have different names here) and I'll continue to do the best I know how to do.
Same goes for my weightloss really. It has to drop at some point, there's no logic in it not doing:confused: I've added an extra protein shake to my diet each day and this adds 20g of protein and 200cals so does 2 jobs.
I have begun to do an aerobics dvd I have. I was chuffed cos I used to only be able to do a few mins but now I can do the 15min warm up and a bit more. I want to build it up slowly simply cos of fear for my knees but so far so good and it's a different kind of exercise from treadmill so should be good. Dunno how long it will be before I can do the whole thing LOL...one step at a time folks!
Think hubby is feeling sorry for me 'cos he's volunteered to take me for a day out on Saturday. We still haven't decided where we are going but a trip is a trip is a trip! We might get to see our 'cumbara'- Greek for best man and his wife and then go into Nafplio which is a town I love..we'll see.
Swimming is now gonna be Tues or Wed each week cos it was nicer and quieter...probably Wednesday now.
That's all really. It was J's dad and son's name day yesterday because they are both called illias and today is his dad's birthday too. The family have come to eat Moussaka but I have been excused attending on account of it's too carb based and not good for my sugar. I ate cold pork from last night and peas.
On a final note...my sugar levels this week have been perfect and I havent needed insulin...we are going to chat with doc about it tonight cos sometimes it still rises but this week its been in 80's when I wake and no more than 120 all day. In 7yrs being diabetic it has never ever been so good.:clap2:
Well by the looks of it it looks as if I have lost about 2 1/2 lbs this week...I guess the extra work outs are paying off...I hate to give an exact total cuz my scales read different from the drs...But just as long as mine are going down I can tell that I am losing something....So I will update my loss after my appt on August 4th for my fill...Its always depressing if I figure out my loss at home then go to the dr and there is always like a 4-5 lb difference...But the scales are moving and I have never been happier...I have learned to not weigh in as soon as you get up in the morning, takes about an hour before you weight settles down so you can get a correct weigh in...But I am excited...As far as the bleeding its still there...yesterday it was even a dark brown(barely enough to see when you wipe), which usually means basically used blood from somewhere and then again today its back to a semi sorta red so I am a little concerned that i might have something else going on, but I have that appt with the ob on Thursday and will get it worked out one way or another...But on the weight, so far so good!!
So it's official...I have sleep apnea...and I haven't slept since I found out...only catnapping since. UGH. At this point, I am not even thinking about the lapband...I just want to sleep. I have checked out the horrors of sleep apnea...double ugh! I went to the sleep apnea online support site...not as user friendly as LBT..boo-hoo.
Anyway, Tuesday is when I get fitted for my lovely "headress"..hey maybe I can glue feathers on it...LOL :whoo:
I laid on the couch :couch2:the other night to relax...all alone in the livingroom...and my throat closes...OMG...sat bolt upright...told myself to relax and I'd be okay....hmmm not! Went to the kitchen to get cold water from the cooler...took a sip, and the swelling went down! Yay! Luckily that was the only time that has happened to me.....but honestly I do find myself holding my breath a lot...esp when I am driving...Its comical when I think about it...I'll be driving along:car: and start to feel faint...and I am thinking...crap what is this about...then I realize..."Dummy, you are holding your breath!!!!! I take a breath and immediatly feel better. :drama: ugh the drama!!
Just a few days on the 2 week pre surgery diet and I have lost 10 lbs. That rocks. I must say that is the ONLY bright spot in the diet. I hate the protien shakes. I can't stand the fruit drink. BUT the weight loss makes it all worth wild.
GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :faint:
:clap2: Ok, so I called the College Station Medical center, I went there back a few years ago to see a dietician. I forgot all about it!!! Though it was back in 2001. So I wonder if it was to long ago to be able to submit now...5 years later?!?
I called and left a voicemail with the nurse who is handling my file, to see if it would be ok to submit...or if I needed to see yet another dietician. ???
Now I wait, AGAIN. I hate this waiting, its for the birds. lol.
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I dont even think that will be enough sad smilies to express how im feeling. GRRRR. Well, I called AGAIN today to Great West to see if I have been approved or denied. The nurse Marilyn said that I need 2 more things to add to my file of 22 pages!!!!
1) I need the 6 month dietary eval.
2) I need to see a Dietician--Im not even sure if thats spelled correctly because Ive never seen one. GRRRRRR.
So more of a delay on this surgery. So damn depressing. :Cry:
So now I have to make yet another appointment and see yet another person to talk about how fat I am. Great. This really makes my frickin day.
BLAH.
I finally admitted to myself that I need to take a drastic measure...dieting, pills, exercising, even...vomiting, restricting eating...does not work for me. :faint:
I am not sure how I have managed this...but I have been lying to myself about my health, my weight, my looks. I would think to myself...it isnt that bad...but I knew deep down what was really going on... I need help. I need help to overcome my weight physically and emotionally.
I have seen the commercials for lapband, even talked to a few friends about it, and sigh* even have had a coworker suggest it for me...
I am teacher and so I have the summer off...the summer off to better myself? exercise? Or sit around and think...mostly negative thoughts and then one day I had a good though, why dont I call up L.A. weightloss? Yeah...that didnt work for me either...I did give it an honest try, but to no avail. :phanvan
I am scared. I am scared of my negative thoughts, of failing, of people not being supportive, of surgery, of failing...
I need to make a change, I need to be healthy, and happier.
And so I began my weightloss journy through surgery a few weeks ago. I signed up to receive a packet of info. about WLS, specifically the lapband, and then entered all of my "patient" info. on their internet database. Some of the questions they wanted answers too...such as why do you eat? have you been in an abusive relationship? what are you worried about? are too difficult to answer in a text box. I strugged through it, even shed a few tears, but I made it. I have now signed up for the mandatory seminar about the lapband that is given by the surgeon, and will begin to make the numerous appointments with the numerous specialists.
I hope that me detailing my journey helps those who read it as much as you all here have helped me, without even knowing me...Thank you.
I scheduled surgery yesterday with Dr. Ortiz in Mexico. I'm scheduled for Aug. 16th. I booked airline tickets for me and hubby last night after work. I paid my deposit. There is no turning back now!
Since I need to lose 10lbs before the surgery date, I figured I might as well get started so today I'm reverting back to Atkins low carb eating.
Much to my suprise I was told you can't smoke 2 weeks before the surgery. GREAT! Quit smoking AND lose 10 lbs. I guess if I'm going to quit, this is the best time since my focus is on weight LOSS at the same time. I did warn my hubby that I might be bitchy though!
I'm feeling scared, a little Foggy - like "I'm just moving forward" can't over think it. I know it'll be a great decision and I have to trust my instinct. I'm sad thinking of the foods I won't be able to enjoy - like those flaky dinner rolls that come in a can.....
I weighed yesterday. I'm at a whopping 255. I HATE that, but I can rest assured this will be my highest weight and I'm never going back there!
Got on scales and weight is moving again. It was stuck for a while. I lost 10, then gained back 3, then lost 4 so now I am down 11 lbs. I go for my first fill today!
I am a tiny bit down because of life stresses. The decisions, bills, work, children,food. This too shall pass but right now I want some major food to eat right now.
I didn't eat, I got a slimfast....yeahhhhhh me. Food is not going to make the situation better.
[/b]:emoticon(':ele')"]Ok, starting Monday I have really been working my butt off!!! I still have been doing my 30 minutes but I have been really working hard at picking up the pace and going alot faster than I had been before...I had a hard time at first but I am actually making it thru it without a problem now and am sweating up a storm!!! I really think that it will make a big difference...My legs are feeling crampy and noodly so I can really feel the change...Will weigh in on Friday and see what I have accomplished...I am crossing my fingers
OMG; this morning at 4:30 am I awoke in a sweat & a bad tmmy ache. I got up and took some tumms and felt better instantly. But I found that I was very pale and very wet.
I've called the nurse & she needs to speak to the doctor first.
I'm doing half protein and mushy food. I started out w/yogurt 3 days ago (good), black beens w/cheese, fishsticks & taquettos (2 ea.), and mashed potatos last night. Oh ya somewhere int here I've had cottege cheese w/pineapple.
I think I'm doing well. I do get hearburn every now and then but I can't tell if it's from the food or the protein. I need to pay more attention to that.
Bloody awful day...weightloss completely stopped and now to add insult to injury my hair is falling out...
not in mood for writing guys...will tomorrow maybe
So I called Great West yesterday--It had been a week since my paperwork was sent off to them. No word yet, infact, they are just now getting my info into their system. GRRRR. Just my luck. So my package is in the hands of the medical review board, a nurse is currently reviewing everything. So here I am, waiting and waiting and waiting. GRRRR. this is so damn frustrating. I hate waiting for anything. Almost as bad as waiting for Christmas. LOL. ok....well, Ill update with any new news. :biggrin1:
[/b]:emoticon(':door')"]Ok, starting from the day that i got home from surgery i started having my "cycle"...I never have my cycle due to being on the depo shot and havent had one in many years...Well at my follow up i was talking to the surgeon about it and he recommended a cbc test for my blood count and said that it was due to losing alot of weight so fast in the beginning and to do a follow up with my ob...Well i guess that scared it and it stopped...So i never felt the reason to go in for the cbc testing...Well low and behold it started again today so i scheduled an appt with my ob for next Thursday...I am hoping that he can do a miracle and make this dang thing stop :angry ..Due to it coming back again when i am at a stand still on my weight loss kinda does away with my surgeons excuse so maybe the ob will have something different to tell me!!
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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