:funscale:Well I finally got off all the weight I had gained over the past weekend and now am back where I started from....Still working on getting past that point and hopefully can do it before I go in on Friday for my fill...I want to have a big change from my last drs appointment...I know I can do it, its just having the right frame of mind 24/7 and thats really hard...Yes I treat myself to something special atleast once a week and spend the most of the next week trying to get back to where I was, but atleast I know that I can do it...After my first fill on Friday I am expecting quite a bit of a change and hopefully can get over the hurdle and start losing more than I have been...I know I can do it, its just I dont have that extra umph right now
2 pound gain and I am not happy. Going in the wrong direction. PMS is an excuse, mother nature is not funny.
60 May
25 June
39 July
50 August
459-389
I have got to get more walking in.....the weather is just not conducive to going out to walk. I'll get it.
I *&%$#*( *#$
Okay so I cleaned out the car yesterday morning at 3am (see yesterdays journal) I stayed up longer and read those damn memorials that you see on OH.com........omg what was I thinking.....had a semi-bummer day because of it. Got me really thinking about the whole banding thing. I do realize most of those people who passed had a huge bmi and many co-morbidities....but it still makes ya wonder. One girl was in her 20's ...i forget her exact cause of death......but she must have had a vision or something (and I do believe in them from personal experience) she wrote a goodbye letter ...omg...she said goodbye to everyone .....and bam...she never came out of recovery!! There were a few who died of clots, but then again they had pretty high bmi's. One woman was incredibly heavy...waiting for approval...heart attack in her sleep---this is what I don't want, hence the idea to get banded. The truth be told about me....I am 100 lbs overweight....but I have not been heavy for too long. The real weight has only been a problem for the last hmmm...10 months. And, my weight is not all over...its my butt and my stomach....oh yeah and my legs....I can feel my ribs from the side....I have a waistline. Maybe this is why I am suddenly freaked out by all this. I also tried on my "monkey suit" that I will be wearing home from the hosp. well, I tried on my sister's suit, Mom is making one for me so I am comfy after surgery and I don't have to worry about the bra thing because its a one piece with a tank style top....totally spandex and extremely comfy..I will wear a plain t-shirt over it ...ahhhh i can still feel how good it felt to try it on. I tried it on so mom will know what size to make me. (same size -yea!) So maybe that is my whole issue, do I feel like I don't deserve the band? Maybe I should try harder to do this myself?? I have completely filled my obligation for surgery.....I just need the date from the doc......I have nothing holding me back...no more excuses. I have had surgery before 3-c's and a back surgery....and a few "lady procedures" that required being knocked out. I can do this....this should be easy. I have dieted many times before..lol back when i only had 25 lbs to lose.....i know the taste of diet food, there fore I have suffered. I say this because i know people who "just can't handle the taste" and I think, yeah, you have never truly suffered as a dieter...lol. I am not changing my mind about surgery. And frankly I am surprised at myself for even having these feeling (I am a control freak...sadly) Hmmm here is a thought....maybe I am just overtired!!!! (notice the time again!!) I just want to sleep! I want to be normal!
On an upbeat note....I think i have mentioned that I have been sleeping on the couch because of my snoring and hubby is roofing and I don't want him to fall off the roof because my snoring has kept him from sleeping....well he told me yesterday that he wakes up every morning at 3am...he used to think it was me that woke him up.....but guess what I am not there....so yay for me I can go back to bed and feel semi-normal again! I will spend tonight as my last night on the couch because my 9 year old is on the other couch (too hot in her room) and I don't want to leave her alone out here. And if I go to bed now I risk waking him up trying to get into bed...we have a freakishly tall bed comes up to my belly...I am 5'6" (which i realize is not giant but I just want to say that its not like I am 4'11") Its so nice to have a journel to vent on! I have not told anyone in my everyday life any of this stuff, so its nice I can "share" online. Wow I am actually feeling sleepy now.....gonna hurry up and put my p.j.'s on! :clap2: wish me luck!
Not much to report today. I am definitely sick of the Jello. I think I must be going through Chick-fil-a withdrawal or something. My stomach has felt out of whack all day. Mild nausea (especially when I had some Jello:rolleyes: ) and it feels kind of crampy. Nothing bad, just uncomfortable. I'll be so, so glad when I graduate to mushies.
I'm going up to airport tomorrow to pick up my nursemaid for the week after surgery. My aunt is coming in for a whole week. I hope it is entirely
unnecessary.
Yesterday I went for my consultation with Dr. Cobourn in Mississaga. Much to my surprise I was booked for surgery next Friday. I am excited and nervous. Last night I could not sleep for thinking about the consent form I needed to sign. It was kind of scary, thinking of what "could" happen during the surgery. This is on my mind. I will be glad when the time comes and the surgery is completed. Did any one else feel like this?
Shirley
It's August 1. This is the day I said I would quit smoking. I was going to like 2 weeks ago, but changed my mind. I hafta quit no matter what, but it is like 2 days before the Dr. said...I figured the 1st was an easy day to keep track of....So I'm smoke free. Taking it one minute at a time.
I still haven't lost any more weight - other than the 6 lbs. That worries me - in an off handed way. I want to lose at least the 10 the DR. said to - and any more would be "cherries on top".
I'm following the Atkins diet, but I think I'm munching more than I should - its that whole "this will be the last I'm going to have in a while". So even though I am staying low carb, I'm eating too often. To solve that, I'm at work with 2 Atkins shakes - its almost 2:00 and I'm not hungry and I don't have a headache, so that is a good sign.
Didn't walk yesterday, but did do 1/2 mile the day before. Flat at 3.0 MPH. I was in a hurry, so didn't do the mile.
I'm still trying to figure out what - other than SF Jello and broth - qualifies as clear liquid, but I guess the Nutritionist will let me know for sure....
10:00 p.m. Update so I keep track. I walked just over 1.25 miles at an average of 3 MPH. I added an incline the last quarter mile, but only 1%. Walked for ALMOST 30 mins including warm up and cool down. Also pure honesty and accountability, I came home and ended up having 2 and a half cigarettes. Shit! I have this 2 day buffer, but I really wish DH didn't smoke - if they weren't here, I wouldn't have cheated!
Well, I didn't get up early enough to make a decent breakfast, then I made it to lunch and wanted to order some soup from a chinese place, and ended up ordering mongolian beef. I didn't eat more than 4 bites of the rice though only good thing. I did eat egg roll. Not good. Anyway, will try to flush it down. Will work on tomorrow. 13 days till surgery.
I got my resutls from Chris yesterday, before I became a raving lunatic.
7/21 299
7/22 292
7/23 171
7/25 61.2
So, I'm not surprised that I felt so horrible when I dropped. I had a drop of 230 in a matter of days. I have no doubt that I dropped further than that.
I am still working out when I'm High. I thought I had figured this out perfectly, but as it turns out, I apperently get really 'roid ragy *just* after I peaked.
Previously I've been testing just one day, when I felt I was at my highest, when I was at my most crazy pissed-off lunatic. If this last testing phase holds true, where I tested for several days starting when I thought I was entering my High, then I should be testing before I think I'm High, I should start testing when I'm swinging High.
It might be that when you think you are swinging you are actually higher, and when you think you are high, you are dealing with the flood of cortisol in your system.
Just a thought anyway. But I also have heard other cyclical cushies say that the thought they were low when they were high.
I really think the only way to know when you are where is to test. If nothing else, it gives you a baseline so that you know that when you feel X, your numbers are probably within Y range.
Now, as to being a lunatic yesterday. Holy meth-addict Batman!
Yesterday morning I still felt really bad, nausious, back hurting like a mutha-fucker. I spent all weekend sucking down phenegrin and vicodin. Well, not so much the pain killers, just power through that pain, but then it got the point of am I nausious because of the pain, or am in in pain from the nausia? That didn't make any sense, how could one be in pain from the nausia, so I figured the pain was making things worse. Anyway. I felt like dog-pooh all weekend. Friday was really bad because I felt like I had my HIGH and Low both together. I felt so bad no WoW for me!
I did manage some PvP in the battle grounds, I lost my Blood Guard rank with Palan, and I really need to work on getting my tier 1 Beastmaster kit. But I ran some lowbies through some dungeons to help them with their quests. Mike was amazed that I was able to one-shot just about everything in the Wailing Caverns. I really want to both work on my Beastmaster Kit, but I also want to drag Karada up so we can do instances together again, where we both will get benifit. :clap2:
Ohh, nothing like a little ADD thrown in the mix! Okay, back to yesterday. ... I felt crappy all morning, then about noon I started to feel better, then by 1 or 2 in the afternoon I felt GREAT! I mean, really, really good. I had lots of energy, but by 3... I started feeling like I had almost too much energy, if that was possible. Like I'd had 2 or 3 Red Bulls one right after another.
Time seemed to dialate, like I was moving faster than everything around me. I tried to type out something on my Cushing's board, to see if anyone had similar symptoms, but I couldn't type, my fingers were moving too fast, and it was just ... wrong. I had way more energy than I should have.
I went for a super fast walk around the block, I was almost running, but power walking for sure. Then I started in on the yard work again. Then I made my son get the presure washer out and move it so I could pressure wash the front and side walk ways. I was completely out of control.
I crashed out for a couple of hours, until about 8pm, and then was up for several more hours. I went to bed about 1:am, but I was still buzzing. I didnt' want to get up because Iwas enjoying snuggling with Mike. I missed him while I was sleeping outside.
Let's have this colour for August shall we?
Where does the time go? Summer is wending it's merry way and before we all know it, it'll be time for those leaves to change their colours and begin to fall. I have just less than 2mths to my 6mths since my operation. Things are going well but they could be even better. I feel like an executive in some state of the art business..."I have targets to meet...deadlines d'you hear!" Well in my case more like lifelines I hope. I am determined for the next two months to work my ass off and be the best I can be...why? Well I have 30lbs to lose for my 100lbs and if I can't make that (I know it's possible...hard but possible) then I want to be as near to it as I can...within licking distance LOL.
How am I going to do this? Welllllllllll...
1. Walking 2x six days a week. I am at just over a mile each time I walk for 30mins and so I need to increase my speed as I go along.
(I am on holiday next week and so it will be at least one hour swimming each day in the pool).
2. No bread. I love my toasted sandwich but am going to forgo it for the sake of 30lbs...
3. More water. I don't do bad with water but I think another half a litre a day will top the balance in my favour.
4. No getting down and depressed if the scale doesnt drop each week. I am finally coming to terms with this happening.
That's about it. No big secret, no big master plan. I'll keep eating what I eat cos it's the right stuff. I may keep a better eye on my portions but not change anything else. And we shall see...
39 miles for July, well I didn't make my 50 but it was more then 25 for May:(
I know what I have to do and I will just do it.[/b]:emoticon(':bunny')"]
Ahhhhh the beginning of a new month....new goal.....50 miles plus.:clap2: :clap2:
I still can't sleep! I took a half of a tylenol PM and was drousy:notagree ...and then I was reading the memorials in ObesityHelp.com....and it woke me right up...ugh this stinks!
I called the pulmonary doc today to see if they got my sleep apnea results so i can get that lovely mask and go on with my life..the first thing out of nurse-zilla's mouth was "it takes two weeks" and i then informed her (with clenching fists) that I know but I was there when it was faxed over to be read! "I'll call you back" was the answer. Someone called later:confused: ...didn't sound like nurse-zilla to tell me that it was being determined what my number was then she said "I don't know what that means" ugh she works with sleep apnea people......was it the cleaning lady they had calling me?? (not to knock the cleaning lady---but this was someone working in an office who should know what she is talking about) I thanked for for taking the time to call me and wished her a lovely day. It will be okay---I need to relax! Oh yeah I told whoever called me that while I wanted to know for surgery....i was more worried about the lack of sleep and wanted to get on with a normal life. (meant nothing to her) oh well.
So I get home from studying Spanish with a friend...only to find a band aid on my husbands head and a huge burn on his face....he fell 7 feet off a ladder...and then all the stuff from the scaffolding fell off and hit him in the head! He has an egg on his head...omg awful. I took a pic with my digital and showed him. I don't know what the cut on his forehead looks like he won't let me see it. I threatened to hit him in the foot so he'd have to see a doc. :angry Stubborn man!!! (but I still love him):hug:
I still need to clean out my van......he works an hour away and the truck doesn't have air condition-well, it did-it broke. I want him to take the van it will be 100 degrees with the feeling like 106 tomorrow!!! This has nothing to do with his boo-boo i had decided it on the way home today.
I was gonna get into pj's and decided since I am wide awake I might as well go out and do it now. My son is still awake too so maybe he'll help..lol I just have to get my school books and two beach chairs out..no biggie.
I am also hungry...very hungry. There are chicken chimichangas in the fridge and the gravitational pull is almost more than I can endure.:omg:
I better get out to the van...he will be up in 2 hours to go to work.
Today is the last day of July. Now beginning tomorrow, the countdown begins. Today I met with the nutritionist Paula, I liked her. She let me taste several protein drinks. I was shocked at how good the Carb Options tastes. But as I have been reviewing this site, many say their nutritionists recommend Carnation Instant Breakfast, I think I will try it. Also, dry milk. I appreciate these options. I did pick up some ice packs today and a few gas x pills. I think I need more. I would like to really be successful on this protein diet prior to surgery. Tomorrow I must take the prescriptions to Dr. Thompson at Kaiser to have them rewritten. I will get them filled before weeks end. I am looking forward to my stomach going down. Right now it sticks out farther than my boobs. I hate it. Anyway, I must prepare further. Be back tomorrow.
Wow, I'm over half way there! The jell-o is good, but I'm starting to get extremely sick of it. I tried some beef broth today just for a change of pace. I decided it wasn't worth eating. It was better than the chicken broth. I guess I'm just not a fan of broth. I've never really been a soup person either. I think Spaghettios was as close I've ever gotten. I can't believe how much I am looking forward to mushies. :hungry: Gimmee some of those grits!!
Okay I deviated from the "doctor-approved" liquid diet today.:phanvan I don't think it was a big bad though. It was watermelon. All told I probably had about 2 cups. Watermelon is mostly water anyway, so I'm hoping that doesn't really count as cheating. My mom grew it herself in her garden and she was just so proud of herself. I couldn't turn it down.
I'm not going to post what I ate (loosely speaking) today. If you want to know, scroll back through the past three days.
I've gone to see Dr. Gornichec. He seemed to be really nice. I also got to meet Janice. She seemed really nice as well.
I got all my materials together and got them to Dr. Gornichec's office. I'm so glad that I mailed my medical requests off way before I saw the doctor. That way the insurance processing seems to be going fast from the get go. No papers to wait on.
Today I got the phone call saying when my psychological is scheduled for and my blood work and x-rays, etc. I sure hope that my insurance company will move this fast as well.
I'll try to remember to post again after each of my appointments this week.
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Hi!
I just got my lap band last Tues in Boston. So far, so good, I guess. I was reading random postings and read someone's who got the band on Fri and went back to work on Mon. Are you ?@#$% kidding me?!? I am doing well, according to my Dr. and not yet driving. I walk everyday, slowly but getting faster. Napped alot at first not much last 2 days. Am I normal? I will post questions about my diet as I would love some cold beverage recipes (I am sick of the heat!). Good luck to everyone!
I feel better now that I put down all the food on paper. I did not walk Friday evening. I got up early to pick up a friend from the airport and of course the flight was late and all I could think about was I'm not walking.....So I went in the terminal and played on the walkway and ran down the escaltor and walked really fast. I did about 1/2 mile in the terminal. I could see myself going to the airport to walk, it was fun. I was all nice and cool in there.
Sunday morning I was ready to go walking. Went to HP did 3 miles at 7:03 and I finished at exactly at 8:03. I can do it in about 5 minutes less then an hour but I normally take 1 whole hour but never more. It was getting hot out by time I was almost finished. I was thanking God for that early morning overcast and fog so the sun was not burning through but then it came out and began to beem for the rest of the day. LOL I went to the track when I left HP but I had to go to the bathroom so I did 1/2 mile. So I got in 3.5 miles. Only 11.5 to go. LOL
Saturday
3 bites of pasta salad 9:30
6 strawberries
pretzle dog, slushy 1pm
checkers burger 1 bun 3pm
chicken/rice
ice cream
Sunday I felt like I was eating allll day, when I look at the whole day it wasn't too terrible.
blueberries, strawberries, yogurt 9am
italian sausage 10:30am
tootsie rols 12
1 bread, 2 cheese, turkey 1:30
grapes, 2 cupcakes 3:30
1/2 burrito 5pm
mashed potato bowl KFC 7pm
I told my husband that "the camera make me look fat" is just what fat people tell themselves to try and make themselves feel better. We had this disucssion after having him take some current "before" photos for my journey. I hate these photos. But I realize its important to have an accurate way to measure my future results!
I'm taking measurements on my left side.
Today at 249 lbs they are as follows:
Upper arm: 16 3/4 in.
Chest: 46 3/4
Waist: 42 3/4
hips: 52
Upper Thigh: 28 1/2
Calf: 17 3/4
I hate those measurements too. :phanvan
I ordered Omnitrition Liquid Vitamins today. They have a better absorption rate and Elaine (step Mom who is an RN) said the people she knows who do well with WLS have all used some form of liquid multivitamin.
Here are my before photos - in my unflattering purple bikini. I'm going to wear this for all my photos - until it starts to fall off me anyway! I think wearing the same thing each time is a good way to really see a difference. Posting them here for the world of LBT to see is daunting, but I feel compelled to share my starting point.
My measurements as of 7-29-06 (day 2 pre-op liquids).
Calf: 17.5 inches Thigh: 26.5 inches Hips: 55.4 inches Waist: 51 inches Bust: 53 inches Bicep: 17 inches
My before pictures as of 7-28-06 (day 1 pre-op liquids).
I think the photos are fairly self-explanatory. My jeans and top are size 24 (edging into a size 26). I also wear 3x.
7-30-06 ~ Chalk up another :clap2: for me. I made it through another day. I haven't cheated at all. Today was my first real willpower/determination test. For her lunch my mom brought home Burger King. I don't care for their hamburgers, but the FRIES!!!:faint: She even left the room and I couldv'e stolen some. But I didn't steal ANY!!! That is major, I deserve at least :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: ! I'm so glad she didn't bring home Chick-fil-a (not that she could on a Sunday), I would've stolen her sandwich.
I took a peek at the scale this afternoon. I shouldn't have, I'm trying not to fall into that trap of weighing myself too often. But I just couldn't resist. It did make me giggle though and that's all I'm going to say until Friday. Friday is my banding day ( :eek: :eek: :eek: ) so Fridays are going to be my official weigh-in day.
Breakfast: apple juice
Lunch: Slimfast choc.
Supper: Slimfast van.
Snack: watermelon jello, Mixed Berry Juice
June -July 2005
I research Different Doctors in the US and the fee for this procedure was out of my limit. I have insurance that does not pay this surgery. I then started to check for Doctors in Mexico.
August 2005
I found Dr Juan Lopez Corvala TJ Mexico his credential and referral were and the fact that he works with Doctors in the states training them im pressed me. I decided to have the surgery done by him and set up my procedure. On the 11th I went for a full day of testing. and meet with Doctors. I was very impressed with the care that I had and the Doctors and nurses were very good.
August 12, 2005
I had surgery done
August 14, 2005
I left to come home feeling pretty good.
August 21,2005
A suture came lose and my wound started to open this began a long process to heal with lots of wound care and Antibiotic. I had a reaction to the antibioic shop and then had to take cortizone shot to stop the rash which lasted about two weeks. During this time I was still nursing the wound. Because I had the surgery in TJ I was not able to have a fill until the wound healed because the Doctor that I had chosen would not touch it with the would open which set me back two four months.
December 17, 2005
I went for my first fill 1cc. I had lost 25lbs since surgery. The Doctor had a hard time finding port.
December 23, 2006
I had no retriction from this and went back a month later . When the Doctor pulled back he found no fuild he said I might have a leak he hard a very hard time finding port lots of sticks. He put something else in port that he said would hopefully stop the leak and now I had 2cc Jan.
March 13, 2006
I still had no restriction and this Doctor didn't want you to return for two months. I called a two months later March and had lost 5 lbs Doctor didn't want to give me a fill because I had lost weight I had to beg he when he drew back this time he said the fill was there. He place .5 in making me at 2.5 cc in a 10.cm inamed still had a very hard time find port.
April-June 2006
I still had no resriction no weight loss. At this time I was very discouraged. So I had decided just to forget the fills for a while. All during this time I could eat almost any and everything I wanted two. I decided in June that I had to find a Doctor that would do fills underf floro. I start researching and found Dr. Hugh Houston that would take pt from TJ Mexico.
July 21, 2006
I am now in two July. I contacted his office and setup an appointment. I went for my fill under floro. Doctor Houston was very hard on me and at the end of the consult he as me if he was to hard and I told him no.. He was very nice He just was up set that I went to TJ and had surgery done. I was so scared I was afraid what might me found a port that had fliped or a leak. Well guess what it was neither it was a swollen esphagus. About five times the normal size. What caused it either over eating or During this time I had to have antibioic for a sinus infection and decongession medication. I did have fuild in my port 2.4 now I have 2.8. I was on liquid for the first week and now I am on processed meat. Dr. Houston told me to be very careful and protect on esphagus.
July 30, 2006
My diet is Protien shake or Yogurt for Breakfast and 3 oz of protien for luch and Supper around 500 to 700 cal a day. I had gain some weith back not much but I am not finally on down swing and I have restriction.. YEA...........
Ha..surprise...fancied pink today
I have had a very quiet weekend and have been pretty housewifey too. I got lots of jobs done that I have been putting off for a while and feel better now they are accomplished.
I have eaten well and done the exercise I planned on doing. This means I had a day off today. I think everyone deserves a day off and I like spending Sunday with hubby doing not a lot.
Not much else has been going on around here. My TOM is due and all today I have been feeling teary and headachy. I guess I should be thankful that I dont have many bad days each month and I know things could be a lot worse. An early night will cure the headache and hopefully tomorrow I'll be much better again and back on that treadmill.
I peeked at weight today and am exactly the same. I wasn't expecting any loss, especially this week and so am not disappointed. I'm becoming much more resigned to my weightloss being in spurts here and there...
Boring one today, sorry if I kept you!
Don't get me wrong my DH is a nice guy however, he totally doesn't undertand what sleep apnea is or the fact that I didn't consiously choose to be fat!!
He thinks I am tired because I am fat...and if I got up and got moving, fat would go away and I would not be tired. Okay and while I agree to this theory, it's just not that easy. He def doesn't want me banded. Too bad... I don't want to be fat anymore. He totally doesn't believe that sleep apnea makes you stop breathing..it does..hence the fact I am not tired because your body wakes up each time you stop breathing. When I sat down to write this, I was very upset, but now I have decided to fight fire with fire. I am gonna wear the apnea mask (as soon as I get it), I am going to have the lap banding......and I am going to lose all the weight and sleep at night, and then...............................I am gonna run him ragged. OMG I will never sit down and I will drag him with me so I can say "what do you think now?" maybe then, he will believe me!!!
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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